hi all--
thanks for the comments and concern--
i know i'm fallin behind-- but don't worry-- just life kinda playin bumper pool with me lately.
i did actually sleep some last night. i have no idea how much tho-- :))
i do know the last thing i remember was soulman.. literally dragging me to bed from my chair. ugh.
sooo exhausted. i finally just gave out. ran outta gas. gave up. whatever ya wanna call it-- i was soo done-- i didn't even have enough control to take my ass to bed.
i took an extra sleepin pill... and throughout the day-- may have slipped in one extra pain pill that i normally don't need (i usually don't take more than two a day-- i'm pretty sure i slid a third in last night--- pain is not my friend. :( --- so anyhow-- yes-- it apparently kicked my ass when i wasn't lookin.
i don't really think i'm complaining tho-- cuz i managed to sleep til 6:30 this morning. that, my friends.. is a damn miracle as far as i'm concerned. i was beginning to think i would never sleep again. i feel pretty rested too actually-- my neck muscles aren't too happy-- cuz i was in a not too natural position in the chair when soulman took me to bed... but i can deal with that-- better than three hours of sleep.
anyways-- looks like i have more to say than "just checkin in" .. see what happens if i just start typin? nevah know what you're gonna get :))
well anyways-- i did fish a while yesterday-- didn't catch a single fish-- they shut down-- just like i thought they might-- cuz of the weather. damn i'm good. :))
and soulman--- they didn't win any money in the tourney-- but ranked high enough to stay in the runnin.. so that much is good.
i will get to pre-fish with him for the next one-- i can't think of the name of the lake right now-- but it is close-- and it has lots of small-mouth bass in it---- i have never caught a small-mouth before. beleive it or not-- so i am lookin forward to that. (i just got the feeling that i said the wrong name for the fish--but i don't think so. duh..guess i'm still a little brain dead-- but i'll bounce back soon...i hope ) they are bass-- but brown, and get pretty big.. i want to catch some-- BIG'NS.
what else???
my story?
not much of a story-- cuz my "creative cells" are deprived of oxygen at the moment.
so it's more a flash of memory-- that came to me the other day-- it is actually something i seem to come to my mind almost every time i am in line at like a cvs-walgreens- or something similar.
but here ya go--
several years ago-- when my mom got really really sick-- she was living in california, raising my brothers daughter--who was like 14 at the time.
well, my sis lived in chicago-- with her family-- and i lived here in tx with mine- of course.
i get a phone call from my sis--
"mom's in california-- we have to go rescue her!"
wtf?????
anyhow-- we do our duty as daughters-- and only surviving children, and we go to rescue her.
one particular day-- well, let me add this part first-- my mother was very ill.. with parkinsons, and altzheimers... among other things- some being mental distubances, and just a slew of things-- and among her problems-- was severe-- i do mean sever incontinence (peeing her pants- uncontrolably).
so---
we had run out of her "diapers"/depends... while out one day-- my sis was driving--- and you know how that works--- if you aint drivin---- you become the errand runner. :))
we had to get her freakin depends.. cuz she was soaked all the way thru her clothes--- let me add -- it was like 200 degrees outside-- in bakersfield california heat.
so we get to this walgreens type of store-- i hop out to get diapers... for my mother. hmmmmmmmm. we all thought i would be in and out in like five minutes.
well...NOT.
there was some sort of problem -- maybe the register-- or the cashier-- not sure... but time kept dragging by----
finally--- there's like fifteen--or more people in line---- i was maybe.. number 4 or 5 in line.
some guy says -- loud enough for all to hear-- but mor TO the cashier --- he was holding a gallon of water--and one other thing--
"hey, my dog is out in my car and he needs some water!"
after that...
a ldy with baby formula, and diapers...
"my baby is hungry, she needs her bottle!"
finally--
me with a bag of depends...
"well, my mother is sitting in the car peeing her pants, she needs a new diaper!!"
everyone moved aside and let me go FIRST!
as soon as whatever it was got fixed-- i got to get to go first.
and my mom got dry depends and clean clothes.
and that's my story, and i'm stickin to it-
and now--- i'm gonna fix my backlashed fishin reels and go fishin ,
hope you all have happy days in your worlds today-- i will do my best here
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Monday, June 9, 2008
has anybody seen my REM sleep ???
i am so out of stuff to write about, it's just sick.
i think i'm five or six days runnin on very little to almost no sleep -- at night-- and what i do sleep in the day is crap. i wake up-- or get woke up so often , it can't be called sleep anyhow. the naps are are short and interrupted. i need a vacation.. or a straight jacket ! really. i'm gettin a bit nutty. not in a too- bad way-- yet. but it is gettin to where i make sure i'm wearing pants when i walk out the front door ! i'm not kidding either. that is part of my leave the house checklist...
keys, check
cigs, check
drink, check,
purse, check
pants, check
etc... it's baaaad.
i'm beginning to worry.
but there's not much i can do about it. not any more than i do now.
so anyhow-- aside from that---
summer school starts today--- she goes from 9-10 this time. beats 8-9 -- for all concerned.
apparently she can test out on friday. if she passes the test this friday-- we get half our money back-- and she gets to quit going-- with a passing grade -- woo hoo. she's pretty set on passing it. let's hope so. i really want her to enjoy her summer-- and i want to enjoy mine too-- without having the summer weekends cut short-- a couple of them.. like fathers day-- and another one-- i was hoing for out of town three day-ers.. but if she has school on those mondays we can't do that-- if she can get out with that test-- we will all be free to do whatever we want-- long weekends -- or whatever. and the money would be nice too. :)) i think she's quite capable-- if she pays attention, and applies herself-- it's just a wait n see i spose.
also-- we have been talking about going on a real vacation this passed few days. we haven't had a real vacation since she was like 7 years old when we went to san antonio and south padre. that was a lot of fun for all of us. we had like a week or ten days..and drove to san antonio-- for a night or two-- then south padre for like four--then back to san antonio for one or two--then back home. we had such a blast!
since then, we've been to NY for like 5 days or a week.. but only spent like two days of it site seeing.. the rest was soulman working while me and soulkid were trapped carless at the hotel room.. in FREEZING weather. we enjoyed the time we did spend out-- but really my strongest memories there? i had just had my front tooth pulled, i got a sinus infection, i was freezing, and soulkid was a grumpy little thing. it wasn't a great time, but it was ok.
so yep-- we are ready for some fun..family time. of course-- she will bring a friend--and totally ignore us the entire time. :)) but it won't be HERE. we're talkin about goin to chorpus christi and stayin at the beach. soulman wants to go to pensacola-- but i vote chorpus-- pensacola is twice as far-- and just too much time in the car for me. i would be no fun after that much time in the car. i just don't travel well anymore.
hmmmm.... what else?
fishin? i may go here in a little while-- after soulkid heads out. it doesn't look like the wind is too bad this morning. it is supposed to rain, however. ha.. if it aint one thing it's another- right? but i can handle a little rain-- just don't know how the fish will do. catfish do ok in the rain.. but bass kinda shut down sometimes. and i do not want catfish. :O so i need to wait and see how it looks after a while.
soooo.. that's about it for now.
i did think of a little story i want to tell y'all last night. i'll wait til later tho. i'm tired right now and gettin a bit crosseyed. hopefully later i'll be a bit more alive.
i'll be cruisin around this afternoon.. see ya then.
happy monday to ya--
i think i'm five or six days runnin on very little to almost no sleep -- at night-- and what i do sleep in the day is crap. i wake up-- or get woke up so often , it can't be called sleep anyhow. the naps are are short and interrupted. i need a vacation.. or a straight jacket ! really. i'm gettin a bit nutty. not in a too- bad way-- yet. but it is gettin to where i make sure i'm wearing pants when i walk out the front door ! i'm not kidding either. that is part of my leave the house checklist...
keys, check
cigs, check
drink, check,
purse, check
pants, check
etc... it's baaaad.
i'm beginning to worry.
but there's not much i can do about it. not any more than i do now.
