i remember feeling a million times worse last time they did this. right now i am just kinda drunk and tired, groggy. throat is only a little sore-- but it's still numb from the gargle stuff.. so i only hope it still doesn't hurt as bad as last time. they dilated my esophagus again. like last time. and it almost killed me then. (well felt like it. i wasn't able to eat, barely drink..or take my meds for like 4 or 5 days. ii finally ended up at the emergency room, i thought something was really bad wrong, and couldn't get a hold of any of my doctors. plus i hadn't been able to take /swallow any of anti d's for so many days it began to afect me in a bad way and i became depressed etc. it was jsut bad. not to mention the awful pain. turned out to cost me 600.00-- for a small amount of liquid pain meds only so i could eat and take my anti d's. it of course turned things around and i got better within a couple days... but i have to say-- i am fearing a repeat. and even though i talked to the doc today about all that-- he still wouldn't give me pain meds ! WTH?? i don't have any-- and even if i did.. it would have to be liquid-- which i never have even when i do have any. can we say screwed?
anyways-- yep-- i'm hoping, praying, wishing, knockin on wood, etc.. that for whatever-- for any reason at all.. my throat will not hurt as badly as it did last time, and i will be able to eat and swallow pills. if that happens-- i think all will go ok.
i did manage to drink one of these... cuz i wasn't allowed to have any coffee this morning:
i was afraid hot coffee would hurt me-- so went for the cold-- same as last time.
also got some jello, soup, and lozenges.. just in case. ( well hubby did..when he went in to drop off my rx on the way home. i forgot the name , but it's some kind of stomach med.. same as last time. (caltrate? or somethin).
ok.. so anyways-- i don't know much about anything at this pont , i was barely even concious at the hospital before we left. they talked to soulman about stuff.. but i was drifting in and out of sleep like literally every minute or two.
i do remember being told
"no asperin, excedrine, or NSAIDS (?) NASAIDS" ?.. wth? ( motrin, advil,,,etc ) "EVER AGAIN"
that one is gonna be the toughest of all. i live in a world of near constant pain.. somewhere. and no more otc pain relievers. i also live in a world of dr's that are afraid to rx pain meds.
i can only hope that now that i have documentation that otc pain meds can KILL me... they will realize that they can allow me to suffer .. or give meds to help me. somethin has to here.
because the doc said that my stomach is bleeding. it is the massive amounts of asperin and excedrine etc.. that is causing ulcers.. and bleeding in my stomach.. and if i don't stop taking these meds-- i "could die". this is why i have been anemic..and am SO anemic now-- as the pain worsens, the asprine etc increases... as does the belly bleeding.
aint life just fuckin grand?????
so anyways-- i gotta get some sleep.. hopefully i will feel good enough later to get around blog land a bit-- i miss y'all...
i hope you are ALL having happy days.
OH SHIT- i almost forgot --
VAL ( Charlotte gave me an award !)
VAL ( Charlotte gave me an award !)
she said cuz i got "attitude"
is that good or bad?
take it any way ya want-
:))
cuz it depends on the day really
or the hour.
sometimes it is a good attitude-
and sometimes --
well i'm just a bitch
but hey
people love me-
and that's awesome
i love y'all too!
ok.. i must sleep now-
THANKS CHARLOTTE :))
13 comments:
Hi, Soul.
Glad you made it back from the Doctor's in one piece. I will be sending up some prayers that you will be able to swallow food/liquids/meds this time around.
My husband is a little anemic, too, and they found that his stomach was bleeding a little. He has to take daily aspirin and plavix for his heart. No substitutes. They took him off of them for a week, but no real monitoring since. Gah! If it ain't one thing, it's another. OTC meds not as safe as one would think, but what to do about chronic pain?
xoxo
feel much better real soon.
r.
Sweet dreams sweet Soul.
Hope your up to your normal fiestyness soon
Glad you made it through it okay! I work in a pharmacy and I still can't get pain killers! LOL I would love to take a few -- the addict in me grins. You need them for your pain though. Rest well, sleep, and get back to us soon!
BatSoul:)
Congratulations on the well deserved award!!
Maybe it's a good sign that you don't feel as bad as you did last time- I hope you just continue to feel better from here.
What a quandary you're in with the pain meds. I know it sucks to switch doctors, but surely there is one around there with some compassion?? Maybe you can get a referral from somebody who might know? I kow posting about these things is not the same as asking for advice, but I wish I could help. I hope you feel better and get some more gorgeous days down your way :):)
Wow what a day huh? I sure hope that you do not have to deal with the pain and not being able to drink and eat like the time before. I hope that you are resting well. When you mentioned about not being able to stay awake after it at the hospital it reminded me of when I took a friend for the same test and I it took awhile before I could even get her awake enough to walk to the car for me and did not help the nurse kept saying she cannot sleep in these chairs! i am thinking lady we are at a hospital be kind..and so finally I had to take her to the car in a wheelchair and such.......if I ever get to have the bariatric operation I cannot take motrin after it at all and for some time before it also....gosh I got on a tanget sorry....I do hope that you have a good evening.
None of what the dr's found surprises me, and considering the alternative reasons that you could be having these problems, I guess this is the lesser of all evils. However, this is very serious, as I know you know, so the OTC pain relievers have got to GO. So, now what? What are you SUPPOSED to DO? I swear, I am as frustrated as you are...this is really, really crap. You have got to make your dr understand that you need some kind of help for pain. Holy Crap!
Okay, I'll calm down now. Sorry...
I'll be looking for you EARLY in the am, I have to leave for DSM by eight, so I will have to be off of here by 6:00 or 6:30. If I miss you, I'll be back early...
I hope you are feeling somewhat okay.
xo
:)
You are most welcome, dear friend. Sleep now and be well. Talk to you tomorrow ..... you'll be your feisty self again before you know it.
Blessings, Charlotte
Oh dear. I'm sorry that you have to go through all that pain. I hope my virtual hugs will make you feel better. *HUGS*
Dang girl! I wish I could reach down to Texas and give you a hug!! I do hope you have brighter days. Wish you all the best! :)
I've had that test so I feel for you. Thankfully the symptoms are probably gone by now and by staying off asperins, etc, your stomach will get better. auntie j
Hope you're feeling better, Soul. I don't know about those Starbucks things though..those will tear your stomach up! I may have to stop our Starbucks ritual and have smoothies instead :) Be well!
Ahh Soul
I hate to think of you all out of it and suffering. Hoping it doesn't get as bad as last time and that you and your 'tude are back to your old selves soon. Congrats on the award. Very well deserved.
I guess you're stuck with Tylenol then. And that means you've got to watch your liver enzymes. Damn. You do what you gotta do. Why all the pain? Do you have fibermyalgia? Did I spell that wrong?
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