my kid amazes me

hiya folks --

soulkid came to me last night, with my laptop-- as i was already in bed-- insisting that i read an email that she had "spent forever" writing to me. (cuz she forgot to get me a card for mom day.)

i can't help but to share it with y'all. many of you know that she and i struggle a lot with each other --- apparently it's not only me who hopes it's a teenager thing. :))

anyhow --- here's a peek into the gentler side of my child. the one who does know how things work, how hard i try, and just how much i really do love her.
no store bought card could ever mean as much to me as

THIS:





always, always, and forever
always, always, and forever

im sitting here and thinking back to a time when i was young,
my memory is clear as day. im listening to the dishes clink
you were downstairs and youd sing songs of praise
and all the time we laughed with you
and all the time you stayed true to us

i said i thank you
ill always thank you, more than you would know,
than i could ever show. and i love you, ill always love you
theres nothing i wont do to say these words to you
that you're beautiful, forever

always, always, and forever

you were my mom, you were my dad
the only thing i ever had was you, its true
and even when the times got hard you were there to let us know that we'd get through

you showed me how to be a man
you taught me how to understand the things people do
you showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth

and i thank you, ill always thank you
more than you would know, than i could ever show
and i love you, ill always love you, theres nothing i wont do to say these words to you
that you will live forever
forever and ever
forever and ever

i said i thank you, well always thank you
more than you would know, than i could ever show
and i love you, ill always love you, there's nothing i wont do to say these words to you
that i thank you, we'll always thank you
more than you would ever know, than i could ever show
and ill love you, well always love you,
theres nothing i wont do to say these words to you
that you will live forever.

[along with the video- she sent the lyrics (below the video) --- and below (this)---- is the email she wrote .
i WAS gonna "edit" it-- cuz she does say a word or two that could be taken negatively by some people... BUT-- it is NOT meant that way-- she's a kid, and as hard as i try to break her of the habit of that word it isn't working at this point in time. if y'all know me at all.. you know we are not prejudice against any person.. race, religion , life partner, whatever-- these were her words , the best way she knew how to write them.and they mean everything to me.]

Mommmma,
i love you. and i know that i don't show it that much,
and i know that i say a lot of things i don't mean to you.
and i know that within the two months or so of being 14 i've scared you a lot
by making stupid choices, and i'm sorry. and we get in fights a lot and i've said
i've hated you a lot, but you know i don't mean it and this is basically because
i am a teenage girlllll, give me a break :). and you can be a dumb nigga some of the time,
but that's okay because so can i and know that i am a huge brat and even when i know
im wrong i keep arguing about whatever we're arguing about. i don't think you know
how much you really mean to me, and i don't think you ever will. i don't even know
how to begin to show you or tell you how much you mean to me. you've taught me
almost everything i know about life, and i feel like i can tell you almost anything.
and if we didn't talk all the time, and weren't so open with each other, i probably wouldn't
be as mature as i am now. or as mature as i think i am. hahah. and you're really understanding.
most of the time. other times you are a meanhead! :). but yeah. you are truly amazing,
and you have helped me so much in life, and your one of the few people that still have faith in me.
and i believe that you'll always be there helping me get where i want to be in life, and i can count on you.
i know that you'll do anything for me and you should know that i love you and i'd do anything/die fo you.
im just glad that you can put up with me twentyfour/seven. hahah. but yeah, i am writing this because
i dont think a stupid cardddd would say as much as i wanted to say to you, and mainly because
i forgot to buy one. hahah. :P. i love you mommmyyyyy !


God , i love that girl.
i am a happy mom today--- i hope the rest of you moms out there are too !

ahhh--- i can't be forgettin soulman here-- he took me fishin this mornin...
and looky what i got:

isn't he cute !
(he's "pee-wee" )

but look what else i got---
HIM:



who says size doesn't matter?
:))

i got him on the first cast btw-- :))

i had a third-- a small bass, decent , but small.. there were too many people watching me though, so i didn't take a pic. he was a cutie tho .

anyhow-- dinner plans tonight , other than that, i think i will work on somethin i been wantin to post for a while-- it will take some time though so check back later on tonight to see if i had any success with it eh?