so anyhow-- aside from that---
summer school starts today--- she goes from 9-10 this time. beats 8-9 -- for all concerned.
apparently she can test out on friday. if she passes the test this friday-- we get half our money back-- and she gets to quit going-- with a passing grade -- woo hoo. she's pretty set on passing it. let's hope so. i really want her to enjoy her summer-- and i want to enjoy mine too-- without having the summer weekends cut short-- a couple of them.. like fathers day-- and another one-- i was hoing for out of town three day-ers.. but if she has school on those mondays we can't do that-- if she can get out with that test-- we will all be free to do whatever we want-- long weekends -- or whatever. and the money would be nice too. :)) i think she's quite capable-- if she pays attention, and applies herself-- it's just a wait n see i spose.
also-- we have been talking about going on a real vacation this passed few days. we haven't had a real vacation since she was like 7 years old when we went to san antonio and south padre. that was a lot of fun for all of us. we had like a week or ten days..and drove to san antonio-- for a night or two-- then south padre for like four--then back to san antonio for one or two--then back home. we had such a blast!
since then, we've been to NY for like 5 days or a week.. but only spent like two days of it site seeing.. the rest was soulman working while me and soulkid were trapped carless at the hotel room.. in FREEZING weather. we enjoyed the time we did spend out-- but really my strongest memories there? i had just had my front tooth pulled, i got a sinus infection, i was freezing, and soulkid was a grumpy little thing. it wasn't a great time, but it was ok.
so yep-- we are ready for some fun..family time. of course-- she will bring a friend--and totally ignore us the entire time. :)) but it won't be HERE. we're talkin about goin to chorpus christi and stayin at the beach. soulman wants to go to pensacola-- but i vote chorpus-- pensacola is twice as far-- and just too much time in the car for me. i would be no fun after that much time in the car. i just don't travel well anymore.
hmmmm.... what else?
fishin? i may go here in a little while-- after soulkid heads out. it doesn't look like the wind is too bad this morning. it is supposed to rain, however. ha.. if it aint one thing it's another- right? but i can handle a little rain-- just don't know how the fish will do. catfish do ok in the rain.. but bass kinda shut down sometimes. and i do not want catfish. :O so i need to wait and see how it looks after a while.
soooo.. that's about it for now.
i did think of a little story i want to tell y'all last night. i'll wait til later tho. i'm tired right now and gettin a bit crosseyed. hopefully later i'll be a bit more alive.
i'll be cruisin around this afternoon.. see ya then.
happy monday to ya--
Sunday, June 8, 2008
wasn't i just here ?
hiya folks--
have i mentioned that insomnia is really getting to me? i'm beginning to feel like that dude in the movie "clockwork orange" -- with the toothpicks holding his eyes open. -- nights are gettin really rough around here. which, in turn, kinda makes , well, life a little rough around here. too. and that my peeps... makes me --- a bitch. and a crybaby. actually, i may not be so much of either if well, lets just say if i could sleep. cuz i could handle the rest better i bet .. if i slept right. crap. i can't even talk right. (write right , i guess i should say). well, i don't talk right either sometimes. :))
for example, last night i was up til 2.. and woke up at like 4, then went back to sleep --- but then i got up at 5. it crap i say. then friday i woke up at 130.. yesterday it was like , hell i don't even remember-- 5ish i think. maybe.
i know i'm luckier than most who have this problem, at least most days like this i do have the opportunity for a nap. but i think some days that makes it worse. especially on days there are things i need or want to be doing something other than sleeping the day away.
well... is that enough cryin for one morning for you? it is for me. i hate to get on here and whine. but, i could go on if you'd like.?
i don't really know what to write about today. it seems anything that has has happened this passed several days is really nothing to blog about. no fish stories... the wind has been hell. i know i've mentioned that 100 times.
other than that... it seems everything else is just plans , with no action..
or crap that is pissin me off.
not sure if it's the bein pissed off that has me not sleepin, or the not sleepin that has me pissed off. all i know , is i'm pissed off.
usually, there are only two things that get me un-pissed off--- and that's fishin-- or a road trip.
and this being the beginning of the week.. sort of. a road trip is out of the question...
and seein as i can hear the wind whippin thru the chimney , and every crack in the house yet again.. i can tell that i won't be fishin yet again today...
it seems that it will be yet another grumpy-- spin crap around in my head- sleep half the day- kinda day.
of course i'll do what i can before i get too tired. not many chores to catch up on.. bills and stuff i can do right here on my ass.... how convenient eh. then it will be time to go pick up my child from her friends' house. and then viola-- nap time it shall be.
soulman however-- is fishing a tournament today. it's been scheduled for months, so the wind is no out for them. he just left for the lake a while ago. the only thing that is gonna make him happy today is either a HUGE fish (bass) --- or to win today. cuz the wind os horrible, and there really is not much worse on the lake than rough water and fishin in the wind for 8 hours. it's just tough. even i don't like it. but he gets downright pissed. at least he isn't controlling the motor today-- that will take some of the stress off of him. but i know he will be grumpy for it anyhow.
he does have fifteen hundred bucks on the line today though. the two of them are fishin for a three thousand dollar pot--to split today. the next three or four tournaments i think are for this amount-- or bigger. but if they don't place in the top , i don't know -- maybe top 30 boats??? they get bumped out of the whole thing. so it's gettin tougher towards the end. i'm pretty sure this is the the third or fourth to the last of this series for them. i'm kinda glad too. it's only once a month... but it's gettin kind of expensive , with the entry fees, gas money- for his truck-and what he gives the other guy for his boat-, then he gets new tackle and baits almost every time, damn, it just adds up quick. i bet almost 200 a month he spends on these things. and they haven't won any cash at all. in what? 6 months maybe? yikes. time to win, wouldn;t ya say?
have you ever noticed how weird a dog looks after they've worn a collar for like a year, then don't have it for a day or two? they look almost nekkid. sushi somehow lost her collar the other day (in the house) she looked so weird-- it's back on now-- and now she looks like herself again.
it's pretty weird-- or maybe it's just me.
well.. enough outta me for one cloudy headed morning.
c-ya
have i mentioned that insomnia is really getting to me? i'm beginning to feel like that dude in the movie "clockwork orange" -- with the toothpicks holding his eyes open. -- nights are gettin really rough around here. which, in turn, kinda makes , well, life a little rough around here. too. and that my peeps... makes me --- a bitch. and a crybaby. actually, i may not be so much of either if well, lets just say if i could sleep. cuz i could handle the rest better i bet .. if i slept right. crap. i can't even talk right. (write right , i guess i should say). well, i don't talk right either sometimes. :))
for example, last night i was up til 2.. and woke up at like 4, then went back to sleep --- but then i got up at 5. it crap i say. then friday i woke up at 130.. yesterday it was like , hell i don't even remember-- 5ish i think. maybe.
i know i'm luckier than most who have this problem, at least most days like this i do have the opportunity for a nap. but i think some days that makes it worse. especially on days there are things i need or want to be doing something other than sleeping the day away.
well... is that enough cryin for one morning for you? it is for me. i hate to get on here and whine. but, i could go on if you'd like.?
i don't really know what to write about today. it seems anything that has has happened this passed several days is really nothing to blog about. no fish stories... the wind has been hell. i know i've mentioned that 100 times.
other than that... it seems everything else is just plans , with no action..
or crap that is pissin me off.
not sure if it's the bein pissed off that has me not sleepin, or the not sleepin that has me pissed off. all i know , is i'm pissed off.
usually, there are only two things that get me un-pissed off--- and that's fishin-- or a road trip.
and this being the beginning of the week.. sort of. a road trip is out of the question...
and seein as i can hear the wind whippin thru the chimney , and every crack in the house yet again.. i can tell that i won't be fishin yet again today...
it seems that it will be yet another grumpy-- spin crap around in my head- sleep half the day- kinda day.
