never a dull moment --

howdy peeps !

top o' the mornin to ya-

so. guess what? i finally remembered what i wanted to say here yesterday. ugh. damn memory. or lack of. anyhow---
i have -- well, i got some potentially good news! the other day - when i had my procedure done on my back, i got up from a nap--- actually it was more an escape from the pain -- but soulman says "hey, guess who called me today?"
hmmm, lessee? who could that be?
so i start to guess a few times-- by the time i hit my third guess, i of course was Damien. umm, i mean , kinda irritated. i didn't feel like playing. i just wanted to know. ya know? :O
he finally spits it out--
"patrick, from the moving company!"
'ooooh... what did he have to say?'

turns out, he had SIX signatures he needed to get to 'my cop'. hahahahahah. soulman said fax that shit asap.
i'm sure hoping that he did. this could be the break we've been 'patiently waiting' for! :))

so anyhow-- that was , what? -- monday, right. well, i'm gonna call my detective today and see if he got those signatures, and i hope i hope i hope-- he made a match !!!!! (to the signature on the pawn ticket) .
you know i don't have ANY expectation of getting a thing back that belongs to me. i'm almost sure it's been sold to a melting place , and is now entirely something- and somebody elses.
but now-- i am out for justice. or revenge if that's the word you want to use. it has been extremely difficult for me, and soulman both, to let the cops handle this in a civil manor--- rather than goin out and bustin heads -- or whatever other stupid idea has crossed our minds.

perhaps there really is something to this "patience" thing.?

anyhow-- if i get any new news i will be sure to letya know.

ok---- what else? hmmm. well, for one thing-- it's 7 a.m. and i haven't heard one alarm go off yet. this IS a school day right? yeh, thought so. i don't wanna go up the stairs, but i reckon it might not be a bad idea. i could check out my legs. they really do feel lots better since the rhizotomy--- but i also had a lumbar steroid epidural-- that's what i think made the difference in my legs. i guess i've been a big baby lately -- protecting myself- trying not to hurt anything. but today seems pretty good. nothin miraculous. aside from my legs. the rest of me still feels pretty much for the norm.

except----the weirdest thing is-- i can get an itch or somethin on the back of my neck. i go to scratch or move my hair-- or whatever.... it's all extremely NUMB there. i have feeling inside etc--- but to touch it-- i almost don't feel it. make sense? weird. i hope that part changes. very strange. i'll give it a couple more days before i get weird about it.

soooo anyways-- i guess that's it for today around here..
spose i best venture up the stairs to wake my child.

ooooh i think i hear the shower!!! tell me she's up! i don't wanna go upstairs., ok i will. ugh.

happy humpday folks !

don't cast your pearls before swine

surely most of us have heard that phrase right? of course the majority have found a swine or two to cast our pearls before as well. right?
but, that's not really what i'm writin about. i'm writing more about the now well known "swine flu". WTH? it's damn near mass hysteria out here. they have closed entire school districts !!! and major public events... even cinco de Mayo ... there's gonna be some pissed off peeps.
soulkids school is closed , as of last night "for 7 to 10 days" . ooooh how fun. but better home than dead. she has already had a cold for well over a week so her immune system is weak -- which makes her susceptible already .

but there has been a couple deaths out here in dallas from this. it seems the ones who are getting sick /and or dying, are elementary school age kids. so far two, that i am aware of in this area.

how bout in your towns-- how are people acting-reacting?? any schools shuttin down? mass hysteria? events being cancelled?

this thing is seriously making me think of that movie "i am legend". kinda. just not so over the top.





on the news last night, they had people call in with short comments about the whole thing-- some guy said he thought it was a terrorist attack.. starting in mexico , and now spreading across the entire world. hmmmm. i just don't think so.

but i do hope something can be done about it-- very soon.

hmmmm... i had more to say--- not about this... just more to blab about-- but you know me---- i forgot.
maybe i'll come back later with it if i remember.

happy saturday peeps-

i'd rather be fishin -- dammit //// (UPDATED)

howdy folks--


yes, i would much rather be goin fishin than where i'm goin soon.
i have to go have yet another friggin MRI. i just don't get it-- i practically begged for an MRI for years, and now it seems i am having one -- or some other type of scan, or xray- or some crap -- every other week.

but hell. at least i'm being taken seriously now,. but i don't wanna go. anywhere actually.

the wind is screamin outside and it's not even 40 degrees. definitely MY hibernation weather. but oh well.

maybe they'll find the real problem this time. i'm beginning to think they just want my damn money. ugh.



the scan will be of my neck and scap areas. ugh. where it shoulda been months ago. they kept doin the shoulder..bones. sheeeeat. so anyhow-- no time for jibber jabber-- i must go get my glow on.




happy monday :))
i think that's an oxy moron...isn't it?


