Friday, April 25, 2008

yep-- it is always sumthin--

mornin peeps--

i ended up with half this post in the previous comment box..
(it happens sometimes.)


but anyways---
as for todays?

i got nowhere in blogland yesterday-
but i did get some things accomplished in soulland.
it seems i've done close to nothing here for weeks.
just enough to get by . and that's not near enough to satisfy me.

yesterday, i sure did think that i was feeling "good" because they had stopped the stomach bleed and i was on the road to recovery. i was thrilled to not be bedridden, and to be in somewhat minimal pain, at least in comparison to what i had expected. it really wasn't terrible, but i would have taken something if i had it.
so, what did i do? i worked in my week long neglected house... and it was BAD.
i did lots of laundry..still goin.. as you know if you read the comments below.
i paid bills.. -- but only the ones i could pay online-- neglecting still-- some very important ones -- and i don;'t know why--
things like car, truck, rent... WHY???
i do that often.. i honestly do not understand WHY.
the money is there-- i simply cannot make myself write the check. wth?
the car and truck are days late already!



so ya.. anyhow.. half way through the day-- IF that far-- my headache from hell returned.
i swear , this is the same headache that i have been fighting for WEEKS. it comes, and goes, but it is THE migraine from HELL.
it'll hold on for a day or two.. go away for hours or days and return with a vengeance.
by 8 pm last night, i was in near tears with this SOB... and not allowed to take ANYTHING for it.
no aspirin.. and i had nothing stronger. i had never been soo damn tempted to go against dr orders before in my life. that may not be entirely true-- but i could have , and wanted aspirin more that i ever had in my life-- but didn't take any. you have no idea how hard it was to not take a simple friggin aspirin. it's almost just sad really.
i actually considered going to ER for a shot-- i just couldn't fathom the money it would cost to go to that length.. when it was almost bedtime, and sleep meds would hopefully---- ease the prob-- if only for a few hours-

which it did. thank God.

oh-- sorry-- lost my train of thought-- which is part of what i was gettin at---
it finally occured to me -- as the headache worsened , and i was thinkin about this headache that will not leave me.
it is not unusual for me to get a migraine to last two-four days..
BUT a month? never. it has never happened.
so.. i thought-- i wonder if it has something to do with the bleed.. the anemia???
so i google it-- well.. asked hubby to, cuz i wasn't online.
so he did.. he found that it sure does. along with alot of other shit i have been dealing with.
soooo-- i say
i thought they STOPPED the bleed???
he said noooooo---
"the med they gave you is sposed to stop it-- that's why you have to take it for 2 weeks"

well, aint that just freakin peachy???
guess i just had a second wind, and some false hope for a couple hours.
apparently i am STILL bleedin.. and who knows if or when it will really stop.

and the headache? when the hell will IT stop?
and all the other shit-- the sleepin, and bein tired, and ugh. just ugh.

somebody just shoot me now. :((





and while you're at it-- you can be my bill payer too :))
cuz i sure can't get motivated enough to do it--
they're gonna come take my cars if i don't pay the damn things.
holy crap batman.
i'm fallin apart.


and if i drank-- i'd surely be cryin in my beer !
but i don't have one to cry in--
guess i'll cry in my coffee.


by the way folks--- i hope you know ---


i hope you ALL have happy days in your worlds today--
i'm gonna do my best-

11 comments:

Mary said...

I'm so sorry that you're still experiencing the effects of the anemia. Anemia is a cruel foe. It takes time for the body to build back to normal counts. Remember that we all love you and are remembering you in our prayers.

SOUL said...

tanks mary-- i sure am sorry to be such a lazy cry baby -- i hate to be this way-- makes me wanna just crawl under a rock!
but when i don't say at least something to y'all.. i feel even worse.
here comes the damned if i do and damned if i don't thing.
just can't win.

however----
i am FINALLY hanging a few pix on my bedroom wall !!! it only took me how long??? FOUR months to get here ! :))

i'll put pix up later of any progress-- and let y'all know if i can motivate hubby enough to move the crap to let me get ion the attic to investigate that smell...
oooh ooooh that smell...

The Real Mother Hen said...

Big *hug* to you Soul.
Ahhhh!!!
So the med will stop the bleed after 2 weeks of taking it? That seems a really long time. Will keep you in prayer my friend.

mosiacmind said...

I am so sorry to hear about headache! I want to also say that I really enjoy reading about your days and how you are so real about what is going on and such. I hope that the headache ends and that you have a good weekend.

Jessica said...

I hope you're feeling good one day soon. And by good I don't mean less pain than normal. I wish you could have a day where you truly feel GOOD. If only a wish could make it happen.

Golden To Silver Val said...

Now I'll tell ya something....I just LOVE to pay bills and I would gladly pay yours from your account for you if we could figure out how I could do that online. Too bad I don't live close to you...I would fix you right up. No charge. I also LOVE to balance checkbooks too. Mine balances to the penny every month. The secret is to do it often...that way if you make a mistake, you can catch it easily. Well now that I've sprained my arm pattin' myself on the back...hope your day is going good. I'm afraid to ask about the...(suspenseful music)....attic.

Portia said...

:| Hugs to you. I'm sorry. I hope it passes very soon. When, not if.
:)

CRUSTY MOM-E said...

I do have to say I am sorry about the medical issues, but I love the cat picture...too cute!
always,
e

CRUSTY MOM-E said...

p.s. nothing wrong with a bit of owned time and blogger time. :)
always,
Elizabeth

Karen said...

I'm sitting here laughing at Val and her sprained arm....

I know how bad migraines are Soul. I had one all weekend which is why I am so far behind in my blog reading. I had 11 posts from you alone. Geez I wish everyone would stop postng for a sec and let me catch up. As fast as I am getting them out of my reader it is filling up again. AAARRRGHHHH.

Hope you feel better soon Soul.

SOUL said...

you too gypsy--
take it easy--