Thursday, April 24, 2014

HI Y'ALL  PLEASE GO HERE - AND TRY TO FIND ME .. LET ME KNOW IF YA FOUND IT OK?

MY NEW BLOG ---

LIFE ON LIFE'S TERMS

http://iamstillsoul.blogspot.com/

i really hope i see you all there !

please let me know if it updates.
thanks

UPDATE ---

IT WORKED !  THE LINK IS ON MY LIST OF 'PLACES I WANDER '  IT UPDATED .  YAAAAAY   THIS BLOG IS NOW OFFICIALLY CLOSED --- YOU CAN STILL COMMENT, I WILL SEE IT -- PLUS - I KINDA BLOGGED IN MY BOX HERE EARLIER ---
ANYHOW --- I AM BACK AMONG THE LIVING ---  YAAAAAY

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Uuuggghhhh. So frustrated

Yes. I am still frustrated that i can't figure out why my posts won't update, like they should.  Uuuggghhhh.  My whole life is a mess right now, and i just want to write about it... The off chance when i do muster the strength to come in here to do it... It's a miracle that anyone knows.  HI KRISTY. ;))
Someone surely must knows how to get this to work?
Haelp.  I just need to be connected.  It's not that i need to complain.  I just need to know someone is out there.
Cuz i'm in here.
In my computer
Hiiiiiii
Leave me a message...i'll leave you one back. ;))

Sunday, April 13, 2014

I am here

I'm just writing to check in.  I need to write something, just anything... To attempt to get back in the habit of posting here.  So here i am.  Thinking of you.  Hoping all is well.
Also hoping that soon i can get my cluttered thoughts clear enough for posting.  And figure out how to auto update the blog roll thing.
Uuuuggghhh.  Hep meh. :))
And have a good day

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Just drinkin my coffee

Mornin peeps.  Yep, i am aware.  I just might be talkin to myself, but just in case... Good morning, anyhow.  
It has once again been been a short lifetime since i have posted here.  Not for lack of wanting to... More for lack of anything to say here.  
There was actually a period of time that my life got quite full, busy, and very happy.  For a while.  I was busy with going to dog traing traing ... All the way out to Dallas! Sometimes as much as 3-4 nights a week .. With Chewie !  I also had made a few friends that i was spending time with.  I had a real life.   For a while.   Then, as it seems to happen in my world... It all came to a screeching halt.
Hard to believe, i know.  But it really did.  And when life slips away from me like that?  Well.... I .. Slip away from me too.
I'm sure this was all a slower process than it seems.. But it feels like it all happened overnight, and left me standing all alone in this world.  Once again.
I thought it started in December.. When my Service dog Chewie had surgery.  For Cherry eye.. And a spay.  It was earlier than that.  I had got very sick in the beginning of December. On the 4 th and went to the hospital by ambulance, then was admitted for four days... Of course for some freaky Brenda illness.  The Soul Syndrome.  The day before that started, i had gone to the VA hospital for what i thought was gonna really help me.  A intravenous once a year vitamin D treatment.  WOW. even now, i wonder if that is really what they put in me.  I was in excruciating pain before bedtime...and in the back of an ambulance by sunrise.
By the time i recovered...Chewie had surgery....by the time she recovered? It was after Christmas!
Friends?  They had forgotten about me... It was too cold for my blood to go back to dog training... Even just to watch, and visit friends.  Uuuuggghhh.
It was actually october when i had begun isolating from friends tho... And would you believe i did that FOR a friend ?!!!! Ugh.  Someone was rude to a friend of mine... I defended them... And i am the one who suffered for it.
Anyhow.  Here it is... APRIL .. I am agoraphobic as ever. I rarely go anywhere, see anyone, or speak to anyone.  And my dog is about to have another surgery.  Yup.. For hip dysplasia.  Double hip dysplasia.  This is the first place i have written that.  Anywhere in public.  I don't know how i'm gonna pay for it.  It will cost thousands of dollars.  I need to learn how to 'fundraise'. I can't let my dog die over this.

There ya have it... Not much of a post... But i decided i would write rather than turn on the TV this morning.

I'm still here