ok my blogger friends.. i have been cold busted!

you are probably wondering what in the world did such an innocent gal such as myself do, that would get me into trouble... right? well.... surely , y'all couldn't have missed the "rain fairy" that i hijacked from JLEE. right? OR, the "cleaning fairies". How could you? You would surely be BLIND , or just not come around very often, or at all if you missed these photos. EVEN my HUSBAND happened upon them!!!! yep. THAT is the "cold busted " part that i speak of. LOL

hubby is actually a pretty cool guy. he knows i'm just havin fun. BUT i am noticing a little jealous streak appearing. like the other day, when i posted ALL FIVE cleaning fairies on ONE post. he became awful quiet that day. and today.... well... :)... i just got home a while ago from errands, and a dr appointment... and while reading my comment section... below the rain fairy post... i notice that my dear dear husband happened to leave a comment of his own. LOL. it would be the one that states he will be seeking his angel collection...or something like that. (by the way ... 143 ... stands for "i love you") PHEW.. at least he still loves me huh.

so... first i will begin with the meaning of "his angel collection...

once upon a time... many years ago... he began an angel collection for me. it started with a single "roman seraphim angel" sort of ceramic or resin or whatever. that same year, we bought one for my sis, and one for my mom in law. since then i have received several over the years on special occasions. usually a birthday or christmas etc. mom in law continued collecting as well, but sis did not.

well anyhow.... about three years into this "tradition"... Victorias Secret.. you know.. the underwear (i only used that word cuz i can't spell the proper sexy "L" word for it) ..... well they came out with a line of bras, and panties that they called the "Angel Collection"... or Angel Line"... well, there we were... at his mothers' house no less... in front of his mom and dad, me and one of his brothers and our daughter who was like four...and this commercial comes on TV. of course it shows all these half naked very pretty ..of course... "L" word models in their new Victorias secret Angel line of "L"... and hubby just blurts out...

"There's MY Angel Collection" !!!!

it was just too funny to be mad. everybody laughed. cuz everyone knew of mom in law and my angel collections. it was just funny. and it still comes up on occasion. haha.. the angel collection! geesh people! LOL
so anyhow... to be fair to my wonderful husband... and to any of my male readers

I Bring You.... Hubbys Angel Collection:

i just couldn't resist any longer... i hijacked this from JLEE

at least someone can enjoy the rain!

well alrighttee then:

Morning folks.

I got a request from josie recently..well, very recently…like yesterday. To write a blog post about the friends and/or connections that we make online with our blog pals. At first , I thought, ya, ok, sure. I could copy and paste it and be done with it. Then I realized…there is a lot more to it than that.

I obviously didn’t get around to posting it yesterday… I was busy, and tired, and ehem…fishing. But, I was also … thinking. Yes, I know. That is a dangerous place for me, but sometimes, it’s just necessary. Unfortunately. I began to wonder… am I really ready to make myself THAT vulnerable on here? I mean, when I wrote my comment on jamies’ post… it was one of those, free mind moments… what I wrote just came out…and once it was out… I let it stay there. It was in a comment section…where few people actually dare to go on many blogs…unless they actually have something to say…or perhaps, if they are blog stalking…and even then…do they really read ALL the comments? I’m guessing not. So I did what some call “freewriting”…and just wrote what flowed from brain to fingertips. It’s all true, and took little thought…although I was careful as to how I worded it. I didn’t want to make myself TOO vulnerable…open for hurt or rejection…but I wrote was I was feeling.

And that was the fact that I have met, many..well..all actually…except oldy, cuz she is my sis…I’ve met these people on accident. Just blog surfing…liking something someone says..going back for more…then leaving comments, that have led them to my page…ultimately… many have turned into what I believe to be genuine friendships.

Before I started this blog thing… I was a strict recluse. My own daughter called me a hermit! My isolation from the world, actually affected my whole family. Aside from that… I had so little outside the family communication…my brain, heart, and self esteem…became stagnant over the years. My family members , and a mother of my daughters long time friend became the only outside stimuli… other than tv…. That I had in my life….for over ten years! I had zero trust for people outside the family…and honestly…not a whole lot for them either. My expectations of the world was heartbreak. If I let them in, they would hurt me. So, I didn’t let anyone in…and those who were in… I pushed outside the box… letting them in when I needed to…pushing them out when I needed to. I must say… it’s been a rough eleven years.

So anyways… for josie… here I am opening myself up…and putting my feelings here, for all to see.

I just hope all of you who have been so good to me these passed several months…some even less… realize that you have really made me a better person. A happier person. A more positive person. And I gotta say…. That means the world to me.

You all have helped me heal the mange that has rotted my soul for so many lonely years. And I want to thank you for letting me feel comfortable in calling you all “friends”.

When I started this blog…. The end of January… it was a lonely negative place to store my negative thoughts and feelings… maybe so they would find another place to corrode, other than my soul. A place to feed my alter ego “soulmange”. And her i am… six months later… thanks to EE for the name…. but she found it in these pages as she watched me change because of y’all. And HER of course! But here I am… soul survivor.

Like they say… “no “man” is an island”. So true. No one can get through this life on their own. No matter how hard they try. Oh, they CAN… but they will not be happy, or fulfilled in any way, living on that island of self absorption alone. No matter what or how much they do for others. If the “others” are family… it only opens the door to resentment.

Thanks my friends…for sending me the rescue boat when I needed it , to get off the island of self destruction!

OKAY… now you can read my motivation for this post… aside from the obvious nudge from josie!

Below, is an excerpt from Jamies post, on “everyone thinks I can fix it…”

(Friday July 6-07)

It's funny what this blog has done for me---I feel like I have gotten to know so many people that I would never have had the opportunity to meet, if it weren't for this. Those that I actually know in real life rarely, if ever, bother to read what i have to say, and so many of you come by here to see how I am, it is truly surprising. It is also surprising that what I do have to say is anything but truly boring, mundane, normal life crap. And yet, I follow so many others, that have the same mundane, day to day things. Maybe we are all looking to see if our own lives are like everyone else's? Maybe we are looking to see that they aren't? I really don't know. But I find myself wondering how my blogging friends days are going, and if something is going on in their lives, I wonder how that is turning out....it's just funny. I am NOT a social person in my real life. I have told all of you that I have little time or use for most people, and that comes from so many turning out NOT to be what I thought they were. What I am trying to say is thank you. You each give me a new perspective on everything, something to think about, and always, always a smile or laugh. And that is wonderful. :)

(BELOW are excerpts from the comment section of this post)

SOUL: said...

