Friday, July 3, 2009

OMG It's Billy Idol @ MY White Wedding













BILLY IDOL !?

see what i mean? same lip thang
goin on there. you should see me when i really try to do it.
BUT i have never once noticed
i had that look in my Wedding Picture! i LMAO when i noticed
it last night.

my "idol smile" makes soulman crack-up every time i "try" to do it ... but him laughing makes it almost impossible for me cuz it makes me laugh too. but at least it's an easy way to get us laughin. Lord knows we could use some of that around here.... so i think i'll sneak one in on him today. it's when he knows i'm tryin that i can't do it. :))

so anyhow, i'm gonna work on packin up my dishes and kitchen stuff today. a little premature maybe, but i can't have dishwashing, and messy kitchens be takin up all my packing time and energy. so gettin that out of the way first will leave me more time and energy and less stress, and recovery time for the rest of the place. paper plates and Styrofoam cups are the best inventions ever discovered !!

when we-- my siblings and i -- were younger -- beginning when i was like 9 til i was about seventeen -- the older two were gone by then, but my mom had this older couple that were friends of hers. earlier on, we thought they were "old" , i think they may have been in their late sixties or so. early sixties maybe. more likely. but anyhow. our mom would always.. always.. whether we ate there, or stayed there, or just visited for an hour... would make me , and my sister -- if she was there.. if not- it would be just me. but that lady's kitchen became OUR duty. or MY duty after my sis was gone. it was a nightmare. by that time, we had never seen a kitchen look so bad. days of dirty dishes, and splatter, and mess. it was just horrible. it was a much bigger chore than either of us would ever expect from kids at the ages we were at that time... 9 and 12. we vowed we would never have our kitchens look that way.
well... they never did. UNTIL ... well... what can i say---- once i had my first major crackup , i think the kitchen was the first to go. and here, years later, it seems to still be the easiest to ignore. it is like walking right back into HB's kitchen. the kitchen from hell. the place we never wanted to go cuz we knew what awaited us, but also knew if we didn't go-- we might not eat that day-- or might not have a place to stay. but here, there is no reward... except maybe a day of a clean kitchen. the next day? it explodes again and i just want to close my eyes and make it go away.
well, it's clean now. every dish -- just about -- is washed and ready to go. and go they will.
so now you know where my kitchen resentment and deep dish washing hate came from. child abuse and neglect. hahahahaha. i can laugh about it , but only when my kitchen is clean. when it's a shithole -- i just want to throw stuff in the trash. as some of you know is an expensive thing to do--- so "don't try this at home". :))

oh, a few posts back, in my dr whinefest post... a lot of you asked about a nurse-- i only mentioned it in the comments, and meant to bring it over here, but-- well, i forgot. { but yes, there actually WAS a nurse in the room at pain management hell... she was robotic, silent, and useless. all she did was stand and write what he told her to write.
(did he have a single word to write about my "breast exam?" -- OR THAT he DID one??? NOPE. ) }
--
but, something i haven't mentioned? ironically , the next day, the neuro dr's office called me... i was thinkin at first it might have somethin to do with that awful visit-- or that i walked out of it. but it was about my labs they did -- which were all fine-- no lupus, no sojourners' ... which is good... but i still wonder, WTH is wrong with me now. but while i had her on the phone, i did tell her about the visit with the other dr. she seemed quite surprised, and told me she was writing everything i was saying down and would give it to my dr and let him know. BUT i haven't heard from him, her, or anyone else since then.. so-- who knows.
hubby and i have talked about my next move in this pain dilemma of mine. i think i'm gonna go back to the dr that gave me the shots in my neck. even tho my neuro dr said he didn't think they would work-- which is why i didn't go back for the second one. it is said that it sometimes may take three or more to begin to relieve pain when it's bad enough. but when he said it wouldn't work-- i saw money being thrown away-- so i cancelled the appointment. well, while i was at pain management hell-- that dr told me that my dr didn't think that dr (the one who gave me the shots) got the diagnosis right---the cervical radiculopathy. . ummm well excuse me, that is the only diagnosis i have got that explains ANY of this nerve pain and crap at all.
so i think he has it right and i'm gonna go back. guess i'll take it from there.

