Saturday, August 15, 2009

can't have nuthin !!!

howdy folks--- :))
i miss you. all of you. it's been hard not posting here, and connecting with you folks like before. it seems i have been busy enough lately though to not obsess over it. but i do miss y'all, and i miss writing. some days i feel like i might explode from not writing
or connecting with my peeps. but at the same time, i find it "safer" staying away.
yet----- here i am. i'm sure it would have been much more difficult if those of you who have continued to email etc, wouldn't have. that has really helped me to at least know there are still some out there who think of me.

anyhow. things around soulland haven't been what many of you would think they have been. what with buying a home, and decorating, and all that comes with that.
it has been a very --- scratch that. it has been a most difficult time for me. in many ways. physically, of course. y'all already knew that would be a problem. it continues to be a problem, and a severe one. i'll get back to it-- but it didn't help things in what i'm about to mention.

due to my physical limitations , i had to have the movers help do some packing this time. this was the first time in my life that i did not -- or we did not, pack everything ourselves. we got maybe 80-90 percent done, but the rest i just didn't get to. mainly what was left wasn't "that" important. the kitchen. or part of it. a few closets. linens, etc. basically just crap. i packed my office first. it took a few days, it had the most stuff in it that was important. nik naks, trinkets, just important stuff. i hurt like hell at the end of that few days. throw in a couple doctors-- lose a couple days... blah blah blah.

then back on my feet-- i tell soulkid-- gather your jewelry-- put it in your jewelry box--and put it with mine so i can pack it before the movers come. she actually did that. it took her a couple days but she did it. by that time-- i was focused on other things-- packing my hutch-- another thing that i insisted that i pack myself. personal, sentimental things you know. before i could blink.... it was moving day.
everything that meant a shit was packed. except--- yep you guessed it--- the jewelry boxes!!!!! FOUR of them. three being mine, one being soulkids.

the sad thing? well one of the sad things? i noticed right away. i did. i'm just that way. but, people doubt me. and it makes me feel bad. and wrong. and a lot of the time, i am wrong. what i feel to be "missing", or messed with.. may not have been. that or i am convinced by someone that it hasn't. SO. i didn't say anything. even though.... i opened one of the jewelry boxes and KNEW at least one ring was GONE. i didn't say a word.

not until several days later. i went to untangle my chains that were in a hanging style jewely box made for chains. i noticed several things missing. i went on to another box. thinking--- hoping--- maybe they dropped one, and just tossed what fell out into another. NOPE. i only noticed more missing. i know everything that i own. down to the last antique coin. the last silver dollar. the last stupid little junk store ring.
they robbed the wrong person. yep. they robbed ME.

of course i got the "are you sure". did you check here or there" from a couple people.
people who should know me better than that. but remember-- i guess i'm just on my way out as far as my mind goes. senile, you know? yep-- it's not funny anymore is it? not to me either.

so anyhow. i filed a police report. of course. soulkid told me the next day that she did happen to be missing a gold ring that her boyfriend gave her. hmmm. guess they believe me now.

well, i got a phone call only two days later from a detective. to my surprise. i guess sometimes these folks actually do work for a livin. he wanted me to describe only the rings that i was missing. i did.. but soulkid had to describe hers, because i had only seen it once. i would know it if i saw it-- but i couldn't describe it. he had us go down and fill out forms... and then told us that he had run these movers names--- and had got a hit on one of them at a pawn shop in Dallas. the same damn day of the move. one of my rings, and soulkids ring. he sold them. i was, and am livid.

this is not the first time i have been robbed. but these guys. we invited them in. we bought them food. and we paid them.. to rob us. ugh.

i cannot replace what they stole from me . much of it was given to me. some of it , the person is dead now. gold hoop ear rings from my aunt. i don't have a good memory-- y'all know that. but every single peice of jewely that motherfucker took from me---- i remember the moment and the conversation that it was given to me.
i'll never have that back. it has been replaced by anger. and fear. my child and i now are both afraid that this guy is gonna show up here to hurt us. or do something to our home. or cars. or just something. because the least that will be done to him is he will lose his job. no one can have a job like that and be a theif. his job is gone.

i told the detective--- tell him, if he gives me ALL my stuff back i won't press charges-- if not-- he's goin to jail."
so. i guess he won't be goin to jail if i'm not there to testify. right?

