some of y'all know i mentioned- once- recently, that i was 'attempting to quit smoking. i failed at that as well. i'm still managing to stay under a pack a day - which is much better still, than 3 packs a day.... BUT, i was at the half a pack mark. maybe ten days ago. i don't even like it that much any more. not the taste -- not even the effort. can you believe i even said that? 'effort'? to friggin smoke? but i don't mean it like you think. it's just that really, it doesn't give me the 'pleasure'(???)- or maybe 'comfort'(???) that it used to. yet i continue to do it. and don't really want to. i'd much rather get drunk !!!! ugh! obviously not guys. don't worry. maybe that's why i'm smokin so much. y'all know- or a lot of ya do.. me and booze don't get along. it alters my life. not so temporarily either. so when i get 'thirsty', i kinda get a little - ok a lot- stressed.
so. speaking of stressed ... i still hadn't heard a word from the surgeon that i was referred to - so by friday- i called them.. just to see why the delay. well.. just like the rest of the world.. they'd never heard of me. -- but, it seems that they had moved offices recently- and thought maybe my doc had sent my referral to the old fax number. i gave all the info - and now -- i wait -- again. it will be even longer of a wait - if i haven't had an MRI of my C-spine in over a year-- i'm thinkin-- and hoping it has been less.
speakin of scans... yeh- i am the queen of green! i glow. not sure if i mentioned it - but i had a CT a week or so ago. abdomen. (adrenals/kidneys/etc). some interesting things came back. but nothin to worry about. at least that's what my -- soon to be fired endocrinologist said. in fact he said "it's all good'. i do not trust that man as far as i can throw him.. and y'all know-- all i can throw is a damn fishin lure... i bet i couldn't throw a softball four feet . erg! so anyhow... when i heard that-- i just got suspicious.. cuz i know-- aint nuthin "good" in me. i called the place that did the scan, and got copies of the report. any how-- my intuition was right. i have a NEW cyst on my liver-- it's very small.. but it's there- and it's new- and he didn't tell me . also-- there's some kinda some shit goin on with my aorta (stomach one)- not heart. so. WTF people? what kinda doctor keeps this from his patient? the report has notes about being checked for malignancy of the liver-- to follow up with MRI-- did he tell me. noop. belly aortas have aneurysms -- did he tell me -- to see someone? not to worry about it? noop. actually - HE told me NOTHING. his 'office mgr talked to me , and played relay msgr for me. i'm tellin y'all... i am thinkin hard about suing him.. not about just this-- his nurse practitioner i used to see damn near killed me once. i am not exaggerating.. and he acts like that 'incident' is not important-- but he does acknowledge it-- how can he not? it is documented! it's just one thing after another over there-- i am waiting for a second opinion.. once i get it-- and it proves he is not treating me properly.. and he is keeping me sick- and sicker --- i tell ya what-- his ass is mine- (i'm STILL losing weight! he of all should be able to tell me why!) yes y'all i DO eat! anyone know how much i'll weigh before i fall thru my a**hole and hang myself? :))
"you'd smoke too! LOL
anyhow-- did i tell ya we sold our giant couches? well we did. personally i was hoping for new furniture that wouldn't trap me like a friggin helpless animal.... instead-- i also mentioned new floors? we opted to go for flooring first. which didn't leave enough for furniture. BUT we -- ok hubby- did move the office couch into the livin room... which - has a lever so i don't get stuck in there. it's all workin out.
y'all knew already - once i got started , i wouldn't shut up-- didn't ya?
i wasn't sure-- but sorry if i'm boring ya. i guess i should get back to writin more.
i'll make a deal.. you talk to me more-- i'll talk to YOU more. fair?
ok-- i'm sure i'm leavin a lot out-- but i don't wanna hold ya hostage any longer.
happy sunday in your worlds--
i shall keep you photo - updated on our flooring progress-- installed by soulman.. beginning today :))
speakin of photos -- i missed another photo challenge.. haven't been up to takin pics lately -- maybe that will give me a reason to leave the house when it's cold? check back for the next one-- if i can remember - i'll enter it.
laterz folks-
PS- on my proof read? i found 2 freudian slips.. if that's what we want to call them. one was where i wrote ' more' .. i wrote "mom".. in front of it.
and 2nd? where i wrot 'me'.. i wrote 'ma' instead'
-- my 'deceased' mothers' birthday is october 21st.
don't feel bad-- i don't. it just seems weird to have written those words. - always glad to catch my typos before y'all do'
anyhow-- i'm gone! POOF!