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240 pm

hello again--- i'm baaaaack. i feel fat btw. i have gained so much weight lately. omg i feel like a whale. i'm sure the apple, and 2 bowls of cereal didn't help any-- but i was hungray! now i'm tired. i think i may just take a nap.

in answer to your question joz--- the new sleep med seems to work pretty well--- so far. i think i've only taken it two- or three times? but i sleep til 7-- i slept til almost 8 this mornin. so that's a good thing there. sorta. until i miss an appointment cuz i don't wake up. :))

on the other hand--- the ortho doc apparently already got the MRI report-- even though i still have the scans with me. some woman called to schedule me for the shots in my neck... apparently called -- somethin like a cervical epidural steroid injections. (which i will be lucky enough to be sedated for.

(3 appointments.--Lord i hope it helps. it's basically a nerve block. something i don't know why hasn't been tried before. but i'm game now.









i knew the neuro doc was missin somethin. i like him ok, but i think he shoulda caught this.
the new diagnosis?

Cervical Radiculopathy

i don't know if that means the diagnosis he did give me has changed---or if there are two diagnoses now.... but he had diagnosed me a while back with :

cervical dystonia too.

so. what does all this mean?

it means i am in pain. and now-- "they believe me."

so--- also to answer your question -- donna--- nope no surgery yet-- but it may be an option. if nothin else works.

anyhow-- that oughtta do it-- so - i'm gonna go lay my lard ass down for a while-- hope y'all are havin good days-
mine's just "glowin" :))
laterz-

this is continued from the below post-- cuz i put that one up today too

hi peoples--

if you're wonderin why i would have a sunday post, marked as a saturday post-- it's cuz i fell asleep last night tryin to write it--and just finished it a few minutes ago.. that's why. just thought i'd straighten that up here-- cuz i don't think i mentioned it til late in the other one.


so anyways, i hope it wasn't too hellish gettin through that one. i'll tell ya-- it was hellish to write it. my brain just isn't workin right lately. and maaan i'm tired this last couple days too.

in fact, i think i will be takin a nap " right quick". haha do any of y'all say that? right quick?
i don't really say it. not out loud. i've known people who do. i'm not sayin there's anything wrong with it. i like a good ole southern folk accent. like goin fishin down at the crick. or goin to the store , right quick. or how bout... i'm so plum give out i'm takin me a nap right quick!

that would be the one. :))

i just wanted to jump in here and let y'alll know that both these posts are todays--- saturday and sunday--
and to let you know that "yesterdays" was just a little late late last night--- and i was just real tired.

i didn't mean to ramble so long, and i hope i didn't bore anybody to death. cuz i'd sure miss ya :))

i'll check around later on... soulman took soulkid to mallhell :))
perfect time for a nap-- this is quiet time i just cannot waste---

hope y'all are havin happy weekends!

much stuff about not much

well, here i was with all these big plans on a big post for the morning. to answer some questions, and explain some new changes in plans-- YES.. AGAIN. geesh. i got up way too early today. it wouldn't have been bad -- or at least not "so bad", id i had been on my normal schedule-- like goin to- or bein asleep by 930- 10 p.m.... but lately-- like passed three weeks, i haven;t been able to get to sleep til around 12 or 1 am. but it just isn;t happenin for me. down at 9 or 10 ok. but not asleep til real late-- and up early several days in a row-- like 3-4 a.m. -- guess what time i got up this morning? 3:33. that's just too flippin weird ! and weird, that i see that number so very often. that didn't even start happening til the year my mom died-- 2005?? hell, i'm not even sure anymore. that's pretty terrible of me huh. prolly better that way tho-- everyone elses death is etched in my mind like a deep wound that won't heal. i'm pretty sure it was o5 tho-- june.
why that matters all of the sudden i have no idea-- so i will move on---

anyhow-- i was starting this post to bitch that i had spent the last hour lookin for some pics to go with it, but couldn;t find any-- so was goin to give up on it-- but now that i look at it-- who needs pix right? it's goins somewhere-- little scattered , but it's movin. so i'll just keep goin with it.

