hiya peeps. well, of course i speak to those who've decided to stick around. of course. i am aware that my last few posts haven't really sounded the most stable. if ya know what i mean. but - that is why i am writing today. i'm gonna keep it short - for now. i just want to let ya know that i came across a post the other day that says , much more fluently, what i have attempted for over two years to say right here. all i ever seemed to accomplish in my attempts? sounding like a paranoid , impossible to understand , freak. soul-speak. i reckon that's what we could call my 'code language' i get into - when i try to tippy toe around things, and just never seem to get to the point.
well, this post -- from 'The Naked Soul' - Mark: says it all. i believe. i hope that you will read what he says , and be able to understand that between what he says - and what i have tried to say here, so many times; that what i write here - is my own 'original' thoughts, ideas, and words. to me they are all that i own that means anything to me. when i see them on other folks blogs an hour after i have written them here? i cannot describe the helpless feeling that washes over me. nor the feeling of betrayal that i feel. and to have this repeatedly happen - for so long? and still trying to be original, and cordial, has rocked me to my core.
anyhow- go visit Mark, and please try to understand where i am comin from.
i miss writing here. many of you know that i have been robbed of many 'things' many times throughout my life. if my own mind is to be robbed continuously of my own thoughts... i cannot allow it to go on. someone just tell me you have seen it-- better yet WHERE you have seen it.
my words, used by others.. and i would love to 'come home, and be with y'all. right here.
http://tobeme.wordpress.com/2010/09/30/original-thoughts/
