better late than never . right? maybe not.

road trip fail

hi folks .
yep-- i am sposed to be on the road by now. off on my mystery adventure with soulkid. umm, obviously, i am not. or i should say, we are not. yet. several things have interfered with our plans.
senility being 1 of those things.

then; being side-tracked with a separate road-trip i have been planning -
for JUNE , somehow, took precedence of this so much sooner trip.
but i did finally get at least our- me and soulkids- first day and night are worked out.
but we are STILL at home-- and wanted to be on the road by 8 ! uhhhhhhhh.

had to mess with friggin at&t for an hour -- dammit-- all three of our phones are not workin-- the bill is paid-- but i have to leave with no phone service :(( ga-reat !
at least 9-1-1 will work if i need anything like road service- or h-e-l-p. i hope.

so anyhow-- i don't have time to write much else-- i'm not real good with gettin laptops to workin hotels-- but i'll bring it ad try to update and put up photos etc. if y'all don't hear from me-- i can get email on my phone-- the internet works on there-- just not the phone. sigh.

ok-- i am outta heah--

hope to talk with ya soon.. like as in tonight. on here or facebook-- if i can.

if not -- i shall be home friday night.

until then--
ore vois :))

and happy trails :))

take me to the zoo and leave me in the sloth cage

happy saturday folks -

am i late again? if not i feel late. i didn't notice my last post day, but it has to be at least a couple days ago? could be yesterday -- but i don't think so-- cuz yesterday was one of my busiest days in what has to be months. and i'm talkin near non-stop runnin from 830 a.m til after 4 p.m . that's like one of those VA fightin days. remember those? drivin to dallas, usually gettin lost every time, panic attacks, cryin, awful days.
well, yesterday wasn't 'that' bad'. not to that extent at least. it was just physically and mentally draining. and toward the middle? yep-- painful.

i was a smooshed sloth --- :((



in a way -- i was happy that soulkid was with me -- because i had to fill out forms at each stop -- an i could NOT see , to do it ! soulkid had to be my eyes the entire day. really. she had to fill out almost every form..and there were many. all i could do was sign and date them. i hope she didn't mess anything up -- cuz i couldn't even proof read them. i trust her though. anything she wasn't sure about, she asked, before she wrote it down.

oh - sorry-- i didn't even say WTH we were doin yet. how brilliant of me - right?
i'm sure you're wondering why her ass wasn't in school too huh?

well, i'll tell ya. i have to back up a day though.
picture it ... Sicily, 1932 --- oh sorry -- that's the golden girls --
ok off we go ....

Thursday afternoon....
soulkid calls me from the bathroom at school.
yeh i know.
she is hysterical with joy!

MOM, you have to come pick me up- right now! i have to tell you something!
-ummm, NO, i'm not- what's goin on?
you won't believe what just happened.
yeh, maybe not-- WHAT?
i got called down to the counselors office, and they told me that as a transfer student , and because i'm failing too many classes, i have to go back to my other school ! isn't that awesome ?!!!!

(mind you-- she is screeching like a five year old with her panties on fire ! )

(she's also been begging us for weeks to transfer her back to this other school she went to last year-- and even talking about getting a GED- or some other way of some sort of alternative classes to get a diploma -- whatever -- but i have been extremely depressed -- to tears -- about the thought of her not 'graduating' --- because i KNOW she is capable -- and i had always 'seen and expected her to finish school and go on to college) -- i know-- my dream, not hers.

so anyhow-- back to the conversation-----

umm, no 'soulkid' i don't think that's awesome. at all. you just got 'kicked out of school. don't you think that's a little serious?

she didn't care in the least-- this is exactly what she wanted -- since the beginning of the school year-- her boyfriend- and her best friend go to that school. she's dying to go to that school.

so-- i'm feeling deflated-- she's floating on cloud nine-- it's settled that i will not pull her out of school one second early that day-- she goes to class-- and i call the principal to find out WTF is goin on-- and WHY would they talk to a 16 year old BEFORE ME. ugh.
pissed off much?



come to find out -- she wasn't totally thrown out of school-- what she failed to mention to me, was the fact that she was given the opportunity to bring up the grades in the '4' :(( classes that she's failing -- and guys i tell ya -- three of those she should by no means have lower than a C in -- math is her only weak class, it has been for years.
the others she should be doin much better in. it's pure laziness . or perhaps a control issue. i don't know.

anyhow-- once i heard that-- i told him-- she didn't tell me that-- but i know her, and i know that her knowing that it depends on HER bringing up her grades? she won't. she will sit there, and waste everybody's' time, until she gets the final walking papers. and gets her way. (as usual).

he said "you know her better than we do, so is that what you want to do?"
i said-- it's what i have to do. for all of us. i know that's what she will do with her defiant self.

so we went yesterday--- and hell day began. and lasted alll damn day long. i thought i might die. for real.

it didn't start out so bad.

--- OOPS -- first -- we disenrolled her at her school -- (i forgot that part at first )

THEN, we went directly to the school she was to enroll in. we were simply gonna enroll her yesterday, then have her start the day after spring break. that sounds simple enough. right?
ummm, well. NOT.
nothing in my life is ever simple. y'all surely know that much by now right?

ok well, here's how things went down.

she was all but done registering in said school. of course she was thrilled. me not so much. in the back of my mind, i'm still thinkin, my kid just got kicked out of school due to grades. this shouldn't have happened-- and it better never ever happen again. or heads will roll. yes i do think things i dare never say out loud. that's prolly a real good thing. at least i can cage my thoughts-- my mother set them free and really -- i don't think she ever regretted a single awful thing she said. bleh.

anyhow- at literally the last minute-- just as we were going over her new schedule with the counselor --- some other lady came in and said-- we were not supposed to be at 'that' school, but another -- the one that is like a mile from our house.

well, we already knew that. but she attended this school last year-- and the school she was at, had put this school on all her paperwork.. so really it was a lot of wishful thinking and crossed fingers, that she would slip through the cracks and still be able to go to this school, just because she did last year.
-- reason being--- there are a lot of 'bad' people at the school in her district -- and she is basically, 'forbidden by us as parents to attend that school, or hang out with 'those' kids-- for her own safety... and sobriety.

so. that's why yesterday was such a big fiasco. we had to go to her school, the school we 'registered her in', then since she was at the 'wrong school', we had to go to the admin bldg, and talk to the big guy, -- which didn't work out- so we talked with his secretary-- and had to fill out a transfer form online -- then talk to her again... then it-- the request-- now has to go up the 'chain of command' for approval.

