i rule this house with an iron paperclip - dammit

and i demand respect. is it any wonder that i don't get any? ya, i didn't think so.

i spent half the day yesterday working -- in the house, and on business stuff. but early on in the midst of my business calls, i got some , well , messed up news. which really wouldn't have bothered me -- much -- if i wouldn't have been lied to about it like a week ago. but i was. so when i was told about it over the phone -- let's just say i came unglued. oh, well.. you prolly need more info don't you? well.. soulkid has gone to summer school for like the last two years -- we're used to it, she should be used to it-- it just seems to be the way things go. if she would have told me about it, i woulda just said bummer, how much does it cost, and i woulda sucked it up, and made any future plans for the month around it. just like always. BUT... that isn't how it happened.
she came up with a story about it being optional, and costing 150.00 per class, and also said she did not have to go, since she would not be going to this same school next year. y'all know how cheapskate i am. i was just glad we wouldn't have to fork over like 600.00 smackers for three weeks of summer school. so i didn't bring it up again.
dum, dum, dum.... til yesterday on the phone. when the lady asked me-- will she be attending the summer program? i say... no....ummm, well... does she have to? she says, let me check her records--- yes, yes she does. i said was a letter sent home for me to sign??? --- yes a form was sent home , about a week ago. --- oh, reallllly??
i was getting madder and madder by the second. the reason i was calling in the first place? was to get her papers-- so that she could go to drivers ed. once again, i find out something negative-- trying to do something FOR her. it was just like the times i would go in her room to get towels or laundry-- and find -- "other things".
i also found out that her grades and attendance may prevent her from even getting to go to drivers ed. ERG. not, a nice phone call... but i was able to keep my composure. so i spose we could say at least I am getting better through all this shit.
BUT when i called her out to confront her with it??? it did NOT go as smoothly.
why i expected it to--- i have no idea.
it wasn't the summer school that upset me. she can go to summer school for the rest of her life for all i care-- next year she may have a job-- if that's the case-- she can even pay for it herself. the part that had me upset ? she lied. and the lieing is a huge part of what we are trying to put a stop to around her after all we have gone through this past year. we will never get this family back on its feet if the bs lieing continues.
i was highly pissed.
so i get her out here-- and i grounded her-- not for summer school--- but for lieing about it. for threading her little tale about it. and for "losing" the form that was sent home.
let the yelling begin.--- not by me. i was cool as a cucumber. until she she dropped the F - bomb-- at me.
i fired back-- she fired back--
i sent her outta here with a list of chores to do---
and need i say--- that NOT ONE THING on that list was done???
i'm not surprised.

then later when dad got home-- i thought he might "talk to her"
but he's of course her ali. he talked to her about fighting with me-- but nothing else.

then later-- like really late-- 1 a.m. one of her friends father was arrested-- yes arrested-- i don't know-- for a warrent or something. i don't know how long he will be in jail... but the little brother and sister got picked up by mom who lives somewhere else-- guess who has the friend-- yep , you guessed it. we inherited a kid. WTH??
i do not mind helping out at all-- don't take that wrong. but what i'm saying is-- with one of her best friends LIVING here? wth kinda grounding is that?? how the hell am i to expect her to get one lick of chores done???

AND i have angie coming... i want my house to be clean... two teens here? omg-- mine is messy enough-- if the other stays that long-- ???? angie will walk straight into hell.
but-- that part can't be helped. the extra kid i mean. the mess? i'm gonna have to find a backbone. too bad it's frickin broke! it aint yellow--- really. i just don't have the strength to argue all day.

sooooo... that was my yesterday---
i really wanted to get the hell outta here today and fish some in the peace and quiet--
but hubby wants to house hunt-- just drive around and look.. so i think we're headed out to do that.

GAWD i hate waiting to hear about this loan. why do they take so frickin long??
i'm havin a nervous breakdown.
not for real peeps.. calm down. i'm ok. just stressed a little.

'll talk to ya lata...

warning: assy woman ahead ---

I am having a helluva time trying to do anything on my computer this morning. I don’t know why, but the damn thing just doesn’t want to move at all. It keeps timing out, locking up, and pissin me off! It got me around a little bit, earlier, then pretty much quit. Well, as far as the internet goes at least.

So, I suppose I will just see if I can come up with anything postworthy here— (on word) and move it over later on.