of course i'll do what i can before i get too tired. not many chores to catch up on.. bills and stuff i can do right here on my ass.... how convenient eh. then it will be time to go pick up my child from her friends' house. and then viola-- nap time it shall be.
soulman however-- is fishing a tournament today. it's been scheduled for months, so the wind is no out for them. he just left for the lake a while ago. the only thing that is gonna make him happy today is either a HUGE fish (bass) --- or to win today. cuz the wind os horrible, and there really is not much worse on the lake than rough water and fishin in the wind for 8 hours. it's just tough. even i don't like it. but he gets downright pissed. at least he isn't controlling the motor today-- that will take some of the stress off of him. but i know he will be grumpy for it anyhow.
he does have fifteen hundred bucks on the line today though. the two of them are fishin for a three thousand dollar pot--to split today. the next three or four tournaments i think are for this amount-- or bigger. but if they don't place in the top , i don't know -- maybe top 30 boats??? they get bumped out of the whole thing. so it's gettin tougher towards the end. i'm pretty sure this is the the third or fourth to the last of this series for them. i'm kinda glad too. it's only once a month... but it's gettin kind of expensive , with the entry fees, gas money- for his truck-and what he gives the other guy for his boat-, then he gets new tackle and baits almost every time, damn, it just adds up quick. i bet almost 200 a month he spends on these things. and they haven't won any cash at all. in what? 6 months maybe? yikes. time to win, wouldn;t ya say?
have you ever noticed how weird a dog looks after they've worn a collar for like a year, then don't have it for a day or two? they look almost nekkid. sushi somehow lost her collar the other day (in the house) she looked so weird-- it's back on now-- and now she looks like herself again.
it's pretty weird-- or maybe it's just me.
well.. enough outta me for one cloudy headed morning.
c-ya
Saturday, June 7, 2008
more random shit about meeee (+ Diego Garcia Video)
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Name 3 things in your refrigerator:
defrosting pork butt, hot dogs, tomatoes -prolly salmonella -ridden, that i'm too lazy to throw out.
What's your current relationship status?
married, mother of one, sister to one, friend to few, bitch to many,
Ever have a near-death experience?
sort of-- but nothing real dramatic.
Name an obvious quality you have.
people like my eyes
What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
sweet child of mine-- by Guns N Roses (?)
Any celeb you would marry?
ehem... marriage is off the table -- if i ever become available again.
Who will cut and paste this first?
no idea... take it if ya want it.
Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
mainly, if anyone-- tatum oneill, and jodie foster
Do you wear a watch? What kind?
yep- timex, ironman ( yes a womens')
Do you have anything pierced?
just my ears-- but i hardly wear earrings-- even gold hurts em. i'm allergic to everything in my ears
Do you have any tattoos?
one on each outer ankle -- yes i regret them.. the're too big--and i'd just rather not have them. too late for that though
Do you like pain?
oh sure- doesn't everybody-- NOT--what kinda damn question is that!
Do you like to shop?
HELL NO i hate to shop.. i hate the people, the walking, the choosing, the pricing, the budgeting, the carrying, the paying, the EVERYTHING! i despise shopping. i even hate thinkin about it-- can ya tell? :))
What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
i think it was an iced tea at sonic
What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
hmmmmm.... i think that may have been the hotel in wichita when i met jamie there
Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
soulman
What is on your desktop background?
sushi, layin under the covers on my bed lookin at me .. she got herself in there, layin on her back like a little person. she's such a knucklehead. :))
What is the background on your cell phone?
soulkid kissin me on my cheek
Do you like redheads?
i don't not like them.. another stupid question.
Do you know any twins?
not personally-- i don't think.
Do you have any weird relatives?
OMG--- my entire family is weird-- including myself.
What was the last movie you watched?
it was called.... untraceable ... on dvd.. it was good -- but i didn't like the ending too much.
What was the last book you read?
the book that kelly Jene -- at "The MooHaa " wrote-- food for jackals !
Is there such a thing as love at first sight, or it is more likely to be "lust at first sight"?
i really think that depends on the type of person that YOU are. what attracts you. ya know.
What's your favorite book?
hinds feet on high places. by hannah hurnard
When was the last time you visited the street where you first lived?
i've never been back .
When was the last time you googled your own name?
don't remember, but i've done it a time or two.
What was/is your favorite subject at school?
i don't think i had one. maybe it was english, creative writing if anything.
What was is your least favorite subject at school?
had to be math-- cuz i do remember having trouble with it more than any other. history was rough too.. too much reading for me, and i never got good grades in history, cuz i never read.
Do you like having your photograph taken?
no way. you wouldn't think so, cuz of all the fish pics.. but i really don't-- but if you'll notice-- i just realized-- i can crop myself out of them.. yep-- i'm a little slow. :))
What time were you born?
no idea-- and i aint gettin up to find out right now.
Ever seriously questioned your sanity?
yup-- often.
How many phone numbers do you have remembered and can say off the top of your head?
not more than 2.
Can you limbo?
surely not.
Have you ever killed your own dinner?
FISH.
How long have you been living at your current residence?
6 months
What phobias do you have?
someone i love dying, fallin out of the boat and gettin cut up by the motor, people i don't know. (social-phob)
What's your ideal breakfast?
coffee n cigs
Where are you right now?
in my livin-room
Why do you blog?
cuz if i didn't, my head would explode ! :)) AND, because i love you :))
What would you call your autobiography?
that's a secret-- :)) -- not really. the name that i "think about" -- is-- "Partly Cloudy, Chance Of Showers" ... but, like the book, it's just a thought at this point.
What's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where?
1 year -- Diego Garcia
*wanna see it ? click below*
Diego Garcia from brezz on Vimeo.
* just for you MARY :))
Do you use ICQ, AIM, etc..?
no -- i use yahoo messenger tho
Do you have nightmares frequently?
yes i do actually.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
yep.
Which TV character could you be friends with?
carrie-- and doug (the soul and soulman of tv lol )
What's on your mouse pad?
nothing, i don't have one
What is your ring tone?
a ring, and vibration-- cuz i'm half deaf and can't hear anything else
What did you watch on TV last night?
dateline... i know it-- i'm just TOO damn exciting!
Scary movies or happy endings?
i don't care. i like em both, but scary movies these days kinda suck.
Name 3 things in your refrigerator:
defrosting pork butt, hot dogs, tomatoes -prolly salmonella -ridden, that i'm too lazy to throw out.
What's your current relationship status?
married, mother of one, sister to one, friend to few, bitch to many,
Ever have a near-death experience?
sort of-- but nothing real dramatic.
Name an obvious quality you have.
people like my eyes
What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
sweet child of mine-- by Guns N Roses (?)
Any celeb you would marry?
ehem... marriage is off the table -- if i ever become available again.
Who will cut and paste this first?
no idea... take it if ya want it.
Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
mainly, if anyone-- tatum oneill, and jodie foster
Do you wear a watch? What kind?
yep- timex, ironman ( yes a womens')
Do you have anything pierced?
just my ears-- but i hardly wear earrings-- even gold hurts em. i'm allergic to everything in my ears
Do you have any tattoos?
one on each outer ankle -- yes i regret them.. the're too big--and i'd just rather not have them. too late for that though
Do you like pain?
oh sure- doesn't everybody-- NOT--what kinda damn question is that!
Do you like to shop?
HELL NO i hate to shop.. i hate the people, the walking, the choosing, the pricing, the budgeting, the carrying, the paying, the EVERYTHING! i despise shopping. i even hate thinkin about it-- can ya tell? :))
What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
i think it was an iced tea at sonic
What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
hmmmmm.... i think that may have been the hotel in wichita when i met jamie there
Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
soulman
What is on your desktop background?
sushi, layin under the covers on my bed lookin at me .. she got herself in there, layin on her back like a little person. she's such a knucklehead. :))
What is the background on your cell phone?
soulkid kissin me on my cheek
Do you like redheads?
i don't not like them.. another stupid question.
Do you know any twins?
not personally-- i don't think.
Do you have any weird relatives?
OMG--- my entire family is weird-- including myself.
