does anybody know what time it is-does anybody really care

howdy folks---

yep, here i am, once again, would you believe that as i begin to type this it's friggin 333 a.m !!! how very interesting.

not that i have anything of interest to write about. just that i noticed the time.

i woke up at 2:45 a.m. - no particular reason this time. just woke up. i did go back to bed-- thinking i could at least TRY, before calling it over; but that only lasted about five minutes.
too much goin on upstairs-- in my feeble mind. so of course i was up again in less than five minutes.
a month or two ago it was really almost normal for me to get up this time of day every day-- and i was used to it. now- not so much. guess i better get used to it, cuz it just looks like the way things are again. getting through the day is much harder than it was before though. i'm not sure why that is. maybe i got used to staying up later, and waking up later... so now i go to bed late-- and get up at 2 or so-- getting less sleep, and so, i drag my ass all day long. i don't know.
but yesterday.. i really did nothing. absolutely nothing. and it wasn't out of lack of opportunity. it was total lack of energy and motivation.

i slept on and off quite a bit as the day dragged on. in my chair-- in my bed. it must have added up to several hours-- yest i remained very tired all day long. i hate that feeling.

about mid day or so-- soulman and soulkid went to the store-- i was invited -- but did i go?
nooop. stayed right here in my still not dressed , ass-sittin -on , sloth bein, state of mind.

later on, soulman took EEVEE to the park. that dogs needs to run and play-- in space we just don't have here--- or she would expload! so he goes almost every day with her. anyhow-- he went to a park with a fishin pond. took fishin stuff, asked if i wanted to go. did i???
noooop. i remained on my ass.. in my chair. comotose.

he was gone a couple hours. i still had accomplished nada.
but i decided i'd better get to cookin somethin.. before we ended up spending more money on prepared food--- which again, we have been doing way too much of-- simply because i haven't shopped-- or cleaned the kitchen-- or some other motivational road block has interfered.
so i did. i got up and cooked dinner-- but i was a total ass the entire time. for no real reason. just cuz i didn't want to cook. it turned out ok. (pork chops and Brussels sprouts-- yep that's it-- not even a potato! can we say-- lethargic? i think it has gone beyond lazy-- i just have NO energy.

not much between dinner and bed time. cruisin, tv, chattin with the soul-fam. watchin soulman do homework with soulkid..a science thing. he is much better at keeping her on task than i am. he did really good and so did she--- and she actually finished! yippee for both of em!

by then it was pushin 930 - 10:00--- so.. i went to bed. i had been fighting to stay awake by then already for a couple hours. knowing if i went to bed at 8 like i felt like-- i'd surely be up way too early. but apparently-- it did no good to suffer. i was still up too early.

can't figure it out. gotta be the med change. seems it has been hardest to stay awake since the switch. sooo.. i am gonna take the new one at bed time tonight, rather than in the morning like usual, and see if it makes a difference. i sure hope that is the problem. i really hate spending my life in neutral.. or worse even... PARK. ugh.

somethin's gotta give here.

so anyhow...
that's about all i got for now. we'll see if anything blogworthy happens later on.

hope y'all have good days out there

Boring Much???

where do i begin? i have no idea. perhaps with my weekend entertainment. of sorts.
not in exact order of occurance...just the order in which things come to mind.
ok...
i watched a dvd.. EXCELLENT movie. if i wasn't so overly medicated i bet i would have shed a tear or two. it was called "the Freedom Writers".... man it was good. and inspiring. and it's a true story. i really liked it

but.... last night... i watched the dvd... black x-mas. OMG. do NOT waste your time, money , or effort on this FLOP of a "movie". it's a poorly acted, extremely predictable, and gore for the sake of gore movie... it isn't worth a second of anyones time. and i wonder of the many things i could have done instead of "waiting for something to happen"...which btw.. never did. well, nothing i didn't already know was coming. BAD movie. in every way.

i also watched the UFC-70 fight on spike tv. me and hubby both are ate up with UFC. i haven't mentioned that yet. but yep.. i actually like to watch it.
so anyhow... it was free !!! not on pay per view . so of course we watched. and man it was good. every fight was most excellent...except one. quite disappointing...even the announcers mentioned how crappy it was.
oh well. the rest was quite good. and i would have really missed out if we hadn't been able to see it. it was better than many we have paid for!

ok... next... the sopranos. it of course was good...always is. but honestly...i really think it was a bad time to show that particular episode. mainly because of a certain character who emerged. really BAD timing. anyone who saw it, knows what i'm talkin about. so i won't go further.

and last but not least of my "high" points of my weekend... wally-hell....
and boy was it HELL. thank God hubby came a long to help me. we were out of totally EVERYTHING. if he wasn't with me i bet i woulda just broke down and cried ! by the time were finished the cart weighed at least a hundred pounds...and there is no way i could have pushed that damn thing around the store, in my physical condition. i wish they would come out with little motors on grocery carts...for people who aren't quite ready to reduce themselves to a hover-round, but still have problems "pushing" heavy carts. literally, there have been times that i was shopping alone, and have parked a half full cart and LEFT without buying a thing..because i just couldn't physically handle it. which in turn made me all anxious and angry. so anyhow...or final tally???? 240.00 !!! can you believe that? that is almost double what i normally spend. and once again, i wasn't quite prepared for such a grocery/household product bill... but hubby and I both were very grateful for his job when it came time to pay. ugh. wally hell. my favorite place. NOT

OH man... i immediately got a migraine writing that last bit. how weird. i'm under way too much stress. i wish i could go to the bahamas or something. no tv, no computer, no bills, just a real get the hell away thing.

anyhow.... what did y'all do?
above is pretty much all i can remember. LOL. my senile.