What sucks about this situation—aside from the fact that my entire morning routine has been screwed. Because I normally smoke – n- choke online for a couple hours every morning. Ugh.

Today is also, payday—and that also means a day, that I absolutely need the internet to be working; So I can check my banks, move money around, pay bills, etc etc etc. you know , all that fun stuff.

But nooooo. I am me. Remembah.

Aha!... it decided to work … so I did get to smoke and choke for a bit—just not as long as I usually do. But that’s ok. of course not without getting bumped offline a couple times-- which infuriates me. but oh well.

So , anyhow I am assuming that I will be able to do my bills and crap online afterall. Good. I hate when I have to go out to do all that runnin around and crap. Which I will have to do anyhow—just not as much.

So, anyways…. Today is supposed to be 67 degrees. They have been saying so all week long. And I have been waiting for this day and this temperature, all friggin week. So it better happen.. or the weather mans’ ass is MINE. and not in a good way.

Yesterdays temp wasn’t terrible, but the wind was. The wind has sucked all week long. I know—I know—many of you are freezing to death in snow up to your neck… but I live in Texas for a reason… and it is so I do not have to live – or die that way. I want to FISH!
I want to go outside without a jacket… I want to wash my car, which is now covered in a film of road splatter, bugs, and dirt from my Arkansas trip. It looks like hell. But, really, do any of you think I was gonna go to the car wash in 50 degrees with wind at 20-30 mph? nope I didn’t think so. So I haven’t.

But anyhow—today is sposed to be warm.. but windy—but if the wind isn’t like it has been lately—I shall be a fishin fool. Bwa ha ha ha ha ha ha . (sorry, lost control for a sec)

Anyhow, guess I shall go do my stuff, so if the day does turn out like they say—I will be able to enjoy at least some of it.

What a bunch of CRAP ! I wonder if it is just MY computer connection that is soooo screwed up???? WTF? It just took TWO HOURS to check ONE bank. I even deleted pix and files thinking maybe I was bogged down with my own crap. Did it help? Hell no.

I coulda just waited , and gone to the bank to do that stuff…woulda been a lot less stressful. And faster too. but i am stubborn.. as you all have surely figured out by now.

Of course some of the stress was the headache I got from sushi sitting right on the back of my chair—barking her high pitched dumb ass bark--- at every single little sound--- like the 150 kids car doors closing as they get dropped off in front of my house. (to walk across the street to school)

And also—my own child—draggin her ass and being late this morning—but not only her—but the TWO friends that came over this morning to walk with her. She made them late as well—even though I told them to GO. all of them, more than once.

Ever feel like no one gives a damn what you say? Hmmm.. ya well.. I thought ya might. Just checkin.

I am not liking the start of this day so far… so all I can say is yep—the weather better be nice, sunny, and fishable—with no wind… and I better have time to fish after all my damn dishes and runnin around.

This whole house is goin to hell here. It’s like no one gives a crap anymore—not them—or me. my kitchen looks like like death ran through. ugh.

I have a damn migraine. Just thinking about this crap pisses me off.

Wanna know what else pisses me off??? 400.00 electric bills. That’s what. I just got my 2^nd one for this house. There oughtta be a law that makes the landlord pay for crap like that. at least partially. Obviously something is very wrong with the heater. Hubby did talk to the landlady about it a few weeks ago after the first outrageous bill.. of almost 375.00--- she did have some guy come out—but obviously—he didn’t fix the problem. this one? 391.72!!!! that's just wrong. i bet that's why they moved. ERG!

i'd friggin move too-- but oh hell no-- i'm not even unpacked from this move! holy hell. :))

Well. Grouchy much????

Guess I will see if this will post, and then I will get this day movin.

That , or I will don my fabulous 20.00 over the counter reading glasses that I finally broke down and bought—along with a book—that, believe it or not—I just started to read last night and am absolutely amazed that I can SEE! i only made it to like page six :)) before i fell asleep-- but i can SEE!

Just think what might happen if I had REAL glasses… I might be able to drive. oh hell, i might even be able to drive in the dark! Hmmmm. someone come light a fire under soulmans' ass! he's only told me for what, a YEAR that he would get me an appointment!

Anyhow—I hope you all have happy days in your worlds today---

I’ll let ya know how it goes here.

Perhaps I will see a fishin fairy today??? That would do a lot for the attitude , dontcha think?