i'm gonna live - til i die - sing it peeps- if ya know the tune

i can't believe the weather today - any other day it would be 90 degrees by now--- instead? it's like not even 80 yet... and what am i doin? gettin prepared to face my kitchen HELL.
what would i RATHER be doin?

THIS !!!
of course !

(well, surely not naked-- but maybe-- :))

BUT- instead---
even cats are havin better luck than me lately -
so they can fish-
and i shall clean my sty-

BUT speakin of fishin-
wanna see a sad sad thing?
someone has altered our fishin fairy !!!
yes it's true ladies.
i was mortified when i saw him.
are you ready for this?
oh , it is a horrible transformation...
assuming you have seen the original photo--
here is our altered,
"not naked anymore- fishing fairy"

my heart is shattered-
how bout you?


i'm thinkin the only thing that might save me-
is spendin money-
on myself-of course-
i found these shirts-
and i want them-
along with the sloth hat-
that i still haven't bought-

SEE?

that on--
and THIS one-

and i think you all saw the hat- i don't have the pic anymore.

SO---
IF i manage to get my work DONE
TODAY
i just might reward myself with the above items.

because?
well...
i have been found out--
someone has discovered my nasty-ass kitchen
AND put it online-

oh hell--
the SHAME-

(it's really not mine--
but it's not far-off.)
see why i'm such a tortured -soul??

AND my floors?
i wish i had some of THESE-
they would help i think-
and might even make cleanin the floor a bit fun :))

:))

SO-
even though i am a slug from HELL-
i am prepared for battle today-
and am not gonna sit-
or leave the house-
until this shit pen of a house
is finito today !
God willing.
UGH

oh-- for smocha--
here is YOUR next kitty purchase
:))
you really have crossed the line ya know
but i sure thought of YOU when i saw this-

bwahahahahaha!


anyhow peeoples-
IF i actually DO manage to finish my shit today
without dying-
i just may run away-
me and portia have some long overdue plans-
:))

-- so do me and jamie for that matter-
anyone else wanna run away?--

i hope you all have happy-
" happy dance" kinda days in your worlds-
cuz if i don't-
well-
i just may go to bed for the rest of the weekend-
cuz-

in todays soul-news

nothin exciting at all.

unless ya wanna include lookin like this:

- no, not like a man-
like a fool !
with all the gadgets attached to his face-
well, MY face.
i think it's some kind of "level" , like the tool.
to show how off balance you are i guess. :))
i had to ask him (the PT guy)
how can you not laugh at people with this on them?
he said he was used to it-
but i think i couldn't help myself- i would have to laugh -
it looks sooooo stupid-
and yes, i felt very stupid wearin it.

so anyhow--
that was just for a few minutes,
and i had to do the turning and twisting
and gettin mashed on and pressed on
all that painful stuff

then after that i had to do a couple exercises--
neither too strenuous-
but one bein
this :
-except i was sittin on the edge of a bench-
NOT on the floor like that
phew-

and the other one was
this:
like a bike- but usin your hands/arms -
it was actually harder than it looks-
maybe not if you don't have pain-
in your back, neck, shoulders,
and just about everywhere else-
but in that case--
i only lasted two of the three minutes i was supposed to go.
ugh.
can we say wuss?
i was sooo ashamed of myself-
but hey- it hurt-
what was i sposed to do-

so anyhow--- i go 11 more times in the next month or five weeks- or somethin like that--
then they will re-evaluate me-- if it is doin any good they'll decide if i should keep goin for a while-- and if it isn't doin any good- decide if i should continue- or quit. etc etc etc. you know the drill.

good thing about the first visit?? i don't have to pay a dime out of pocket--
woo-hoo ! bout time the damn insurance pays off . they've done nothin but screw me over for the last two or three years--- but somehow-- i guess with my deductible paid, for some reason, i have a certain amount for this type of stuff that i don't have to pay per year.
strange-- but hell, i'll take it-
i expected a high dollar co-pay today.
so i was pleasantly surprised.

and now?
i must go to bed.
i have been tired most of the day, but even when i did try to take a nap earlier--i just laid there and couldn't sleep. dunno why---so i went fishin. but didn't catch anything. dunno why for that either. cuz hubby got two or three. i got bites, just couldn't get the fish. dammit.
so. i'm gonna try to sleep again.

somethin else i failed to do today???? my damned kitchen. i'm gonna set this place on fire if i don't get it done tomorrow. but i will-- i say i WILL-- :)) -- get it done tomorrow.