but--- since she technically isn't even enrolled in any school at all, at that point-- we had to go enroll her at the school we don't want her to go to--- TWO entire hours there. UGH.

we finally finished and walked out of there at like 4 p.m - after entering our first building of the day at like 8:30. one more errand woulda flat out killed me.



anyhow , before we left , i told them -- actually, more than once, at more than one place, -- i will not send her here / there for even one day-- i don't want to go to jail, but i'm just not gonna do it. -- can this be expedited ?


every person that we talked to-- even at the admin place-- is on our side -- due to the circumstances-- and all of this will be expedited. hopefully it won't take more than the first week after spring break. and i hope she can make up any 'lost time'. because they are gonna approve the transfer to the school she- and we- want her to go to. not that there aren't drugs, and BS at every school, or even every street corner-- it's just that at the one school-- it may as well be in her lap. ya know. and i won't let that happen.

they wouldn't like me when i'm angry :

click it to make it bigger -- it's so great :))

ok peeps -- looks like the child and i have postponed our trip -- leavin tuesday -- know why? cuz i don't really care -- and her boyfriend is off work on monday -- she just has to 'see' him before we leave. sooo-- i get to chill, and skip the weekend traffic, crowds and prices. :)) and let her think it's all for her
bwa hahahahaha

happy weekend folks-

5 minute stone soup -

yep y'all, i am aware that i am a few days behind in posting. sorry. lots been goin on, i think i may be caught up-- well at least a little with myself. i still have a ten mile long list of things i MUST do. without picking and choosing. or procrastinating. it is no longer a to-do list -- it's a have to do list. maybe a do-or-die list. yep. down to the wire list. i'm feelin the pressure now. but hey-- i've been busy. if not busy in the true sense of the word? i been flat out in pain and unable to perform anything above or beyond the bare minimum required of me ... if that.



so. i really gotta pick up the pace around here.
starting with takin the kid to school in like 5 minutes or so... and immediately following that? heading straight to a dr appointment. nothin big. just a pain doc follow up. and med refill. they may throw in a pee test. never know. not ike that worries me any tho. just a bit embarrassing sometimes. seems i'd be used to it. but i just think that's a little personal-- peein in a cup . ya know.

so -- what else? oh -- the update on the police stuff? i did go out and 'claim my crap'
that's about what it was too. my ear rings weren't there for me. it looks like too many people claimed those. or something. i think there were two pair-- but everybody wanted them. told ya they were common. so those happen to be goin to court. along with me, and i have no clue how many other people. i don't know how i'm sposed to prove their mine-- or not-- or how others will -- or not. i have a couple pix of me wearin em. that's the best i can do. maybe other folks won't think to bring a photo?? who knows. not me. and they have no idea when that court day will be.

and about the mystery tv-- i let it be known i didn't claim a tv first thing-- they already knew it was an error-- so i'm happy to be an honest person, and not have gone in there lookin like a dumbass 'tryin' to reclaim a tv -- that they knew already wasn't mine. phew-- i love bein me. re`tard or not (say it like the hangover movie did-- no disrespect to anybody -- that movie was just gooood )

in other news??? hmmm. OH! i'm planning-- or trying to plan.. a mom and daughter mini vacation. just a few days away for spring break. over thanksgiving -- they had a daddy daughter trip to austin. i stayed behind. so it's momy daughter trip time. she wanted to go back to austin again -- :)) thrill me -- i've been like three times, but was still willing to go -- but in my research, there's some huge festival, the hotels are all jacked up like crazy -- all over 120.00 a night, and full. so it looks like austin may be out -- any ideas will be appreciated. sea world has already been decided against-- because of my last whiplash on the roller coaster-- i'm just no fun in theme parks with a kid. so kill me.

so ideas yes throw them out-- minimal driving from DFW-- minimal walking -- and mucho fun factor for the soulkid -- ugh-- there-in lies the problem. young energetic money spending shoppin fool-- and me-- crippled, easily tiring, handicapped, people phobic soul.
wheeeeeeeeee.

haelP ----- she is interested in haunted stuff-- ghost hunting etc-- i found a haunted restaurant on a blog not far from home we may check out.

anyhow-- it is past time to get out of here-- i can't even spell check or edit-- hope you can figure out my chicken scratch --

happy day in your worlds --

i'll be back-

i bring you -- soulkid on film --- happy 16th kiddo

here ya go folks -- someone better like it -- i spent two whole days on these -- well -- here's the long version -- i still have to add music to the short one --

this one is short of 8 minutes long -- but if the photos bore you? i guarantee you'll like the song :)) and i also bet it's been a long time since you've heard it.

and i apologize in advance -- cuz the music runs 20- 30 seconds over the pics -- it's hard to perfect these things. regardless, enjoy --

(btw -- if you pop out the video and watch it 'full screen - the photos look much better - and there's less distraction around it -- just sayin. -- click bottom right icon on video box - press esc to got back to reg size screen )

short version-- FINALLY DONE -- i hope - 3/9
shy of 2.5 minutes

you likee? i DO -- both of em. course , she's mine. :))


i'm blind -- and oh sooooo done.

g'night folks

it'sanuther mughnday folks howdoyoudooo?

(ZERO COMMENTS ? - really? hmmmm. i'm heartbroken. was it really that boring?)

hiya folks---
hope your day is off to a good start-
here? well... if ya count wakin up late-- wakin up to a too sick to go to school soulkid -- yeh, i know :(( -- and remember at the 'last minute' , that today is when i have to be 1.5 hours down the road at the sheriffs office at 10:30 - to claim my stolen property -- doin fine -- well then, i spose i'm off to a fine start. yup. just dandy.

so. i'm tryin to get some coffee in me, then i gotta call the school, and get ready and on the road. soulman is off work today so at least he will be able to drive me out there this time. and yes-- it's still friggin raining. and if i remember correctly -- it was rainin last time i made this trip -- like a month or so ago. ugh. so yeh, glad i don't have to drive.



