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Monday, July 25, 2011
re-decorating my world -
hiya peeps - how goes it in your world these days? i hope all is well and good.
here? well, not terrible. that's a good thing , y'all know that. you've heard me bitch and moan - or not say a word for quite a while lately. with good reason. at least i think so. the most depressing crap can run through these fingers of mine sometimes, that even i hate to read it. if you'll notice - i just drafted my last three posts. they were demonic. LOL. well.. more of a HMMPH. geesh. man i'll tell ya. it really has been a struggle for me since i fell on the boat and broke two ribs.. but it coulda been worse. i know that now. and i also know that excuses and reasoning aren't in order. i have felt the presence of God in my life more powerfully in these passed few weeks than i have in not so recent memory.
i can't really explain in how many - or what kind of specific ways. but i can tell you that my perception on my life has been entirely skewed for a very long time. i'm pretty sure that you all knew that... obviously it took some drastic measures for me, to see what everyone else has seen, but maybe didn't know how to tell me. maybe some of you did -- and i didn't want to hear it.
anyhow -- i just wanted to check in and say hello to you folks.
hope you all have happy days in your worlds today -
i plan to
here? well, not terrible. that's a good thing , y'all know that. you've heard me bitch and moan - or not say a word for quite a while lately. with good reason. at least i think so. the most depressing crap can run through these fingers of mine sometimes, that even i hate to read it. if you'll notice - i just drafted my last three posts. they were demonic. LOL. well.. more of a HMMPH. geesh. man i'll tell ya. it really has been a struggle for me since i fell on the boat and broke two ribs.. but it coulda been worse. i know that now. and i also know that excuses and reasoning aren't in order. i have felt the presence of God in my life more powerfully in these passed few weeks than i have in not so recent memory.
i can't really explain in how many - or what kind of specific ways. but i can tell you that my perception on my life has been entirely skewed for a very long time. i'm pretty sure that you all knew that... obviously it took some drastic measures for me, to see what everyone else has seen, but maybe didn't know how to tell me. maybe some of you did -- and i didn't want to hear it.
anyhow -- i just wanted to check in and say hello to you folks.
hope you all have happy days in your worlds today -
i plan to
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
soul-land-ings
hiya peeples-
how's things in your worlds?
here, i'm just enjoyin the silence for the moment actually. well, the silence around me i should say. the silence in my head -- well, that's a whole nother question. quite a bit goin on in there - i'll get to that in a minute.
but as for here at home, around me? ahhhh. the animals are quiet-- and soulman, AND soulkid -- are at work. which puts me all by myself -- alone -- to enjoy my smoke - n- choke in peace, for what seems to be a long time.
i know for some, that means loneliness. for me? it's my time. no tv. no x-box live crap. just the sound of silence -- and it really is golden.
i have been a stressed out disaster of a mess for what seems to be -- months. i don't even know why really. but i have got to a point of non functioning, and total exhaustion. between physical pain, and mental stress and -- whatever.. it's been paralyzing for me. not to mention flat out d-e-p-r-e-s-s-i-n-g.
i have raised meds -- lowered meds -- stopped meds -- started back on meds. chain smoked- cut back on cigs. rested.. not rested.. got up - and crashed.
i even found myself in the emergency room a few days ago -- chest pain, side pain, and racing heart -- i was at the point that i believed that i was having another blood clot (pulmonary embolism-- or perhaps a heart attack) -- turned out to be 'nothing-- thank God. -- but of course - i always feel foolish when i go to a dr - especially ER -for 'nothin .. but better safe, than sorry eh?
i will admit -- it was easing on my mind tho - to know that my heart, and lungs were ok. i think i was stressed over stressin that they were not.
i have also been worried a lot -- about the dang horrible storms and tragedies in places where i have dear friends.. some of which i still am not sure of how some of my friends are doing. japan, alabama (i know those peeps are ok) ---
but now tennessee - i have a lot of peeps there in several different areas -- i didn't even hear about problems there until a couple days ago -- yeh , i'm a hermit-- y'all know that. but seriously-- WTF is UP with all of this ?? and let me know how y'all are ok?
even we here have had our share of storms, tornadoes, and even wild fires of all things. nothing too bad near us. but some areas are trying and failing to get help from obama. what a freakin crazy time for so many .
and what about osuma? really think he is dead? and if so.. why not end the damn war, and bring our people home? was he not the main goal of this entire thing? if he is dead -- let's end it. especially if he is dead, and we have a entire new threat of terror 'here'.. what good are we 'there'? this whole thing has me up in arms. pic? no pic? buried at sea? really? it's all just weird. but if it is true? rock on SEAL team 6!
on a lighter note? how was y'alls moms day? hope it was grand! mine was nice- smoked brisket -- nice surprise gifts, got a nice new fishin rod-- what else right? and a nice relaxing lotion - primping basket /candle gift from my soulkid. nice all around day. hope yours was good too.
we also got to baby dog sit my mommasons dog -- a min pin for a week, while she and her sister , used our time share to visit their other sister . he was a trip. but also a lot of fun. he got along with all the other animals. sushi was very jealous - but also had fun playing with him. his name is Duke,
i also had another surprise-- yep - douglass - the cat -- put his foot in my eye while i was sleeping ! well sort of- i heard him drinking my water-- grabbed him, and drug him over my face, to get him away from it. that's when his foot landed in my eye! very painfully, i might add. the next morning, i noticed my eye was all red and bloody 'looking' in the white area. i worried about infection, so went to the dr. for antibiotics. little did i know-- it is state law in texas -- to report to animal control of any bite or scratch of an animal!! douglasss has been on 'home quarantine'.. thank God they didn't come and take hi to lock him up at the shelter! but today is the day i have to take him to the vet for his 'well check' and drop 50 bucks -- and take a damn form to animal control to prove he is up to date on his shots and doesn't have rabies.
it's been a roller coaster of a couple weeks -- but i am alive. trying to chill out some.
cheers y'all -- have a couple for me- i could use em-
how's things in your worlds?
here, i'm just enjoyin the silence for the moment actually. well, the silence around me i should say. the silence in my head -- well, that's a whole nother question. quite a bit goin on in there - i'll get to that in a minute.
but as for here at home, around me? ahhhh. the animals are quiet-- and soulman, AND soulkid -- are at work. which puts me all by myself -- alone -- to enjoy my smoke - n- choke in peace, for what seems to be a long time.
i know for some, that means loneliness. for me? it's my time. no tv. no x-box live crap. just the sound of silence -- and it really is golden.
i have been a stressed out disaster of a mess for what seems to be -- months. i don't even know why really. but i have got to a point of non functioning, and total exhaustion. between physical pain, and mental stress and -- whatever.. it's been paralyzing for me. not to mention flat out d-e-p-r-e-s-s-i-n-g.
i have raised meds -- lowered meds -- stopped meds -- started back on meds. chain smoked- cut back on cigs. rested.. not rested.. got up - and crashed.
i even found myself in the emergency room a few days ago -- chest pain, side pain, and racing heart -- i was at the point that i believed that i was having another blood clot (pulmonary embolism-- or perhaps a heart attack) -- turned out to be 'nothing-- thank God. -- but of course - i always feel foolish when i go to a dr - especially ER -for 'nothin .. but better safe, than sorry eh?
i will admit -- it was easing on my mind tho - to know that my heart, and lungs were ok. i think i was stressed over stressin that they were not.
i have also been worried a lot -- about the dang horrible storms and tragedies in places where i have dear friends.. some of which i still am not sure of how some of my friends are doing. japan, alabama (i know those peeps are ok) ---
but now tennessee - i have a lot of peeps there in several different areas -- i didn't even hear about problems there until a couple days ago -- yeh , i'm a hermit-- y'all know that. but seriously-- WTF is UP with all of this ?? and let me know how y'all are ok?
even we here have had our share of storms, tornadoes, and even wild fires of all things. nothing too bad near us. but some areas are trying and failing to get help from obama. what a freakin crazy time for so many .
and what about osuma? really think he is dead? and if so.. why not end the damn war, and bring our people home? was he not the main goal of this entire thing? if he is dead -- let's end it. especially if he is dead, and we have a entire new threat of terror 'here'.. what good are we 'there'? this whole thing has me up in arms. pic? no pic? buried at sea? really? it's all just weird. but if it is true? rock on SEAL team 6!
on a lighter note? how was y'alls moms day? hope it was grand! mine was nice- smoked brisket -- nice surprise gifts, got a nice new fishin rod-- what else right? and a nice relaxing lotion - primping basket /candle gift from my soulkid. nice all around day. hope yours was good too.
we also got to baby dog sit my mommasons dog -- a min pin for a week, while she and her sister , used our time share to visit their other sister . he was a trip. but also a lot of fun. he got along with all the other animals. sushi was very jealous - but also had fun playing with him. his name is Duke,
and of course -- i am loved by all -
animals.
it's been a roller coaster of a couple weeks -- but i am alive. trying to chill out some.
cheers y'all -- have a couple for me- i could use em-
Saturday, April 30, 2011
GOOD NEWS - to those who know Mary @ Pathways!
howdy peeps -- just to let ya know -- i just got a phone call from Mary @ Pathways - http://maryspathways.blogspot.com/. i know many of you who read here read her page too. i just want to pass along the message that she and her family are all doing ok - considering the horrible circumstances of the recent tornado.
she asked that i send a shout out in her place to those who are worried about her :
her voice was audibly shaken , but she and harry are fine. at least physically so. they have their reefer tanks on a generator -- as well as the rest of their home. luckily their structure suffered no severe damage other than a little roof and shingle damage. but they are sheltered -- in a most primitive sounding way.
she had been in fear of running out of her medications but had found there is a 'place' set up to fill RX's for those who can't get them. we weren't able to talk long - as she said - the phones - come and go. the important thing is - thank God , no one (of 'them') was physically harmed in what was for her and harry several terrifying hours - spent in their hall way in the wrath of this awful tornado.
as in the usual Mary - slash - Harry way -- they are doing as much as they can for others in their neighborhood - who suffered much more damage -- to their homes, and possibly bodies . they are keeping food for some neighbors -- and of course offering what they have to those who were left with nothing. as in the way that tornadoes do -- one home was 'saved' while the other was leveled. also, as many folks who witness, and by the grace of God , survive these types of things - Mary was left with a total lack of words to describe what they had gone through. not for lack of trying -- the words are not there. this has been and is an obvious traumatic event for her. they have been without power for the days since the tornado -- and a possible 7 + days longer to come. (as per their electric/power source).