it's funny you would mention the blogger pals we find out there in cyber space... vs the real world "people". i feel so much the same way. in fact, i think on page one of my blog i in fact stated... walk with me, or away from me, i don't care.
trust issues much? hell yes! i haven't had a real life friend... in the true sense of the word... in years. like you said... they just don't turn out like you think they will. perhaps that is why we aren't supposed to place expectations on people...we are all only human of course. but i will admit, my expectations are LOW.
i expect... loyalty... time, understanding... just that type of stuff. i don't want much from people. honesty. of course. and shit... if ya don't know what to say... just tell me that... don;t ignore me in a time of crises... don't make me feel I"VE done or said something out of line...when it's YOU who are in a situation you can't handle. (not yOU) you know what i mean.
but really. the times that have ran me into my mole hole, and away from people and the desire to befriend them... were times of terrible heartbreak, and emotional need. all i needed was a friend to just be their, and be willing. but when my babies died.. eight years apart... several different sets of friends and circumstances... they ALL scattered like roaches. friendships that i thought would last forever ended when i needed my friends the most. when i lost my second son in 1996... that was it... my wall, had never been taller, or stronger. i never let anyone else all the way in. walk with me or walk away.
online friends are safer. i will admit... i am growing pretty close to a few of you, and i think you know who you are. and it scares the crap out of me. i may never even meet y'all in real life.. but it's scary to care about people again. and to see that they (y'all) actually do seem to care what happens to me every day when i see that you've come to or commented on my blog.
but always... it makes me smile, and it it gives me reason to smile, and to think, and to care about others.
before the blog thing.. for years... my entire world was my family and my animals... and the fear of "God what if something happens to "someone else". very depressing. very depressed, and very resentful.
thanks Jamie for reminding me... that i can still be a friend...and have friends... and care about people. and share my life and theirs...and i don't have to live in my shell of hell.
it means a lot to me to see that you come see me when you're barely awake each morning...and you always have something nice, understanding, or funny to say. and more so, that i care what you go through each day... your laughter, your pain, your struggles, and fears, etc.
that goes for all my blog pals.
i have a genuine concern about them, their families, lives, everything. and it really gets me out of myself.
and just look what it's done for me.. soulmange to soul survivor... just by getting involved in other peoples lives. it's very difficult to spend ten or eleven years in your own mind and unhealthy body...afraid of new people, or sharing your experiences with them.
so i'm with ya here.... thanks to those out there... who are honest enough to put their lives on these pages... and communicate with the rest of us, who put ours out there too.
did that crap make a bit of sense? i hope so cuz i don't have the patience to read it again.
maybe i shoulda just said ditto to yankee?
sometimes i just can't SHUT UP!
do they have a name for that?

have a great/ feel good day jamie

7:10 AM

simonsays said...

Soul, you are such a sweetheart, and a truly good friend to me, I know EXACTLY what you are saying---and I love you for it. Have a wonderful day!

jyankee-you are so right, and you always bring a new perspective to me, too!

8:17 AM

soooooooooooooo...there ya have it. jamie has a lot more in that comment section from others, and how online friendships have changed their lonely isolated lives into a whole lot more...go have a look.

it's 130 in the damn morning

i should be asleep, but am i? obviously NOT.
we got the pay per view UFC fight earlier... it was like 9 or 10 pm...and i was falling asleep in the first fight. so, what do i do? well, i don't wanna be a "party pooper"...so i get up and have coffee...three cups to be exact. well, it got me through the fight, that's for sure... now, hubby is sound asleep...even all four animals are sleeping. me? even after my meds... wide awake. and to make it worse... i'm almost out of cigs. what a bunch a crap.
i can already tell you how this will play out. wanna hear? ok. well.. my best prediction is:
i am gonna sit her and read and write crap, for maybe an hour or so. i'll smoke all except one or to cigarettes...just so i won't wake up and not have a couple to have with my coffee before i am forced to go get some more.....at, oh, say 6 a.m ! then i'll get back with my cigs, and continue to smoke, coffee and blog...then i'll go over my banks etc...to see if the money fairy deposited anything i wasn't expecting :)) then i will perhaps do some chores. i assume i will either a) talk hubby into helping me get started on converting our junk room into the guest room...or b)go fishing....until it's time to pick up the kid. OR if we do work on the room and not fish...i may go get some much needed groceries, and come back and nap until it's time to go get the child.
i sure bet you all wish you were me, don't you? i mean, i have such an exciting life, do i not?


OH CRAP... guess what i forgot to tell y'all. it aint good. remember the flood we got trapped in the other day...the 4th? when the car got stalled out in the water? well....the following day i had to wait for the laptop guy to come fix my computer, and ended up not going anywhere in my car. then the next day...yesterday.....me and hubby went and ran some errands...oh one of them included getting a refund on the RAM i thought i wouldn't be able to return, so that was good...but...the bad part//// i realized as we were getting in the car...it DID get wet INSIDE!!! ACK! and black mold had already begun to grow on one of the lower door panels! the entire car smelled horrible! we took it to a car wash and vacuumed as much water out of the floor as we could, but it was still wet and stinky. as for today... again, i haven't been in it, so i'm not sure how bad or good it is. i may end up having to replace my entire carpet in there! can you say "can't have nuthin"?
*note to self...check car tomorrow!

oh, Lord...hubby is snoring in my ear! why does he feel the need to face me when he sleeps? i think i need to get a more comfortable couch. i already can't sleep...now, i'll never get to sleep. ahhh...perhaps i shall go sleep in my daughters room. nah. anyone have a cotton ball or two?

ok. i've obviously run out of stuff to say. so i guess i'll find a boring info-mercial, or maybe church? on tv. anything to help me get sleepy. whatever happened to dragnet? i used to always be able to go to sleep with that on.

anyhow... g'nite

catch o' the day

ok...hubby got a couple bigger ones... and so what if he got more than me???


go ahead an tell me....
that this isn't the cutest little bass of all! and isn't it the guys who say... "size don't matter'?
SO THERE ! HA!

:)) i'm just playin. i did get one or two more but they were small too, just not as small. and hubby got a few more, not as small, but no bigger than the one he's holding up there either. but we had fun. til about the last hour or so. it got dammn hot today! we fished from maybe 530 or 6 to maybe noonish sorta kinda.

all i know, i am half asleep right now. man i'm tired. gonna attempt to make my rounds, but i don't know if i'll get very far this time. i need to go to sleep. i am expecting the kid to call any second for us ..more likely, ME, to go pick her up from her friends' house. oh man, i don't want to move!

ok..c ya

i wish i could hear one of his dumb jokes today

well, i think i figured out why i'm so friggin lazy today. my brother has been on my mind a lot all day today. more so than other years. or so it seems. not sure why, it's just been that way. i even talked a bit to hubby about him, even cracked a few jokes. you see, today is my brothers birthday. but he isn't here to celebrate it. he died in '95. he would be 47 years old today. i bet he would be celebrating his birthday in arkansas with my sister and her boys , and other friends and family this year.
my sisters boys birthdays are all three in june and july, and this year they are all having one big party out there. i bet our brother michael would be included, and he would love every minute of it.
weird how stuff like this sneaks up on me sometimes. some years i won't even think of someone who has died, a family member or a friend...then another year, they may be on my mind for a week. this time, i have had my brother on my mind off and on all day. but not really in a sad way, at all. just some of the wild thing he would do. some of the actual stupid things he would do. some of his "wonderful" girlfriends. :))... that i would have to run off... for his, and our safety. ya that was always fun. :))
he taught me how to play chess.... he also taught me how to rescue someone in convulsions... on the fly. yes including him.

in fact, one time, i was in a chinese restaurant with a friend.. years before my brother died... but i just heard "that noise" ya know? then i hear dishes fall. i hesitated, then looked across the room...sure enough, there's this guy, maybe in his mid twenties, going into convulsions in his booth, his girlfriend there looking helpless... the waiter/owner, a asian man... running back and forth frantically... "oh! he chokee! he chokee!" waving a white rag around. finally, i couldn't take it anymore. i was hoping someone else would help the guy, but obviously noone else knew what was happening...they thought the guy was choking! sooo... i got up, and went over, and got the guy out of his booth and onto the floor and laid him on his side, checked his mouth/airway...and just let him ride it out. all the while.. the chinese guy is running around..oh! He Chokee, He Chokee! man, it was funny. of course not the seizure...but the chinese guy. the guy was fine after a few minutes. he was a little dazed when he woke up, his girlfriend was a little scared, but they were both fine. the restaurant called a ambulance...which really wasn't needed but they took him off anyhow. but i think the owner was more scared than anyone there that day.
so anyhow.. ya. i still can't hear anyone .. seizure , yawn, stretch...whatever...any kind of weird noise like that, "pre-convulsion" sound.. it's kinda like PTSD. it always makes me look for my brother..or someone going into convulsions. it's heart stopping. that's how my brother died. but he was asleep. i'm sure he didn't suffer at all. and he was alone, so no one really had to actually see it happpen. i was in a different state. he was living with my mom, his daughter who was 9, and our grown male cousin...who found him that morning.
i think all his life we all expected that that would be the way that he would die. it really wasn't even a shock even though it was sudden and unexpected. he was having so many seizures by that time.

but anyways. ya. happy birthday to my brother. he always found a reason to smile... and a way to make others smile. here is my brother...