so-- anyhow- if you're here for the video -- or i should say -- the disaster-- geesh i haven't had this many problems with a video since i first started learnin how to do em. i swear i spent 8 hours on that damn thing yesterday. what a mess. i ended up makin 2 of em. the first one? it ended up bein waaaay too long to hold y'all interest -- i'm sure. maybe not. but i just feel like it's way too long. plus i don't have the music i want on my computer! i thought i could get songs off i-tunes to use-- but if so- i can't figure it out. and if not i have to find my cd's in this hell pit - and upload it -- and if i don't have what i want- and i don't think i do-- i may have to go to the used cd store and buy it -- and then upload it---. same for the second-- yep-- a second, and much shorter version.... same music problem--- but the video is only like 2 minutes long vs... lord-- maybe 15 minutes long. some of y'all may watch both -- family and old timers prolly -- but for the rest of ya-- i'll spare ya the agony and post both -- but obviously -- my morning is booked. so more waiting. i'll get er done-- by dinner. that's like 5-6 p.m round here. tx time.

on that note-- i must get started here-- when i get back from the police place i shall let ya know if my earrings were there.

hmmmm.... not sure why-- but i'm nervous about goin .

and no-- decided against takin the tv-- i know i didn't claim one-- so i aint even gonna consider takin it-- thanks charlotte -- or mary ? :O for lettin me know they auction it and not 'dispose of 'it'. that makes me feel better. we need our roads fixed :))

anyhow--- i'm off -- really -- to start my day--

i shall return...

happy days -- hope you get some sunshine in your worlds today-- we aint. :))

soulkid is a sweet 16 ! or is she? bwa hahaha

( sorry folks , looks like i lied. i have worked on that video all day long. and i still don't have it done. i have everything now except the music, but i am all out of energy, and i am also blind. which means i am finished for the night. i shall finish it sometime tomorrow. i have to upload the music. ugh.
goo'night peeps.)


(earlier)

yep she is -- she really is a sweet girl. y'all know she is. at least she can be.

her party was last night. we took her to the restaurant (dammit i STILL can't spell that!) of her choice. phew-- there went a weeks worth of groceries. :)) but they had a great time. and so did us old folks. but we saw lots of smiles and giggles out of the girls -- and isn't that the goal? so , yeh, i would say it was a success. i will also say -- it was not what we as parents had imagined in our own minds for 'her' sweet 16. but it was HER sweet 16 and she wouldn't change a thing. that is what's important. it was her party, her memory, her day, and aside from the stinkin head cold that crept up on her and still worsens, it couldn't have been more perfect --. so yippee, for her.
only thing? her 'real birthday' is on the ninth-- and lemmee tell ya-- i already hear that train comin--- what she will expect on her real birthday i'm not sure yet-- but it'll be somethin. i'll be sure to let you know. and also if we deliver -- which i'm sure we will. prolly just another dinner out-- but i assure you-- it will not be where we went last night-- or any where near that budget.
more like outback -- or maybe even mcdonalds :))

ok-- so-- i plan to make a video after i do this post-- so i'm not gonna post too many pix here-- but i'll put the video up later-- and y'all know those take a while -- so cruise by later tonight to view it. k.

anyhow-- here ya go-- a few soulkid life moments :)) and b-day pix
i have a almost new frickin all in one scanner printer thing-- and i have yet to figure out the scanner-- other wise i would have a better selection-- i could only use what i had saved on my puter- or photo pages.

anyhow-- without further ado -- i bring you--

soulkid

(click any photo to enlarge)

time goes too fast. i'm almost an empty nester. i know i'll miss the arguing. the laughing. the deep talks. and the tricks on my mind. not far from today.
she might be a little turd sometimes---- but she's mine. and she's beautiful.

come back tonight for the video -
i bet the finished product will make me cry.

laterz folks
happy sunday in your worlds
it's rainin here-- hope y'all are gettin sunshine

oh NO -- and yes- i did too

first, i gotta say this-- baby brodie has a problem -- he has fallen in the parents magazine competition ! how? i don't know. someone isn't bein loyal to him. y'all need to vote. it only takes a second. mamma needs a vacuum ! :))
c'mon. you can vote once a day.. and i won't stop askin til the competition is over -- so just vote so i can write about other stuff in soulland -- not someone elses land. k?

http://photos.parents.com/category/vote/id/6/w/09/y/2010?page=519&esrc=

such as the juicy gossip y'all wanna know -- like what my child did to me yesterday. isn't that what ya wanna know? looks like it from the comments yesterday. ya buncha hen partyin fools. :)) i wish for one day we could chill together at the soul crib -- or the fishin pond -- and just BS the day away. that would just be the shiznit-- for me anyhow.


so. ya want me to make my kid look like a bad girl eh?
i used to that on an almost daily basis around here. course... she almost deserved it back then. and really-- if i didn't blow of steam here? i might have died. literally. it almost came to that. i really did have many physical weird and out of the ordinary things happen to me for a while. i do relate a lot of it to the stress an helplessness i was dealing with during that time. not 'blame'.. just -- relate.

so anyhow-- the girl has come a long way since last year. y'all know that. she's a whole different animal. but-- she still knows how to get what she wants. and she can do it with me, better, smoother, and easier than with her dad-- and she knows it-- she knows my weaknesses-- and i have many. i don't think it's right-- and i won't make excuses for her. i find it very wrong-- and hurtful.

so. here's the deal. please keep your parenting and other opinions to yourself. the situation has been dealt with as her dad and i felt best already here at home. ok?

anyhow-- what happened was--

it was early in the morning. which isn't a good time for me to think, or make decisions anyhow.
i had a hard time gettin her out of bed as it was, but she finally gets up and comes downstairs. oh- not to mention the fact that i had to actually go UP to wake her up-- i usually call her cell to wake her up. that, didn't make me happy. [btw- first time i've been upstairs since the trauma of the dresser battle :)) ]
i'm still on my first cuppa coffee -- really not a good time to deal with any damn thing.
we at this point have about 45 minutes before we have to leave for school- so we chat a little like we do almost every day. no big deal right?
well.. time starts slippin by-- i finally ask if what she's wearin is what she's gonna wear to school. she says no. i'm like -- well, you better go get changed.
she says -- i will. we're talkin.
-- this same thing is said uncountable times over the next two hours --- yeh, i shityounot.
along with --
it's my birthday.
i'm not going to school
i have to clean upstairs for my party
and numerous other 'excuses, and i don't know what to say'

during this period of time-- i can't tell you how many times i told her to get ready and go to school. i threatened to call the truancy officer-- i even went so far as to 'fake call' them.... know what she did? she came and physically took my phone away from me.!

i threatened to call her school principal. i didn't though.

i can't call her dad at work-- because he is an instructor. and i never know when he is in class -- she knows i can't call him.
dammit i wish i could tho. cuz he puts the fear of God into her. me? obviously not.