What was the last movie you watched?
it was called.... untraceable ... on dvd.. it was good -- but i didn't like the ending too much.
What was the last book you read?
the book that kelly Jene -- at "The MooHaa " wrote-- food for jackals !
Is there such a thing as love at first sight, or it is more likely to be "lust at first sight"?
i really think that depends on the type of person that YOU are. what attracts you. ya know.
What's your favorite book?
hinds feet on high places. by hannah hurnard
When was the last time you visited the street where you first lived?
i've never been back .
When was the last time you googled your own name?
don't remember, but i've done it a time or two.
What was/is your favorite subject at school?
i don't think i had one. maybe it was english, creative writing if anything.
What was is your least favorite subject at school?
had to be math-- cuz i do remember having trouble with it more than any other. history was rough too.. too much reading for me, and i never got good grades in history, cuz i never read.
Do you like having your photograph taken?
no way. you wouldn't think so, cuz of all the fish pics.. but i really don't-- but if you'll notice-- i just realized-- i can crop myself out of them.. yep-- i'm a little slow. :))
What time were you born?
no idea-- and i aint gettin up to find out right now.
Ever seriously questioned your sanity?
yup-- often.
How many phone numbers do you have remembered and can say off the top of your head?
not more than 2.
Can you limbo?
surely not.
Have you ever killed your own dinner?
FISH.
How long have you been living at your current residence?
6 months
What phobias do you have?
someone i love dying, fallin out of the boat and gettin cut up by the motor, people i don't know. (social-phob)
What's your ideal breakfast?
coffee n cigs
Where are you right now?
in my livin-room
Why do you blog?
cuz if i didn't, my head would explode ! :)) AND, because i love you :))
What would you call your autobiography?
that's a secret-- :)) -- not really. the name that i "think about" -- is-- "Partly Cloudy, Chance Of Showers" ... but, like the book, it's just a thought at this point.
What's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where?
1 year -- Diego Garcia
*wanna see it ? click below*
Diego Garcia from brezz on Vimeo.
* just for you MARY :))
Do you use ICQ, AIM, etc..?
no -- i use yahoo messenger tho
Do you have nightmares frequently?
yes i do actually.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
yep.
Which TV character could you be friends with?
carrie-- and doug (the soul and soulman of tv lol )
What's on your mouse pad?
nothing, i don't have one
What is your ring tone?
a ring, and vibration-- cuz i'm half deaf and can't hear anything else
What did you watch on TV last night?
dateline... i know it-- i'm just TOO damn exciting!
Scary movies or happy endings?
i don't care. i like em both, but scary movies these days kinda suck.
Friday, June 6, 2008
extra extra read all about it
check this out
hahaha i'm famous lol not really but i got my fifteen minutes (CNN.COM)
i just checked my site meter-- i do that once in a while to see who came, and how they got here. sometimes it's funny to see what people google to end up here. once it soul maggots-- ugh. i wondered how sick a person must be to even think of that one. today i had "mammasoul" ... but--- someone had come from a direct link from cnn.com .. i was like "huh"??? how--why? me?? so of course i had to go see what was up. i clicked the link... and well ... there i was.. under the headline ---
"From The Blogs: Controversy, Commentary, and Debate"
and my blog was first :)) ---- of three there... the second i never heard of, and the third was "bitchypoo" smocha reads her blog all the time, but i don't hardly ever. but it's a very popular blog.
i have NO idea how i ended up listed there-- or if i have been listed there before--or if i am always there-- no idea of anything about that--- but it is very strange to find your blog on such a site as friggin CNN---- carazay i say. y'all oughtta check it out and see if you ever end up there-- i know i will be. i bet you do. did any of you know they did that? i never go there so i didn't. i never noticed anyone find my page from there before-but it has been a while since i've looked at my site meter for where people came from.
anyhow-- i just found that interesting, and thought i'd lighten the mood here a bit-- so there ya have it. my name on cnn... and not for anything illegal.. LOL
hahaha i'm famous lol not really but i got my fifteen minutes (CNN.COM)
i just checked my site meter-- i do that once in a while to see who came, and how they got here. sometimes it's funny to see what people google to end up here. once it soul maggots-- ugh. i wondered how sick a person must be to even think of that one. today i had "mammasoul" ... but--- someone had come from a direct link from cnn.com .. i was like "huh"??? how--why? me?? so of course i had to go see what was up. i clicked the link... and well ... there i was.. under the headline ---
"From The Blogs: Controversy, Commentary, and Debate"
and my blog was first :)) ---- of three there... the second i never heard of, and the third was "bitchypoo" smocha reads her blog all the time, but i don't hardly ever. but it's a very popular blog.
i have NO idea how i ended up listed there-- or if i have been listed there before--or if i am always there-- no idea of anything about that--- but it is very strange to find your blog on such a site as friggin CNN---- carazay i say. y'all oughtta check it out and see if you ever end up there-- i know i will be. i bet you do. did any of you know they did that? i never go there so i didn't. i never noticed anyone find my page from there before-but it has been a while since i've looked at my site meter for where people came from.
anyhow-- i just found that interesting, and thought i'd lighten the mood here a bit-- so there ya have it. my name on cnn... and not for anything illegal.. LOL
i cannot shut up again-- (yesterdays post reply moved here-)
yep-- i'm just about THIS clear headed today
what do you expect when i wake up at 1:30 a.m.?
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what do you expect when i wake up at 1:30 a.m.?
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re-reading this (yesterdays post)-- maybe i sounded a bit harsh-- but as you can see-- i have been without-- and a lot more than the couple times i mentioned.
really, it just surprises me, that when people need something..and especially to the point of asking for it-- to me it makes me believe that they really need it- and are humbled enough to be asking for help. or so one would think. ya know?
i'm sure many of you know already that i enjoy helping people-- or simply giving or doing for people.
it doesn't have to be a lot-- or even materialistic. but if someone needs something..whether they ask or not-- if i think they need something-- i'll offer it up. most of the time.
maybe i do take this kind of thing a bit too personally sometimes though.. perhaps because i have been so---- SO... without, at times. i think people-- well, a lot of people these days have "high bottoms" sometimes. and they do expect a lot sometimes. many think they need handouts while they still have a nice car, a job, a house, the internet, their jewelry, etc. who knows.
when it has been me-- young , or "old"- and my family. we're talkin , government commodities (back in the day), church food donations, jewelry- or anything else worth a crap sitting in - or lost at pawn shops, food stamps, little to no furniture, dish washing liquid bein used for shampoo and laundry soap as well as dishes. (if not laundry soap! used for these things)- and i'll tell ya the final hair results leavin a person..yup- me- in tears-- real tears. and the rare bottle of actual shampoo brings tears of JOY.
we have pushed freakin grocery carts half a mile -- carless -to freakin laundry mats with eight loads of laundry -once a week. if not longer, and more.... for the hell of laundry day.
any of us who smoked-- we smoked roll your own! ("Bugler"- canned loose leaf tobacco-- mine were no less than laughable--or cryable, i should say. i wasn't a pot smoker-- so that should tell you how well i could roll a cig-- i couldn't roll a joint-- sooo figure the odds ! goo-lawd. it was a train wreck-- but i managed... or had my bro in law --- at the time , roll em for me. he was good at it :))
a ready made generic cigarette,-- yes one, or two, -- on occasion-- was a damn luxury! freakin toilet paper or real shampoo-- or a damn CLEAN, DRY , UNUSED by someone else in the house - towel was like a hundred bucks to me. pure heaven. if i could just get that FIRST use out of it, i was happy-- for a day. that time in my life left me with a lifelong used towel phobia! i hate it. i refuse!
some of y'all know where i'm comin from.. and some of y'all just can't fathom a family of the "age i grew up in" bein that bad off. but it happened. but also-- some of you lived it too.