oh, anyhow-- back to 333-- yep-- i was actually sleepin pretty good-- til i suddenly hear some very very loud, and crappy music. so i laid there a minute to figure out where it was coming from.. that didn't take long-- it was coming from soulkids room.. at the opposite end of the house.. ERG... so i had to get up-- walk all the way out there , and of course i go in her room to turn it off-- and i get scolded-- "i'm still awake , leave it alone"-- well, ummm, i'm awake TOO.. thank you very much... "mwa muwa muwa mwa---ugh--- she turns it down.. but of course not enough. i get all settled in with my coffe etc... and i hate to have ANY noise in the morning. but i hear her music still-- and it is the same song--- on repeat-- it's not blasting loud, but i hear it-- clearly, and for the FIFTH time. i couldn't stand it anymore. i go back in there to TRY to turn it off. i'm not familiar with that stereo-- i can't find the buttons.. it's dark.. she wakes up bitchin at me-- i was almost asleep...nag nag nag... uhhhh welll scuze me... i still hear it and i don't want to--- aaaahhhhhhhhhhhrrrrggggg... she turns it down again.. i get back out here -- get comfy-- i still hear the damn thing.
why is it i'm deaf when i want to hear-- and when i don't want to hear, every single sound is amplified??? i finally put on the acoustic rock station on tv. very low of course, but enough to drown out her crap. it's distracting. but that could be a good thing. so far it is.


so --- it's goin on 5 now-- where does the time go? seems the day just drags it's ass when i actually am trying to something productive, but when i'm on here four hours can just disappear in a flash. time goes faster on here than even when i'm fishin. i'd like to know why that is.

so , now that i've written my hour long preface-- is that the word?? :))
i'm havin trouble finding the right words to use lately. but i guess that'll have to do.

but anyhow-- movin on--

i did manage to get the dogs placed in the kennel yesterday. -- did i say that somewhere already? if so-- sorry. if not-- i did. i was relieved that they had space on short notice too. they are closed today for drop-offs, so i had to take em in yesterday-- but i didn't take em til almost five p.m. cuz i didn't want them to stay a minute longer than they had to. i missed them terrible by 8 . i really love my doggies. they are like my kids--- i know y'all think i'm an evil bitch-- but i just don't worry about - or miss my cats like i do my dogs. i feel detached when im not with my dogs. it's like bein away from my kids. ya know.
the cats though? i swear-- they are like havin a running lawnmower , constantly goin through the house-- they really are that irritating and destructive. ugh. i do care about them.. i would never wish anything bad on them.. i just am not attached to them.

ok-- well, i've delayed this part enough i spose. i didn't even wanna put it up. but i had people mention hearing about or knowing about lake amistad-- and then.. wishin me my big fish from there. that i can't just wait two weeks or so to say this. it really may not even be a surprise--
because as you know-- i am ME--- and shit like this just seems to happen to ME-- alot-- and it did-- again.

until i have more specifics on this-- i'll just say that-- "for medical reasons"-- that ought not surprise any of you--- lake amistad has been suddenly pulled from our itinerary. :((
i had to call hubby last night to let him know that i should not drive that far on my own.. especially with two kids in the car-- and that he should come get us.
i'm really not up to that much driving-- and he will have had his four days down there-- so, he will be home monday-- and we will just leave the boat here, and we will only go to san antonio for the vacay thing. there's quite a bit to do there... enough to keep us and the girls satisfied, and happy for a few days. sea world, schlitterban water park, the alamo, the river walk-- with lotsa restaurants, and shopping, a pool at the hotel, --apparently with peacocks walkin around it :)) ,
we'll surely find stuff to keep us busy.
we have been there once before .. like 7 years ago-- our first real family vacation. soulkid was missing her two front teeth. :)) and she was sweet and had a lot of fun, and we didnt even do much that time. so i think this will be a good time.
i got the room on priceline last night-- saved 45 bucks a night doin it that way :)) --- bad thing-- it's a damn NON-smoking hotel. BUT- all rooms have balconies-- so i can smoke out there-- or if it's ground level that won't be so bad either. i don't mind smokin outside so much when it's warm.. but if it's freezin i get pretty pissed off to have to smoke outside after payin for a room.

so anyhow-- my dreams of catchin me a big ole hawg at amistad is put on hold. i do want to go -- sometime. it's just too nice a place to not fish-- at least once. it just can't happen right now. besides,, from the looks of things in san antonio-- with our original plan.. hubby would have still had the boat--and i would have had my car-- and parking is over 20 bucks a day-- and near impossible. like new york. so-- it's all ok.

anyhow-- i've been up for almost 2 hours, and i am soo damn tired i cant stand it-- but i'm not one who can usually go right back to bed... but i'll bet i'll be ready for a nap before noon ! i kinda hope i can pull thru the day today tho-- i do have a lot to do. i did manage to get a lot done yesterday-- just not enough. much i need to do can be done on my ass today tho-- :))

what are y'all doin today????