I bring you the "Cleaning Fairies" ....

okaaayyy, so we didn't make it to the movies...

could i have cursed myself with my tuesday torment title?
y'all would not believe what we just went through. well, as i said, we were on our way to the movies... hmmm... a funny thing happened on the way to the dollar theater. we got caught in TORRENTIAL rain AND flooding. by the time we decided to turn around and come home... it was too late.... flooding, traffic closed roads, and.. my daughter had never been in a flood like this before, so she was all terrified , ... we tried to calm her...because, we knew even through detours etc, that we would be ok. but she wanted no part of our consolation. she was really scared.
ESPECIALLY... when we went through some too deep water... and the car stalled ! luckily some guys were standing on the street... watching giant trash cans float by etc...well, they pushed us out.. but my stupid car took about 20 minutes to start up again., another car... STUPID people amaze me... even with us, sitting there "dead in the water"... tried to go through the same water...and stalled. the same guys pushed them out too...but their car..started in like three minutes and they were gone.... that's about when my girl started crying. not fun. she's fine now though, and we're home. but it was quite the little adventure.
so anyhow.. ya ...if i woulda known the entire town would flood in ten minutes, we would have stayed home and not tried to go to the movies. it's been raining for a friggen month... . i'm sick of it already.
first it ruins the fishing, and now we can't even go to the damn movie. erg.
ok... now, i have to go and cook dinner. no tellin when i'll get another turn online to "talk" to people.
anyhow... i shall return.. sometime between ummm.... i have no idea...it may be 5 or 6 in the morning. earlier if i demand some real time on here....i'm tired of posting and commenting without even a chance to proofread or anything., erg. i gotta go.

Tuesday Torment !

not such a bad day really, just sounded like a catchy title.
hello to my new visitors !

sorry i haven't been online much, but y'all know about the laptop torture, and with three computer junkies, now sharing ONE computer... well... as my sis said once
ALL MOTHERS GO TO THE BACK OF THE LINE ! i rarely get my time on here...unless it's like 5 a.m. and the rest of them are still sleeping.

so anyhow. this rain is gonna wash us away if it doesn't stop! it just showed the map thing on the news... there is rain EVERYWHERE! ERG!

but./.. we did manage to get in some fishing time earlier today. we left about 630 or 7 , and fished til it began to look like rain...and we could feel the mist in the air, and could actually see it pouring down off in the distance. so we decided to get off the lake before it got to us.; (the storm). we got caught in a really bad on in kansas on the lake once...it came in hard and fast, and it was bad. so now, we try to get off the water as soon as we can if the weather looks bad.

so, right after we got the boat loaded on the truck, the rain came. perfect timing ! but sadly, no fish. hubby got two small bass.... we weighed one of em... just to test the new scales out... he was a whopping 10 OZ. ! he was so cute though.
but ya all this rain, flooding, and heat on top of that.. the fish don't want to bite. and it makes me angry. i just can't believe all this friggin rain.

ok, so, we got home, got all the rods and tackle etc put up, and as soon as we came in i had to cook lunch. i knew if i sat down i wouldn't so i just cooked right away. i was starving...so was everyone else. i made chicken sandwiches and fries...and i tell ya , it beat the hell out of any fast food joint we woulda dropped 25 bucks at.

and after lunch i tried, very hard to take a nap...but didn't really get any sleep. my little dog attacked me, then my daughter came in and turned the tv way up... by the time i got the two of them out of my room, i just couldn't sleep. plus i got heartburn...then later, a headache. finally i gave up, and "i'm up now"

now we are about to go to the movies. we're going to the dollar theater to see Disturbia. i really want to see that, and we just found out it's over there. plus.,.. tuesdays are only 50 cents a ticket !! i only wish they had more comfortable seats there. i've been there a few times, but it's been a while... and it leaves MUCH to be desired. but .. we need to get the girl out of the house, so that's what we;re gonna do.

as for any comments i owe people... it will have to be later... cuz the movie starts at 5... it's almost 430... and rainin like a beeotch outside. for some reason, people forget how to drive in the rain here... it makes for hellish travels. luckily it's not very far from here.

ok... there.. i'm caught up....
i'm not a "posting slacker" anymore! just computer deprived. :))

CH-CH-CH- CHANGES

happy saturday y'all.
well, actually, how happy can ya be at 5 a.m on a saturday? but i'm not doin too awful bad, really. hope you aren't either. but tell me, why is it always a day i don't "have" to get up early, that i DO. erg.

ok. apparently, i have been ordered...again, in a polite way... if being called a "posting slacker " is polite... it is... to update. it's nice to missed! even though i have been keeping up in the comment section of my below post. unlike some other people i know. ehem! BUT... others have done real well. AND have assisted me in finding a new.. yes ANOTHER.. new name for my blog.
soon, it shall be called

"SOUL SURVIVOR"

i can only hope that there isn't one already out there. that would pretty much suck . so don't stop yet with the suggestions, etc on the below post...
and also...if you haven't seen them all yet... read the comments... there are some great funny ones. especially OLDYS!

( Obviously... i have already changed the title, and my screen name...but still, if you haven't read all the suggestions and comments on the name change post below , you should...good humor to be found there!)


alrighty then....movin on to the "update':

oh... i could start with... yesterday..was the LAST day of summer school ! woo hoo! the kid made consistent +90's each week on her progress reports !!!! and swears, it will never happen again. she obviously hated it, but she did work hard, and it gave her a reason to get out of bed...so it was good. but, now that it's over... what am i gonna do with her? she must get some motivation goin. good gosh. i need a cattle prod !

ok, next... yesterday, we also had quite a break in the rain...of course we had a little early... and a lot in late afternoon and evening... but in between... we took the boat out and went fishing. seize the day, ya know! the "new" truck pulled beautifully! yippee ! although.... it was miserably HOT and HUMID out there. we fished for hours, and apparently over an hour longer than we should have. we were both sickly hot by the time we left. the fish weren't very active either. hubby got like four, but only one good one. maybe a bit over two pounds or so. the others were quite small. he got one baby spotted bass, that was soooo adorable, he succumbed to a photo! he's such a good sport!