it was really strange way to grow up. actually to live my life --- until the age of about -- well... i'd guess... 39 or 40-- yep, that's like this last year or two--a few of you watched it all happen :))
it was always feast or famine. either we had-- or we had NOT. i think it makes for a kinda "irresponsible-- responsible ", messed up in the financial department kinda person. if ya know what i mean. :))
but anyhow... it also makes for a person who never wants to see anybody do without. and that is why i would do anything i can for anyone... i've given stuff away that made people think i was insane because i didn't sell it. and i would do it again. and again.
people have really gone out of their way to help me when i was down. i've had people "over-help" me at times. even strangers. people that i've never seen again.
maybe some of these things are why i expect people who claim to be in need-- to be more appreciative of what is offered to them. i don't know. because it just seems to me that some aren't .
maybe i'll never explain my position on this the way that i mean to. at least not in the way that i want it to be understood the way that i want it to be. without sounding that i look down upon people who need things or ask for things. like when i used the word beggin..or whatever. i didn't mean that to sound bad in anyway-- or especially harsh. it's just my terminology. y'all know i'm a bit uncouth at times. in no way was that meant to be disrespectful.
i don't feel above any one of them.. it could be me.. at any time-- it has been me... many times. and i know i am not immune for it to be me again someday-- i pray that it won't be.. but ya just never know. do ya?
the only difference is -- i was there before the signs got popular. i bet i coulda came up with a "good" one. :))
anyhow- like blur said-- in a way--
-- from these times in my life---- spawned my child--- who gets just about everything she asks for -- because i had nothin, for so much of my life. i had and lost so much , so often,l that IF i can give it to her-- it's hers--
i've gotten a ton better these passed few months (maybe even years really) about the "free money, and "stuff", and the never ending flow of cash. and there are now limitations... and she is learning to appreciate and respect things more. that's progress. but it took a long time to get her there. it took a long time to get me there too.
it also took a lot of advice-- wanted-- or not-- from y'all to get me there. and changes, and growth have come from it--
ya know, she was a lot younger when our family had our hardest times, and even then, she came first--and didn't notice--or doesn't remember.
that's the way i think like it. i don't want her to look back on her life and remember "being poor". ya know. i want her to remember "being taken care of", and having a good life".
a few hard times are always good to see your family pull through-- and she saw that a couple years ago in new mexico. she knows that was tough all the way around. it was one year of our lives.. a year that she knows we put her first-- through everything. bad health on my part, little money, high stress, crappy house. all kinds of crap. she saw us pull together as a family and work for each other and especially her-- (in a non materialistic way.) -- and move forward for HER a better life... and we got that for her. if she hasn't learned from any other family experience.. that one was the biggest anyhow-- i think. it took her a while to put it all together, but she does see now, what it all is in the big picture. that's huge. and i do think it changed her views on the strength of family-- and not just ours-- but others too, and even her future family. and i didn't even know that -- until yesterday! (that's a whole nuther post-- but i'll prolly never put it up-- cuz too much can't be said, and smocha will scold me for makin her think :))
(but my girl and i had a quite intense three hour heart to heart yesterday-- a lot was revealed... and i must say--- i have an awesome kid. she scares the shit outta me--- but at the same time-- she is mature, and insightful-- and even though she is stubborn and full of attitude-- she's simply brilliant. if i do say so myself.
(you thinkin yet smocha? :))
anyhow--- my ADD-- is alive and well. i'm beginning to think i need medication. i swear my mind never stops. never. perhaps that is why i woke up at 130 a.m for no damn reason?
now--- since i have literally BLOGGED a reply in my box-- i do believe that i will now move it to the other side, and call it my post o' the day---
happy--- holy crap -- it's FRIDAY!!!! woo hoo !!!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
i have a rant today -- care to listen?
hi peeps---
sorry about not posting yesterday. i was a bit hungover from a rough night sleep after a muscle relaxer from hell-- again. i went to bed real late, and ended up waking up every half hour it seems, and still woke up around 4. ish. it sucked. as some of you know. so it ended up with me getting up, doing a few things that needed done, and falling back to sleep from like 9- almost noon . ugh. that kinda ruined my day, leaving me lazy, and in my jammies the rest of the entire day.
i did manage to clean my kitchen and wash my dishes-- and motivate the child to do her chores, but that was about it. i barely even touched my computer. i was a true slug.
today i must register soulkid for summer school, and run my errands, and a bunch of other stuff i've been puttin off. which , as long as i manage to make myself presentable, and motivated, shouldn't be a problem. i'm sure fishing won't interfere-- seein as the wind is blowin about 50 miles an hour right now-- same as yesterday. no idea what that's about. i really hate the wind. seems it's been windy for months. with little breaks here. now they're talkin rain.. i just didn't hear when. all i gotta say about that, is if it rains, i hope it's a good one, cuz i have also been puttin off washin my car.. for weeks. maybe it's the cheap ass generic coffee i been drinkin this last few weeks? since it went back up to nine bucks a can-- i went back to the 6 dollar shit. i think that's just the crap they sweep off the floor--- and it shows. maybe it's time for an experiment. or NO-DOZE. hmmm.
ok, back to my rant. see what i mean about havin ADD? or senile?. i can't stay focussed for nuthin. maybe that's why i never accomplish anything too. ritalin.. take me awaaaay. :))
anyhow--
here we go-- this isn't the first time something like this has happened. but it has happened with positive results .. but more often than not-- it turns out like this:
i was skimmin through craigslist.com yesterday. i'm sort of window shoppin for a kitchen island, or something similar to use in my kitchen.. for extra counter space/storage in my kitchen. and also i decided to check out the wanted section .. cuz i have a bunch of stuff that i really need to get rid of-- that i do plan on selling at a yard sale-- but i cannot seem to bring myself to get to sorting that stuff-- every time i think i'm getting to the point of having time or energy to do that-- something else comes up. so i go to the want ads to see if anyone needs any of the bigger stuff that i have that is taking up most of my space in my garage etc.
well... i come across an ad... it's a single dad, he
"just moved here with his son; they have no furniture, beds, dishes, nothin. anything free or cheap would be appreciated. "
well, woo hoo, for me.. i could get rid of this stuff, not have to store it anymore, worry about selling it, hauling it off, or even sellin it --- plus i could help someone. right?
so , i email the guy. i tell him, i have a NEW hide a bed couch, a recliner, and a twin bed. (none is in perfect condition... but hell it's free. right?) the couch is brand new , never sat on or slept on.. brand NEW-- it has back cushions built in, just no seat cushions--- if nothin else it's a BED-- and if ya wanted you could use just about anything temporarily for the seat cushions-- if you had half a brain... it beats sittin -- or sleepin on the floor ! and it's a clean new matress. where are ya gonna get that fro free??? -- the recliner? also a good sturdy chair-- only thing wrong with it-- the cats scracthed it-- not through the material.. but it kinda scraggely. who cares-- it's a friggin recliner-- no stains, and its sturdy.. for free? beats the floor, i say. and a twin bed with a wood frame. nothin at all wrong with that.
did he write back? noop.
well ya know what? i just don't know what people expect these days. i really don't. i have been without a stitch of furniture before, and i woulda taken anything. i lived in a house in oregon by myself-- i had a maybe ten inch tv.. that was IT. no bed, no chair, no couch, nothin. i hated it. i did have a built in little breakfast table thing, and that was all i had to sit on. i slept on the floor, i watched tv on the floor. and it was friggin cold. i couldn't imagine thinkin i was above anything at that time. i woulda taken anything anyone offered me. the only thing anyone offered was my mom, when she came and offered to take me away from there... and the only reason i went was cuz i couldnt stand sleepin on the floor anymore. well, and workin outside stacking lumber all day in the cold. life didnt get much better, but i got a bed-- a roll away bed, in colorado-- that was much like a hot dog bun when i laid in it LOL.
hell... for a while when i was a teenager-- i slept on a baby crib mattress ! in a motel room !
and yep , there were many times we lived places that we didn't have enough chairs for everyone to have a seat-- would a free recliner with some cat scratches bother us? hell no-- bring it on.
a free twin bed? beats the hell out of a crib mattress on the floor!
but anyhow--- what i'm gettin at is this--- have any of you ever literally been without anything. a truly empty house-- and turned your nose up at something that would help you? especially if you asked for it???? what do people expect? designer furniture to be given to them? it just urks me to no end.
we have even offered stuff to people , decent stuff, then they come to look at it, and turn their nose up at it. wth??
it makes me wonder if it's a scam. ya know. just a ploy to get stuff to maybe resell or somethin. maybe they don't really need anything, they just want "donations" for a yard sale or somethin.
kinda like when ya give someone with a beggin sign on the street food instead of cash, and they say they don't want it-- you have to wonder-- if they really are homeless or hungry-- or is it a scam.. do they have a Cadillac parked around the corner.
i guess i'll stick to donating to goodwill.. or havin yardsales... or simply just makin dump runs. and that's sad. cuz i'm sure there are people out there who would appreciate things-- i just suppose those people don't have computers and internet to beg with.