through it all -- she is holding strong -- as those who know her -- always does. the circumstances they are living under at this time is not easy for her -- or anyone nearby . obviously. but they are lucky enough to have a couple of generators to supply their needs.
i just wanted you to know that if you are among the many praying for her - and hers- God, as always hears you ! He surely has big plans for her in the future. i am amazed at all she has been through -- and conquered over the past couple of years ... i can't wait to see what happens next !
i hope and pray that it is all smooth sailing and time for her to receive the blessings that she has and continues to share ! there just aren't many made like Mary -- keep praying for her and her family.
i love that woman !!!
she asked that i send a shout out in her place to those who are worried about her :
her voice was audibly shaken , but she and harry are fine. at least physically so. they have their reefer tanks on a generator -- as well as the rest of their home. luckily their structure suffered no severe damage other than a little roof and shingle damage. but they are sheltered -- in a most primitive sounding way.
she had been in fear of running out of her medications but had found there is a 'place' set up to fill RX's for those who can't get them. we weren't able to talk long - as she said - the phones - come and go. the important thing is - thank God , no one (of 'them') was physically harmed in what was for her and harry several terrifying hours - spent in their hall way in the wrath of this awful tornado.
as in the usual Mary - slash - Harry way -- they are doing as much as they can for others in their neighborhood - who suffered much more damage -- to their homes, and possibly bodies . they are keeping food for some neighbors -- and of course offering what they have to those who were left with nothing. as in the way that tornadoes do -- one home was 'saved' while the other was leveled. also, as many folks who witness, and by the grace of God , survive these types of things - Mary was left with a total lack of words to describe what they had gone through. not for lack of trying -- the words are not there. this has been and is an obvious traumatic event for her. they have been without power for the days since the tornado -- and a possible 7 + days longer to come. (as per their electric/power source).
through it all -- she is holding strong -- as those who know her -- always does. the circumstances they are living under at this time is not easy for her -- or anyone nearby . obviously. but they are lucky enough to have a couple of generators to supply their needs.
i just wanted you to know that if you are among the many praying for her - and hers- God, as always hears you ! He surely has big plans for her in the future. i am amazed at all she has been through -- and conquered over the past couple of years ... i can't wait to see what happens next !
i hope and pray that it is all smooth sailing and time for her to receive the blessings that she has and continues to share ! there just aren't many made like Mary -- keep praying for her and her family.
i love that woman !!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
well, if one thing's consistant around here - - -
..... it's the fact that i have run out of bloggin gas. that last post was not a natural flow of smooth soul blabbin, like it used to be. the other day, that post just didn't come together like i thought it would. i reckon the only reason i'm in here now - after a day of thinkin , -- 'maybe i should just let it go for good' -- is cuz i , once again can't sleep. i am once again, up with a pain issue that won't let me sleep- or stay asleep. well, that - and the fact that i'll prolly never totally stop bloggin. it isn't my first and last thought of the day anymore-- hasn't been for quite some time. but the spark is still there. and i know that if i continue to write -- the soul-ramblin-rythm will return. we shall see.
to be totally honest? aside from the pain? i think i'm in here - and awake - mainly because of the huge ass tornado's ravaging the entire eastern US. and my easily worried mind.
surely by now y'all have seen this stuff on the news? i'm prayin y'all out that way are safe, especially if you have been hit, near hit , or damaged by those storms.
it was about 6 pm here when i saw the pictures on the news of the half mile wide tornado in Birmingham Alabama. half a damn mile wide folks! my heart sank. i immediately called my friend out there -- i got sent straight to voice-mail, and no word since. :(( LBF -- call me asap when you can..
we have had nothin but 'breaking news' out here for the last three or four days, about our own tornado breakouts.. more than twelve just the other day in areas east of us. some closer - nuthin severe -- not like'this'. the (my)whole area has been callin TV channels bitchin for them to stop interrupting their 'programs'. SO what happens last night when i WANT to see what's goin on in Alabama? they show nuthin! ERG! maybe five minutes of the huge ass tornado touchin down.. tearin through birmingham, and nearby areas. awful to watch might i add? all i could do was shake my head in disbelief. it was unreal. i wanted it to be a dream.. it wasn't.
the last, and only time i ever saw anything like this size of a tornado was in 1999, when one of similar size ripped through oklahoma. i lived in whichita - (AKA- Tornado alley) -but, i was visiting in california with soulkid at the time. it was -- april 29th, 1999. soulman was home alone in KS -- to face the the wrath of the 'leavins' by himself - in our basement. sometimes - even still, i wish i woulda skipped my visit to cali - and stayed home too. prolly woulda been better than the emotional tornado i faced on my 'hell-cation' . bah ! (i was visiting a terminally ill - very long time best friend. it of course didn't go well, as the cancer had hit her brain by that time. -- i say i'd trade it, due to the confusion of her mind -- but never would i really. we were able to 'say goodbye' - folks don't get that opportunity very often-.
anyhow-- let's get offa that subject. shall we?
i guess i'm tired folks. i won't let it ruin my day tho. i can't. i'm in soul-hell. yes, again. a million and one things to catch up on -- or evein begin... but first ! -- i have to try to get in touch with some of friends who may have been in the path of the tornadoes . i can only hope that they are all - alright. then regardless of what i hear -- if anything -- cuz i think the phones were down when i tried calling last night.... i need to continue on with what i hope to be a productive day. i have been like a bad still life painting for weeks!
at this point in time i am considering returning to bed --- but i cannot do that. better yet shouldn't. even though my body and mind beg for me to rest. i did that yesterday. all day. i know i need it on certain days -- it's not like i'm in the best 'shape' of my life -- but i can guilt myself to death if i let me.
one of my best and worst attributes.
to be totally honest? aside from the pain? i think i'm in here - and awake - mainly because of the huge ass tornado's ravaging the entire eastern US. and my easily worried mind.
surely by now y'all have seen this stuff on the news? i'm prayin y'all out that way are safe, especially if you have been hit, near hit , or damaged by those storms.
it was about 6 pm here when i saw the pictures on the news of the half mile wide tornado in Birmingham Alabama. half a damn mile wide folks! my heart sank. i immediately called my friend out there -- i got sent straight to voice-mail, and no word since. :(( LBF -- call me asap when you can..
we have had nothin but 'breaking news' out here for the last three or four days, about our own tornado breakouts.. more than twelve just the other day in areas east of us. some closer - nuthin severe -- not like'this'. the (my)whole area has been callin TV channels bitchin for them to stop interrupting their 'programs'. SO what happens last night when i WANT to see what's goin on in Alabama? they show nuthin! ERG! maybe five minutes of the huge ass tornado touchin down.. tearin through birmingham, and nearby areas. awful to watch might i add? all i could do was shake my head in disbelief. it was unreal. i wanted it to be a dream.. it wasn't.
the last, and only time i ever saw anything like this size of a tornado was in 1999, when one of similar size ripped through oklahoma. i lived in whichita - (AKA- Tornado alley) -but, i was visiting in california with soulkid at the time. it was -- april 29th, 1999. soulman was home alone in KS -- to face the the wrath of the 'leavins' by himself - in our basement. sometimes - even still, i wish i woulda skipped my visit to cali - and stayed home too. prolly woulda been better than the emotional tornado i faced on my 'hell-cation' . bah ! (i was visiting a terminally ill - very long time best friend. it of course didn't go well, as the cancer had hit her brain by that time. -- i say i'd trade it, due to the confusion of her mind -- but never would i really. we were able to 'say goodbye' - folks don't get that opportunity very often-.
i stand corrected
5-3-1999
*side note*
i think this is about where i fell asleep -- luckily it was saved to draft. ugh.
nuthin like sleep bloggin eh?
so. need i mention i'm just as confused as i was last night? still no more new news, or word as to what is goin on with all my other eastern U.S. peoples. 'cept, i saw a bit of the news early this morning -- , but they still aren't showin much here in DFW. i've so far heard , of course AL, FL, and even VA! i have peeps spread all over that way. no word on Arkansas -- anyone know about out there? i have family there. chicago i have a nephew and pregnant neice in law there -- and a bloggee pal. then, -- FL.. = two nephews. if i had a map i'd know exactly how many friends/family are out that way -- but for now? i can only worry, in the bliss of my ignorance -- and hope that everyone -- not only my own peeps -- but you and yours too, are safe and sheltered.
y'all know it doesn't take much to get me worried about y'all - or anything else for that matter. so -- anyone out that way -- gimmee a shout out - lemmee know what you know eh? lemmee know you're alright, and any of my buddies- or anyone in touch with them - are too. k? thanks.
anyhow-- let's get offa that subject. shall we?
- now - here i am again, two cups of coffee down my gullett,chased with a couple pain killers, and just as tired as i was then.-
*lovely*
i guess i'm tired folks. i won't let it ruin my day tho. i can't. i'm in soul-hell. yes, again. a million and one things to catch up on -- or evein begin... but first ! -- i have to try to get in touch with some of friends who may have been in the path of the tornadoes . i can only hope that they are all - alright. then regardless of what i hear -- if anything -- cuz i think the phones were down when i tried calling last night.... i need to continue on with what i hope to be a productive day. i have been like a bad still life painting for weeks!
at this point in time i am considering returning to bed --- but i cannot do that. better yet shouldn't. even though my body and mind beg for me to rest. i did that yesterday. all day. i know i need it on certain days -- it's not like i'm in the best 'shape' of my life -- but i can guilt myself to death if i let me.
one of my best and worst attributes.
here's to happy and safe days to you all out in your worlds today !!!