we will be getting an alarm system..and motion lights. asap. hubby has a gun. it will now be put back together and loaded... oh yippee.. we all know i just love that idea. (i will not have access to it--nor will soulkid.... i still dont like the idea tho) but this is not a good situation folks.

here i am, the gal who raised her kid to not be predjudice. don't say the "N" word. and we get robbed by a black dude. i tried to see if would make me feel better to say that word. i said in ten times real fast. it made me feel worse. he was just a man. his color doesn't mean a thing. just sayin.

anyhow-- it would take days to catch y'all up on everything. so you know i won't write a book here today.
i don't know if or when i'll post again.
i just wanted to say hello-- and check in. and let ya know-- i miss all of you. i really do. so much it hurts sometimes, and days i just only wonder how each of you are, and i hope you are all ok.

i'll be back i'm sure. i just don't know when. i am very busy. my pain level had me at near suicide level the other day-- when i voiced that to a doctor--- they too stopped treating me like a idiot. i didn't get locked up like i thought i might. seein as i all i could do was sit there and cry. but i did get some medicine that seems to help. i also got another round of injections in my neck. something different this time. seems to feel different than the last time... but i don't feel very hopeful that it is the cure.
aparently the narrowing (spondylosis) has gotten worse. my future isn't very bright -- guess i can take off the shades. but anyhow. i have a seemingly decent pain doc now who is doing what he can to help me. (molesting, not included.)

so i just take each day as it comes... or try to anyhow.
i try to take a trip up the stairs at least once a day. the first week in this house that was a task i wouldn't even attempt. but now i do. and it's a start. i'm not givin up my legs just yet. i've given up-- and had taken from me all i can handle for now.


i really hope you all are doing great today in your worlds.
take care-

17 comments:

Jamie said...

I am very happy to see you here, and very sorry that everything seems to be so bad for you. Stealing is just so uncool - and i know that's a dumb word, but it makes you feel so singled out, so VIOLATED. I am sorry..ugh. I am happy to hear that your dr's are trying to help, and if the narrowing has gotten so bad, have them do surgery, it is a miracle!

Love and miss you. xo

:)

Golden To Silver Val said...

Welcome back Soul-friend. I'm so happy to see your post, even though it depicts just how many lowlifes are out there, waiting to victimize us. Pawn shops have to report their transactions to their local police agencies. If you have something unusual missing, contact those local police depts and find out if any of their pawn shops have reported taking something in like that. He probably went to more than one pawn shop. These lowlifes thieves have absolutely no conscience....they could care less what something means to you. My daughter had all her jewelry stolen except for her class ring that had fallen on the floor and went under the bed. That happened so many years ago and she's still devastated by it. I HATE to be stolen from...its such a violation.... I hope this guy gets the book thrown at him because if he doesn't, he will continue to do this. His girlfriend is probably wearing some of your stuff too. I'm so sorry but glad that you're getting some of it back. I hope you find even more of it.
Once you get settled, take pics of all your jewelry and keep them in an inventory file.
I hope you're feeling better. Looking forward to more posts. Big hugs!! Love, Charlotte

Anonymous said...

I was so, so happy to see post from you pop into my reader, Soul Sis. I've missed you bunches and have been thinking about you a lot. I'm glad you got the move ove with, but so darn angry at the light-fingered mover. He obviously wasn't very bright either, immediately trying to pawn your stuff. I've had things disappear every time the military contracted moving companies relocated us. It makes you feel very violated, and yes creepy, since this jerk knows where you live. Glad you are taking some security steps to feel safer. I know it's not about the monetary value, it's the sentimental value of things that you can't or won't be able to replace. I suppose the chance of getting them returned is small, but I'll be prayin for it. Somebody better be praying for him because I'm not feeling that kindly. It was good to hear that you finally have a doc who is listening to your pain issues and trying to help. I want you to feel better so you can get back to fishing and living! Please drop in at least now and then and update us... I care!!!

XX said...

What low lives! Those theivs are scum! I got so angry just reading that!

Unknown said...

Nice to see ya back, lady.

JY69 said...