she thought the whole thing was a joke -- while in the meantime-- i was having a literal anxiety attack/ panick attack . i KNOW she knew it-- cuz she kept telling me to calm down, settle down etc-- and i wasn't raising my voice or anything-- it must've showed on my face-- well, that or the fact that i was holding my chest-- couldn't breathe right -- or some such other clue. ugh.

i just couldn't believe this was happening -- between me and my CHILD.
MY mom? she woulda flew across the room in a rage and beat my ass -- all the way to school !!! seriously. of course-- i feared her like no other-- and i would have never even attempted such a stunt.

but yeh. yesterday was the FIFTH. soulkids 'birthday' is on the 9th. her party is TONIGHT.
i was completely under the belief -- not just understanding-- but i believed in my SOUL-- that yesterday was not only her party-- but her BIRTHDAY as well. her 'sweet sixteen", no less.

even so-- i wanted to make her go to school.... but i knew - know i cannot 'do ' a thing physically - to 'make her.'
she fears my discipline in no form or fashion.
she stayed home from school...
the only time she felt anything about the whole thing -- taking advantage of me-- consequences that we as parents could face for her amount of absences, all of it-- wasn't until soulman called on his lunch break -- boy i tell ya -- i took mine-- but she got it a lot worse than i did. he thought i shoulda done more-- but i reminded him that a dresser kicked my ass -- wth am i sposed to do -- i have zero strength left and SHE would fight back!
he called her phone and man-o-man. she will never try that shit again-- i KNOW this. NO ONE wants soulman yellin at em. not even a grown man. he's scary. even tho you KNOW he would never hit ya with his anaconda arms-- just his voice-- even on the phone will make ya cry. and i knew from the beginning he would be pissed --- and he was more than pissed.

next time-- if there is one-- i really will call the police--- fo shizzle--

now i have to go--

happy days -- it's saturday :))

g'bye

holy cow peeps--

sorry guys but i gotta re-run this post - this lil guy has jumped like a couple thousand spots in this contest !!! told ya he was adorable, didn't i? it let me vote again today, so click the parents photo link and vote early and vote often. he's in spot 122 at this point . i don't know about y'all, but that seems to me like that lil guy has a pretty good chance at winnin this thing. so go ahead , click it - and help brodie get his face on the cover of the rolling stone. oh nevermind-- that would be the cover of Parents Magazine. but hey, for a baby, and a mommy? that might as well be the rolling stone - dontchya think?

aside from that? i really have nuthin to report. other than to vaguely say that my own child played on my senility this morning. i can't believe i fell for it. hook, line , and sinker, i fell for it. i need a brain scan. really. i think i have finally crossed the line -- into true altzheimers land. really. people just don't do this. ugh. someone call the doctah.

and have a happy friday-

the sun is shinin here-- i hope it's shinin on you-

don't forget to vote-

byeeeeeeeeee

Parents Photo Faves

vote for baby brodie -- i insist :))

Parents Photo Faves

vote for Brodie !!!

(click on photo faves - his pic 'should come up'
since i already voted it looks all weird so i don't know if it works or not-- so someone let me know please -- so i can take it down if it doesn't work.-
if it does work-- it is supposed to take you directly to his photo on the contest , where you click his photo to vote for him to be on the cover of parents magazine!!! i think his mamma -- janelle -- jamies daughter - gets a pretty good lump a coal -- i mean, cash as well. and we all know a baby -- and one on the way could sure use that, right?

so give it a shot-- give brodie your vote -- and again, let me know if this works or not-- so i can tweeak it - or remove it. ok?

thanks folks --

have terrific days in your worlds today --
i'm gonna try--
the news keeps teasin us out here-- they talk of snow-- but then we get sunny 55-60 degree days -- i likee !!!

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

it's 1 a.m. and i have nuthin to say -

yet here i am. just for you. somethin will come to me. it's just that i can't sleep. and here i sit in a dim and silent -- well aside from the clicking of the keyboard it's silent, office. i really have been enjoying my office this last few days, btw. it looks really nice. it's clean, and organized, and comfy. and it's , for the most part-- mine. all mine. once in a while someone comes in to use the new computer, but that's alright. i hope it doesn't get screwed up. seems any time i have something nice that's 'mine', something happens to it. it breaks, or it get lost, or stolen. never fails. sometimes if i get really lucky? it's able to be fixed.. or maybe cheap enough-- or not too sentimental, that i can replace it. but 9 out of ten times? it's just damaged or lost and gone forever.

OH! that reminds me. weird how that works out eh?
do y'all remember a few months back that the news ran the thing on the robbery ring-- after our moving company robbed us? mainly of my jewelry? then i went out there and pilfered through all the stolen stuff? to see if any of it might be mine?
well, when i was there, some stuff looked familiar-- similar-- but i wasn't positive, and none of it was anything i was cryin over-- except one pair of gold hoop ear rings -- that may or may not be the ones my (dead) aunt got me many moons ago , when my dad was dying.
well, now, so much damn time has past, i can't remember everything i 'claimed' that 'might be mine-- except , like i said those ear rings. but yesterday, the mail man brought a certified letter in my name from the sheriffs office. yeh i know. i didn't feel real good about seein that. it could be any damn thing , right?
well, i finally got the nerve to open it, after runnin every scenario through my mind. and bein as prepared for the worst as i was gonna get.
guess what it was? yep-- a letter sayin that i had 7 days to make an appointment to claim my property, or it would be disposed of. well hell. 'my property' included not only jewelry, but also a TV. i didn't claim a TV. so WTH? did i? did i go senile between then and now-- or more senile should i say? hell if i know. i really don't remember claiming a tv on my police report-- or at the police station when i looked thru all that stuff.
that was such a surreal day. it really was. it was hard. so much of folks lives just laid out on tables. friggin asshats just went into these folks homes and helped their damn selves to whatever they wanted. it was literally sickening to see. and to touch. and to think that some of it was mine-- and not be positive.
now i go in next monday -- to claim this stuff-- and like i said-- the only thing that was actually worth a crap-- was the hoop ear rings-- and there really very common, how am i to know for sure if they are mine? if i don't claim em, they'll scrap em, if no one else does. i may as well get em right? obviously they look like mine. obviously the other stuff looks like mine - or else i wouldn't have 'claimed' it. and it aint like i claimed anything that wasn't mine or on my police report, or at least what i thought to be mine.
but again-- what about the tv? i'll know it if i see it and it IS mine. if it aint? they'll 'dispose ' of it if i don't take it. nah. i'm too honest to do somethin like that. i know i am. i'd feel so guilty i'd puke all the way home. maybe they'll donate it? not throw it away. ya think?

