Monday, September 15, 2008

monday mumbles

lately THIS is me-


thinking about everything-- EXCEPT
what matters-
and so much so- it just makes my head hurt-

a week or so ago , i was ready to run away from home. again.
i felt like i had no other option to preserve my sanity.
or, what was left of it.
then someone that i love, more than anyone on this earth found themself in a crisis.
or six.
and i realized, that i could not leave that person.
or if i even tried, it would only make me go crazy.
and possibly them as well.

then i saw this pic- or quote-
and really-
it confirmed it.



and i realized, i couldn't ever leave this person. or their problems.
i couldn't pretend that what was happening wasn't happening.
because it was happening. and it was so very "in your face."
i couldn't run, i couldn't hide, and i had no idea how to fix it.
so i did the next best best thing.
i tried.
me and soulman did all that we knew how to do,
and we tried to fix the problem.
did we fix it?
who knows.
it's still in process.
it's no quick fix, that's for sure.
this one will most definitely take some time .
but we do have a foot in the door.
and i have a feeling that it's the right door.

at least i hope so.
well, WE hope so.

i know y'all love it when i go cryptic on ya.
i hope it's better than nothing at all tho.

well peeps-- i need to get going...
i'll be around later on...
sometime.

i hope y'all are are doin well in your worlds.

21 comments:

Angie Weid said...

I love that quote!

Sounds to me like you are doing exactly what you should do. Take care of the person that needs you and Soulman.

I'm feeling a bit off today. Not sure if some sort of bug is going around or what? Probably have a bit of a lazy day today. Client cancelled at the last minute. I could get bummed out about it, but I take the attitude that something better is on the horizon.

Peace baby!

Mary said...

Cryptic or not - doesn't matter - I'll be thinking of you. Take care of you and post when you can. As heart breaking as a friend's problem can be it is comforting to know that you can - and do - make a difference. Hugs to you.

desert dirt diva said...

its great to have friends that you can trust, and when in need be there for them..this is how i feel about smocha and she has had my share of i need you now talk to me now phone calls....so i totally understand being there for some....hope everything works out take care....

Smocha said...

Hope all's well poops.

love that top pic too. kewl.

Let me know what's new:)

Love me

EE said...

Good for you...sticking with him/it!! Even though I have no idea what you're talking about, I'm proud of you!!!
Great quote!!!

EE said...

Good for you...sticking with him/it!! Even though I have no idea what you're talking about, I'm proud of you!!!
Great quote!!!

Anonymous said...

I've been down today. An older friend of mine (68) went to the hospital a couple of weeks ago to have a hernia removed. Simple, routine, right? Well, she had complications. Yesterday they felt she was better and was sending her home today. They got her up to walk yesterday and she collasped. Never coming to, she died today! The shock has been terrible! I don't know which is worse, watching someone die for weeks or months or all of a sudden, unexpected. I've been too busy to call or go see her. Plus I think of things I should have done or said in the past. Last month she called to see if I had any jalepona peppers to spare and I snapped at her, but DID give her some. Guilt is bad! I've got to leave now to check plants in the exhibit hall at the county fair. I sure don't feel like it! auntie j

Golden To Silver Val said...

Thinking of you and hoping that soon things will be ok with you and with your friend. Bless all of you and have faith that standing by someone in need puts you at the right hand of God. Love, Charlotte

Summer said...

I know you did a good thing for this person. And karma is going to be good to you for a long time for it.

Karen said...

I'm sorry that things are going so badly in your life right now Soul so all I want to say is that I'm thinking of you and sending you a big gypsy hug. xxx

The Real Mother Hen said...

Ahhh.
Soulman and Soulkid are too good to be running away from.

Keeping you in prayers and take care.

Raine said...

sometimes when you dont know what to do....... just be there til you do know what to do (((((((Soul)))))))) I'm here if you wanna talk or babble or whatever

bonnie said...

Hello wonderful Soul. I do love it when you go cryptic. You could be a mystery writer. I love your quote. It's wonderful how you found purpose and meaning for your life in caring for someone. It called on your strength and you pulled it out without hesitating. I'm so much like you. I'm my stellar best in someone else's crisis.

Anonymous said...

Good picture. Very Dali-like.

Dali was offensive to Muslims.

La! La! La! La! La! La!

JLee said...

Don't give up and don't run away please. If you do, I'm coming with you on a Starbucks road trip! ;)
Thinking of you..

Jamie said...

I am thinking about you this morning. Hope things are okay.

xo

Smocha said...

I'm thinking of you too, and waiting and waiting for some word, an update, a bread crumb.lol

And frankly , I am sick of seeing this same old post sitting here!LOL

Love you!! Me

Jamie said...

Miss you ----



xo

Cheryl said...

Sorry it took me so long to come here. I hope you're just taking it one day at a time. You will survive!

Portia said...

I'm no good at the cryptics but I do hope things are going better for you. Even GOOOD:) Sorry my comments are so few and far between lately, but I wanted to say HAY and I'm thinkin of you.

Happy NEWKEDE Batsoul!

desert dirt diva said...

well rereading your post you say you and soulman are o.k. how is soul kid.....????hope everything is o.k.!big hugs