DAMN.. it looks even SMALLER with HIM holding it! (do you like his new haircut? )



as for me... i didn't catch a single fish. not even a baby. i was very disappointed. but ya know, i have NEVER, in like six years had much luck on that particular lake. hubby does pretty good there...but i never have! not sure why. my luck is at the creek. i have never done as well as i do at that creek! but... the flooding has really turned the fish off there. i don't know when the fishing will get good there again. i had some good fishing luck in kansas...i got some real nice ones there... but i would NEVER live there again.

ok...anyhow... ya, i didn't catch anything but a sunburn yesterday. hubby got burnt too. but at least he got fish! so... i finally had sort of quit fishing for a while..i sat down..and just watched maybe for half hour, then finally told him, i am really getting heat sick here. he said, why didn't you say something? i said, i didn't wanna ruin your fun. he said MY fun?! he had also been miserable for over an hour. LOL... always thinking of the other. i told him...we need to stop being so considerate out here...if you ever got sick out here, i would NEVER find our way back to the ramp! he only laughed at me... but i was damned serious! i can't find my way places in my car! how the hell am i supposed to find the freakin boat ramp if he's passed out or something???? so... we decided we'd better get a flair gun! LOL.
so anyhow, we didn't waste anymore time to get goin. we were miserable. i splashed lake water on my face, and soaked my hat in the water to cool off some. it felt good for a while...but it didn't smell too good.
then we get to the ramp... and what happens..it starts pouring rain. we got out of there just in time! phew.

ok.. fast forward. we get home. we come inside to cool off, relax , recover, talk to the girl etc... ordered pizza..oh yum, y'all know how much i love pizza. NOT. so, after we eat... we go to unload and get the boat off the street and into the driveway. that shouldn't be a problem right? at the time, it had stopped raining. BUT... wouldn't ya know it... (family curse comes into play here)...
we get out there... i guide hubby in as he backs the boat into the driveway... no problemo there. BUT.... he goes to unlock the "brand new trailer lock"... and what happens? not only does the sky open up... and lightening begins to go off like a firework show... of course with very loud and close thunder! he CANNOT find the keys...to the brand new lock. the 8.00 lock he bought at the store with the hitch ball THAT morning! so there i am... sitting in the truck... half way into traffic.. not heavy traffic...it's a residential street, but a lot of cars do go down once in a while. so, i'm sittin there IN the truck, in the pouring rain and lightning... just waiting to get hit by a damn car! we are only the second house from the corner... it wouldn't be so hard for a car to not be focussed on a situation like that in time. we had already looked EVERYWHERE for the keys...NOWHERE to be found. so i look in the mirror... and hubby is in the garage... LAUGHING at me! UGH. i sat there another five or ten minutes, and decided after about three or four cars drove by... fearing for my safety and theirs... i got out of the truck into the POURING rain....and lightning.... and i weren't none too happy about any of this. if he wasn't laughing, i may have handled it better. but i went crazy lady on him. and told him...that i was NOT gonna sit in the middle of the street anymore just to be hit by a f'n car, while he stood there laughing at me!
i shoulda kept my mouth shut... because after that... he stopped laughing alright. :((
and told me he wasn't gonna go out there and get struck by lightning to cut the lock off !
understandable. but that isn't what i expected either. i told him... just park the rig back onto the street til it stops raining! your gonna cause a wreck like this! so we end up in an argument over all this crap. we're both sunburnt, exhausted, wet, cold, and now trying to figure out how to cut a damn NEW lock off the boat trailer. how friggin fun. so, you can just imagine...
anyhow... the keys never did get found... he did manage to cut the lock...and we did, eventually stop bitching about who had the worst end of that deal. me afraid of being hit by a car...or him afraid of being struck by lightning...both in a storm, wet, tired, sunburnt, and angry over lost keys, and a new lock! UGH.
yep... that was a great way to spend an hour of my life!
but, as usual, we got over it, and i'm sure we will live to see tomorrow. we really are pretty child like when we argue. i wish i could see it from the outside looking in. LOL. but in a way it's good. sometimes. sometimes i think we need a good blowout, to just let it all out... but we consider the others feelings too much, and both HATE conflict so much... it makes for a difficult way to argue. oh well. i guess we're lucky that way. to an extent.
other than all that stuff... i accomplished NADA in my pig sty ... it has been totally neglected for a week straight... other than random picking up here and there. i have soooo much to do today. and that includes wally hell. we have been getting to go food for a whole week... i hate it when we do that, but we;ve been so busy with the truck search... and behind on dishes, etc. i am at the point the past two days... i don't even have anything to cook in or eat off of. what a nightmare.

there. i think i am now caught up. although i'm sure i left something out, it will come to me later...if i A0get caught up on my crap... or B) give up on my crap.


i am in dire need of all my cleaning fairies... but josie kidnapped my dish fairie! someone go get him!!!!

The Wheel In The Sky Keeps On Turning

well, i figured i'd title this with a little song of the day for you. at least it's a good one. unlike some other bloggers i know. ehem ! :))

anyhow, it kinda goes with the wheels in my mind that are turning at the moment.
i have actually not been totally comfortable with the "new" title of my blog since i changed it a while ago. and, well, recently one of my blog buddies, has suggested... actually more than once... that i change the title to

"Heart And Soul".......

there are a couple reasons for this...

1. Queen Earlene.. refers to my mother... I, am the "finest" part.

2. people think that I am the Queen Earlene Part.. and sometimes call me that in comments etc.... which for reasons, some undisclosed on these pages as of yet... i don't enjoy...and i always correct the error as quickly as possible.

3.. and to repeat myself... it just doesn't feel right to me. it really hasn't since i made the change. maybe because she's dead... maybe because... i just don't know.

4. i'm also trying to move away from the mange part of "soulmange" ... it's still my online name i guess...but more often than not... is shortened to soul... except when i'm logged in...and DUH...it just occurred to me that i can change THAT too.

so anyhow... i am on the verge of a title change yet again... but have decided to let y'all help me this time.
below are a few ideas... to include the one suggested... now y'all just let me know which you like better.... or suggest your own... and we shall go from there...and majority shall rule.


heart and soul

my gypsy soul

ok... i've drawn a blank... throw some suggestions...or cast your vote now.

NOTE: if anybody needs a good laugh.. read the comments and see OLDY"S... i almost fell out of bed laughing ! she had like twenty suggestions... all hysterical ! (some inside jokes, but some are GREAT!) go see.

I am just a blogging fool today! # 3? for wednesday

anyhow... i, apparently have been believing a LIE, for many many years. my mother told me YEARS ago.. like when i was 13 or so.. when we were traveling , and her back went out.. i was forced to drive. talk about PRESSURE! but during her, ten minute driving lesson, with me at the wheel, for the first time, on a Utah higway, in the dark ... she did inform me of a little tid bit of apparently a myth...and not a fact! but i have beleived and passed on this info many many times over the years. this being... that driving a car barefooted is illegal.
well, i just challenged my hubby with this info, as he was leaving to take the kid to school...barefooted. he of course... informed me..that I had been misinformed.
so... me being the type i am.. i must be RIGHT... but so must HE... so we are in a little "who's right" thing. so i googled it while he was gone...
here's what i found

American States

Alabama:
Barefoot Driving: Operation of a motor vehicle by a driver with bare feet is permitted. Exception: motorcycle rider.

Ohio:
Barefoot Driving: Operation of a motor vehicle by a driver with bare feet is permitted but not recommended.

California:
Barefoot Driving: Operation of a motor vehicle by a driver with bare feet is not prohibited.

Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, Colorado, Connecticut, Delaware,Florida, Georgia, Hawaii, Idaho, Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Maine, Maryland, Massachusetts, Michigan, Minnesota, Mississippi, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, Nevada, New Hampshire, New Jersey, New Mexico, New York, North Carolina, North Dakota, Oklahoma, Oregon, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah, Vermont, Virginia, Washington, West Virginia, Wisconsin, and Wyoming:
Barefoot Driving: Operation of a motor vehicle by a driver with bare feet is permitted.

well... now i must inform him... that A) i was misinformed... or B) i am wr... wr... wrong. yukky. :((

wedding day memories

ola peeps...

yep... that would be me... very close to fifteen years ago ! july 1st 1992 to be exact. my wedding day. i actually haven't changed a whole lot , appearance wise. except, i had some pretty nice legs there eh? LOL
NOT anymore. afterall... they are 41 years old now. life is hard for us old people.

anyhow... you may be wondering why THAT picture? WHY now? well... the thing is... as i was blog traveling yesterday, i came across a "sickeningly" sweet post about a blog pals' eleventh anniversary. ( i honestly mean that in a good way!)
she mentioned her wedding day... how she was pre wedding dress clothed... in sweat pants etc. when she unexpectedly ran into her husband to be. she was embarrassed for him to see her looking like that on their wedding day... yet he told her she was beautiful. he meant it, she knew he meant it... and she knew that marrying him was right... even through the butterflies and doubt.
therefore, it brought me back to my own wedding day. i had always been so careful... or perhaps even afraid, when it came to men and long term relationships or commitment. argh... huge word. a life time? OMG. nothing in my life had been permanent by that time in my life. NOTHING ... not even my first child. GOD how would i marry someone...and stay that way? i was petrified... but at the same time... i knew that he was "the one".
so anyhow, when she mentioned how she was dressed, and how he felt, and viewed her in his eyes...no matter how she felt..or how anyone else may have felt about how she looked... she was his beautiful bride... the woman he would spend his life with. and her little story just made me think of how i was dressed, and how fun it all was, and how in love i was... and how hubby said i was beautiful.... even when i came home from working on aircraft engines, covered in grease and sweat.... he loved me...and i knew it. and here we are a week away from the big 15! holy cow.

(ps: i have made my rounds, and all my comments are updated...woo hoo!)

Good CharLotte - thank you mom

This is the video that goes to the song my daughter "dedicated" to me... posted yesterday. ,make it easy on yourself and just watch the video :))

WOW pennies from heaven aren't always cash (wed pt 2)

man... ya just never know when your kid will surprise you, do ya? here i was, blogging...not too kindly either, about my kid half the morning. then out of the blue... i'm in my room, on my laptop..messin around with my sises real estate stuff...my girl was in the living room on the big computer...and i get this email... from HER! "hmmmmm". i say. she never emails me. well, ok. she rarely emails me. so, i open it... and it's a link.. so i go there.... and i find this....

go there...and make sure your sound is on. (i will put the lyrics below the link.)

http://www.myspace.com/goodcharlottejgitrf

(Thank You Mom By Good Charlotte : Lyrics)

I'm sitting here I'm thinking back to a time when I was young...
My memory, is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink, you were downstairs, you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you, and all the times that you stayed true to us
Now we say...
I said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
And even when the times got hard, you were there to let us know...that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man, you taught me how to understand the things, people do
You showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever

random crap of the day

well hellooooo.....

apparently, my seester did not appreciate the seester poem. LOL she had nothing to say about it. i really thought she would find the humor in it. guess i was wrong. it really wasn't personal. even though i was getting pissed that she was ignoring me again. ya, i see where i stand in her life. ha.

so anyways. i survived the morning summer school fiasco...yet again. mornings aren't really that bad that often around here anymore. not like during the school year when EVERY morning was HELL. but there are a few here and there that make me want to pull my hair out. today was one of those. but we lived.
i dropped her off at school, and really just didn't feel like coming back home for such a short time. i mean really, that is just long enough to get in the middle of something and have to stop to go pick her up. it only frustrates me further. so this morning, i dropped her off, and drove by the creek. they really did a hell of a job cleaning up over there. it looks real good. kinda different than it used to. but it looks nice. and the ducks etc aren't all scared anymore, like they were the other day. they were like normal...not running away from me, just kinda hangin out etc. so that was a good sign. i walked all up and down the bank, and was looking for any sign of dead or live fish etc. well... i think the bass are ok. phew. i saw a ton of bait fish...well, not the fish...the water is still very muddy...but there were lots of ripples etc...and well, i did see several minnows close up at the bank. i saw one small fish actually flip out of the water..i think it was a perch...maybe runnin from a bass ! woo hoo! there were lots of turtles swimming around too. the water is quite high, but i think it's gonna be ok. i wanted to go back and fish a little to see if the fish would hit anything after i picked up the child...but by the time i got her, and got home...well, i just felt kinda lazy. i had a rough night last night...hardly any sleep, and a rough morning getting her motivated etc. i could already take a nap ! i also have a lot of business crap to take care of. i need to make a doctor appt that i have been putting off for months. i don't even want to deal with it...or add another med to my already massive daily dose. ugh. but ya. i need to get something from a doc to give VA about my back and addisons etc...but also...this stomach stuff... ithink it's getting worse than i thought. i'm beginning to have dizzy spells etc again. aside from the pain. the last time that happened, they found bleeding ulcers. GAREAT. NO, i haven't told hubby. or anyone. so whoever reads this ... MUMS the word. i will get to the doc. y'all know how hubby worries...and nags. LOL.
so ya. i go thangs ta do. and they aren't fun things.
oh...also, hubby found a buyer for his truck yesterday....bad part...the kid (17) doesn't know how to drive a stick! so what does that mean? it means we have to deliver it tonight. grrrrrrrrrr. just what i had in mind for my evening. shit. he...hubby...being the type of guy that he is...volunteered to teach this kid how to drive the damn thing !!! no... that doesn't bother me... in fact, it makes me pretty proud of him for being such a nice guy. the thing is... gas costs three bucks a gallon...the kid lives like i don't know...40 miles one way from here.......... hellooooooo. how bout askin for a few bucks??? oh well. random acts of kindness i reckon. so it's all good.
so anyhow. ya. the truck is sold. and i have to drive to who knows where to pick him up after he drops the truck off. hm. fun fun. AND.... there's no tellin how long it will take him to find another truck...one that he likes, that he can afford...HOPEFULLY with A/C..that will pull the boat, and not use a thousand gallons of gas to go to the lake.
who has a truck for sale? anybody?
ok........... what else....
oh...wanna see a pic of the creek from this morning? looks much better than the other day...muddy, but bettah....

(click me)

now, doesn't that look like there might be a hungry bass or two lurking in there??? hmmm.
i wanna GO! should i put off what needs to be done today...until the infamous "tomorrow"...that never comes???? nah. but tomorrow... THAT is where i WILL be ! armed and dangerous. IF it isn't raining of course.

ok... i gotta get off my arse, and get some real stuff taken care of.
i'll be back latah. try not to miss me. ya right.

i'm so bored i could hang myself

oh, get a grip, not for real. it was just the first thing i thought of. so i wrote it. but really i am so bored i'm goin out of my skin. i haven't been fishin in two days...no tellin how many more i will have to go before the water clears up...... and even then IF i go, the fish may take days or weeks to start bitin again... IF they haven't been killed in the flood. UGH.
what will i do with myself???
here we are with brand new fish scales, and no fish to weigh. that's thrilling.
Plus...i just spent fifty bucks today to renew the registration on the boat. woo hoo. no sense in taking it on a stained, flooded , dead fish lake though, is there?
all the shows i like to watch on tv, are over. such as the sopranos, survivor, the apprentice, american idol...which sucked ass this year anyhow. there's supposedly a new pirate show on, but i have no clue when it comes on and haven't even seen one episode. soooo. hmmm.
and as far as blockbuster, they get like two new releases a week anymore...and THEY suck ass too!
today "the bridge to tarabithia" came out. i wanted to rent that...but i got there at like 11, they were ALL gone already. the girl said they were all gone in less than ten minutes !!!! good movie apparently....but i didn't get to get it. i ended up with one i've never heard of, and another that's like eight years old that i've seen twelve times that my kid asked for... "uptown girls"... UGH. does the watching the same movie a hundred and fifty times EVER END with kids? GAWD.
so anyhow. hubby is selling his car...AND his truck. anyone want one? he wants a different truck...this one doesn't pull the boat good enough. as for the car...he doesn't need two vehicles...and i must have this damned oral cyst removed before i go insane. it is getting more and more painful. and as i overdose on asperin, my stomach problems only worsen...and it is all a bad chain of events.
so... if you want to buy or sell a vehicle..lemmee know.
and...what else?
not a damn thing.
good bye
for now

on a lighter note . . .

here is a little poem that hubby came across, i thought i would share it with you:

(you have to read this with a spanish accent, for the full effect)

My seester is no bueno.
She ate up all my beans.
I say to her much cuss words,
But she don't know what it means.