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
everything changes yet all remains the same
howdy folks ! greetings and salutations! how the hell have ya been? i sincerely hope all is well in your worlds ! like i said last night in my sleep med stupor -- i never stopped thinkin of any of ya -- even through my disappearing act.
it seems that a whole lot has been goin on here - but at the same time it seems nothin has been goin on too. we'll all find out i reckon once i get goin eh?
i honestly don't know where to begin. the beginning is always a good start -- but we all know my mind doesn't ever work that way. right? so, as usual -- i'll just start writin and we shall see what turns out on the page - eh? this oughtta be fun. yeh right. maybe you should should get some coffee or a sammich? i'll wait.
so. how long have i even been MIA? a month at least it looks like. aside from an occasional check in on face-book. usually basic or pointless. or my signature -- 'soul-speak' which leaves everyone more confused than before.
anyhow -- let's get this party started , shall we?
in no particular order -- except that of my ramblin mind -- let's roll -
we have new baby kitties! somewhere. i discovered them a touch over a week ago. sushi -- remember her -- our min - pin; with issues like no other dog that lived?
well -- the dogs (her, and eevee) - were outside , and she was goin nuts -- barkin like a fool -- but in a tone - that was unusual for her. irritating though, enough for me to go investigate. what did i find? sushi - yappin, and diggin under the fence. so. i peeked thru the fence to see what had her so interested. my thoughts were in the direction of a snake -- a squirrel, things along those lines. but to my pleasant surprise -- it was a very fresh litter of baby kitties. most were white -- i knew they would be easy to find homes for .. (later) unlike the last bunch. one of which -- is the mommy of these -- a black one... so-- i put the dogs inside ; went back and put a big rock in front of the hole sushi was digging, and hoped that she would leave them alone. HA - like that would ever happen.
well, obviously, blockin the hole did no good at all. just as i thought -- so sushi bothering the babies had caused the mommy to move them. and after a search of the entire property on all sides -- i can't find them anywhere. i'm sure she has them safe somewhere. we've been keeping mamma fed and watered so she won't dehydrate or something, and can stay healthy to keep the babies healthy. it won't be long until she brings them here for real food after weening them. i expect to see them all on the front porch in another two or three weeks.(?) i love baby kitties. it's when they grow up that they bother me. :)) i love mine much more since we declawed them. some of you may remember my constant bitchin of their destruction?
oh. somethin funny happened when i was out in the next door empty lot looking for them.. i saw THIS: it made me think of my pal ' gecko sis' - yankee :)) check it out -
the smallest things make me think of each of one of you , i could make an entire post on that one -- i should do that one day. "the things that make me think of my peeps " (not to mention - 'bring a smile to my not so usually smiling face'.) someone should remind me of that -- i'll do that on a day i have nothin to write about.
i miss knowin what's goin with y'all. i haven't been readin blogs like i should either. nothin personal. know that. like i said .. it seems that not much has been goin on here -- but really it's been crazy busy ... much of the time. so many days -- even up to a week goes by that i don't do as much as even check my email. the computer just hasn't been been a priority for me at all lately. part of that could be the fact that it died. ha! i guess that would make some some sense eh? kinda hard to use one if ya don't have one eh? one day a week or two or two ago -- i was online -- of course doin my usual OCD banking etc ... next thing i knew --- well -- pictures speak better than i do --
THIS , happened ---
it seems that a whole lot has been goin on here - but at the same time it seems nothin has been goin on too. we'll all find out i reckon once i get goin eh?
i honestly don't know where to begin. the beginning is always a good start -- but we all know my mind doesn't ever work that way. right? so, as usual -- i'll just start writin and we shall see what turns out on the page - eh? this oughtta be fun. yeh right. maybe you should should get some coffee or a sammich? i'll wait.
so. how long have i even been MIA? a month at least it looks like. aside from an occasional check in on face-book. usually basic or pointless. or my signature -- 'soul-speak' which leaves everyone more confused than before.
anyhow -- let's get this party started , shall we?
in no particular order -- except that of my ramblin mind -- let's roll -
we have new baby kitties! somewhere. i discovered them a touch over a week ago. sushi -- remember her -- our min - pin; with issues like no other dog that lived?
well -- the dogs (her, and eevee) - were outside , and she was goin nuts -- barkin like a fool -- but in a tone - that was unusual for her. irritating though, enough for me to go investigate. what did i find? sushi - yappin, and diggin under the fence. so. i peeked thru the fence to see what had her so interested. my thoughts were in the direction of a snake -- a squirrel, things along those lines. but to my pleasant surprise -- it was a very fresh litter of baby kitties. most were white -- i knew they would be easy to find homes for .. (later) unlike the last bunch. one of which -- is the mommy of these -- a black one... so-- i put the dogs inside ; went back and put a big rock in front of the hole sushi was digging, and hoped that she would leave them alone. HA - like that would ever happen.
( i think there are 5 -
click to enlarge)
oh. somethin funny happened when i was out in the next door empty lot looking for them.. i saw THIS: it made me think of my pal ' gecko sis' - yankee :)) check it out -
BWA HAHAHAHA
(the babies were between the two fences)
HIYA 'T'
HIYA 'T'
the smallest things make me think of each of one of you , i could make an entire post on that one -- i should do that one day. "the things that make me think of my peeps " (not to mention - 'bring a smile to my not so usually smiling face'.) someone should remind me of that -- i'll do that on a day i have nothin to write about.
i miss knowin what's goin with y'all. i haven't been readin blogs like i should either. nothin personal. know that. like i said .. it seems that not much has been goin on here -- but really it's been crazy busy ... much of the time. so many days -- even up to a week goes by that i don't do as much as even check my email. the computer just hasn't been been a priority for me at all lately. part of that could be the fact that it died. ha! i guess that would make some some sense eh? kinda hard to use one if ya don't have one eh? one day a week or two or two ago -- i was online -- of course doin my usual OCD banking etc ... next thing i knew --- well -- pictures speak better than i do --
THIS , happened ---
and i don't know why
i think the laptop was about four or five years old. it had been through several viruses. it had also been actin up in many strange ways for months. especially for the last few weeks of life. very strange , the way it died tho. literally -- it was workin fine one minute- and thext - i saw -- what you see. luckily we have a DELL credit account -- well, maybe not luckily -- i was close to havin it paid off. but not now. i do however, have a new laptop. i wouldn't have done it . maybe i would have -- but i would have felt a lot worse about it -- except for the fact that -- ' it's my birthday!'. not really. not yet. it is , but not til the end of the month. but soul kid had her birthday in march -- early march. i swear to you -- ' it's my birthday!!!' was every day --- for three weeks!!! it was THE most expensive birthday that kid has had in her life. mainly cus it included a car -- on top of a 'lemon' jeep -- that got over 1000.00 EXTRA parts and crap sunk into it before we gave up and found a different cheap beater car. yeh, the jeep still sits in the driveway -- rotting. -- don't ask if it's on my stress list -- cuz ya know it is. ok-- back to my story. yeh. so. she really did do that -- for weeks -- we let her get away with it -- only cuz we could. it got funny after a point -- but it also got to a point that my head almost blew a gasket. so. when my laptop died ??? my first 'line' was --- 'it's my birthday!' and i wanted it ordered that day! yup. just call me veruca salt :))
so. i have a new laptop. bad part? i lost a shit ton of stuff -- some very important stuff. and a million photos. a lot. a lot alot a lot of stuff.
so. i have a new laptop. bad part? i lost a shit ton of stuff -- some very important stuff. and a million photos. a lot. a lot alot a lot of stuff.
but i really do need a laptop. i have a desktop-- but sittin there - for me - after a short time, gets to be plane torture, for my back - and just about every thing else too. it took several days to get here -- but during the time i was waitin for it -- guess what i was doin anyhow?
yep -- bein bed - ridden. just about the same as the week before. but i was actually gettin out - fishin, shoppin -- yeh , believe it.. i've started hittin antique stores here and there once in a while. anyhow.. for a couple weeks, i was doin real well- physically, and mentally . surprising eh? then, it hit me like a train. crippling , agonizing pain. so i ended up stayin home, no fishin, no shoppin, no -- again surprising -- workin round the house even... stopped in my tracks. i decided -- ok, time for more shots in my neck/back. so. i got those scheduled. that ended up bein monday the 18th... unfortunately -- worse before better-- and i was house/bed/couch-bound - until Easter sunday.. when i could finally get up and feel well enough to clean up get dressed and we all went out for easter brunch. which was real nice actually. it was great to be out of the house - on my feet- with the fam. all that stuff. but-- soon as we got home - i hit the bed ... today is the first day in a long while that i actually feel like i want to get out and go do somethin -- but i slept too late - soulkid is sick -- and as i write -- the day is almost gone - soulman will be home in a while -- and only God knows when i'll finish this post. not to mention the fact -- once again there's weather - tornadoes and such breakin news on tv -- like the third day in a row. lots of tornadoes round here lately. first wild fires now storms, floods, and tornadoes. so far tho-- we haven't had any damage.
i'm hungry. just thought i'd throw that in there. it's about time to grocery shop me thinks. that's somethin i could go do. do you believe it? i actually do some grocery shoppin these days. i have allowed myself to suck in the ego -- and use a scooter. but it helps. hubby and soulkid still do most of the shopping.. but i do go to base and do the big shopping maybe once a month ... those baskets on those things actually hold a lot more than i ever thought. i still really hate to use em. but i gotta say -- i'm a better shopper. i can spend what they spend -- and it'll last twice as long. we talked about that the other day (when they went shoppin) -- they spent 150-- ish.. we have nothing left. i coulda spent the same -- and had lunch today. but i 'couldn't go. cuz i hurt. which is usually the case. someone should take me out to eat. :)) i reckon i should wake up before 11.. shameful, i know. tomorrow, and go get some fewd in this place.
so anyhow. i see this is gettin -- if it hasn't already passed - LONG. so, aside from that - i'm in typo hell as well - with no spell check , and goin blind too. so -- i am assuming we are all in the same boat at this time -- i think i will pick this up later -- or tomorrow -- that's more likely.
manyana.
have a happy night folks -
i'm hungry. just thought i'd throw that in there. it's about time to grocery shop me thinks. that's somethin i could go do. do you believe it? i actually do some grocery shoppin these days. i have allowed myself to suck in the ego -- and use a scooter. but it helps. hubby and soulkid still do most of the shopping.. but i do go to base and do the big shopping maybe once a month ... those baskets on those things actually hold a lot more than i ever thought. i still really hate to use em. but i gotta say -- i'm a better shopper. i can spend what they spend -- and it'll last twice as long. we talked about that the other day (when they went shoppin) -- they spent 150-- ish.. we have nothing left. i coulda spent the same -- and had lunch today. but i 'couldn't go. cuz i hurt. which is usually the case. someone should take me out to eat. :)) i reckon i should wake up before 11.. shameful, i know. tomorrow, and go get some fewd in this place.
so anyhow. i see this is gettin -- if it hasn't already passed - LONG. so, aside from that - i'm in typo hell as well - with no spell check , and goin blind too. so -- i am assuming we are all in the same boat at this time -- i think i will pick this up later -- or tomorrow -- that's more likely.
manyana.
have a happy night folks -
Monday, April 25, 2011
see folks? i told ya i'd be back ---
and just like i thought -- soon as i get in here? i'm too tired to say a damn thing.
maybe tomorrow.
i miss y'all tho. still think of everyone.
my computer crashed -- i had shots in my neck again -- pain is a bitch -- i did actually have a life for a minute :)) --- just life i reckon. but i do mean to get in here and talk to y'all real soon.
later peeps -- hope y'all had happy easters, happy weekends and happy weeks ahead in your worlds!
i'lll be baaaack!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
ya wanna see somethin really scary ?
i feel like judge judy -- --
and i look like charlie sheen !!!
sometimes life just goes that way in soul land-
bleh
hope things are great in your world!
and i look like charlie sheen !!!
sometimes life just goes that way in soul land-
bleh
hope things are great in your world!
