Tuesday, December 16, 2008

soul-a-geezer scrooge

holy crap y'all,

i think this is one day i should keep my mouth--well, fingers,-- to myself.
i can't think of one good thing to say.
so, instead, i will share a bad selection of my poetry with ya.
not that it isn't just as bad as a nagging cry-baby post-- but may be more entertaining to read.
or not--

Cold Hearted Christmas

I sit here alone in a cold rented house.

The heater is broke today, and 10 degrees out.

Too cold to go shopping, too freezing to clean

My tree stands here present - less, glaring at me

Outside the wind howls as it crawls though the glass,

Slipping into the house through each crevice and crack

I think to myself sipping coffee that’s cold

Oh my God I can’t take this, it’s just getting old

We pay more for this house than any ever before

Yet nothing here works for us, costing us more.

I wish we could move from here, and start someplace new

Somewhere safe for my child, without all this work needed to do

I could walk away, and leave everything here,

All that we own, except tools, and fishin gear.

The only good luck that has come to this house,

Is that no one has died, ‘cept a dog, and pet mouse.

We thought we would love this place, bright with its shine,

But it didn’t take long for the curse to arrive

Unbelievable things soon began to occur,

to my health, and his moods, and even our girl,

the house has its issues, with heat, tile, and floors

the list could continue but I have room for no more

one third of our income goes into this place

it’ll drive me to drink if I don’t run away

today my head pounds, as I shiver , and cry-

it’s warmer out there, than it is here inside

I’m grabbin my animals, photos and crap-

I’m leaving this hell hole- to live in a tarpaper shack !!!!

BMB 12-16-08


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“An old lady new years eve”

It’s the morn of the new year, I woke up in pain,

The house is a mess, All the pets are insane.

I went for my coffee, yet all hopes were dashed -

the self timer broken, fresh coffee? My ass.

The final eve of ‘07 went out with a pop.

I was hoping for more but the night, a near flop.

Our small celebration, A toast with two teens-

I suppose it’s what married on new years eve means.

As middle age creeps into our small humble home,

These holiday things just seem to grow old.

Yet we struggle to stay awake, til the traditional time,

and break out the crystal , filled with cider, not wine .

We say goodbye to the old, as we welcome the new.

And promise ourselves of things we know we won’t do.

At midnight: 01, we now call it a day-

We head straight to bed, and fall asleep right away.

Whatever has happened to going out on the town -

Getting dressed up, and drinking til drowned?

Where is the dancing, and laughing with friends ,

counting backwards the seconds, as the new year comes in?

those days are gone – but I remember them well,

As I sit here and write of Souls’ new years eve tale.

BMB 1-1-08

13 comments:

Portia said...

Those are priceless! I hope your heat is fixed soon, I can think of nothing worse right now. Stay warm and if you run away please bring your computer...cuz we wanna come too:)

Brad said...

Not exactly upbeat, but good poems - Hang in there honey, better time are a comin. And if they don't I'll make up the guest room.

Mary said...

Good poetry about bad times. I wish you were close enough to come visit me. We could sit in the warm sun room, drink hot coffee and bitch to our heart's content.

I'm not in a Christmas mood. And I'm not doing a tree this year even though I planned to. I'll put up some other decorations to satisfy the grandchildren and call it all done.

Anonymous said...

Tomorrow is a new day..Hope yours is better. aj

Jamie said...

You are so good at this! I hope your day turned out better.

:)

xo

Anonymous said...

Who knew that you were such a good poet Soul? I thought they were great no matter what they were about.

The Real Mother Hen said...

I'm really sorry to hear about your journey in the past year. I sincerely hope that '09 will be a better year for you and your family.

(hug)

Anonymous said...

I's like your poetry! Merry Christmas Soul..and to the Soul Family too!

SOUL said...

hi all..

can i just scream? as a blanket statement i mean. ok.

well.. i'll just say hi , and thanks then.
it always helps to see y'all stop in.
this last few months have been particularly rough around here. i think i purposely whine and bitch about my pain and crap only to divert the conversation away from the more personal things goin on here.
it's either that or just say nuthin at all. and ya know, that has crossed my mind a thousand times. i'd just miss y'all too damn much. and i do know this crap is just temporary. it has to be. if it's not-- ugh. i don't even wanna go there.
i know it gets boring here , but i'm so glad everyone hasn't stopped comin around. seems a few have. but i see a lot have stopped blogging altogether, and, or gone private; all kindsa crap goin on out there in blogland. (i'm talkin of folks that some of don't know too-- so go all offended on me-- or who's she talkin bout k.. :))
see-- there's jamie-- and ac-- she's down there somewhere , :))
hi brad-- long time no see :)), look, even yankee and motha came in. gypsy too.
and portia, bunches of my favorite peeps.
y'all made my day today.
even a couple invites --- can't get better than that can it?
not that i can go anywhere right now. but it's the thought that counts, right?

anyhow, someone tell me what the heck it is about 2008-- and this christmas... seems lotsa folks aren't in the spirit this year. sooften it feels like it's only me, and i'm just walkin around fakin it, pretending to be christmasee for the sake of others. when i'd really rather be under a rock for three weeks. this time, everywhere i turn, i hear that someone isn't ready, hasn't shopped, is skipping christmas this year, not in the mood.

is my bitterness contagious? i hope not. if so, i apologize.

i do hope y'all have wonderful and very happy Christmas's.

welp folks, i see i'm bloggin in my box again..
i bettah shaddup -
cya latah

cheer up folks..
i'll work on it.

SOUL said...

ps-- JAMIE--
what IS that picture? you know i'm blind :(

Smocha said...

ha ha ! you poet weirdo. Ok, now do "night before christmas"

Christmas is definately cancelled here.

btw, this house is freezin ass cold too. No central heat here, buddy.try a few radiators.LOL

I need some feety pajamas. bwa ha ha .

I shall update in a while. I must head down to the smoking area. :(

Love me

Golden To Silver Val said...

HO HO effin' HO. I'll be glad when its all over as I'm sure you will be too. Bwha ha ha ha ha

EE said...

I love your poems. I think you should do a poem-a-day!!!!
Please stay warm. Hope they get your heat fixed soon... nothin' worse than being cold!!