So I choke her why she sleeping,
Put her in a garbage sack.
Then I throw her in the reever
And I hope she don't come back!

Seester, seester, why you eat my beans?
It really made me mad because they are my favorite things.
Seester, seester, I hope you do not float.
I hope nobody find you when they driving in their boat!

Mother Nature Is A Bitch!

if anyone has read my first post of the day...and the comments section, y'all know already that my day began rough , as it was.
BUT... while i was out, finally running my errands for the day...and already in a rather pissy mood...and hungry. i had been too busy to eat at that point. in fact i just now sat down with a delicious "cup a soup"...YUM. but even though i am starving...i must post this real quick first.
anyhow... yes josie .. a meatball sub would have been delightful...but you will soon see why it didn't even cross my mind to go there while i was out....
ok..
ready? (click any photo to enlarge)

(soul sneaks a quick bite of her yummy ramen)

ok.... i'm out runnin errands...banks PO box etc... so the Post Office is near the creek... yes the one i catch all my big bass at... not the pond where monstah boy came from, but they're not far from each other.... so i'm actually on my way to the post office.... when all of the sudden everything around me instantly turned to total destruction !!!! no shit ! i called hubby, to have him google the town i was in to see if there had been a tornado last night that we didn't hear about. he did, and said there was no news at all about it. interesting.
because LOOK...

THIS is my creek !!!! my haven. God i hope the fish are ok. there was a family there while i was taking pictures... throwing big ole muscles off the bank back into the creek..LOTS of them ! i did see several live turtles swimming around... but maaan, i'm worried about the fish.






above is my fishin spot ! see how high the water got, where the grass is all laid down?


This is also my spot.. right at the bend in the creek. THAT POLE on the ground... it did not come from the pole it lies next to. i have NO idea where it came from. it's just "there".


this one above here, is just a little bit from the bend... this is where i caught my first big bass at this creek... look at that tree. there WAS also a birdhouse there nearby.. a tall red one.. the pole remains.. bent over almost to the ground... i think either someone stole the birdhouse...or it got washed away.


this is the entrance...obviously. the pavement is destroyed...and do you see the guard rail at the end? water did that. this was all FLOOD damage. not a tornado....or wind. just the fury of water ! 8 inches of rain in one hour...according to a lady i talked to.



that wooden "plank".. or "bridge" there... no clue where it came from.. i've never seen it before !


there's a better shot...

geesh. well... i didn't see any dead fish... but it doesn't mean it didn't happen. i sure hope NOT.

these pics below are about half a mile down the street....

that is a NEW pickup in the great circle i drew...that got washed into the creek in these peoples' yard !!!!!



and below... look at all the grass and debris on that bridge! THAT is how high the water got !

just imagine if we were out there fishing when all this happened. crap!

OK... tat for tat

ok...


josie at picking up pieces, challenged me to show my tats...she posted hers on her blog... therefore, i had to stick to my end of the bargain...so, here ya go:







here they are, in all their unshaven glory!

take a wild guess which one was done in the Philipines!
btw..no , my legs aren't shaped that way...i cropped as much as possible off ! (for the sake of viewing pleasure)
:)
now i shall sleep.
btw...go see josies...they are kool. she's linked on the right under places i wander.

OH MY GAWD !!!!!!

LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THIS BIG OLE DADDY !!!!
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY !!!
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hubby caught this big dude tonight at the pond. he's a monstah !!!!

eh-hem !

looky, it's the bass massta rassta !!!

oh, what a boring web we weave

ola peoples,
wussup
what kinda friday are you havin? here? all work and no play. but i did of course have my nap ! i couldn't dare go without that.
anyways, today was payday...woohoo. which also made it, bill pay day... boo hoo. so, that's how my day started.... juggling the budget, paying the bills, 9hubby went in to work late and is coming home late so he took the kid to school) so after i picked her up from school, we had the pleasure of going to my favorite place in the world... yep. wally hell. it's been quite a while since my daughter has joined me on an actual big grocery day trip to wally hell. she had forgotten that it really is hell. she behaved well though. we didn't argue at all, and for that i was extremely grateful! she also didn't ask for everything under the roof...close, but she understood, that daddy day is gonna take some duckets from our bucket, so she was pretty mellow about the hand out thing. you go girl!
so anyhow, she even offered...and attempted...to help me push the cart when i began to struggle with it. (as hubby wasn't there this time.. *POUT*) .. but it didn't take her long to realize that i wasn't just a whining old frail weak person... that damn cart really was heavy! ...and at that point we were only half way done ! so anyhow, she was actually a pretty handy little helper. she would get stuff off the bottom shelf for me or heavier items to put in the cart. i was very impressed. six months ago... wouldn't have happened. we'da walked in, she'da headed to the CD's, and i woulda had to search for her and either argue til she put whichever cd she thought she was getting back... or give in and buy it. i just can't believe the changes in this kid in just the passed three weeks even. right before my eyes. Thank You God !
ok, so anyhow. we get to the check-out... she says...

"*SIGH* my Gawd, this was the longest trip i've ever had to wal mart ! "
LOL she was so worn out and miserable. my shopping queen? i was like, welcome to MY world ! now you know why i hate to come here, it's hell ! "i know".
it was great ! and the best part? i enjoyed her being there. i usually try to sneak out when she's sleeping, or gone, so i don't have to fight with her over the i wants or the disappearing act or whatever. this time, it was pretty cool. she's growin up. damn.

ok... so, i paid bills, went shopping, came home...only unloaded...she even helped unload the car !!!! but we only unloaded half the stuff...left the non perishables in the trunk for hubby to deal with. we were too tired. then we got that put up, ate something, watched some tv....couldn't tell ya what, cuz i was in a bill slash shopping day coma by then, and shortly there after, i was asleep. and now, i am awake. and i am bored outtah my evah luvin mind. and i am hungry . and i do not feel like cooking. hubby won't be home til like 8. surely he will eat on the road. it's been rainy and drab outside all day... so no fishin. only half of me feels like fishing anyways though. but the other half wants to do "something"... fish, hmm i guess that's all i do. so ya. if it wasn't all wet out, i might go fishin.

oh crap... that just reminded me!!!! my daughter has discovered that she still likes to fish !!!! it is so kool. in fact, it is the coolest thing ever. a few nights ago, i wanted to go fishing. hubby didn't really want to go, and attempted to use her as an excuse to not go. saying "your daughter needs us to stay home" etc. so anyhow, i said something along the lines of .. well, i'm gonna go, you guys can stay here. i don't know what i said. but he decides... come on, we're going fishing. OMG. you would not believe the fit that kid had. we have not MADE her go fishing in years. she whined and bitched for fifteen constant minutes !!! actually more.. maybe 20 or so. UNTIL... we got to our fishin spot... and guess what was in the water? the muskrats !!! well, she just grinned from ear to ear. then she started chasing the ducks, and then she fed them some bread. then... she started fishing with a crappie rod we brought for her.... fishing...my girl? woo hoo. THEN.... she started catching fish! and liking it !!!!! she was having such a great time! she even ASKED to go back the next day! i took her after school, but i was in a crappy mood, and it was hot, and we both got bored pretty quick , she missed a couple fish, i only got one small bass, and no other bites, so as soon as she said.. can we go... i jumped on it. sure, lets go.
but i can't believe it. just wait til she catches one of those big ole bass. she'll be hooked forever. i hope i can get her to go with me on monday after school.