but anyhow. this is good. at least i'm gettin some of -- hopefully my stuff back. i really am hopin the ear rings are mine. the ones my aunt gave me. it hurt my heart when i saw them gone. it hurt my heart to see all of it gone. and it still does, it still comes up in conversation. of course , no one wants to hear me cry over spilled milk. so i try to not talk about it anymore. but like i said... that damn family curse, and schleprock luck, and ziggy thing i got goin on-- it's all just really not a good combination for one lil ole soul. ya know?

so-- i reckon i'll be havin a little good news for y'all next monday.
good news is always better than some of the other crap i spew around here eh?
yep, that's what i thought you'd say.

here's the news/police video from back then about the stolen goods -

so yeh, i guess that was september '09 ; after bein robbed in august '09 - on the 1st - by our movers. people we paid. trusted. fed. and still want to sue, beat up, throw rocks at ... or whatever. but will never see what's comin to them. all because the pawn shop camera 'was down ' the day they pawned a couple rings -- that i was at least fortunate enough to recover.

anyhow-- i guess that's enough for now-- for havin nuthin to say huh?

i am beyond tired, and i have ta pee. but of course- it's one-a- those nights that i am unable to sleep. so perhaps i shall sleep blog a little. i wonder whos page will get the most incoherent of the sleep babble?

whoever it is-- feel special, i don't do this as often as i used to :))

goo'nite folks
and have a pleasant tomorrow :))

i saw the witch doctah the witch doctah said

"you should stick to fishin, dumbass"

ok, so he didn't use those exact words. but i do ok at mind reading -- occasionally.

i have thus far been scolded by my spouse, my child, my sister, and the dr. not to mention myself. i knew better. i simply wanted the dresser down here because i was trying to get my office back in order. it was a literal hell pit. boxes of books, photos, pic frames, a box of tax crap that still awaits my attention-- that i lack-- as well as motivation. my office had become a catch- all. it had gotten to the point that over a month has passed that i don't even sit in here anymore -- this morning is the first time i've been in here since , possibly christmas. i don't know what happened. i had plans -- they just didn't seem to be working out. some things trickled out-- while others poured in. and i couldn't stand to look at it-- much less sit in the midst of it. ya know?

so-- the computer cam the other day -- my perfect motivation to get the office back in order-- get the mini tv out and a bigger one back in here, i love my couch i got in here -- it is much easier to maneuver than the one in the living room.. this one has reclining handles-- the living room ya have to use your legs and lemmee tell ya somedays-- that is a problem. i get stuck in there. for real.

so. yesterday -- i was motivated to just get the shit done. i felt strong. i felt motivated. the kitchen was no longer holding me back, cuz that was done and outta the way. soulman and soulkid were gone-- she had a driving class scheduled and he had stuff to do-- so that left me time alone to get down and dirty with no distractions to do my work. i get a lot more done alone that with people hangin around.

so i got the office to a point that it was time to get the dresser down here. i figured if i put it on it's top- it wouldn't be too heavy and i would have more control of it.
HA! boy was i wrong. the damn thing must weigh more than half of me -- and as soon as i got it on the stairs ? it was like a runaway train --- and i was holdin for dear life !!!
i don't know if that was good or bad... but it sure didn't feel good.



all this happened around 1030-1045 . my body was between the banister and the chest. well -- when i started? i was behind it. when it got away from me - i ended up between it, and the wall. and by the time it crashed into the wall, and stopped? i was on my ass, and more in front of it. it all happened really fast actually. so i can only imagine what it all must have 'looked like'.

i had several words and phrases go thru my mind rather quickly before i rose to my feet. as you can well imagine. such as.
'you dumbass, you knew better'
'you shoulda waited for soulman'
shit! what if you broke a rib!'
go sit down and chill a while-- and don't smoke!'

so-- yeh, i did, i went and sat down on the couch, drank a little water, my hands were shaking-- it was scary yall, i never fell like that-- downstairs with a dresser dragging me , before. alone. in my physical condition. and i really couldn't hardly breathe. that was the worst part. the not bein able to breath. that scared me. i wondered if punctured a lung. and with my passe lung deal? and knowing i have an injury (an infarct/scar - on one -- that would not be good)

so-- i just took a couple pain pills, sat for a while til i could breathe, and chilled, til my hands stopped shaking. then i called soulman. just to let him know what happened. i didn't want him to stop what he was doin or anything. i felt by then that i would be alright, i didn't really think anything was broken... or if it was, i didn't think it was like a punctured lung like i did before. the meds were beginning to help. and i was even about to get back to work. i just wanted him to know-- well, in case he came home and i was in worse case than i thought i might be in.

well... the meds kicked in and did fine-- not without residual pain, and shortness of bresth, but i was able to get the office finished , and ready for computer hookup, and tv hook-up. neither of which are finished -- cuz i did end up goin to one of those 'care-now' places for an ex-ray. cuz once the meds totally wore off-- it became unbearable. so me- never having broken a rib-- i thought i should get it checked out. if i didn't have the shortness of breath and lung pain-- i may have rode it out-- cuz i'm only allowed to get pain meds from my pain doc -- i didn't think they really did anything else if it woulda been broke-- so i was mainly concerned about any lung damage. so i had hubby take me down the road-- maybe about 5 pm.

results? no break. contusions. take pain meds- and ice it.

ice it? my ass i will. ice on me makes me cry.
i did use my heating pad-- and that seemed to help a bit. i also was forced to bed early-- sitting up hurts, laying down is better-- but after a while even that gets painful. which brings me to the fact of waking up like three times in the night to take a pill--- the fourth time at like 2:45-- i just stayed up-- the pain was really bad -- and i knew i just needed to get UP at that point. so i did. and here i am.

leave it to me, right?

and smocha--- you are exactly right-- that's what the doc said-- big breaths-- cuz little breaths -- can cause pneumonia. yippee--- big breaths are painful. but pneumonia is even more painful.

so. as for any fishin in the near future? that won't be happening. and neither will anything else that requires movement or breathing.

yay me---

but hey-- it really could have been worse.
one of these days- i will realize -- ok, accept, the fact that i have shriveled up to a no- muscle tone ole lady.

good meds make me not as strong as i think sometimes.
dammit.

but hey-- on the bright side? i got the job done--- right?

happy sunday -- hope the sun is shinin--
i missed a wonderful sunny day yesterday---
if today is like yesterday--- i must find a way to at least get out somehow - for some reason.