anyhow--
goo-night y'all

another day in soul-land

howdy folks--
told ya i'd be here--sooner or later-- it's later-- but here i am.
i cannot believe how boring i have become. and it's not even just on the blog-- it's everywhere. i'm just -- well, ugh. i don't even know. just not with it kinda person lately. not sure what to do about that-- or obviously it woulda been done by now. but hey-- i'm tryin, all kindsa different things-- to get back to my old self-- i guess i just haven't found out what it is i need to do-- yet.

i've tried extra meds-- for extra sleep---
which for the last few nights seems to help-
i'm up late--- but seem to sleep later than normal too- some days as late as 7 !!
that hasn't happened in years!
but then i'm hungover in the day--
and accomplish zilch!

so tell me--
which is worse?
little to no sleep-
or too much sleep, and being comatose in the daytime??
ugh.
i just can't win.

regardless, mornings are rough either way-
whether i sleep or not-
i am an awful bitch for the first couple hours of every day lately.

actually---
i may as well include
aaalll day--
every day.

i'm almost certain that much has to do do with my lack of energy.
which leads to my lack of accomplishment-
which leads to my house becoming and remaining a pig-sty-
which makes me depressed-
and angry-
because no one seems to want to help me get caught up-
and the constant worry of the worsening PILEAGE -
thoroughly exhausts and depresses me-
then gives me headaches and even more pain from added stress-
and the cycle continues-
until i simply verbally attack anyone in sight-
for what seems to them "no reason-
when in reality-
it's a week or two of built up rage. :))

sooo- who wants to "visit" for a couple days??

anyhow-
not sure if i mentioned it-
but a few days ago-2 maybe??
can't remember--
anything-
but i did manage to get caught up on a few things-
one being wally hell!
spent over 200.00 on friggin groceries---
only to decide that i still cannnot manage to clean the fuckin kitchen--
which also means
i cannot cook in there either.
so-- what's that mean?

YEP- you guessed it---
still goin out-
well, last night anyhow.
the night before we ate junk food for diner that didn't require cooking-or dishes.
last night- we took the kid to the mall..
and hubby and i- dropped a hefty 50-- on damned dinner.



just kill my irresponsible self.

so anyhow----
if my damn kitchen doesn't kill me ,
these friggin peein, pukin cats will-
we still haven't decided to keep- or dismiss spot yet.
you know- she's been with us since she was born-
so has jitterbug-
we can't just dispose of her-
but ugh-
i can't stand all these animals destroying my house.



so ---anyways---
my plan of the day for today??
i must clean my kitchen--- if nothing else--
top to bottom, including the fridge and floor-
or i will have a stroke-
or jump offa bridge-

then--
i have physical therapy-- yep cheryl--you remembered :))

i'll let y'all know how that goes--
the appt is at 3-- 2:45 for the dreaded paperwork-- you know how that goes.
i hope they don't hurt me.

hoping you all have happy days in your worlds today-
i know some of y'all are havin a rough go of it---
but i do hope that takes a break- at least for a day-
hell
it's friday-
we all deserve a good day once in a while-
why not make it today
right?

brain-block

sorry
maybe in the mornin?
g'nite folks-

again--- NADA

cept this little video-- less than 3 minutes long-- was tryin to get jamie a good luck fish for yesterday--- guess it worked-- even tho he was just a baby :)) (well, compared to what i usually get outta there... )
where the hell did the big ones go? that's what i wanna know.
anyhow- til somethin interesting happens-- this is the kinda crap y'all get to see around here i guess.

today tho-- i may come up with somethin to write-- cuz i am actually gonna go outside, and face the world :))
i am so far behind behind on everything-- if i don't get food, and pay bills, and do real life things-- we just all may die around here.
besides that-- i am gonna meet JLEE for coffee later on today-- which i am like 2 weeks late for. ugh.
i don't mean to be a bad friend... i just seem to not keep up lately-- with anyone.
hopefully no one hates me yet.







anyhow-- i gotta go--
hopefully the next fishin video will be WALTER !!!! :))

a day in the life of a merry -- ummm-- boring -- ole soul

ola peoples-

(UPDATE--- PT APPOINTMENT IS SCHEDULED FOR 7-18/FRIDAY-2:45--- i'll let ya know if they kill me or not :))


it's just after 6 a.m, i have been awake since 2:30 a.m.
i would like to know why .
but really, i suppose it doesn't make a difference, whether i know or not does it.
i'm still awake. pretty close to every day , at about this time anyhow.
sometimes a little later. if i'm lucky.

but i guess i was pretty used to it once upon a time, guess i should just accept it again.
and maybe try to make good use of the time.
suuure. i'll get right on that.
i still manage to sit on my ass til 10 most days, and even then i don't accomplish crap.
i think i need to call someone to put a stop to this pity party.
soon!