Friday, March 11, 2011
i was born a ramblin soul
howdy folks! yep - i still breathe. sorry i haven't been around. (insert broken record here) . as usual -- there's been a lot goin on here. a lot that i can't hardly remember half of. again, as usual. i don't know where the time goes. i really don't . i guess we would all know that if i would write - eh? just seems i don't have the time. maybe i just don't have the desire. honestly. i think deep down, that's what it has come to. i think i have lost my passion to blog. i think about writing every single day. i think about y'all, every single day. just seems that no matter how much i -- think about writing -- i just don't.
y'all know, even when i don't have anything to say , i find something to say. even if it's just nonsensical babble. that passion has simply faded until now; and i just feel that it's almost a duty to get in here and write. nah. that's pushing it . it's not a duty. i do still like it. i think what happened is that over time - i began to feel like i need to be more clear. make more sense. ramble less. and i don't think i'm capable of that. not with my mind, or the way it works. i feel like even tho i have a lot of friends, and readers... i leave so many speechless to what i say sometimes. ok-- often times, that it's better to say nothing at all.
BUT - after a while of not writing -- y'all tell me you want me to write. so hellifiknow. damned if i do-- damned if i don't? i really do feel connected to y'all -- and of course to my blog. i wouldn't be here after all this time if i didn't. i just really feel like i have done something unjust here. i can't place it though. i think i have hurt people that i care about. i think-- no, i know i have put too much of me on these pages. much of that, i know you-- or many of simply cannot understand. (in my 'soul-speak').
i am a person that either you 'get me'- or you don't. i feel like i hit a spot -- in my manic -depressive state -- at some not so far behind us point -- and i really messed things up. i messed up relationships that meant the world to me. in and out of blogland. most of you are still here and on my side. and i see that now. it has been a long time that i have felt that i destroyed too much - too fast here.
and as most - if not all - of you know... in my real world -- people close to me are only family. i do not trust 'people'.. i don't talk to people. i avoid people. friends? what the hell is that? i went like ten years without a real life friend-- and when i let go- and let it happen. it of course went to hell. and ya know what? i don't think i can even tell ya why. i have given every opportunity to open that line of communication... because really, it's ok. i need an apology maybe. or perhaps i'm the one that needs to apologize-- i think maybe explain is a better term. i haven't been given the chance. and that's just too bad. in that whole experience? i learned two things. i was right in not having 'friends.' and i will never let my guard down like i did in that one -- again. i haven't so far. and i wont.
that doesn't mean that i don't care about-- or even love y'all... i just have a bit of a protective layer over not only my heart -- again.. but also my mind this time.
oh HELL. that isn't even close to what i was gonna say -- i think y'all know that -- but like i said-- y'all know me by now. i can't help myself. i wonder what would happen if i were to be hypnotized? i bet i'd write my book!!!! :))
so. yeh. you want me back? here i am. you want me to shut the hell up? i will. but not right now. cuz i figure-- hell, i'm in here and apparently on a roll-- may as well go with it. right? oh shaddup and just read. :))
ok first--- i gotta say -- i -- like most if not all of you -- i woke up to the japan news on tv. holy crap! i don't know about y'all, but MY first thought was JYANKEE -- also known as JY -- on my page - and maybe yours.. and many times 'gecko sis" on mine -- man, she has been my friend for a long time. i immediately went to her blog-- the only way i, at this time know how to contact her. luckily she is OK. and she was online. phew. she and her family are ok. let's pray that it stays that way. i can't stop worrying. the more i see on tv- the more i worry - even tho she is ok now. (she posted in my comments in previous post)
ya know what? anything else i planned on saying doesn't matter right now. i'm watchin the news -- california just got hit-- and i have a life-long friend - and more out there too. holy crap.
belay my last on what i said about friends. i love my friends. i just won't be makin any new ones any time soon.
y'all stay safe -- my prayers are with all of you who stand in danger today!
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
i smell onions-- and other dumb stuff in my world
it's true. the damn rat -- i mean ground hog was right. spring is about to sprung. know how i know? cuz i smell onions! i mentioned this just before spring time last year too. some might remember? i had no clue why i smelled onions every time i walked outside .. until my neighbor told me. it's wild onion - seed- or blossoms- or some such thing - blowin in the wind , then growing near by. weird part? i was just lookin - on google - for a pic of some to show you .. cuz i have yet to see any of the mysterious onions with the strong enough to knock ya down smell. who knew there were so many varieties of a wild onion??? here's a few i found...
this is the kind i was lookin for --
not this --
or this ---
or any of the other 'flower lookin' ones i found online today. i been lookin for a dang onion! more like the top pic. ugh.
anyhow--- sorry folks. i have recently had a few folks check in on me. so i figured i better get my butt in here and let y'all know i'm not smellin onions from under ground --- nope - i am still alive. just not online a whole lot.
not much explanation to that is there? just been doin other things. nothin personal folks -- i've missed all of ya -- hopefully i can get to catchin up -- ehem.. shaddup -- i know i say that all the time -- sometimes it happens. it won't be today tho -- lots to do -- actually OUT of the house. i been out a lot lately actually. surprised even me. i think i'm back to hibernating tho. last couple days, i've hardly moved. bleh. no worries. just a speed-bump.
i hope. i was runnin 150 MPH this last month or so. then .. whamo-- what happened?
i'm sure gettin out today will help.
i'll catchyall latah
hope all is well with y'all-
Friday, February 11, 2011
time flies when you aint lookin -
howdy my peeoples and peeple-ettes :)) how the hell have y'all been lately?
me? busy. very busy. if not busy, then i been recoverin from busy. some days - between the busy -- and the snow and ice storms --- pain and recoverin from pain has been number one on my agenda as well. that or trudging thru the damn pain. today is a pain day fo-shizzle. to the point of bein glued to the couch all morning. and looks like for the rest of this day as well. so far - since i had to replace my car, after soulkid wrecking it - on new years eve day -- she has not been allowed to drive the new one. i have done well in sticking to that rule. today? i was forced to give in. i was supposed to drive her to work and pick her up -- i saw no way of driving today even being close to a possibility - in my physical state -- so i offered to let her drive my car. of course she was thrilled -- me? ugh. that's the only word that comes to mind. she has been driving her dads truck since the accident - on occasion... but my car? not once, since the day i got it. whaaaa.
so-- if you aren't on face-book? some wonderful things have happened for-and with my child in the last few weeks. #1? she graduated high school! at the ripe old age of 16 ! before all of her friends... they were all shocked, and jealous. they all have the rest of the year - some a whole nuther year , before they graduate! she surprised us all :)) not only did she complete 2 years of high school in FOUR months- she did it with 'high honors' ! when that girl sets her mind to it -- she can do anything.
days after her graduation -- she was hired at her very first job -- :)) for part time -- she is packin in the hours- (5-7 hours a day!)- workin very hard. she is well liked by all - from coworkers to upper management!
i don't have a pic of her in her uniform yet -- but i don't think i need to tell you -- she is more than adorable in it !!! - i will get one up heah soon. but here's a hint --
no worries -- my soulkid is a GIRL - as most of you know. i said a hint - and thought this one was kinda fun. :))
she got a jeep - from us - for her grad present -- but it needed a lot more work - and parts than we were aware of -- and now - to ensure it to pass emissions - it needs a trip to a mechanic for a tune up--- which the bad weather -- mainly ice -- has pushed back til tomorrow -- but it will be road worthy by monday or tuesday -- registration and all.. it's already insured. but it will be a welcomed relief - for all three of us when that is done. and-- i was able to full coverage on it with a low deductible for less than 40 more a year --- than it would be for liability --- gotta say that's not much considering what it could cost if she needed to replace it in the first year. let's all hope that is NOT the case tho. i hope she has learned her lesson at being more careful at the wheel eh.
so -- do i sound proud of this girl or what? she has done a full 180 this passed few months. and i gotta tell ya -- this job is the best thing that has ever happened to her -- her habit of respect at work -- has carried over to home. i'm lovin that you know!
hmm... i was gonna tell ya 'bout my pain, and my - what i think to be a manic-spending spree -- but i shall spare ya the deets til next time :)) kinda nice of me huh? why turn a positive post into a cry baby post? which really wasn't gonna whine too awful much -- but ya never know -- once i get on a roll - ya never know what ya might get -- :))
so. things are actually goin pretty well overall around here. i sure hope y'all are doin well in your worlds too!?
tell me bout it eh-- wussup?
happy friday peeps!
:~))
Thursday, February 3, 2011
fire and ice -- WTH is goinin on
howdy folks! warm yet? i'm sure not. every day seems colder -- and icier. in turn? causing me to be less and less productive, and more and ---- let's just say quiet. i'm really not bein bitchy -- at least i don't see it -- if i do, it could be much worse, and has been in weather, and pain like this. but lately i just go to bed early, or 'shut it down' when i hear- or feel conflict on the way. i hate conflict and arguing as much or more than the cold. and i've come to realize, its much easier to excuse myself from conflict - than it is from freezing ;))
so anyhow-- it is damn freezing here in tejas. this is our fourth day in a row of black sundays! businesses -- to include dr's offices -- between me and soulkid - two dr. appts have been re-scheduled due to this weather- over the last three days. ALL schools have been shut down all week. flights out of both airports - in and out (DFW and Love field ) have been disrupted - if at all. and oddly enough, there was a major fire in an apartment building i think yesterday -- and one three alarm fire on the news right now! also a assisted living place had pipes bust and had to be evacuated of almost 80 old folks .
we moved here days before soulkids 7th birthday -- almost 10 years ago -- this is the worst weather we have seen. back then - she was about 8 or 9, we had a 'major ice storm' -- they shut down schools etc -- the entire town panicked etc -- but by day three everyone was laughin about it-- roads were clear and it was all 'fear of'. this time? the dogs don't even last more than 45 seconds outside! me? i don't even try! i won't walk to the mailbox -- kinda not new -- but this time it's not a mental thing -- this time i'm in fear of freezing before i make it back to the door! :))
my fears of the now? another rolling black-out --- which are now lasting up to 8 hours! it's again -- feels like 4 outside!!!! 2nd? my mommason flies in tomorrow morning -- sorta-- around 11 a.m. there are still issues with flights -- NM - and here.... no tellin how that will go -- but there's no way i can drive - so now soulman has to get her after work -- which means -- she will have to sit at the airport for maybe three hours alone before he can get her! IF her flight can go. i feel so bad for that. the plan was that i would pick her up-- but i get mental driving on ice -- due to a wreck on ice with soulkid when she was 5 -- and again a ice storm and a horrible three hour wait-drive over the santa rosa mountains in NM -- in frickin march years ago-- alone... sooo many horrible wrecks-- coronor vehicles-- one PT cruiser ripped right in half. same trip i almost crashed twice myself on black ice. i just can't do it. the last time i did? was a couple years ago i went to iowa -- scared shitless -- snow-ice- losin my ass end. i survived obviously-- but not without bein reminded -- ice on the road is not my friend!