ERG!
happy thursday
sorry about not posting yesterday. i was a bit hungover from a rough night sleep after a muscle relaxer from hell-- again. i went to bed real late, and ended up waking up every half hour it seems, and still woke up around 4. ish. it sucked. as some of you know. so it ended up with me getting up, doing a few things that needed done, and falling back to sleep from like 9- almost noon . ugh. that kinda ruined my day, leaving me lazy, and in my jammies the rest of the entire day.
i did manage to clean my kitchen and wash my dishes-- and motivate the child to do her chores, but that was about it. i barely even touched my computer. i was a true slug.
today i must register soulkid for summer school, and run my errands, and a bunch of other stuff i've been puttin off. which , as long as i manage to make myself presentable, and motivated, shouldn't be a problem. i'm sure fishing won't interfere-- seein as the wind is blowin about 50 miles an hour right now-- same as yesterday. no idea what that's about. i really hate the wind. seems it's been windy for months. with little breaks here. now they're talkin rain.. i just didn't hear when. all i gotta say about that, is if it rains, i hope it's a good one, cuz i have also been puttin off washin my car.. for weeks. maybe it's the cheap ass generic coffee i been drinkin this last few weeks? since it went back up to nine bucks a can-- i went back to the 6 dollar shit. i think that's just the crap they sweep off the floor--- and it shows. maybe it's time for an experiment. or NO-DOZE. hmmm.
ok, back to my rant. see what i mean about havin ADD? or senile?. i can't stay focussed for nuthin. maybe that's why i never accomplish anything too. ritalin.. take me awaaaay. :))
anyhow--
here we go-- this isn't the first time something like this has happened. but it has happened with positive results .. but more often than not-- it turns out like this:
i was skimmin through craigslist.com yesterday. i'm sort of window shoppin for a kitchen island, or something similar to use in my kitchen.. for extra counter space/storage in my kitchen. and also i decided to check out the wanted section .. cuz i have a bunch of stuff that i really need to get rid of-- that i do plan on selling at a yard sale-- but i cannot seem to bring myself to get to sorting that stuff-- every time i think i'm getting to the point of having time or energy to do that-- something else comes up. so i go to the want ads to see if anyone needs any of the bigger stuff that i have that is taking up most of my space in my garage etc.
well... i come across an ad... it's a single dad, he
"just moved here with his son; they have no furniture, beds, dishes, nothin. anything free or cheap would be appreciated. "
well, woo hoo, for me.. i could get rid of this stuff, not have to store it anymore, worry about selling it, hauling it off, or even sellin it --- plus i could help someone. right?
so , i email the guy. i tell him, i have a NEW hide a bed couch, a recliner, and a twin bed. (none is in perfect condition... but hell it's free. right?) the couch is brand new , never sat on or slept on.. brand NEW-- it has back cushions built in, just no seat cushions--- if nothin else it's a BED-- and if ya wanted you could use just about anything temporarily for the seat cushions-- if you had half a brain... it beats sittin -- or sleepin on the floor ! and it's a clean new matress. where are ya gonna get that fro free??? -- the recliner? also a good sturdy chair-- only thing wrong with it-- the cats scracthed it-- not through the material.. but it kinda scraggely. who cares-- it's a friggin recliner-- no stains, and its sturdy.. for free? beats the floor, i say. and a twin bed with a wood frame. nothin at all wrong with that.
did he write back? noop.
well ya know what? i just don't know what people expect these days. i really don't. i have been without a stitch of furniture before, and i woulda taken anything. i lived in a house in oregon by myself-- i had a maybe ten inch tv.. that was IT. no bed, no chair, no couch, nothin. i hated it. i did have a built in little breakfast table thing, and that was all i had to sit on. i slept on the floor, i watched tv on the floor. and it was friggin cold. i couldn't imagine thinkin i was above anything at that time. i woulda taken anything anyone offered me. the only thing anyone offered was my mom, when she came and offered to take me away from there... and the only reason i went was cuz i couldnt stand sleepin on the floor anymore. well, and workin outside stacking lumber all day in the cold. life didnt get much better, but i got a bed-- a roll away bed, in colorado-- that was much like a hot dog bun when i laid in it LOL.
hell... for a while when i was a teenager-- i slept on a baby crib mattress ! in a motel room !
and yep , there were many times we lived places that we didn't have enough chairs for everyone to have a seat-- would a free recliner with some cat scratches bother us? hell no-- bring it on.
a free twin bed? beats the hell out of a crib mattress on the floor!
but anyhow--- what i'm gettin at is this--- have any of you ever literally been without anything. a truly empty house-- and turned your nose up at something that would help you? especially if you asked for it???? what do people expect? designer furniture to be given to them? it just urks me to no end.
we have even offered stuff to people , decent stuff, then they come to look at it, and turn their nose up at it. wth??
it makes me wonder if it's a scam. ya know. just a ploy to get stuff to maybe resell or somethin. maybe they don't really need anything, they just want "donations" for a yard sale or somethin.
kinda like when ya give someone with a beggin sign on the street food instead of cash, and they say they don't want it-- you have to wonder-- if they really are homeless or hungry-- or is it a scam.. do they have a Cadillac parked around the corner.
i guess i'll stick to donating to goodwill.. or havin yardsales... or simply just makin dump runs. and that's sad. cuz i'm sure there are people out there who would appreciate things-- i just suppose those people don't have computers and internet to beg with.
ERG!
happy thursday
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
tuesday PS.
howdy folks..
what'd y'all do today???
i did some of my favorite things..
first i had to do my business stuff-- which isn't included in the favorites-- but i did get 20 bucks back for a school library book i paid for that soulkid found.. woo hoo for that.
next, i went fishin--- i didn't stay long, maybe an hour or so-- but here is the catch o' the day --
then i came home and
ate like the hawg that i am.
and then i lazed in front of the tv...
until i fell asleep--
then i napped..
then, well...
not much--
today was the last day of school here --
well.. til next week :))
then it's summer school for mine,
one class again.
sucks to be her i reckon.
this time i don't have to drive cuz it's right across the street !
woo hoo-
welp... now i must cook dinnah --
hope y'all had good days---
what'd y'all do today???
i did some of my favorite things..
first i had to do my business stuff-- which isn't included in the favorites-- but i did get 20 bucks back for a school library book i paid for that soulkid found.. woo hoo for that.
next, i went fishin--- i didn't stay long, maybe an hour or so-- but here is the catch o' the day --
then i came home and
ate like the hawg that i am.
and then i lazed in front of the tv...
until i fell asleep--
then i napped..
then, well...
not much--
today was the last day of school here --
well.. til next week :))
then it's summer school for mine,
one class again.
sucks to be her i reckon.
this time i don't have to drive cuz it's right across the street !
