Sunday, June 15, 2008

here i am.. still breathin

hi folks---

just thought i better get somethin up here before someone sends the cops to my door to check on me-
i'm alive. i would say that i've been busy-- but that isn't entirely true.
but i have been "somethin" i just don't know what to call it.


perhaps it would be
thinkin about stuff??





or maybe being too confused to bother thinking --
about anything-



or maybe --
i'm just on the verge of
getting off this roller coaster ride -



and just make a decision--
even if it's just a decision ,
to make a damn decision.



cuz ----


and, aside from that---



16 comments:

Mary said...

At least you had the fortitude to post a picture blog. Not only can I not think of anything to post but I'm not inventive enough to find and post appropriate pictures. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm - I may try that.

Smocha said...

Well, I'm a little concerned here.
Call me hawg!

love me

desert dirt diva said...

are you alright smocha IS very concerned and now that i have read this i am too... so i ask u once again are u ALRIGHT???????????
Love the pictures tho...

Moohaa said...

I'm so glad to hear that you are still breathing! :)

Happy Father's day to that man of yours!!

Anonymous said...

oh GS.. hope you're ok....

Summer said...

OMG! The cat with the rubik's cube. Too funny! I'm right where you are these days.

I love having you and my company.

ac said...

Hey QOF, Hope you had a good day. Did you fish? Did you catch? Hoping you are doing well. xoxo

Cheryl said...

You are good at your pictures. Sometimes I don't have much to say, other times...I have to stop myself from saying too much.

Did you guys have a nice Father's Day? Any fishing?

The Real Mother Hen said...

Ahhhh...
Take it easy friend.
And I sincerely hope you will have a great week ahead.

JLee said...

You just need some good ol' "coffee talk" ;)

Jamie said...

I love the pics you find for these photo entries...I especially love the kitty pic, looks like Farfield.

Hope your night was good.

xo

:)

SOUL said...

hey you guys---

i'm alright-- --- i guess. i don't know exactly what that means anymore when someone asks. are you ok?
does it mean.. are you crying? well, not at the moment.
are you suicidal? umm.. not really.
are you planning to go postal? nahhh.

but if it means are you in pain alot more than you would like to be? that would be a yes.

does it mean.. is your everyday life not what you expect it should be from day to day, or moment to moment, or even five years ago-- well thats a yes too.

and if it means do those yes-es play with my mind in a way that i wish they wouldn't?
well that would be a yes, as well.

but-- i'm stll.. breathin.

i'm ok.

i hear and read that this shit happens, and it gets better.

so i'm doin the best i can.
and hoping and praying that my best is good enough.

i'm just afraid that it's not-- cuz i know for a fact that i am not dealing with a certain situation the way that i should-- and i know that it will blow up in my face -- soon.

but until that happens-- i'm ok.

or maybe i'm "FINE".
(remember what that means???)
fucked up-inesecure
-neurotic-and emotional)

happy days peeps-

ps JLEE
coffee talk is definitely on the menu -- wednesday right?

Mary said...

All I can say to that is that I'm sending you a hug or two along with a truck load of wishes for all that is being a burden to go away. I like your defination of FINE.

Smocha said...

I Am gonna send the cops to your door ...if I don't hear from you.

I see that you commented on some peoples blogs..yet ....."I" your beloved sister ..have heard NOTHING from you.

You hurt my good feelings.lol :)

"how dare you keep me waiting!"

Smocha said...

P.S.


Oooh ! let me try and break this code ...in "dad speak"

QOF....is it "queen of fishing"?

GS? crap...I have no idea. Give me another clue:)

Love me

SOUL said...

smocha-- yes, very good--
qof is queen of fishing lol
and GS-- that's gecko sis-- you should remember that one.. it goes way back, me and yankee just got a little lazy i think. lol. actually i may have started that one so i'll take the hit on the lazy
help i'm laze and i can't get up!

i didn't comment on your page cuz i was tired and didn't watch your videos.. what was i to say???
i'll watch em later.. and will say somethin.

there's waaaaay more peeps i am behind on. i'm tryin to get caught up-- havin a helluva time. but tryin.

luv me.