SO. was that too whiny? wasn't meant to be-- just updatin . flash-backin :~)
as far as my progress on my chores yesterday? let's just say --- epic fail. i got very little 'work' done. i had some problems on an account or two-- payin bills online -- which took a lot of time-- i finally gave in and wrote checks -- which didn't make it to the mailbox yet :)) for reasons above. bleh. as for housework? i'm down to my office. soulman - due to his month long pneumonia, and vacation, and this week helpin with other stuff - and workin on soulkids jeep -- and a dozen other projects -- has still not got the floor trim laid in the office -- so i'm down to just givin in and puttin my furniture back in place and gettin things where they belong in there -- without the trim. i hate that it won't look right -- but we'll just have to do it again when he does have time. i've been a mess without my office-- and it sure hasn't helped the house-- i have 'portable offices ' all over the place. so -- i didn't really get to that at all yesterday -- i must get it finished today now. i just don't know if i have it in me. maybe soulkid will piss me off or something. anger is my second best motivation -- after company :))
ok -- did i miss anything?
stay warm peeps !!!!
poor dallas is sufferin big time for the weather -- superbowl week -- in an ice storm -- weeee? just not makin the money they expected are they. money grubbin- whooooors. :)) that'll teach em to jack up all their prices. :)) i do feel bad for the folks who paid a lot of money to get here and planed a good time - and are now trapped in their hotels. other than that -- i hope the greedy learn a lesson.
my dads most memorable quote--as a father of 4 girls -- what do greedy girls get? -- NUTHIN
i miss my daddy-
happy freezin thursday y'all -
oh-- about my recent cooking? the kitchen has been so clean, it doesn't bother me. i've missed my cookin-- but damn sure appreciate the families help! i'd be starved for sure if they hadn't taken over the shopping and cookin this last year or so. it's been a real self esteem booster lately to realize i CAN do these things still with a little mental steam and gusto though. it sure has beeen a while since i've felt that in me!
so anyhow-- it is damn freezing here in tejas. this is our fourth day in a row of black sundays! businesses -- to include dr's offices -- between me and soulkid - two dr. appts have been re-scheduled due to this weather- over the last three days. ALL schools have been shut down all week. flights out of both airports - in and out (DFW and Love field ) have been disrupted - if at all. and oddly enough, there was a major fire in an apartment building i think yesterday -- and one three alarm fire on the news right now! also a assisted living place had pipes bust and had to be evacuated of almost 80 old folks .
we moved here days before soulkids 7th birthday -- almost 10 years ago -- this is the worst weather we have seen. back then - she was about 8 or 9, we had a 'major ice storm' -- they shut down schools etc -- the entire town panicked etc -- but by day three everyone was laughin about it-- roads were clear and it was all 'fear of'. this time? the dogs don't even last more than 45 seconds outside! me? i don't even try! i won't walk to the mailbox -- kinda not new -- but this time it's not a mental thing -- this time i'm in fear of freezing before i make it back to the door! :))
my fears of the now? another rolling black-out --- which are now lasting up to 8 hours! it's again -- feels like 4 outside!!!! 2nd? my mommason flies in tomorrow morning -- sorta-- around 11 a.m. there are still issues with flights -- NM - and here.... no tellin how that will go -- but there's no way i can drive - so now soulman has to get her after work -- which means -- she will have to sit at the airport for maybe three hours alone before he can get her! IF her flight can go. i feel so bad for that. the plan was that i would pick her up-- but i get mental driving on ice -- due to a wreck on ice with soulkid when she was 5 -- and again a ice storm and a horrible three hour wait-drive over the santa rosa mountains in NM -- in frickin march years ago-- alone... sooo many horrible wrecks-- coronor vehicles-- one PT cruiser ripped right in half. same trip i almost crashed twice myself on black ice. i just can't do it. the last time i did? was a couple years ago i went to iowa -- scared shitless -- snow-ice- losin my ass end. i survived obviously-- but not without bein reminded -- ice on the road is not my friend!
SO. was that too whiny? wasn't meant to be-- just updatin . flash-backin :~)
as far as my progress on my chores yesterday? let's just say --- epic fail. i got very little 'work' done. i had some problems on an account or two-- payin bills online -- which took a lot of time-- i finally gave in and wrote checks -- which didn't make it to the mailbox yet :)) for reasons above. bleh. as for housework? i'm down to my office. soulman - due to his month long pneumonia, and vacation, and this week helpin with other stuff - and workin on soulkids jeep -- and a dozen other projects -- has still not got the floor trim laid in the office -- so i'm down to just givin in and puttin my furniture back in place and gettin things where they belong in there -- without the trim. i hate that it won't look right -- but we'll just have to do it again when he does have time. i've been a mess without my office-- and it sure hasn't helped the house-- i have 'portable offices ' all over the place. so -- i didn't really get to that at all yesterday -- i must get it finished today now. i just don't know if i have it in me. maybe soulkid will piss me off or something. anger is my second best motivation -- after company :))
ok -- did i miss anything?
stay warm peeps !!!!
poor dallas is sufferin big time for the weather -- superbowl week -- in an ice storm -- weeee? just not makin the money they expected are they. money grubbin- whooooors. :)) that'll teach em to jack up all their prices. :)) i do feel bad for the folks who paid a lot of money to get here and planed a good time - and are now trapped in their hotels. other than that -- i hope the greedy learn a lesson.
my dads most memorable quote--as a father of 4 girls -- what do greedy girls get? -- NUTHIN
i miss my daddy-
happy freezin thursday y'all -
oh-- about my recent cooking? the kitchen has been so clean, it doesn't bother me. i've missed my cookin-- but damn sure appreciate the families help! i'd be starved for sure if they hadn't taken over the shopping and cookin this last year or so. it's been a real self esteem booster lately to realize i CAN do these things still with a little mental steam and gusto though. it sure has beeen a while since i've felt that in me!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
procrasti-soul is at it again
howdy folks-- what's up in y'alls worlds? whatever it is , i hope you're not freezin to death ! here's what i woke up to this morning--- very much like yesterday morning -- except colder. y'all know how much i love the cold don't ya??? i can't believe that only four days ago we hit 70 degrees!!! i was in my own heaven - sittin on the edge of the pond fishin'. y'all know that's when i'm my most content. my happiest. doin what i love, fishin in the warm sunshine -- without wind - or cold. even though i didn't catch a thing -- i didn't care -- i didn't even try very hard. i was in my happy place.
this last couple days? i am in my true hell. have a look ----
this is my most huge contempt in my world. it makes me hateful, and it hurts me all over-- physically. i cannot, and refuse to drive or go outside in this stuff. there's an inch of ice on the roads. the wind chill/ feels like is 4 !! actual temp? around 14 !! yup i'm in hell !!!! this is texas folks ! this just isn't supposed to happen here. oh- and to make matters worse? rolling blackouts !! HERE? in the worst ice and snow we've had in maybe years -- they decide to -- without warning -- start freakin - "rotating power outages" :(( they are 'supposedto last 15 minutes -- some have reported them as long as two hours. the 'DART' system.. a train that runs in dalls - like a trolley on tracks kinda... was stranded in this freezin weather - for over two hours due to power loss ! no warning -- it just shut down in transit - with passengers. freezing! my microwave and oven must be on some kind of -- somethin-- cuz i can't re-set em. am i pissed? umm you know it. i'm only gonna get worse if it happens again. if i end up freezin in my own house? oooooh --- someones gonna hear from me. i know they won't care--- but i'll feel better :))
and ! they say stupid groundhog paxatuxy puke -- yeh i know-- i forgot his name --- but he predicted an early spring? HA! lets not celebrate too soon shall we?
so. ya wanna know where soulkid got a job ehh?
Sonic. i think it's an alright first job. she will be a roller-skating car-hop... after two weeks training. i told her she better get down to the skating rink and get to practicing ! she hasn't skated since she was -- maybe 12! wish her much luck!
my house is almost finished -- but each day that passes - i get more and more slow-- ok-- exhausted and sore. (i'm sure the weather isn't helpin any ) - we have made a ton of head-way in here .. and soulkid has been bustin her ass upstairs... but seriously? with my limitations? i have passed them all - like two days ago. i last a lot less workin durin the day. the first couple i was workin maybe 5 or 6 hours -- runnin like a freight train.. by yesterday? i was lucky if i worked two hours. i hope i can push through a little more than that today -- if i can , i might get all finished. there's very little left to do. i hope i finish, without collapsing. that has happened in the past when i've pushed myself too far.
anyhow --- if i forgot anything - lemmee kow- and i'll cover it in the comments .
happy days to y'all in your worlds--
surprisingly, my mood has been great -- it's just my body that's havin a tough time here and God made drugs for that :))
this last couple days? i am in my true hell. have a look ----
this is my most huge contempt in my world. it makes me hateful, and it hurts me all over-- physically. i cannot, and refuse to drive or go outside in this stuff. there's an inch of ice on the roads. the wind chill/ feels like is 4 !! actual temp? around 14 !! yup i'm in hell !!!! this is texas folks ! this just isn't supposed to happen here. oh- and to make matters worse? rolling blackouts !! HERE? in the worst ice and snow we've had in maybe years -- they decide to -- without warning -- start freakin - "rotating power outages" :(( they are 'supposedto last 15 minutes -- some have reported them as long as two hours. the 'DART' system.. a train that runs in dalls - like a trolley on tracks kinda... was stranded in this freezin weather - for over two hours due to power loss ! no warning -- it just shut down in transit - with passengers. freezing! my microwave and oven must be on some kind of -- somethin-- cuz i can't re-set em. am i pissed? umm you know it. i'm only gonna get worse if it happens again. if i end up freezin in my own house? oooooh --- someones gonna hear from me. i know they won't care--- but i'll feel better :))
and ! they say stupid groundhog paxatuxy puke -- yeh i know-- i forgot his name --- but he predicted an early spring? HA! lets not celebrate too soon shall we?
so. ya wanna know where soulkid got a job ehh?