woo hoo-
welp... now i must cook dinnah --
hope y'all had good days---
boring boring boring
this is my brain
this is my brain on blogger
if i'm lucky
i'll have something to say later on today---
until then :
i'll be baaaack --
if i'm lucky
i'll have something to say later on today---
until then :
i'll be baaaack --Monday, June 2, 2008
monday - again - yippee
does monday ever feel like anything besides one more day slipped in there to make people grumpy? i seem to feel like a bitch on monday morning, and i don't even have a job! i mean , sure, i have things to do. hubby and daughter are tough to get movin on mondays. their tired from doin more than usual on the weekend, stayin up late, etc. but for me-- monday shouldn't be a whole lot different. but it always seems that it is. of course-- things are different i spose. like i said, the atmosphere is different with them. of course, there is , more often than not a much bigger mess around the house than usual on a monday morning than most other mornings. you know, things like that. and i also have usually had less sleep over the weekend. less than them even.. because even thought we all may stay up til 12 or 1-- they may sleep til 9, 10, 11... the latest i ever make it might be 6-- but on the norm, it's between 3 and 5 regardless of what time i go to sleep , on any given night. -- i did , however make it from about 1230-6 last night-- which was like a miracle for me. woo hoo. i hope i have the energy i need today to get my shopping and crap done today.
most of yesterday was spent cleaning my house, and working on my stupid laptop. i spent hours on that damn thing, and every time i'd think i had it fixed... the stupid corrupt files thing would start poppin up again. i googled stuff, read my manual, did stuff that said to do, i did everything i could think, guess, or even just assume i should do with it. apparently NONE was the cure.
i got sooo mad. i eventually did take all my photos, files and anything i was afraid to lose if it crashed off and put it onto discs. i had no clue what was goin on with the damn thing.
hubby had finally offered to try to fix it.
right at the point that i gave up on it-- at like maybe 9 pm. i was soo done. i coulda thrown it at the wall. i was soo mad at it. well, by the time he gets it-- he starts askin my- why is your firewall turned off?
hell if i know. all kindsa stuff was off-- or not there.. or not runnin.. well who knew?
ya know-- all this stupid corrupt file, and crap started when my bookmarks and toolbars got dumped that night-- mysteriously. i guess i somehow picked up some kinda virus that night-- that did all this weird stuff. and it just kept gettin worse. even my yahoo messenger got "corrupt" and quit workin, a day or two ago. the downloaded one. i'd dump it-- re download it-- ugh. then it would be corrupt again.
anyhow-- it took like four hours for hubby to do whatever he did last night. on top of the hours i spent on it... but so far this morning-- i THINK it is fixed. i sure hope so. i hate computer bs problems.
especially when it messes with my routine. whaddabunchacrap !
now i need to go try to download yahoo messenger again.. if it does that corrupt file crap again... i am gonna just scream.
as for yesterday-- i did not go fishin-- i actually cleaned my house-- most of it.
today i have to grocery shop and catch up on errands.
if i finish that-- i should be able to fish a bit tomorrow.
tomorrow is the last day of school here--- my child has passed all her major statewide tests -- and i haven't heard a word about summer summer school. i'm not doin the happy dance just yet-- cuz she does have a couple low grades-- but i sure am hoping that no news is GOOD news and that she won't have to go to summer school !!! that's one thing on my list today-- to find out for sure. how cool will that be if she skates outta that !!!!
welp-- i bettah get goin..
boring post i know-- sorry.
i'll be around latah--
most of yesterday was spent cleaning my house, and working on my stupid laptop. i spent hours on that damn thing, and every time i'd think i had it fixed... the stupid corrupt files thing would start poppin up again. i googled stuff, read my manual, did stuff that said to do, i did everything i could think, guess, or even just assume i should do with it. apparently NONE was the cure.
i got sooo mad. i eventually did take all my photos, files and anything i was afraid to lose if it crashed off and put it onto discs. i had no clue what was goin on with the damn thing.
hubby had finally offered to try to fix it.
right at the point that i gave up on it-- at like maybe 9 pm. i was soo done. i coulda thrown it at the wall. i was soo mad at it. well, by the time he gets it-- he starts askin my- why is your firewall turned off?
hell if i know. all kindsa stuff was off-- or not there.. or not runnin.. well who knew?
ya know-- all this stupid corrupt file, and crap started when my bookmarks and toolbars got dumped that night-- mysteriously. i guess i somehow picked up some kinda virus that night-- that did all this weird stuff. and it just kept gettin worse. even my yahoo messenger got "corrupt" and quit workin, a day or two ago. the downloaded one. i'd dump it-- re download it-- ugh. then it would be corrupt again.
anyhow-- it took like four hours for hubby to do whatever he did last night. on top of the hours i spent on it... but so far this morning-- i THINK it is fixed. i sure hope so. i hate computer bs problems.
especially when it messes with my routine. whaddabunchacrap !
now i need to go try to download yahoo messenger again.. if it does that corrupt file crap again... i am gonna just scream.
as for yesterday-- i did not go fishin-- i actually cleaned my house-- most of it.
today i have to grocery shop and catch up on errands.
if i finish that-- i should be able to fish a bit tomorrow.
tomorrow is the last day of school here--- my child has passed all her major statewide tests -- and i haven't heard a word about summer summer school. i'm not doin the happy dance just yet-- cuz she does have a couple low grades-- but i sure am hoping that no news is GOOD news and that she won't have to go to summer school !!! that's one thing on my list today-- to find out for sure. how cool will that be if she skates outta that !!!!
welp-- i bettah get goin..
boring post i know-- sorry.
i'll be around latah--
Saturday, May 31, 2008
anybody got a crane i could borrow ?
i cannot move today. i think i have waaay overdone it this passed week or two, and i must stop. my body is screaming at me over my stupidity , and has been since last night . ooooh. where is that truck that hit me??
ok.. as for the tournament ??? it didn't go so well for us . some people did pretty good, but not many. but the biggest sack was almost ten pounds, and the big bass was almost five pounds.. (that was the same guy) we didn't stick around for the results of who got paid-- but i imagine that guy got first. anyhow-- we weighed a bag of 2 fish lol -- both caught by soulman.. one barely measured legal.. just over 14 inches. and the second was a small spot. our total weight was just shy of 2 pounds. we only weighed just for fun, we knew we didn't have a chance.
right after we weighed our fish we left. we had never been so ready to leave a tournament. usually it's one or the other-- and usually it's him.. last night it was both of us, and for once , i think i was ready to leave before he was. my back locked up on me before we were into the second hour. once that happened, it was pretty much over for me. i tried to sit down and fish.. and that's a huge pain the ass. plus it was windy again, so we were both gettin hang up after hang up-- which is also a huge pain in the ass. usually we try to get out of em, and save the tackle.. we were so --- whatever-- not into it i guess, we got to the point that we would just break our line off or cut it, rather than fight with it. strange night.
as for me, i caught 2, maybe three fish-- too small to weigh-- i guess it was two-- one itty bitty bass..and a perch. the bass made us laugh. ignore the hair-- but here he is:
so anyhow-- yep... i really must take a break from fishin. it is gonna be very hard for me to do that. i woke up this morning in more pain than i have been in in a while. everywhere. and so tired too. i just can't be this physical, every damn day. it's wearin on me.
brad mentioned that it was a good thing i aint gamblin..... how true that is. my mom was into gambling-- i think that's the only reason i'm careful about that. i do have fun when i gamble , but boy-- it scares me. seriously. i could get addicted to just about anything. but i watched my mom do some really crazy shit in order to gamble... and i watched her suffer for it too. so i suppose fishin is a lot safer -- at least for my family. i'm payin for it now tho. i may end up havin hubby take my fishin stuff to storage for a week or two tho LOL.. at least until my body can get some rest. talk about intervention lol.
soooo.... ya... even tho he was tired, and i was in pain, we had fun, but it was a tough one for both of us. if we were smart we woulda just packed it up and left early-- but of course there was money on the line. we paid to fish, and sometimes when the fish aren't bitin, even one fish could win it all.. ya just never know . so we stayed. i think we may take a break for a while tho. but-- we will see about that.
i know for now-- i need to slow down for a while. lest i collapse. or cry.