so anyhow... that's my update in a nutshell.

hats bass and photo taking cops

hiya folks!

the only hat i haven't fished in yet, is the "B" one. and for the life of me, i cannot remember if that is for Boston, or Da Bears! ummm...never been big on baseball, but if y'all know..tell me, cuz if it's Boston... it shall be my next hat to fish in! (my dad was from Boston).
the sea ray hat, was lucky at the creek yesterday...BUT on the boat, it did NO good at all. the kelly hat was lucky...but hubby wore it yesterday for a while...so i have to let the jynx wear off before i try that one again. yes i know..he thought i was nuts too! uh, well, i AM NUTS!
soooo, the hat O' the day today???? my blue lear jet/bombardier hat... was it lucky? YUP!!! i slayed them this mornin!.... slayed em! some big, some small...some short strikes, but i was gettin hit aftah hit! what a morning!

my first cast, with a buzz bait, was a short strike, so i missed it. i could tell it was nice, he blew up on it...but i missed him. a few more casts, and one more short strike later.... i slowed down the retrieve and, well....nice fish.

well, after that, and a few more casts, with no more strikes, i decided it was time to switch to the drop shot.... and .... well... say hello to my other little friend... actually, he's not so little...he is as wide as my shoulders! a little skinny, but nice. and he fought hard...and my drag was loose...so i was very lucky to get him in. the drag was squealing so loud a bicycle cop came over to see just what i caught. well... being the crappy self photographer that i am... would you believe that i asked him to take my picture? ! LOL. and he did! he didn't even ask for my fishin license. ha! perhaps he was distracted by my skillz. :)
so.... i did get a little perch a few casts later, but it just wasn't worth the effort to take a pic, so i just tossed him back in, and threw out again. and guess what i got... i swear... not only have i never SEEN a bass this size... i surely have never CAUGHT one! yes... it IS a BASS...(at least i'm pretty sure he was).. he has been moved to a video.

ahh she purred like a kitten

no, unfortunately, i do not speak of myself here. :))
but , we did get the boat on the lake...finally. hubby gets the master kudos !!!!! that boat ran, and sounded better than i remember it ever sounding. and it was soooo great to just be runnin fast on the water, with the cool breeze blowin in my face, and a little water spray action goin. it was mahvalous !!!
we ran the motor out for a while, then of course we fished. and fished. and fished some more. but... i got skunked. i had a few hits...but none got hooked, or to the boat. for me at least. hubby caught two. one bass and one perch. i didn't take a pic of the bass...i just figured he'd get a better one later...unfortunately he did not. he missed a few too. oh wait... he did get another bass...just as we were leaving, about to load the boat, he tossed a buzz bait out a few times and did get a decent bass. (but by then it was too dark to take a pic) .the perch he caught was cute. i did take a pic of him with it, but i haven't downloaded it yet, and at this point am too exhausted to mess with it, but will get it on here tomorrow.
so anyhow... i guess my luck is still at the creek. i'm sure the more i fish off the boat the better i will do, it's just a different type of fishing out there...and i am on the back, which always makes it tougher. so we shall see what happens next time.
anyhow... aagain, it was sooo great to be on out boat. and even better that hubby fixed it all for probably under a hundred bucks. a boat mechanic... i just have no clue what they would have charged, but it woulda been a LOTTTTTT.
so. that's that. hubby got three...i got none. but... i'll get me one at the creek tomorrow !!! i know there's still a five pounder in there... with my name on it. just watch and see .

ok.... enough about fishin for a minute. i have to have my little sopranos rant now. it sucked ass !!!! and we are canceling HBO !!! we have had and paid for hbo, for all these years...just to watch the freakin sopranos. it sure wasn't for their great selection of fifteen year old movies !!! geesh. who saw it? did anyone watch the big finale? people have invested like 8 years into that show...and they end it with a cable malfunction? 9 out of ten people...me included...thought my cable went out! gawsh. i am soooo mad. they just left it all up to each individual interpretation. i thought... since meadow couldn't park the damn car...the scene that took like five minutes...good lord girl...park somewhere else...call daddy soprano on the cell to come park for you...apparently brilliant meadow...dr/lawyer to be, can't park...or think ! so anyhow... wtf happened? a silent black screen for an ending.???? to a 7 or 8 year long series. i could gag. or choke someone.
anyhow... my ending...meadow was late coming in, so she was "saved'...but walked in to find the rest of her family "whacked " with a mouthfull of onion rings. that's just great. but who shot them...or T? wtf. never again. i will never again get caught up in one of these stupid night time soaps again. especially mob shows. they never have been a favorite... but i somehow get sucked into this one.... only to be dropped on my pissed off ass.
grrrrrrrrr.
ps...i'm done...but...ya know, i think i just may muster the strength to go get that camera and post hubby with his baby perch! he'll hate me for it. he didn't want to let me take the pic afraid his fishin buddies might see it. but he was a good sport, and let me take the shot... so hold on and i shall go post it.
i shall return.
here i am, i am back... and i bring you.....hubby's fine fine beauty fish!!!

aren't they sweet!

another tiny bass day

well, is it the hat? is it the shoes? or is it the weather? or, could it unfortunately be the fisher-person? ;))

cuz this last couple days has been really crappy, as far as fishin goes. maybe it's just too hot. i know it's almost too hot for me o go anymore. good lord, i think i'm just gonna keel over out there one day. well, obviously, what i'm headin towards, is the bass just aren't bitin this last couple of days. the tiny ones are, and of course the perch are. but whatever happened to my big old fishies??? i was waitin for my five pounder any day. then they just turned off like a dang light. but at least i got a couple today. and of course i missed a couple. didn't lose them...missed em. bummer huh. anyhow. i only took one pic... just to show the hat o' the day... and also the fishy. but he isn't big at all. right after i got him i got another one... it was a bass, but man it was small. i was hoping nobody saw it. LOL. they were fun to catch. they both felt big...but were obviously not.
so ayhow... i finally gave up on my addictive nature, and headed home. ended up stopping at mcdonalds for everyone forst. cuz i knew i wasn't gonna last long after getting home. in fact, i am falling asleep right now.
sooo...more later maybe
c-ya

(photo moved to bass video)

there's someone watchin out for us!

well, i didn't have to wake hubby up this morning, he got up shortly after i finished my earlier post. so i gave him a chance to wake up, and we went fishing for a while. we didn't stay very long, it was hellishly HOT. i'm not sure what time we got there, but we left at about 1015. my gawd it was HOT!!! for some reason, i was preparing for chilly weather...i guess because yesterday was so crappy. so i'm wearing blue jeans, socks, tennis shoes, i almost even wore a flannel...thank God i didn't! we weren't there for half an hour before i was havin a heat stroke, i was sweatin like a pig, my face was burnin hot, and sweat was just pouring down the backs of my legs. i was miserable. hubby was hot too, but he was dressed appropriately, and part of my problem is also that i take a lot of meds, and one of them, makes me a lot more sensitive to heat than i used to be. bad thing... i'm not sure which one it is !!!! ugh. but i was miserably hot... but not willing to leave until i got a fish! so. it wasn't long at all before i missed one. WTH!!! i wish i could figure out what the hell i am doing wrong over there to miss so many fish. i wouldn't care if they were perch or something... but these are like three and four pound bass i'm losing! and i just don't know what i'm doing wrong. UGH. so anyhow... maybe another half hour or so passes... i change my bait... maybe at least twice by now... cuz nuthing is working. we're thinking they are just hot and lazy too. they probably were, cuz hubby usually always catches fish, no matter where he is. but even he wasn't having any luck. but all the sudden i throw in under a tree... and there he was. he hit it as soon as it hit the water! (the fish, not hubby )
here ya go...sadly, the only fish of the day...but gladly...he was MINE !!!