Sonic. i think it's an alright first job. she will be a roller-skating car-hop... after two weeks training. i told her she better get down to the skating rink and get to practicing ! she hasn't skated since she was -- maybe 12! wish her much luck!
my house is almost finished -- but each day that passes - i get more and more slow-- ok-- exhausted and sore. (i'm sure the weather isn't helpin any ) - we have made a ton of head-way in here .. and soulkid has been bustin her ass upstairs... but seriously? with my limitations? i have passed them all - like two days ago. i last a lot less workin durin the day. the first couple i was workin maybe 5 or 6 hours -- runnin like a freight train.. by yesterday? i was lucky if i worked two hours. i hope i can push through a little more than that today -- if i can , i might get all finished. there's very little left to do. i hope i finish, without collapsing. that has happened in the past when i've pushed myself too far.
anyhow --- if i forgot anything - lemmee kow- and i'll cover it in the comments .
happy days to y'all in your worlds--
surprisingly, my mood has been great -- it's just my body that's havin a tough time here and God made drugs for that :))
Sunday, January 30, 2011
i've been skewered.....
stick me with a fork... i am soooo done. burnt. fried. toast. i wish i could say i was 'finished'. but that is not the case. i still have tons to do, but this body of mine sure is sore, and done. kaput. finito.
i did get a chance to go outside and play a little the other day. the sun was shining, it was a beautiful day out, so i went fishin. i didn't catch anything, but it was still just nice to be outside for a while in the fresh air and sunshine for a couple hours. i didn't really try very hard to catch anything, it was fun just to be by the water in my kind of weather.
yesterday though, soulman had to go pick up a few things, and on his way home he made a pit stop at 'his' pond.... he put forth more effort than i did, aside from bein at a different body of water --- and looky what he dragged in -- dawg. :)) -- that's his size 13 shoe next to it ---
i was only a little jealous :))
tomorrow is supposed to be another real nice weather day -- high 60's. i'm hopin we can take a few minutes and enjoy some of it... otherwise, it's another kill ourselves around here day. we're makin progress -- spring cleaning , purging stuff on out of here, - soulman built a dining table -- kinda -- i'll show ya next time, just a lot of work goin on. i'm only good for a few hours in the morning - then i'm ruined by 3 or so. but we're gettin there.
be good peoples -
Friday, January 28, 2011
i'm always late - but in sloth time i'm actually prompt
just tryin to make myself not look so bad there. i've meant to get in here for days and get those pix i promised up-- i just got busy. maybe i'm not such a sloth these days after all .
my mother in law (Mommason) is coming in a few days , to watch soulkid graduate, and i have been killing myself trying to get things in order, and get caught up on all my business stuff, and also the pre - graduation biz - getting her to her final exams etc -- which -- she passed - with flying colors!!! woo hoo !!! then , getting her grad-gown paid for -delivered- picked up and pressed , gettin her shoes and outfit for graduation day. i've been out doin somethin just about every single day for a couple weeks, and if i haven't been out - i've been workin in the house.
then this passed three days i have been hammered with some crazy back pain. almost unforgiving. and relentless. yesterday - it was literally do- or die, i had to go to the grocery store. i was literally forced to use a motorized scooter to shop in. it was the first time i have done major shopping in one of those, and i have to admit- i think i shrunk a little inside. them things though? i gotta say they hold a ton more shit than i ever thought they did. i spent a fortune. but we were out of every damn thing in the house. sure feels good to have some food in this place. and all the other necessities. we have been forced to eat fast food for the last week. that or pantry leavin mystery dinners. it's not been fun, but we have all been busy in our own ways lately .
i always get sticker shock - or panic when i overspend -- but then i remember to thank God we can afford to eat. there's been times we couldn't.
i also realized - at the store - that not everybody is an asshole in this world. although i didn't except it-- at the register , two different women, that didn't work there - asked if i would like them to help me unload my basket. i declined , but it did make me feel good.-- and you know me-- it did embarrass me a little too. but again-- i gotta say -- without the scooter? there is no way possibly that i could have completed that task pushing a cart. not in the pain i was in... and honestly? in my current condition--- i wouldn't have been able to push that cart after about the first ten or fifteen minutes into it. face it folks. i'm ruined. i have passed my limit. this really sucks. perhaps by admitting it and realizing it -- i can stop letting it beat the hell out of me, and just deal with it and make the appropriate changes eh? instead of letting it beat me... and hide at home feeling defeated. i say i can't shop -- but i did. i didn't like the way i had to do it ... but i got it done.. and it didn't kill me. and i also say i can't cook -- but guess what? i cooked last night-- and i promised hubby that tonight i would cook again. it's been way too long that i been sayin 'i can't'... that really isn't 'me'.. all it does is depress me, or guilt me. today -- i'm re-claiming my damn life-
ok... where that came from -- i don't know. more for me i guess. just kinda spillin thoughts maybe.
anyhow -- here's some pix i was talkin about the other day ----
this is the one i bought -- for 50 +$
this is the other one i saw later --- for 210.00 !!!!
this is a cool corner shelf i got -- cuz i have too much crap and no where to put it!
i saw a ton of other stuff i wanted to get -- but i had to stop spendin money. i can't wait to go back !!!
they had an awesome antique bed i wanted to get for my guest room... i would have got it -- woulda had to use a credit card - but i would have splurged --- but --- the mattresses - which were in like new condition - didn't go with it. i can't afford that and new mattresses - so i had to pass. it was real nice though. my mommasson would have loved it. oh well. it was best i didn't get it . (700.00)
i do plan to do the guest room in antiques tho. i have a good start already -- scattered throughout the house :))
anyhow -- as usual, i have a busy day ahead -- so i better get started --
hope y'all have happy days in your worlds -- and better weekends ahead !
it's gonna be 70 glorious degrees here in soulland today !!!! if i was smart - i'd put my work off and go FISHIN !!! hmmmmm.... i really should go huh? help me ease my conscience and put off my responsibilities. it won't be 70 degrees again maybe for the rest of 'winter.' i deserve to fish don't i? 70 ! inside workin? outside playin? inside? outside? fresh air? stinky litter/pet/ heater air? fish? work? sun? artificial light?
ok i'll stop.
happy friday !!!!
my mother in law (Mommason) is coming in a few days , to watch soulkid graduate, and i have been killing myself trying to get things in order, and get caught up on all my business stuff, and also the pre - graduation biz - getting her to her final exams etc -- which -- she passed - with flying colors!!! woo hoo !!! then , getting her grad-gown paid for -delivered- picked up and pressed , gettin her shoes and outfit for graduation day. i've been out doin somethin just about every single day for a couple weeks, and if i haven't been out - i've been workin in the house.
then this passed three days i have been hammered with some crazy back pain. almost unforgiving. and relentless. yesterday - it was literally do- or die, i had to go to the grocery store. i was literally forced to use a motorized scooter to shop in. it was the first time i have done major shopping in one of those, and i have to admit- i think i shrunk a little inside. them things though? i gotta say they hold a ton more shit than i ever thought they did. i spent a fortune. but we were out of every damn thing in the house. sure feels good to have some food in this place. and all the other necessities. we have been forced to eat fast food for the last week. that or pantry leavin mystery dinners. it's not been fun, but we have all been busy in our own ways lately .
i always get sticker shock - or panic when i overspend -- but then i remember to thank God we can afford to eat. there's been times we couldn't.
i also realized - at the store - that not everybody is an asshole in this world. although i didn't except it-- at the register , two different women, that didn't work there - asked if i would like them to help me unload my basket. i declined , but it did make me feel good.-- and you know me-- it did embarrass me a little too. but again-- i gotta say -- without the scooter? there is no way possibly that i could have completed that task pushing a cart. not in the pain i was in... and honestly? in my current condition--- i wouldn't have been able to push that cart after about the first ten or fifteen minutes into it. face it folks. i'm ruined. i have passed my limit. this really sucks. perhaps by admitting it and realizing it -- i can stop letting it beat the hell out of me, and just deal with it and make the appropriate changes eh? instead of letting it beat me... and hide at home feeling defeated. i say i can't shop -- but i did. i didn't like the way i had to do it ... but i got it done.. and it didn't kill me. and i also say i can't cook -- but guess what? i cooked last night-- and i promised hubby that tonight i would cook again. it's been way too long that i been sayin 'i can't'... that really isn't 'me'.. all it does is depress me, or guilt me. today -- i'm re-claiming my damn life-
ok... where that came from -- i don't know. more for me i guess. just kinda spillin thoughts maybe.
anyhow -- here's some pix i was talkin about the other day ----
this is the one i bought -- for 50 +$
this is the other one i saw later --- for 210.00 !!!!
this is a cool corner shelf i got -- cuz i have too much crap and no where to put it!
i saw a ton of other stuff i wanted to get -- but i had to stop spendin money. i can't wait to go back !!!
they had an awesome antique bed i wanted to get for my guest room... i would have got it -- woulda had to use a credit card - but i would have splurged --- but --- the mattresses - which were in like new condition - didn't go with it. i can't afford that and new mattresses - so i had to pass. it was real nice though. my mommasson would have loved it. oh well. it was best i didn't get it . (700.00)
i do plan to do the guest room in antiques tho. i have a good start already -- scattered throughout the house :))
anyhow -- as usual, i have a busy day ahead -- so i better get started --
hope y'all have happy days in your worlds -- and better weekends ahead !
it's gonna be 70 glorious degrees here in soulland today !!!! if i was smart - i'd put my work off and go FISHIN !!! hmmmmm.... i really should go huh? help me ease my conscience and put off my responsibilities. it won't be 70 degrees again maybe for the rest of 'winter.' i deserve to fish don't i? 70 ! inside workin? outside playin? inside? outside? fresh air? stinky litter/pet/ heater air? fish? work? sun? artificial light?
ok i'll stop.
happy friday !!!!
Monday, January 24, 2011
someone's havin a baby!!!!!
