how's things peeps? good i hope.
things here? well, hard to say. but i'm ready to leave and had a few minutes to spare and figgered i'd spend em with y'all. i know my thoughts and words have been a total mess here lately, but hey, gimmee some credit for at least tryin to stay in touch eh? anyhow what am i ready for? to go get shot to hell. that's what. yeh. i think i mentioned it a few days ago. i have to go get more steroid shots today. i have been needin them for several months , but putting em off due to lack of funds. the pain has gotten to a level that i just can't stand anymore. i did a little robbing from peter to pay paul and made it happen. so i go in this morning - like in about 20 minutes to get the procedure done. i've had these injections before - just not this many . this time there will be four - in three areas. two in my neck - two in my spine. like i said before - i don't fear the shots -- i'm asleep when they do them. i don't feel anything. afterwards i wake up within 30 , minutes. then i leave. my hubby drives me and picks me up - he always has me a fresh cup of coffee - cuz i can't have anything (fast) before the procedure. so you know i'm ready to kill someone and have a bad headache by then. anyhow - we go home - i sleep off the sleepy meds from the doc. and life goes on. thing is? this time - i just have a strange feeling about the whole thing. one like i've not had before. i feel like i will have a lot of pain afterwards. i hope it's just a worry, or a normal thing. maybe it's because i am at the level of pain that i am at right now. getting better due to a few shots seems unreachable as a quick fix. i don't know why i feel like it isn't gonna work, or that it may back-fire is beyond me. but the thought hasn't left my mind since i got this scheduled. in the last few months i have learned to live my life as it is .. deal with the pain, and do the best that i can, when i can. weird thing is -- since i scheduled the shots? either the pain has gotten worse , or i fell back into the old habits, and gave into it again. either way - i'm not liking the results. and i can only hope that this round will relieve some if not a lot of this pain, and i can get back to where i was. or better.
i know you each have your own stuff goin on in your worlds - i hope it's gettin handled -- don't let it handle YOU !
i gotta go get shot up :))
i'll check in later -- when i wake up -- or sober up -- whichever comes first