but anyhow--
as for yesterdays doc update?
he suggested physical therapy-
for migraines-
which i have nearly daily.
yes i know...
i never heard of that either...
but i agreed to give it a try--
because , it is a pain that i do not relish.

so---
rather than suffer--
lay in bed for hours-
or just plain be a bitch-

and apparently-
it's called head traction-
and looks something like this:

or maybe this---

whichever it is--
it could include massage as well...
on my neck, and head too--
and either or will hopefully,
reduce the neck pain AND the migraines.
but i won't know, til i go.
and even though it looks somewhat painful-
i'm hoping the result will be less pain.

hope is good.
right?

anyhow-- that's about it in this exciting world o' mine today.
still runnin like six weeks behind in just about everything around here.
perhaps i can change at least a little of that today.
maybe.

happy tuesday folks...

another day here- they're all the same lately

hiya folks (here i go-- typing in bold-- for some unkown reason, yet again..) -- at least it isn't underlining )

anyhow--

yep-- another monday has befallen us. oh joy.

and wouldn't ya know it?
i STILL, got nuthin-
nuthin to say, no fish to show ya, just nuthin.



yep this is about how i feel too-


soooo - i'll just say that , i have been a bit agoraphobic lately. the past few days i have gone no where (if i have, i haven't had to leave my car.) like the drive thru pharmacy- or a drive thru food place- or somethin like that. and even that hasn't been often. the fishin has sucked lately-not to mention it's been 100 degrees outside-- so i haven't even been fishin for a few days.
can we say bored?
i really don't mind though. i'm actually gettin used to it-- and maybe it's not a good thing-- but i kinda am beginning to like not goin anywhere. i'm still in my funk a bit. not so close to the edge-- but maybe not as far away from it as i would like to be either. wish i knew wth to do about that.





so---- on that note-- i am being forced to face that fear-- or conflict-- or whatever it is-- in just an hour or two, to go to the damn neuro doc, for the follow up for the botox injections. which were supposed to help with the pain, but did not. now i wonder what-- if anything will be the next step. i suppose nuthing. but at least he is finally a dr. that is not afraid to treat pain as it should be treated. and not treat the patient as some sort of drug freak. in like three visits he discovered a real problem, that should have been diagnosed years earlier. i don't know if i should be pissed off or grateful. guess i'm a bit of both. so anyhow. ya. you know i don't want to go out my door-- but i must. :((





anyhow-- i gotta get ready to go--
i know my posts are probably boring the crap outta everyone lately-- jitterbug told me so---
but hey-- i'm tryin.




hope you all have the best day you are capable of having for a monday-- assuming that it is a good one-

ugh-day

happy sunday peeps


hope y'all are havin good days out there doin somethin fun-- or maybe windin down from it-- or plannin on it?

me?
oh it's just peachy here.

hubby has been gone all day fishin a tournament.
the child has been pukin all day -- for some unknown reason.
and me? well, aside from the norm, i am buried in bill hell, and have realized that i lost two written prescriptions, and i cannot find them. i really thought i left them on my desk-- i have searched everywhere-- they are nowhere.

dammit.

and have a joyous day
:))

i'm just resting my EYES

i know y'all have heard that one before. prolly when you were a kid and accused your mom of sleeping, and ignoring you??? her response? "i'm listening to you, i'm just resting my eyes". and, isn't it funny, how now, we repeat the same damn line, that we knew was a straight out lie when we were young, to our own kids.

anyhow-- for y'all, my favorite people in the world-- well, aside from the soul clan of course ---
i'm not ignoring y'all... really, i'm not---
"i'm just resting my eyes !!!! :))
i love you, really i DO--
i just cannot seem to get caught up-- right now. just hold on-- i'll get there. eventually.





anyhow-- as for yesterday-- i did try to think of something to post-- it just didn;t happen.
for one-- i was resting my eyes :))
no, really. it was actually a sort of weird day.
too much to get into , but the short version would be that-- i was in pain, so i took a very very strong pain med-- which for the first time in YEARS, left me a little bit stoned. and as much as i would have like to like that feeling-- i really didn't know how to. so i just kinda tried to fight it-- and not see in threes. very strange. but it helped the pain.. for a few hours. but on its return.. i wasnt willing to feel that way quite yet.