i refuse to lay in bed all day-- altho that is the most comfy position at this time-- snow is in the near forecast-- and i don't want to miss another sunny day.

hopefully y'all are safe and happy today-
don't do anything stupid :))

laterz

crap ! i almost forgot !! -- HEY come back i have a couple more :))

mornin peoples -- i'm sorry these are late gettin up here. actually, by now you've prolly noticed it's become a habit -- but, gimme a chance -- i'll get better -- for now though, i still try. i just have a memory issue, but it comes to me :))

anyhow, these are not what i had planned on taking for the 'wood' challenge, but it was the best i could do, runnin around the house in five minutes. :((

soulman had a creative idea -- but if i woulda taken the shot he chose? chances are i would be arrested. :)) but he gets an A for effort .

oh folks - here ya go -- my three for the photo challenge :

(stuff around my house -)

WOOD

(an antique wooden insulator)

(the bottom of the next photo-
an american indian handcarved wooden bowl


is that cool or what?
i have no clue of it's value - but it is authentic

a wooden lighthouse - birdhouse
it will be hanging outside when it gets warmer :))

welp sorry they're late folks - but as they say -- better late than never. right? and my apologies for the back-drop. i really had no other choice under the circumstances.
i'll do better next time. :))

happy days peoples-
hoping the sun shines on you in your worlds !

* UPDATE *

hi again -- to some of you
and a cheerio to the the rest of ya -

so. anyhow. are ya wonderin why i felt the need to pop in here in the middle of the day after already posting my photos? well, i'll tell ya why.
a funny thing happened on the way down the stairs this morning, and well , it just happened to involve a large and quite heavy wooden object.
the worst part? it also happened to involve me. well, i should say me, as in my body.
you see, i'm really not the most graceful person to walk the earth. in fact, i am quite klumsy. there's a family phrase actually -- with my name being brenda -- and a rarely used nickname being 'Brezz" -- when anyone in the family bumps into a wall, or something of that sort -- someone - a witness to that , will pipe up and say
' you - or (insert name) brezz'd the wall'
so yeh, i am 'that' bad.
so without further ado --
here's the evidence of my klutzy-ness
oh - and did i mention, i think i have a broken rib?
well, it is a possibility - but one i am hoping against.
i wrapped myself up with ace bandages, and took pain meds --
so far it's tolerable -- but i don't know if i'll make it through the night without seein a dr. i don't need meds - obviously.. but an x-ray may be in order. :((
go soul !

them's the breaks i reckon
haha skuze the pun

happy weekend folks!

dan seals did a song a long time ago - called 'wood'. i thought it would be appropriate to put the video here-- but i can't find one. bummer. it was a good song.

laterz y'all.

fried-day tid bits

howdy folks-- hope y'all are havin a fine fine friday -

mine's not really anything to complain about - so far. i'm sure i could change that at any time -- i'm good at that ya know. but i don't wanna go there. not today. i'm actually doin pretty good lately. as far as I go, that is. the meds seem to be workin fairly well. no , i take that back. let's say-- they're workin. and God knows - that is most definitely a good thing.

i am still having a mean motivational problem though. if i knew how to get a hold of some speed -- i am afraid i would have to be forced to look into that option, at this point. i cannot seem to DO anything. i am lucky i manage the minimum required of me. and for those who know me? the minimum is not enough, and that alone depresses me. but-- even so-- my family is backing me up, knows i'm struggling with the med change -- and like me, awaits the shit to just settle and adjust with my system. we are all just happy that i am not a basket case like i was just a short time ago. so-- other than that? i doubled the dose of the devil - i mean med last night-- and so far today, i don't feel any different than i did with the other dose -- so for that -- i am happy. i expected to be a zombie. well, more of the zombie than i already am.
but i am alright. and really hoping to accomplish more on my list than i have as of late.

so. now that i'm done 'soul-bashing. '

do y'all remember 'this' song? it's :

"Silent Lucidity by Queensryche :"

Queensryche Silent Lucidity @ Yahoo! Video

(embedding isn't allowed on u-tube, but the original video is there - and oh so much better. if you go there -- well here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-H0u7f2UK_4 it is most awesome - and you will see the band --- *note the guitarist :)) -- who is also the songwriter of this particular song.)

anyhow-- are you wondering why i even care about any of this??? or better yet, why i think y'all should care? well, i will tell you. or perhaps -- maybe i will show you first -- then i will tell you. how's that sound?
ok--- first,

display number 1 --


and now-- display #2




so. yeh . i thought that was pretty cool.

and no. i'm not much of an autograph collector, per say -
but if and when the opportunity presents itself, i'll take one. and soulkid has always kinda liked to get an autograph here and there. she has many different people.
especially pro-fisherman/fisherwomen, from back in the day when i fished tournaments. i did that for a couple of years, and she was able to meet many of them on the circuit. and get photos with them and autographs etc. she enjoyed all of that-- of course she would never admit it now. :))

so. how did we come to get these particular signed photos ? is that what you're askin yourselves? well, i can tell ya -- but i might have ta kill ya. oh shaddup. i know it's the oldest and worst line in the world-- i just couldn't resist.

anyhow-- the only way i can tell ya is to not mention my hubbys place of employment. which i know doesn't help a whole lot- cuz i know several of you already know it. so. on that note-- for those who do know -- let's keep that on the DL - k?
aiiighty then .

soulman just so happens to work at a place that 'celebrities' are not uncommon to him. sometimes on a daily, maybe monthly basis. so in his line of work this passed week, it just so happens that he is in contact with the 'guitarist/songwriter' of the band queensryche this week.

