Saturday, March 29, 2008

just the way it is


well, hell.
the truth has been revealed.


not like it has been a big secret or anything.
i think i had just been waiting for a change ya know?
to wake up someday,
and be some bright , happy, sunshiny, SOUL.

well. i realized, a very short while ago. that well, it just isn't gonna happen.
EVER.
i may have days. or moments. that i can be sunny-SOUL-UP -
but over-all



(and just for those who don't know-
really- that isn't disrespectful.
she enjoyed that "role" in her life)

unfortunately-
i do NOT.

i just can't seem to control myself lately.
hmmmmmm.
whatever.
i guess.

so anyhow.
i think a lot of time has passed since i began this post:
but as of now- it has just been sittin here neglected.
poor post.

now i have lost my train of thought--
was i gonna explain my bitchiness?
or is there really any need for that?
perhaps i was simply born this way.

blood type? = B+ = BITCH
ya think?
works for me.

sooooo, anyhow---
i think i will just stop here-- and throw up a second post later.
hoping that i will feel better than i do now.
it seems that the last week that has been the way things go.
i wake up early, and crabby, but once things get moving,
i seem to feel a bit better.
TIRED as hell, but better still.
so, i will cruise the streets of blogland,
and hope to get caught up with y'all.
and i will be back later, to let you know if
"the good soul"
shows herself today.

HAPPY SATAHDAY!!!

10 comments:

Mary said...

Hang in there, kid. We'll be here when you feel better. My mornin' ain't going the best either. Wanna run away from home?

SOUL said...

oh, mary you know i do!!!

i can't even function today. i made it jamies page this morning.. ate a bowl of cereal--- and went back to bed!
i just woke up!
ugh.

what are you doin today?

looks like i'm not doin a THING.

laterz.

Mary said...

This afternoon is Sarah's baby shower. The men folk decided it would be a good idea for them to get together, fire up the grill, break out a few beers, grill chickens, etc, and watch the race. That means I have to deal with a bunch of girls that I don't know and their chatter and squeeeeels. Then I have to deal with Harry and the three adult boys all charged up. Yes, I very well may run away from home - or crawl under a rock.

Just go back to bed and be glad you aren't me this afternoon.

SOUL said...

holy crap mary-- you said it before i could offer--
but i was gonna say--
are you sure YOU don't wanna run away!

i would soooo just diiieee in your situation lately. well, die or be killed i should say.

you know your horrible when you can't stand your own self in an empty room !

hope you survive!! :))

Jamie said...

I have been sitting at this damned computer for one reason or another all fricking day...I can say frick here, can't I? LOL

Anyway, I've had it with all of it, paying my bills, bills bills, (no that isn't a typo) and ICS bills...ugh.

I'm gonna do something tonight, and maybe get lucky? Geez...get your mind out of the gutter girl, I'm going to the casino, the money be damned...LOL

And YOU ARE NOT A BITCH. So there.

You are my buddy. My soul-buddy. My non-bitchy friend.

And I am yours. No one said we couldn't be bitches to the others in our lives, right?

xo

:)

SOUL said...

hi jamieeee

not sure about you, but my desk hurts me after a while-- hope you aren't in pain.

i have been in and out of a nap-state all FRICKIN day-- so yes you can say frick here :))
i might go further and say fuckin day even. so there :))

ugh.

i knew what you meant with your joke but it was good anyhow--
good to hear you are gonna get out and have some fun. stayin home too much--or too much work and no play-- can make a person really bitchy-- if ya haven't noticed. :))

if the sun will ever friGGin shine out here--withOUT wind-- i would go fishin. but WTH??
well, at least it aint snowin.

have a happy night
win some money!!!!

laterz

ps 5.00 on 13 :)

Anonymous said...

Hiya Soul..you are NOT a bitch... at least not from here...LOL...is your blood type B? really? me TOO! ha ha...does that make us BOTH bitchy??? oh well.... gosh your blog rating will go through the roof with these comments! ha ha ha... love..your GREEN GECKO SIS....

SOUL said...

actually yankee it really is-- B+
gotta stand for bitch.
but i have never seen you negative OR bitchy-- so maybe my theory is incorrect?
unless you are simply B-- or B- ??? is there a B- ?
anyhow--
hope you have a good day today--
you aren't a bitch
and at least my bitchiness isn't consistant.. except on occasion.
like say-- the past six months?
ugh.
latah GS

desert dirt diva said...

YES YOU ARE ABSALUTLY RIGHT ABOUT YOUR MOM, AND SHE THROUGHLY ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT OF IT, THAT IS WHY IT WAS TRAGIC, THE LAST TIME I SAW HER AS TO HOW NICE SHE WAS (TO ME).. AND I SAY THIS WITH UTTER LOVE... WE HAD HISTORY!

Portia said...

a friend once told me...:)

i know how you feel but for what it's worth, i certainly don't think you're a bitch.

you're batman!

duh.