so anyhow-- the dogs got in a nasty brawl too. it was pretty scary actually. hubby was at work. so it was me and soulkid left to break them up. eevee had sushis entire head IN her mouth !!!
i was hittin her (eevee) with a pillow, and yellin at her--- when soulkid just ran up and yanked sushi away! i was already afraid that I was gonna get bit-- but when she ran in there-- i got really scared that she would be hurt--- but she was very fast and sushi in her room in no time..leaving me and eeve to wonder wth .. where did everybody go? hmmm
it all went very fast... but at the time, seemed like quite a while. i really thought eevee would kill sushi in this one. it was their third fight. and they both get very mean. the first fight was the worst-- for sushi. since then no major injuries, but the last one sushi got a bite on her mouth that bled, but this time, no blood. PHEW.
yep-- that was real fun. more anxiety. just what i needed.
eevee had to spend hours-- maybe 3 or so-- locked in her crate til soulman got home-- cuz i couldnt risk another fight-- or one of us getting hurt. ugh.
too many animals--i'm tellin ya. i just can't take it anymore.

and poor sushi-- if it isn't eevee bein mean to her-- it's spot. jitterbug likes her-- but the other two ? only when they want to. ugh.





and so for today--
it's catch up day-- and i know i have said that daily for-- well --- ever--- but i really need to do at least something.
like :
clean house
do laundry
work on z budget
pay some bills
get food
get gas-- which reminds me--
have y'all seen this one yet???
they need to add *TEAR* on there with deisel... cuz i tell ya it IS enough to make ya cry--- at $4.79 a freakin gallon.. wanna know what it costs to fill up the "bubba mobile?" take a guess...
170.00 --- GASP !!!!! yes.. even GAG. or how bout EKG???? hahah i rarely go with him to get diesel... it's bad enough writin the amount in the check book.
omg.





so anyhow--
i apologize-- but that's about all i can do for now-- i just wanted to wake up-- i mean check in ...
and say HI PEOPLES!!!!
i hope to find some time to make my rounds today or this eve... i am so far behind, i've even hurt my bestest pals feelins. now that's bad.
i am sorry --and all of YOU too !!! i'm a bad blogger friend.

i hope you all have fantabulous days in your worlds today--
cuz you know-- i will try
(so far--so good)

ha-elp meeee i'm blogless

above is johnny cash's last video he made before he died.
originally it is a Nine Inch Nails song-
but i'm old, and i don't like them- or their version.
but i like the lyrics, the song, and of course- johnny is my man.

so-- anyhow--

i just can't think of a damn thing to write about-
not for lack of tryin tho-
it's after 12 now-- and i have been tryin to come up with a post since yesterday a.m.-
can we say UGH ?

but --- i know y'all keep comin
so, i better get somethin up heah--

only thing is---

I

and my body feels like THIS:
from head to ankles :((
just sayin.

and as for gettin caught up on anything around here?
well, not much...

yesterday i DID manage to finally FINISH :

but as for anything else?
NOOP.
NADA.

cuz not only was i a slug---
i was a very -- well-- dying slug - maybe--
like THIS- ?



i laid in bed for hours. upon hours.
like from 5 or 5:30 p.m. til i went to sleep-- then of course til 6 or 6:30 when i got up.
i haven't laid in bed that long in AGES. UGH. and i am payin for it now. OWWW.
i was in alot of pain. more than usual. and out of pain meds.
which really sucked ass.
and as most of you know, i can't take asperin or any OTC meds like that.
so i was kinda ruined.
soulman did lay in bed with me and watched a movie--
(but unlike me-- laying down too long hurts him--
while sitting up too long hurts me. soo umm ya-- anyhow)
it was
THIS ONE:
which was pretty good btw---

i know a bunch of you have asked a LOT of questions--
about a LOT of different things.
but my mind just cannot retain a damn thing these days.
just aske jamie/simonsays-
we will be talkin oonline- and in the same conversation-
i'll forget what she said two minutes before.
same goes for ANY conversation- anyWHERE.
i am beyond senile folks--
so i reckon i'll try to backtrack over the next day or so and get to your questions.
maybe.
or maybe you could throw them at me again?
oh man.
talk about losin your mind-
sure wish i could find it.

i DO remember that some asked about our vacation:
we do plan to still go to pensacola -- AC!!!
no pressure (lol) -but you better email me your phone number eh?
lemmee know a couple decent cheap hotels on the beach too eh?
all the ones online of course are high dollar-- i know there has to be some not online.
maybe?

i also went fishin yesterday--
but didn't catch ANY freakin fish!
i almost had a heat stroke too-
i stayed too long- as usual.
about an hour and a half-
obviously no pix-- of no fish.
perhaps-

or better yet-- take one next time i fish-
maybe "tomorrow" :))

AND perhaps , maybe if i pour coffee on this damn BLANK page of
writers block-
SOMETHING
worth a damn to actually write will come to mind???

until THEN_
i stumbled across THIS_

(i don't know if the blogger i stole it it from added the last part- or if is part of the quote)

but, with that--
i'm off--
like Batman -- without a batmobile !!
cuz, well, of course---
i'm outta gas.
:@

IT'S ALMOST FRIDAY p !!!!