(insert teen screeching here :))

i know guys, yes it has been twenty years since this particular song was in the top ten. and yes, i also know that it was the hair band age, and cry in your beer days. ok , cry in MY beer days. but this song was one of those songs that just means a lot to me, and prolly always will. it has always found it's way onto my -- well, back then it was a 'mixed tape' now i spose it's a 'play list'... but yeh, believe it or not-- it is there, even to this day.

some of you may know -- or by now be able to figure out why it means what it does to me. but hey... i really was like a teenage girl when soulman came home the other day and told me who was in his class.

i didn't think about asking for the pic to be signed 'to SOUL" until it was too late. that woulda made it twice as cool. to me anyhow.
but i still think it's pretty cool.

and did you notice what soulkids says?
"you have the coolest dad in the world--except for maybe stella mcartney"

hahahah--- he may be old -- but he still rocks!

go check out the song --- it really is a good one.

and on that happy note i shall go-- and try my best to be productive today-

have happy days in your worlds--
i shall try

it's a NOsun day in tejas -- but it's pushin about 50 degrees - so that's tolerable. perhaps even fishable, IF i manage to clean the kitchen!! bleh save meeee

well, who knew my blog would turn into a dog mission?

not me. but i bet y'all like it better than my usual whine festivals?
that's not for me to say. i don't know what y'all like to hear from me. sometimes i wish i did know. that's why some days i just don't write anything. i simply don't know what to say. if anything.

but this skeletor thing. (the dog that showed up at my nephews' house) it amazes me. not only the dog, and his surviving under only God knows what circumstances. but now, the recent out-pour of love, hope, and of course donations, towards 'skeletor' and of course the 'kids' who took him in. i have no doubts that sooner or later skeletor will find a good home.

unfortunately-- the latest news on poor skeletor that i read this morning? he did have his vet-check. go wes!!! but-- yeh, not such good news from the doggie doc.


and really no real update yet on how--- or if it is treatable. but skeletor was heart worm positive. it's a very bad diagnosis to hear from a vet --- for any animal. even if he's only new in your life. if you have been following the story on this animal-- you know he is loved world-wide. no kidding. he is the talk of the town. blogs, face-book, your town, my town, people we don't know town. check out his blog-- read his face-book , friend him on face-book --- the DOG has more friends than i do on there... i looked this morning--- skeletor - a dog, had 105 friends at last check. it's crazy. he's a STAR!

donations are coming in slowly, but surely for his cause-- and his care.
when and if he does find a home-- any proceeds --- will be donated to the pit bull rescue in southern florida. (wes lives in north florida- jacksonville) the dog is in no condition to travel at this point. but the kids are taking great care of him -- they even make sure he gets lots of love, and play, and fooood, and shelter. they are falling in love with him-- like many who are following his story. i hope this ends on a good note. with skeletor finding a happy loving home. he's a happy loving dog -- that's one thing we all know -





so please, don't worry about thinking wes may be gettin too much money that may be kept for himself-- right now -- expenses are high for skeletor , and now with the heart-worm diagnosis-- treatment could and will skyrocket into the high hundreds-- if not more. so please help.
just look at that babeeeeeeee.


so anyhow-- are you bored yet? had enough outta me for one day?

i think i have. besides , i gots things to do-- and part of that, is makin my rounds and checkin up on y'all.

go check out all of skeletors links -- he is rockin the computer world-

skeletors blog

(to view donations and donors - go to the blog- and click - "skeletor says thanks "

as of now?

Skeletor and his foster parents would like to say
Thank You
to all who have contributed to his rehabilitation!
Over $200 has been received so far!

• Beth Z.
• Querida L.
• Bert M.
• Katie R.
• Roxanne D.
• Yileen L.
• Marilee W.
• Brooke K.
• Valerie W.
• Jennifer D.
• Amy H.
• Caitlin S.
• Jamie K.

------
i'm sure after all that has been bought for his needs up to date, and now the vet visit? surely more than 200.00 has been spent. i also can tell you i know of a couple donations that are on the way via snail mail, but the heart-worm treatment will be markedly over $1000.00.
everyone is rooting for skeletor-- and he thanks you.


skeletors face book

donate to skeletor


ok y'all-- hope you have happy days in your worlds today-- if i can manage to remain vertical today- i will be busy... if not? well, i guess i won't.

either way--- good day :))

your skeletor dollars at work :))

snippets from

skeletors blog

skeletor- day one
"please sir- feed me"

there's food somewhere-- i smell it!
giveittomeNOW

I think maybe the weight reported yesterday was wrong. Today he weighed in at 43.5lbs. Perhaps yesterday we got a bad reading or miscalculated. He definitely looks and acts better.

Toys, a leash, and food - Oh My!!!

OMG !
food, AND a TOY?
thanks to everyone for your donations!!!!
God bless you all !

Thanks to your donations, we made a trip to PetSmart to pick up some various goods for Skeletor. It's dark now, so I'll post pics tomorrow. One thing is for sure... dog toys is a racket!

I FEEL GOOD !
(and look - i'm not tearing out her throat ! )

this house full of young folks are so nice to me
i never wanna leave !
but, i have to-
please help me find a home.
i'm a good doggie :))
i will love and protect you forever-
just love me.

hodgepodge in a hurry - (plus dr. update)

don't ya love it when i'm in a hurry?
you know you won't be suckered into readin nonsenical babble for a half an hour. i apologize for doin that-- but you know you love it -- sometimes. :))
but really-- i am runnin short on time right now. i need to get ready to take the kid to school, then head to a dr. appointment right after that.
and yeh, she did come home sick yesterday. she did act like she didn't feel well... but i wonder. ya know. she seems ok today. course i haven't 'seen' her yet. she's upstairs gettin ready. but i don't know. anyhow-- it's work and time that she has to make up-- not me. so whatever. sick or not-- it's her time.

so-- lemmee start with this:

the dog- pit bull that my nephew in jax florida found a couple days ago-
he is nursing him back to health, and takin him for a vet check -- prolly a microchip check etc too-- he may be lost and starved on his own, and really not abused like most of us think.
my nephew is a young man, who doesn't have a lot of extra money to take care of this dog like this awaiting his safe adoption-- so- i'll follow my sisters lead -- and put up this link here--- please, if at all possible, if you can find it in your heart, send a small donation for the care and vet visit of 'Skeletor". so he doesn't find himself gettin the needle before his time. he has a friendly and loving disposition. my nephew wants to keep the dog, but he has his own pets, and a homeowners association. he is unable to keep skeletor. this poor dog deserves a good home.
please help wes nurse him back to health and find him a home. without help from us , he may not be able to even keep him that long.

thanks in advance folks:

http://fuelmultimedia.com/temp_found_dog/



just go there and drop of a few bucks-- you know it's goin to a good cause.

and hey, besides that--- i will personally volunteer that for every 50.00 raised for the care of skeletor--

each nephew will pull some wild stunt such as this ---
this photo is wes-- floridian in chicago-- just love him :)) this has to be worth the first donation; no? you know it is :))