photo moved to bass video

( i caught you a delicious bass)

so anyways... we lasted maybe, another half hour or so, and had to leave. it was just too freakin hot, and the fish weren't biting. so we left. i was already ready for a nap! or my funeral. i was sick! i thought i could puke. i need to not take meds before fishing on a hot day again. geesh!

so...we load up and go... and we were riding in hubbys truck this time... no A/C. figures. the hottest freakin day of the year! so there we are, dyin of heat exhaustion, just tryin to get home before i barf... and whaddaya think happens? yep you guessed it..maybe.... we got pulled over!!!! this is the someone watchin out for us part. ya see... hubby and heat don't go together very well either. he's just naturally heat sensitive...but it affects more his thinking than his physical being... so when we got in the truck to leave, i buckled up..and reminded him to as well. after that... i was just trying to get air, and didn't notice he didn't buckle, and he obviously forgot. so then... we come to a stop sign down the road.. oh first... i put the shoulder strap behind me cuz it was right on my neck and strangling me, but i was buckled... so anyhow... we get to the stop sign, and he's like which way do i turn.. i told him this streets that way, this street's this way... so, he turned ...the way that would be quicker to get home. he didn't signal! well, there was a cop...right there. he saw him not signal, and also saw him not buckled..and thought that i wasn't buckled because my strap was behind me...so he pulls us over! and in so doing...finds that hubby has a NM drivers license...after living in tx for like almost a year...when ya only have thirty days to change it over! uh. even i thought he had a tx dl. so anyhow... hubby was able to slide his belt on without the cop seeing, and said he had his strap under his arm . phew. so.... the guy let us out of four tickets, that woulda really added up to a lot of money. even tho i was buckled and "apparently hubby was too :))... it's still a fine if the belt isn't worn properly".. so crap!thank God we got that truck insured and registered ! they woulda took it for sure.man. we were like oh crap oh crap oh crap. i bet if he didn't have a clean driving record he woulda got a ticket...or four. see...good things happen to good people. i bet he won't forget to buckle up next time...or signal!!! and i guess i won't be wearing the shoulder strap behind me again either. and i suppose he better truck on over and get his tx dl. now that we know all he has to do is tell them he's had one before! ugh. memories.
ok... i think that is about it for now.
it's nap time for this little fishy.

are my fishy stories getting boring?

no one seems to have much to say today. (this is me pouting). is it the fish? sorry. it's what i do best. seein as i don't like to clean. or shop. or be around people. and lately, i'm not liking being inside all the time. so, i fish, therefore i AM.

ok, that's out of my system.
something wonderful happened, and somehow, in my fishing frenzy, i forgot to mention it...
hubby fixed our boat !!!!! yes he did !!! like two days ago. how could i not put that on here?
i don't really know what he did to it...but he did it well. KUDOS to the man.
we are hoping to take it on the lake tomorrow.... little test drive type thing. that boat hasn't been on the water (with the big engine running) in like two years. poor neglected, expensive boat. but, man, i tell ya, we're like a couple of kids around here. we were so worried about what it might cost to have our boat fixed by a boat mechanic. my gawd, they charge soooo much. hubby said he was thinking maybe up to a thousand dollars at times, due to the extensive troubleshooting, etc. then parts and labor. ugh. i just was getting to the point i figured it would sit parked for another season. but, yippee.

so anyhow... what else? not much i reckon. just checking in. i need to figure out what to do about dinner. then maybe i'll go to bed early or watch a movie.

oooh... is anybody watching the sopranos??? i expected a lot more out of this final season, but sunday is the finale. no tellin what's gonna happen. i'm looking forward to seeing it tho.

anyhow, i'm gone....

hiya peeps

wussup

here? not so much me. i'm primed and ready for yet another nap. that would be a nap a day... for a week straight ! i don't like that. but i guess that's just the way it is sometimes. so, oh well.
but... i did have a fairly good morning with my child. she was a bit crabby...but , that's not a big surprise. :)) she really has been improving lately though... since our big bad day, earlier in the week. so, i guess i can let her be crabby once in a while eh?
so anyhow...yes, i did go fishing after i took her to school. i wore a sea ray hat my sister gave me.. for luck ! seein as my "arkansas" hat didn't do a whole lot for me. and my bombardier hat didn't do much either. in fact... the best fish i got was without a hat at all ! but, i didn't want to end up in another frazzled hair day fish pic like i did yesterday, so that is why i chose the hat that i chose for todays excursion. well..... at first, i thought, damn... i'm gonna wear this hat EVERY time i fish ! know why? cuz on my first cast, i got a niiiice one. but..... the damn thing wasn't even hooked ! i have no idea how, or why he hung on all the way to the bank...almost. but i saw him let off, and swim away..with a big ole F-U splash, i might add. but, when i went to check my bait... the hook was still in the plastic worm ! the stupid fish must've had a panic attack and just held on for dear life...til he realized... hey... all i have to do is open my mouth, and i'm outta heah. so he did. so, phewy !
but anyhow... i didn't have much time to fish...less than half an hour, and nothing else happened by the time i had to go get the girl from school.... except some wind...cold wind too. yuk. and , a huge threat of rain. the sky looked pretty darn ominous, but no rain. just cold and wind. it woulda been ok if the sun was out. but it was pretty crappy. so anyhow...i had to leave. cussing myself for rigging my bait wrong. but oh well.. each mistake is a lesson learned, right?
soooo... i go get my girl... she shows me her weekly progress report for school. the kid has a 94% !!!! why the hell didn't she do that during the school year???? she also got a 90 on a pre-test that she took yesterday. i'm so proud of her. i know she has it in her...she just has to TRY. so, she was hungry, so i got her some breakfast...and i asked her to go fish with me, but she wouldn't. it was like pulling teeth. so i finally gave up. but y'all know me... i HAD to go get that fish! what if it was gramma !!! LOL
so... i go back. i fished for maybe two more hours. the weather pretty much sucked... it was windy, and i was cold, even my finger tips got numb. BUT... i didn't get rained on. so that much i appreciated. so , as for my catch of the day... i think i got "the middle child".... hmmm...what shall we name her? she wasn't as big as jr. , but she wasn't as small as "sissy" either. soooo, let's call her ummm "Nemo" ! ya. Nemo. who says nemo is a boys name? just cuz he was a boy on finding nemo... in real life it could be a unisex name, right? so... Nemo it is. but... i don't have a pic. it was too much hassle to bother with today. and everyone has seen enough tiny fish on here for one week...right/
anyhooo.... i did have another catch! a bettah one. smaller than hubbys last night i think. ya , pretty sure it was smaller...but it put up a good fight. and there was a couple little kids..well not little..maybe 11 ish...boys...perch fishing near me....they weren't as irritating as the teenagers last night. in fact i enjoyed watching these kids catch their perch. LOL. one of them was sooo small i laughed out loud. anyhow... i had one of them take the pic for me... since my self portraits really don't come out too well.
sooo...here she is. somebody else can name her, cuz i'm too tired.
i'll be back later on...but i don't think i'll be fishing again today. it's killing me. it's a slow, and enjoyable death... but it's painful and exhausting too. so i think i shall chill out. maybe i'll fish tomorrow.
toodles