and as for today , aside from packing my kitchen, i am goin to a giant yard sale down the road soon. i don't even know if i remember the last time i went to one. but hubbby came home yesterday telling me of " a giant basket " he saw at a yardsale. he was like-- i don't know what you'd do with it but... i was like SHOES!!!!! i want it for shoes!!! because everyone comes in and tosses shoes all over the place. in new mexico-- i had a wicker old bassinet i used for shoes.. worked out pretty well. and this is a nice basket. i'll show y'all a pic later. it's huge. monstrous. where the hell am i gonna put it? haha.

ok, so i'm gonna go. another day without a headache. at least for now--- hope it lasts. yippee.

hope y'all have really good weekends--- don't have any big plans for the 4th-- do you?

8 comments:

Cheryl said...

You look like a movie star in your wedding dress. Wow!! You really clean up :)

Glad it was a headache-free day. Maybe the start of a trend? Keep plugging away...maybe the neck shots are the way to go.

Private school=no new clothes. Woohoo.

Golden To Silver Val said...

May I say you were a beautiful bride! Did you save your gown for soul-kid? I've still got mine preserved in plastic. Hope today is a good one for you. Have a wonderful holiday weekend. I'm going to write you that email now. (I fell asleep last night before I could get to it).

Brenda said...

I'm happy you're starting the day without a headache!

I think your lip smirk is more Elvis than Billy.

Take it easy and take it slow with the packing. You've gotta take some time to kick back ya know.

SOUL said...

hey cheryl, lemee know how that private school thing works out k?
i have considered military school a few times here, but haven't been pushed quite that far yet.
BWA HAHAHAHA

uniforms are the way to go --- she had to wear them in NM... but now blames us for her loss of identity. bleh.

have a great weekend...

btw--- the headache got me-- i shoulda known better than to say a word. stress + PMS = a week long migraine for me. fun stuff.
NOT

haha @ the movie star ;@

SOUL said...

hi charlotte-
i was waitin for that question.
i was working too much that i didn't have time to even find a wedding gown. or anything else , for that matter. if it weren't for my friends we woulda ended up eloping to vegas for a quickie in NAVY coveralls or levis. :))
one of my friends sisters had just got married months or weeks earlier, and after i had spent as much time as i did have on searching for a gown, she remembered that we were about the same size and asked if i could try it on... she said yes, it fit-- so she let me borrow it. i was a nervous wreck the entire time i wore it.... which was as short a time as possible... only through the actual wedding part, and pix. when we did the cake thing, i was so scared we were gonna get cake on that dress i thought i might have a heart attack. i bet i wore it all of about thirty minutes before i changed. we didn't even stay for our own reception ! we so didn't know how to get married :))
we left all the food and people there and went to our hotel...we only had the rest of that day and the next day before i had to go back to work , and we weren't gonna waste a second of it. :))

blah blah blah... just tell me to shut up. i'm old now, so it's fun to remember i guess.

i'll go read your email now.

hugz

SOUL said...

hiya brenda--

it feels weird to write that btw

elvis eh? that's a first. but i wish i wouldn't mind havin some of his moves. :))

yep-- i shouldn't have mentioned the damn headache thing... it grabbed hold a couple hours ago and doesn't want to let go now.
ERG.

you have a great weekend too.

ours will prolly be full of boring nothing here

SOUL said...

looks like i changed my mind on what i was gonna say there in mid sentence to brenda... oops.

soul's like a box of chocolates. . .

CRUSTY MOM-E said...

awww. I Love your wedding pic.

I'm behind. But I don't like how this doc and nurse are so blah with you. :(

I hope you feel good. I had to laugh at your military comment, Sul asked the other day about military school, I told him, keep acting up, you'll learn all about it.