Hiya Soul... looks like the ole' gang is coming back... cool!
gecko

SOUL said...

hi everybody---- great to see you !
it's so good to know i still have my friends out there.

and jamie-- thanks for gettin rid of that stupid clock pic. the kitty is much more your style :))

i'll see y'all around. you make it hard to stay away ya know. i am busy though, but someday things will slow down.

and "sophie"--- i don't even remember the last time i went fishin. it has been a while. before the move for sure-- i've been wanting to go more and more though. so maybe not too much longer.

take care y'all..
i'm goin ta bed.
g'nite.

Anonymous said...

Good grief. How low can people sink? Ripping off your jewelry during a move. I was thinking about you and wondering how you liked your new home. Other than the stairs, are you delighted? I hope the pain issues get sorted out, and the new Doc will listen. Listen Soul, these thieves are basically cowards. they pawn the stuff to buy drugs. I know how scared you must be, but everything is going to come together for you real soon. You will get the pain under control, life will settle down and you can relax. It's time now. A pain free day is a gift. Keep blogging. It helps me a great deal to know that there are others suffering,because is too lonely to suffer in silence. We have to stick together.

XOSue

SOUL said...

good to see you sue--
but about the suffering in silence thing-- you know you are right about that. but at the same time.. when i do voice my issues about the pain... it sounds so whiney and cry baby it just makes me wanna puke sometimes. but--- it makes me wanna puke when i don't talk about it too-- so why not, right? :))

have a great day-
laterz

Donna said...

I Knew you couldn't stay away!!Haha...I got your email that Night!! Wish we could have met...but I was alone at work, couldn't leave because my daughter was with Tim in Oklahoma due to His accident...so there was no one left to run the front office but MEEEE!!!...as usual...
I'm SO sorry about the robbery!!!! JERKS!!! How awful for you!!! I don't feel the same about guns though..I lock and load with the best of 'em...Keep blogging...we missed you!hughugs

Cheryl said...

I can't tell you how many times I've thought of writing you. You have to know I didn't forget you. We're all still here for you, sisters all.

One day at a time, right? I hope for better ones for you. And worse for the lowlifes that robbed you. I'm really sorry about that.

JLee said...

I'm so sorry, Soul! That really sucks, but hopefully it will turn up, possibly at a local pawn shop? That is probably the first place police check. I'm also sorry about your pain. The best I can do is buy you a nice lunch and coffee and listen :)

Angie Weid said...

Wow! I just don't get people that do wrong to others. Hopefully you will all remain safe in your new beautiful home. Take your time with the remaining boxes, just a couple each day. What is not unpacked by Oct 1st, think about just letting it go (unless its holiday/seasonal stuff).

Hang in there baby!

ac said...

I can't tell you how happy I am to see you write something! Well... I think I just did. lol

Summer said...

I understand exactly how you feel. Remember when that kid down the street helped himself to all of my son's Christmas presents? I didn't get any of my stuff back. GRRRR. I hope you do.

Glad to see you writing again.

SOUL said...

hello to the rest of you--

it's sooo good to see the ole gang comin back around. geesh, and not everybody has even made it by yet. course they prolly think i croaked or somethin. :))

anyhow-- summer-- yes i remember you being ripped off-- that was crap-- and christmas too. people suck. i guess that's why i just keep to myself.

and Donnna-- yep i figured you were workin-- i wasn't out there very long anyhow so it prolly wouldn't have worked out. maybe next time?
hope the foot is all better-- geesh.
hope you are good too--
long story about the gun issue-- but i can see you lockin and loadin :))

angie baby--- 'sup-- you still spinnin? ha! you ready to come back yet lol.

cheryl-- you did say stuff-- i new you were out there :))

jlee--- i can't wait for school to start--i'm so exhausted--- how bout you?

welp-- i recon i coulda just posted eh? maybe i will-- later.

happy tuesday peeps!

Mary said...

I'm so happy to know that you are back. I've been thinking of you a lot. I knew you were having pain and were just worn out from the move. I hope you feel better soon.

I was raised to see no difference in the color of people. The "N" word wasn't allowed in my home. It makes me sad that the conduct of some people make the word come to mind. In recent years I've come to feel that the "N" word and "White Trash" seem to fit on some occasions but I, too, can't use them.

On a happier note: Does you new home have a fishin' hole close by? Maybe when the temps are nore reasonable you can enjoy a day with a big bass.

Hang in there, take care of yourself, and know that your friends are thinking of you.