(as a matter of fact-- yes,
"it" does run in the family :))

and, on that happy note- i am out of time- if i get any reportable news-- which i hope to-- from the dr today-- i shall update latah---

happy tuesday folks-

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dr. update - and maybe more

ok, i'll drink to that.
they're all horses asses.
dr jekyll's , mr hydes, and nurse ratcheds'
every last one of em.
i must say, that i have gotten more doctors off their lazy ass,
and more answers that have led to diagnoses -
of and on my own, than any of the so called doctors that i have ever seen.
except for ONE.
can you believe that?
ONE doctor out of maybe literally 100 + of them?
over a span of possibly 16 years or more.
that is pure insanity.
from both sides.

if i were to include physical pain here-- such as the back pain, and migraine headaches? we could be talkin about a span of 22 years ! several of those years being active duty navy- or a military wife. meaning -- also more military dr's.. then after that? VA hospitals-- more military treatment - of low budget- hurry up and wait. "we don't have time for complicated cases-- so get the hell out and take what you get." but-- i also have to admit here , that the ONE doctor that actually probably saved my life, and did find a diagnosis and starting point with my multitude of physical problems, was at a VA hospital in New Mexico. yes i know. the place i often refer to as Hell. because mentally and emotionally-- living there has both times-- landed me in a very bad mental state-- and the last time in approximate '05, damn near physically killed me. i got so very sick. sick enough that we-- me, my dr (s), and my husband were searching for cancer. we almost thought i had it at one point .. and rather than be terrified-- like the rest of the family? i was relieved to give 'it' a name.
i was finally happy to know why i was shriveling up to nuthing. being unable to get out of bed. i needed to know what was wrong-- i didn't care what it was. but after a breast lump was removed and found to be benign? the family rejoiced-- while i found disappointment in starting at the beginning again. because i still didn't know what the hell was wrong with me. i continued to get sicker-- in every way imaginable. for no reason? WTF? the tests continued. until finally-- i got a diagnosis that i could live with, and manage. it was called addison's disease-- also known as adrenal deficiency. yeh i know- that's what i thought too. but they gave me meds and they helped in no time. i gained weight - i regained strength and energy. i felt alive again.
i however was still depressed about living in 'hell', and so did soulkid. that place is just not for us. of course soulman knew we went out there only because it's what he wanted-- to be near his family. he watched both of with our own different struggles, and not only us-- but he wasn't happy either. so- yes we packed up and came back home. to texas. not that many of the physical and emotional problems haven't followed any of the three of us--- for the most part it was a very much needed move we had to make. for so many different reasons. some of those are resolved now-- and some were even life threatening- as some of you know.

so. here i am.... babblin like a brooke-- too bad i aint fishin eh?
ya still with me peoples? sorry bout all the yackin... just a little background for some folks who don't know the whole story.
i'm gettin closer to today tho--i

so anyhow--- gettin more to the point-- i mentioned recently-- that for the past three years or so- i have been seeing a nurse practitioner, rather than the real endocrinologist md - or whatever he is. MD PA whatevah--

i saw the show mystery diagnosis a few weeks ago-- which lit a fire under my ass - that i was gonna demand to see the real dr-- or move on to a new place altogether. i was fed up with seeing this NP - that knows less than i do about this whole thing one more time. so i fixed all that and rescheduled my upcoming appointment to be with him. it pushed me back some. but it was worth the wait.

so--- in the meantime-- i'd watched the tv show-- portraying a lady with 16 years of hell-- many similar if not exact symptoms such as mine-- her diagnosis? an adrenal tumor. hmmmm. aside from demanding to see the real dr-- i also hit dr google up for some answers.

but wait-- there's more-- sorry y'all, there's always more tho- isn't there?
it's cuz i'm me. you know that. right?

well, it just so happened - that my appointment - for some reason, i forgot- got changed , again, by the office, and was pushed back by another week--
that didn't bother me.. i think it had something to do with the ten inches of snow last week or something- anyhow--

during the wait-- i somehow stumbled upon a 'new to me'.... disease-- or syndrome or some such thing. i only found it like three or four days ago. and i really don't know how. i don't remember what i was 'lookin ' for. but it wasn't that. OH-- i know-- it was images! somehow- i came across some images -- while not looking for these images-- but i saw them.
here-- lemmee show ya--

see the more reddish ones?
some i know look like bruises- but some are red kinda-

well - good ole nurse practitioner - tells me like a year or more ago, when the begin to appear on my arms and legs - that they are broken blood vessels/ you have thin skin/ nuthin to worry about/ etc. i of course over a period of time try to find more info- ask other doctors etc-- i can't find a thing- or get any answers- so i finally accept that "it's nuthin to worry about."

UNTIL-- i stumble onto that photo--- it happens to be a symptom--one of many -- of "Bechet's disease" -- well, i'll be damned. it does happen to be blood vessel related - forgot what the page i found it on called that specific 'condition'. but guess what else is included -- or involve with 'bechet's' ? no guessers? lemmee help ya out k? -

1-let's call em 'cheetah spots - yup
2-vasculitis - yup-- i have that in my head - and apparently these mystery spots are due to that too 'vasculitis'
3-brain lesions - yup - found on MRI after second seizure
4-seizures- umm yup (x3)
5-central nervous system 'issues/pain -- yup y'all know that
6-recurrent oral ulceration (abtheous ulcers) is the characteristic symptom for the diagnosis of Behçet disease
Malaise
Anorexia
Weight loss
Generalized weakness
Headache / migraines
Perspiration
Decreased temperature
Clinical features - arthritis-have been reported as pain, tenderness, swelling, limitation of joint movement, warmth, and morning stiffness.
pulmonary vascular thrombosis -- such as the lung clot -

o Acquired hypersensitivity to streptococcal antigens plays an important role in the etiopathology of Behçet disease.

y'all do remember me sayin more than once that "i can look at someone with strep- and get sick?
in fact-- when i got the lung clot-- it was because i was sick with mono- and strep at the same time-- = 5 days in bed. at least that's what we all thought.

so. i told the doc all of this-- and i will see a rhumatoid doc for a Pathergy (skin hyperreactivity) test. which is a prick on the forearm-- seems like it's similar to a TB test - only different :))

and when that's done-- i'll let ya know what happens-

but if it's positive-- and by the looks of the symptoms-- which i have like 99.9 % of?
i'm not feelin too hopeful. there's no cure-- and if this is what i have, at the 'stage i am at- with the brain and CNS involvement? well. do the math.

of course-- soulman and soulkid don't read here very much- if at all-- so if possible-- let's keep this between us k?

they like to be in the dark-- believe it or not.


so - i'll let ya know when i get stuck-at the rheumatoid doc i mean.

til then-
hope ya get some sunshine in your world-- i'm lookin for it-