NO - not MY baby -- my sisters baby! the baby boy of the family was the first to marry , and now the first to have a baby! we are all soooo excited. i got a call from my sister a couple weeks ago , but she insisted i keep my yap shut until i got the ok to blab. so here i am -- blabbin my head off ! 'Logan" called last night and told us the news. this will be the first new baby in the family since soulkid! 16 years! we are thrilled. for them and for all of us. he is very happy and so is his new bride - Beth. they've been married a little over a year -- maybe goin on two. bad me - already forgot their anniversary -- i think it's june -- year before last?? ugh. shut up - i have it written down!
aren't y'all excited? oh man i am. i must admit - i am a little nervous too. some of you know - but for those who don't -- soulkid was the last and only baby i have held -- or loved. i'm kind of allergic to babies. it's a PTSD thing. seriously. i don't want to get into it right now. but it isn't for lack of wanting to 'be with babies'. it's a real thing. it's a physical and mental thing. i think some healing is on the way. i refuse to let this insane fear get between me and this baby.
hubby and i are already talkin and planning on saving up for a trip to chicago when the baby is born. i won't miss this for the world ! we may not be there on the birth day - that might be kind of difficult to plan out. but we sure will be there shortly after . a baby. a BABY!!! woo hoo !!!
in other news? there is none. nothin new anyhow. 'cept i think i had some kind of manic attack this passed few days. i have been on some kind of money - that we don't have - spending spree . :(( buyin furniture! that we have no room for. WTH?? but - on the bright side? i got some pretty good deals. antiques. i think it's the headache. yup- still have it. maybe it's a tumor- causing me to spend money?
i'll try to come back later and get pix up -- maybe tomorrow -- and show ya what i got. i bet some of y'all woulda got it too. one of em? i got on mark down - for around fifty bucks -- walked about half the store down, saw somethin similar-- and it was 210.00 !!! so hey - if i end up not findin a place for it - i could flip it and make some money! i would like to keep it tho - i have wanted one for years. cool stuff. so check back for pix. k
anyhow -- i gotta get this party started round heah -
happy mondays in your worlds peeps-
aren't y'all excited? oh man i am. i must admit - i am a little nervous too. some of you know - but for those who don't -- soulkid was the last and only baby i have held -- or loved. i'm kind of allergic to babies. it's a PTSD thing. seriously. i don't want to get into it right now. but it isn't for lack of wanting to 'be with babies'. it's a real thing. it's a physical and mental thing. i think some healing is on the way. i refuse to let this insane fear get between me and this baby.
hubby and i are already talkin and planning on saving up for a trip to chicago when the baby is born. i won't miss this for the world ! we may not be there on the birth day - that might be kind of difficult to plan out. but we sure will be there shortly after . a baby. a BABY!!! woo hoo !!!
in other news? there is none. nothin new anyhow. 'cept i think i had some kind of manic attack this passed few days. i have been on some kind of money - that we don't have - spending spree . :(( buyin furniture! that we have no room for. WTH?? but - on the bright side? i got some pretty good deals. antiques. i think it's the headache. yup- still have it. maybe it's a tumor- causing me to spend money?
i'll try to come back later and get pix up -- maybe tomorrow -- and show ya what i got. i bet some of y'all woulda got it too. one of em? i got on mark down - for around fifty bucks -- walked about half the store down, saw somethin similar-- and it was 210.00 !!! so hey - if i end up not findin a place for it - i could flip it and make some money! i would like to keep it tho - i have wanted one for years. cool stuff. so check back for pix. k
anyhow -- i gotta get this party started round heah -
happy mondays in your worlds peeps-
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Skin-a-ma-rinky-dinky-dink
'sup peoples? not much exciting going on out here in my texas world. the weather gods are bein rather kind lately. i won't complain about that. we've been in the 40's and 50's for several days runnin. rain and wind is expected - but i'll worry about that when i see it. i always hope for the weather guessers to be wrong when it sounds lousy. a lot of times they are.
anyhow - i don't remember if i have put a pic up yet of the soulchilds jeep yet?? if not here it is -- still in need of -- a new carb. ugh. we got it on order last night . kill meh. we both thought soulman would be able to rebuild the original one... didn't happen.. it was a piece o' crapola. better to just get a new one and not worry about failing emissions and doing more work later. (i know- lousy pic - i thought i had one on my phone - but it's gone :(( - so i went out and took one -- with my car in the way -
it's nice actually - and she loves it -- that's the most important thing of all. it has a hard top , a roll bar , and A/C - which are rare for this model and year - '88 jeep - 'somethin' - i'll get back to you on that. :))
but - the price was good - and they held it til we could pay it off... BUT - parts are gettin expensive already. we had to break out a paid off credit card yesterday for almost 700.00 worth--- you know that is pure pain for me. but i do want it on the road as fast as possible. i swear i'm gonna have a coronary - if she doesn't stop drivin soulman's truck.
on the bright side? soulkid does have a job interview lined up this week-- and is graduating on 2-5. so it aint all negative -- as much as it sounds like it sometimes. :(( she really is a good kid. y'all just don't know how proud and happy we are to see her graduating. you know there were times we didn't think she'd finish school - much less graduate! :)) now a job, and a car... she's gettin there guys .. she just had a rougher road than some.
in other news .... i am still enduring -- with periods of relief -- a five day long stinkin headache! WTH? i hope it's PMS - and not a pre seizure or something like some others i've had like this. whaaaaa.
that- my friends is about all i have to say at this point. somehow i stay busy all day every day -- but it just isn't worth talkin (writin) about. but 'm cleaning, sorting, searchin for tax rct's, goin to dr's, oh -- and guess what else i have found to spend time doin? would y'all believe that the - number one x-box widow - has joined forces? LOL -- it's true. while we were in NM with hubbys fam.. his brother bought a WII. it looked like a lot of fun.. i was sick there - remember -- i would go to bed early - but i would hear everyone playin it - and laughin and havin a real good time. i did try to-- note the TRY -- :)) to bowl before we left -- it was fun, but i did suck . :)) anyhow - a couple weeks ago -- i took my 'new' credit card --- this was before the car stuff -- i would not have done it if i knew what was comin... but yep i got us a wii -- and it actually helps me n hubby spend more time together and it's fun! who knew right? he still plays x-box of course -- but not til i have my time with him at night. this thing's better than marriage counseling.... but not reccomended! y'all know we are our own breed among the normal folks.
ok -- time to get goin here --
hope you all have happy days in your worlds today!
i'm workin on it - and considering --- i'm doin pretty good lately -
latah tatahs
anyhow - i don't remember if i have put a pic up yet of the soulchilds jeep yet?? if not here it is -- still in need of -- a new carb. ugh. we got it on order last night . kill meh. we both thought soulman would be able to rebuild the original one... didn't happen.. it was a piece o' crapola. better to just get a new one and not worry about failing emissions and doing more work later. (i know- lousy pic - i thought i had one on my phone - but it's gone :(( - so i went out and took one -- with my car in the way -
it's nice actually - and she loves it -- that's the most important thing of all. it has a hard top , a roll bar , and A/C - which are rare for this model and year - '88 jeep - 'somethin' - i'll get back to you on that. :))
but - the price was good - and they held it til we could pay it off... BUT - parts are gettin expensive already. we had to break out a paid off credit card yesterday for almost 700.00 worth--- you know that is pure pain for me. but i do want it on the road as fast as possible. i swear i'm gonna have a coronary - if she doesn't stop drivin soulman's truck.
on the bright side? soulkid does have a job interview lined up this week-- and is graduating on 2-5. so it aint all negative -- as much as it sounds like it sometimes. :(( she really is a good kid. y'all just don't know how proud and happy we are to see her graduating. you know there were times we didn't think she'd finish school - much less graduate! :)) now a job, and a car... she's gettin there guys .. she just had a rougher road than some.
in other news .... i am still enduring -- with periods of relief -- a five day long stinkin headache! WTH? i hope it's PMS - and not a pre seizure or something like some others i've had like this. whaaaaa.
that- my friends is about all i have to say at this point. somehow i stay busy all day every day -- but it just isn't worth talkin (writin) about. but 'm cleaning, sorting, searchin for tax rct's, goin to dr's, oh -- and guess what else i have found to spend time doin? would y'all believe that the - number one x-box widow - has joined forces? LOL -- it's true. while we were in NM with hubbys fam.. his brother bought a WII. it looked like a lot of fun.. i was sick there - remember -- i would go to bed early - but i would hear everyone playin it - and laughin and havin a real good time. i did try to-- note the TRY -- :)) to bowl before we left -- it was fun, but i did suck . :)) anyhow - a couple weeks ago -- i took my 'new' credit card --- this was before the car stuff -- i would not have done it if i knew what was comin... but yep i got us a wii -- and it actually helps me n hubby spend more time together and it's fun! who knew right? he still plays x-box of course -- but not til i have my time with him at night. this thing's better than marriage counseling.... but not reccomended! y'all know we are our own breed among the normal folks.
ok -- time to get goin here --
hope you all have happy days in your worlds today!
i'm workin on it - and considering --- i'm doin pretty good lately -
latah tatahs
Sunday, January 16, 2011
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howdy folks-
what are you doin up at this hour? i'm askin myself the same question. i was actually sleepin pretty good up until about half an hour or so ago. that's when it happened. i woke up - for no reason at all. not new for me. it's nearly a nightly occasion for me -- and usually happens several times during the night. i'm about to go nuts because of it. i couldn't tell ya the last time i slept a full night through. it gets very irritating. and draining. and it is making me become one bitchy soul. anyhow. like i said -- sleepin like a baby-- then suddenly wide awake! hubby was sound asleep next to me, but the cats - two of them were raising havoc.. climbing all over each of our bed tables -- scrounging for water glasses. i got smart and got a sports bottle for mine -- or when i do use a glass - i set in in my drawer and close it just tight enough that if the cats get it - it doesn't spill over. i don't know what's come over them. they didn't used to do this. now it's every night. anyhow - there i am.. just waitin for them to spill somethin, i of course had a freakin migraine - again. so- i smoke a cig, hopin to relax the headache away and just fall asleep. did it happen? oh hell no. first- jitterbug, does spill a glass of water on hubby's table. i 'hissed' at her - that woke up hubby - he was pissed cuz of course he was sleepin real good. but he had to save his cell phone - and check for any other potential damage or hazards over there due to the spillage. you know that did wonders for my attempting to relax my headache away. it instantly got worse. even into my neck. of course he was back to sleep in three minutes or less.. and the next thing i knew -- i'm stabbing an imitrex shot in my leg ! i then went ahead and got up to give the damn cats some water -- to stop the insanity! once i was UP- i was UP. and guess what? here i am.
