what's goinin on in your worlds today? hopefully all is well with you and yours. i reckon i can''t complain in mine. ha! for once. today is actually goin pretty good. i've even been doin some cleaning and other much needed things around the house.
you may have noticed i haven't been around much this past week... that would be because i have felt like absolute dog poop. run over and set on fire -- twice. OMG. you wouldn't believe it. remember how i was just tellin y'all how my meds were workin, and i was feelin better and all that?? well, i think it was wednesday. i woke up- with plans to take soulkid to school, and her weekly appointment, just like every wednesday. except for the fact that i couldn't breathe, or open my eyes! my mouth and throat felt like something died in there, and got trapped on the way down. not to mention the fact that i felt like my heart was about to blow out of my chest! hell. i didn't know what to think. or do. hubby was at work, so i got up and went to wash my face and 'see' WTH was goin on. what did i see when i looked in the mirror???? i can't show you the real me... but it was similar -- prolly worse -- yeh.. it was worse --- but close to THIS:
it was awful! at first i thought i was gonna have to go out like that and get the child to her appointments. but the longer i sat there trying to feel better -- the worse i felt. and the more i realized what a stupid move driving would be. (obviously, i couldn't see) so. i rescheduled both of her things, and spent the rest of the day feeling like the elephant man ... wondering WTF happened to me.
this was obviously NOT a cold. so if not a cold-- WTH was it?
i remembered, i had just started a new and different med for sleep two nights before. (that wasn't working. in fact it was doing the opposite, and making it harder to get to sleep). i had been having a lot of trouble sleeping .. i always do- but really, i'm gettin sick of it, and am taking way to much xanax (the only thing that works) - so thought i'd ask for something new. anyhow- that was my first thought. aha! i'm allergic to the new med. maybe.
i of course get online and begin checking the symptoms of allergic reactions of this med. they do seem to match a lot of what i had goin on. but after a while - after calling my dr. and getting the no brainer 'don't take any more ' response- that i had already expected. -- i started thinking of anything else that may have caused it. i mean i really looked and felt bad. and it came on so sudden - it had to be something. and it wasn't a cold. and i don't have 'allergies'. then i remembered the other new med they gave me at the VA -- when was that? almost two weeks , right? i thought that would make more sense than something i had taken only two times. so i got back online and checked that med. i asked them before i took it too-- about taking TWO steroids. because i already take one every day for 'addisons' as it is. so i was a bit worried about side effects before i even took the stuff. they said -- 'no, don't worry, it'll be fine.' hmmmmph. well. fine, my ass. the more i read, the more it made sense. it was that med. the new and additional steroid. i had steroid overload. which led to steroid face. i checked my blood pressure-- it was high. i was nauseated. my eyes were swollen, my throat was hoarse and it hurt to talk or eat. UGH. this went on for THREE days. needless to say i did not leave the house. yesterday was the first day since tuesday that i left my front door. do i have to say it again y'all? cuz i think you know already. i hate doctors! even tho i questioned them, and didn't want to take two steroids... they gave it to me -- and i exploded. bleh. i don't know if it's an allergy to that new steroid, or if it was just an overload since they added that and raised mine. but i obviously stopped that one and i cut mine down some. now i'm back to normal. but man that was a rough few days... my pants didn't even fit!!!! have i mentioned the fact that i hate taking medicine? well i do!
anyhow- today, i feel pretty good. considering the last several. i also have nothin else to say since i have done nothing and gone nowhere lately. unlike the child. she has been turned loose many times with my car, and is loving it. i can't believe she finally got her drivers license. or the fact that i let her drive my car. it's very nerve wracking. so far she hasn't wrecked it or got a ticket. i pray constantly while she's out. it wouldn't hurt any if y'all shot a prayer or two up in her favor once in a while :)) she's scary behind the wheel sometimes. other times she does pretty good tho. i actually dozed off one time while she was driving-- i haven't done that in several years-- no matter who was driving. so that's sayin somethin. :))
well- aside from that? our wood floor installation should be completed by tomorrow night -- so stay tuned for photos of that. i'm excited !!!
happy sunday in your worlds folks !