the good news? my headache is gone.. and i think gettin on the computer was a big mistake-- cuz i'm not tired anymore. :(( perhaps a xanax will be in order shortly. i have too much on my list for tomorrow to spend it catching up on a bad nights sleep.
some good news? soulkids jeep is now paid off and in our drive-way! phew. well, one would think. but- there was a couple things soulman failed to tell me when we bought it. well.. i knew it needed carb work.. it came with parts tho- and i know he can fix those. so i thought - no big deal. but... yeh, another 'but', now that it's here , and i thought she would be rollin on her very own wheels in like two days? ummm, well.... no. that won't happened. it has never needed to be smogged- emissions tested. guess what -- it now needs to be - before we can register it. and with a bad carb-- and maybe fuel pump- or filter probs -- no tellin when - or how long it will take to get it in that kinda shape. especially on soulmans schedule. oooh yay!
do i need to tell y'all the i have not let soulkid drive my car since the accident? i didn't think so- but just in case -- i haven't. soulman lets her drive his -- but she has not and will not touch mine. so far- no problems -- except for the fact, that every time she goes anywhere -- i'm in a constant panic attack! if he wasn't such a sucker- she wouldn't drive at all til her jeep was on the road-- with liability only insurance! ugh. i can't go through another wreck. just worrying about another is about to put me in the ground. erg!
other than that? i guess i shall go back to bed. i hope i can get back to sleep. soulkid is graduating high school -- did y'all ever think the day would come? i am so proud of her! that will be on the fifth- and her gramma is coming on the 4th to watch and visit a few days. do you think my house is 'guest ready'?
if you said 'hell no' you'd be correct. it's close. but the upstairs -- the soulkid cave -- looks like hell ran through-- five dozen times. and downstairs just needs a good organizing and 'spring cleaning. ' but at the rate i move these days-- i'll be lucky to finish before my mommason arrives.
do y'all think i worry too much? i'm sure it'll all get done. i just panic alot. about everything.
haelP me-
g'night peeps -
i'll catch ya 'round sometime soon.
happy days to ya -- sunday i hope... if you're up now-- go back to bed dammit!
what are you doin up at this hour? i'm askin myself the same question. i was actually sleepin pretty good up until about half an hour or so ago. that's when it happened. i woke up - for no reason at all. not new for me. it's nearly a nightly occasion for me -- and usually happens several times during the night. i'm about to go nuts because of it. i couldn't tell ya the last time i slept a full night through. it gets very irritating. and draining. and it is making me become one bitchy soul. anyhow. like i said -- sleepin like a baby-- then suddenly wide awake! hubby was sound asleep next to me, but the cats - two of them were raising havoc.. climbing all over each of our bed tables -- scrounging for water glasses. i got smart and got a sports bottle for mine -- or when i do use a glass - i set in in my drawer and close it just tight enough that if the cats get it - it doesn't spill over. i don't know what's come over them. they didn't used to do this. now it's every night. anyhow - there i am.. just waitin for them to spill somethin, i of course had a freakin migraine - again. so- i smoke a cig, hopin to relax the headache away and just fall asleep. did it happen? oh hell no. first- jitterbug, does spill a glass of water on hubby's table. i 'hissed' at her - that woke up hubby - he was pissed cuz of course he was sleepin real good. but he had to save his cell phone - and check for any other potential damage or hazards over there due to the spillage. you know that did wonders for my attempting to relax my headache away. it instantly got worse. even into my neck. of course he was back to sleep in three minutes or less.. and the next thing i knew -- i'm stabbing an imitrex shot in my leg ! i then went ahead and got up to give the damn cats some water -- to stop the insanity! once i was UP- i was UP. and guess what? here i am.
the good news? my headache is gone.. and i think gettin on the computer was a big mistake-- cuz i'm not tired anymore. :(( perhaps a xanax will be in order shortly. i have too much on my list for tomorrow to spend it catching up on a bad nights sleep.
some good news? soulkids jeep is now paid off and in our drive-way! phew. well, one would think. but- there was a couple things soulman failed to tell me when we bought it. well.. i knew it needed carb work.. it came with parts tho- and i know he can fix those. so i thought - no big deal. but... yeh, another 'but', now that it's here , and i thought she would be rollin on her very own wheels in like two days? ummm, well.... no. that won't happened. it has never needed to be smogged- emissions tested. guess what -- it now needs to be - before we can register it. and with a bad carb-- and maybe fuel pump- or filter probs -- no tellin when - or how long it will take to get it in that kinda shape. especially on soulmans schedule. oooh yay!
do i need to tell y'all the i have not let soulkid drive my car since the accident? i didn't think so- but just in case -- i haven't. soulman lets her drive his -- but she has not and will not touch mine. so far- no problems -- except for the fact, that every time she goes anywhere -- i'm in a constant panic attack! if he wasn't such a sucker- she wouldn't drive at all til her jeep was on the road-- with liability only insurance! ugh. i can't go through another wreck. just worrying about another is about to put me in the ground. erg!
other than that? i guess i shall go back to bed. i hope i can get back to sleep. soulkid is graduating high school -- did y'all ever think the day would come? i am so proud of her! that will be on the fifth- and her gramma is coming on the 4th to watch and visit a few days. do you think my house is 'guest ready'?
if you said 'hell no' you'd be correct. it's close. but the upstairs -- the soulkid cave -- looks like hell ran through-- five dozen times. and downstairs just needs a good organizing and 'spring cleaning. ' but at the rate i move these days-- i'll be lucky to finish before my mommason arrives.
do y'all think i worry too much? i'm sure it'll all get done. i just panic alot. about everything.
haelP me-
g'night peeps -
i'll catch ya 'round sometime soon.
happy days to ya -- sunday i hope... if you're up now-- go back to bed dammit!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
a new baby , and a migraine -
sounds like party time to me !
more like bed time. yep that's where i'm headin. me and my headache. i've been tryin to get a post up here for days though, but it just happened yet. so here's a quick howdy to y'all, and hopefully i will get a chance tomorrow to fill in some blanks for ya. it's been real busy around here lately, so if i'm not runnin around, i'm tryin to stay warm. it's been freezin out here. burrr
so yeh, there's a new member of the soul clan. i am in love :))
isn't she purty? i fit so much better in it. it has built in GPS. extra room for my fishin rods and stuff, and it's fun to drive! i don't have to strain my neck to try to see out of it - or behind me. it's better in a dozen ways than the toyota.
that's all i can say for now -- my head is about to blow off my shoulders -- not fun.
catch you peeps tomorrow - maybe
i hope all is well in your worlds - ok here - just busy-
more like bed time. yep that's where i'm headin. me and my headache. i've been tryin to get a post up here for days though, but it just happened yet. so here's a quick howdy to y'all, and hopefully i will get a chance tomorrow to fill in some blanks for ya. it's been real busy around here lately, so if i'm not runnin around, i'm tryin to stay warm. it's been freezin out here. burrr
so yeh, there's a new member of the soul clan. i am in love :))
isn't she purty? i fit so much better in it. it has built in GPS. extra room for my fishin rods and stuff, and it's fun to drive! i don't have to strain my neck to try to see out of it - or behind me. it's better in a dozen ways than the toyota.
that's all i can say for now -- my head is about to blow off my shoulders -- not fun.
catch you peeps tomorrow - maybe
i hope all is well in your worlds - ok here - just busy-
Thursday, January 6, 2011
"oh my hell" is right !
hiya peeps- and top o' the ,mornin to ya!what's goinin on in your worlds lately? i reckon if you've been readin what little i been writin here- you have a bit of an idea what's up in my world. BUT -- just after i finished a cry baby email to a friend of mine about my wrecked car and the stress that follows the unknown that goes with it -- hubby walked in the room and said -- he just got a call from our insurance company! would y'all believe --- they TOTALLED my car!? i had no idea there was that much damage. it trashed the rear axle -- which i think is where the tranny is.. (like a trans-axle) it was leakin brake fluid, the rear tire got smashed in - so i guess the tie rods/bearings etc were trashed,the rear door and quarter panel were trashed, and i guess the air bags were defective cuz none deployed. -- that was surprising. - shocking even. the car has side airbags and none of those deployed either-- with that force it would seem some of them would have blown. personally we're glad they didn't -- she rides right up on the steering wheel-- even though i have talked to her about the damage an air bag can cause with her so close like that. i think she now realizes she needs to sit further back. if it woulda deployed she coulda broke her little neck. :((
so- hey-- on the bright side? looks like i'm gonna get out of my high car payments i been cryin about for two years, that'll be a relief. i'll still have to get a loan.. but i sure aint gettin a brand new car. no way. i hate car payments. ugh. especially for as little as i drive. a little 4 or 5 thousand putt putt will do me just fine. anybody got got one?
so anyhow -- the wondering and the waiting is over. that was killing me! i couldn't even slep at night. torture i say! last night i bet i woke up six times -- i'd smoke - or take a pill - fall asleep - just to wake up and hour later. ugh. rough night. rough few nights. but-- around noon we go and sign papers - and move on to step two -- which i hope is car shopping. even tho i'm very much a shut-in, i feel better at least knowing that i have access to GO- IF i wanna.
things are movin right along - just the way they're sposed to.
so anyhow-- i owe you all visits -- and as soon as things get settled down a bit here with the car and the house and my crazy mind-- i'll be right ovah !
happy days to each and every one of you--
i shall keep you posted on the situation at hand in soulland :))
so- hey-- on the bright side? looks like i'm gonna get out of my high car payments i been cryin about for two years, that'll be a relief. i'll still have to get a loan.. but i sure aint gettin a brand new car. no way. i hate car payments. ugh. especially for as little as i drive. a little 4 or 5 thousand putt putt will do me just fine. anybody got got one?
so anyhow -- the wondering and the waiting is over. that was killing me! i couldn't even slep at night. torture i say! last night i bet i woke up six times -- i'd smoke - or take a pill - fall asleep - just to wake up and hour later. ugh. rough night. rough few nights. but-- around noon we go and sign papers - and move on to step two -- which i hope is car shopping. even tho i'm very much a shut-in, i feel better at least knowing that i have access to GO- IF i wanna.
things are movin right along - just the way they're sposed to.
so anyhow-- i owe you all visits -- and as soon as things get settled down a bit here with the car and the house and my crazy mind-- i'll be right ovah !
happy days to each and every one of you--
i shall keep you posted on the situation at hand in soulland :))
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