AC this means it's YOUR turn for me to fish thru YOU-- get out there !!!
thanks for the good luck wishes everybody-- sometimes it just aint our turn.
but hey-- some of the guys out there are startin to get used to me.. a couple even were nice to me :))
see you folks later-- my computer is loaded with viruses or somethin and i have to figure out how to fix it... "corrupt files".. anyone know??? i have windows vista.. HELP ???
happy satahday
ok.. as for the tournament ??? it didn't go so well for us . some people did pretty good, but not many. but the biggest sack was almost ten pounds, and the big bass was almost five pounds.. (that was the same guy) we didn't stick around for the results of who got paid-- but i imagine that guy got first. anyhow-- we weighed a bag of 2 fish lol -- both caught by soulman.. one barely measured legal.. just over 14 inches. and the second was a small spot. our total weight was just shy of 2 pounds. we only weighed just for fun, we knew we didn't have a chance.
right after we weighed our fish we left. we had never been so ready to leave a tournament. usually it's one or the other-- and usually it's him.. last night it was both of us, and for once , i think i was ready to leave before he was. my back locked up on me before we were into the second hour. once that happened, it was pretty much over for me. i tried to sit down and fish.. and that's a huge pain the ass. plus it was windy again, so we were both gettin hang up after hang up-- which is also a huge pain in the ass. usually we try to get out of em, and save the tackle.. we were so --- whatever-- not into it i guess, we got to the point that we would just break our line off or cut it, rather than fight with it. strange night.
as for me, i caught 2, maybe three fish-- too small to weigh-- i guess it was two-- one itty bitty bass..and a perch. the bass made us laugh. ignore the hair-- but here he is:
so anyhow-- yep... i really must take a break from fishin. it is gonna be very hard for me to do that. i woke up this morning in more pain than i have been in in a while. everywhere. and so tired too. i just can't be this physical, every damn day. it's wearin on me.
brad mentioned that it was a good thing i aint gamblin..... how true that is. my mom was into gambling-- i think that's the only reason i'm careful about that. i do have fun when i gamble , but boy-- it scares me. seriously. i could get addicted to just about anything. but i watched my mom do some really crazy shit in order to gamble... and i watched her suffer for it too. so i suppose fishin is a lot safer -- at least for my family. i'm payin for it now tho. i may end up havin hubby take my fishin stuff to storage for a week or two tho LOL.. at least until my body can get some rest. talk about intervention lol.
soooo.... ya... even tho he was tired, and i was in pain, we had fun, but it was a tough one for both of us. if we were smart we woulda just packed it up and left early-- but of course there was money on the line. we paid to fish, and sometimes when the fish aren't bitin, even one fish could win it all.. ya just never know . so we stayed. i think we may take a break for a while tho. but-- we will see about that.
i know for now-- i need to slow down for a while. lest i collapse. or cry.
AC this means it's YOUR turn for me to fish thru YOU-- get out there !!!
thanks for the good luck wishes everybody-- sometimes it just aint our turn.
but hey-- some of the guys out there are startin to get used to me.. a couple even were nice to me :))
see you folks later-- my computer is loaded with viruses or somethin and i have to figure out how to fix it... "corrupt files".. anyone know??? i have windows vista.. HELP ???
happy satahday
Friday, May 30, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
back to the ole grind--
howdy folks--
happy tuesday to ya--
which is sort of a monday for most.
i don't have a whole lot to say right now-- or a whole lot of time to say it anyhow.
i got to a few pages this mornin, and did get a chance to reply to comments here... but that's about as far as i'm gonna get for now. so-- my last two posts-- are fully updated ! woo hoo-- so if you commented here on either of them.. i talked to y'all in my boxes. see? i'm tryin to get back on track. let's see if i don't derail again.
so anyhow-- i have a lot to do today-- but when i'm done--prolly late this afternoon, i shall get back to my cruisin etc. -- and talk in YOUR boxes- :)) -- and hopefully mine too
but, before i get to my business of the day-- let's see what i have to say here real quick.
well, really not much-- that or i just can't think right now, for the ever growing mental list in my head at the moment.
soulkid had quite the emotional day yesterday, which in turn made it real hard for me to process much in my own. i can't-- or won't blog it. it really isn't my stuff to put here for all to see ya know. it is her stuff-- or at least that of her "world".. if that makes sense. but it was hard for all of us. especially her. and for us as parents.... ?? --- it is something that happens-- that can paralyze a parent-- and make you only thank God that it wasn't any worse-- for anyone involved.
i'm sorry that is so cryptic.. i won't go any further with it-- because it will only confuse you.
hell i'm confused. i don't know everything that happened.. but i know enough to be upset, worried, and grateful. for more than just my own kid.
ok .. i better move away from that topic....
ummmm....
i broke down last night, and cleaned out all the rod lockers and storage boxes on the boat .. i couldn't stand the thought of one more tournament like the last. i couldn't believe the amount of trash , extra life jackets, and just misc STUFF that just was NOT needed on that boat. i mean a - i don't know maybe a fifty ft extension cord? WTH? talk about bein in the way! there was like twenty , two year old full water bottles..not to mention as many empty ones... it was just awful. but it is very nice now-- and everything will be easy to get to now. anything not required on that thing-- is gone now! a trip to the carwash-- and a nice new carpet-- would be terrific.. but i know the carpet will have to wait-- the carwash can happen tho-- :))
i hope that soulman learned from the last tourney also-- NOT to put his ginormous tackle bag in the pathway during a night tourney-- at least without letting me know it's there... good lord -- i coulda broke a leg on that thing! that hurt ! lol.. i'm sure it woulda been funny if he actually saw it tho-- :)) but all he knew was he heard a big crash.. and a LOT of cussing ! :))
i don't think we will be fishin the next one.. he has to work on saturday-- and we usually dont get home til 1130 or 12 on those nights-- but i'lll let ya know if he feels energetic.
you know-- we have fished three tourneys together now-- and 2 out of three we won money. that's pretty good odds. what a team eh? makes it hard to pass up. plus it's fun!
welp-- i spose i should go-- soulkid is up-- and she is quite the crabapple. i am trying to be nuthing but supportive to her through "this".. and she wants to be all grouchy to ME about it.....
i guess we all get that way sometimes when bad things happen in our worlds and we dont want to talk about it-- but geesh. it just makes me wanna be somewhere else when i get talked to in one word blunt responses.
how bout you?
maybe i'll go fishin before i start my day :))
sure was fun yesterday!!
i'm so irrisponsible...
i swear it's an addiction!!!!
happy tuesday to ya--
which is sort of a monday for most.
i don't have a whole lot to say right now-- or a whole lot of time to say it anyhow.
i got to a few pages this mornin, and did get a chance to reply to comments here... but that's about as far as i'm gonna get for now. so-- my last two posts-- are fully updated ! woo hoo-- so if you commented here on either of them.. i talked to y'all in my boxes. see? i'm tryin to get back on track. let's see if i don't derail again.
so anyhow-- i have a lot to do today-- but when i'm done--prolly late this afternoon, i shall get back to my cruisin etc. -- and talk in YOUR boxes- :)) -- and hopefully mine too
but, before i get to my business of the day-- let's see what i have to say here real quick.
well, really not much-- that or i just can't think right now, for the ever growing mental list in my head at the moment.
soulkid had quite the emotional day yesterday, which in turn made it real hard for me to process much in my own. i can't-- or won't blog it. it really isn't my stuff to put here for all to see ya know. it is her stuff-- or at least that of her "world".. if that makes sense. but it was hard for all of us. especially her. and for us as parents.... ?? --- it is something that happens-- that can paralyze a parent-- and make you only thank God that it wasn't any worse-- for anyone involved.
i'm sorry that is so cryptic.. i won't go any further with it-- because it will only confuse you.
hell i'm confused. i don't know everything that happened.. but i know enough to be upset, worried, and grateful. for more than just my own kid.
ok .. i better move away from that topic....
ummmm....
i broke down last night, and cleaned out all the rod lockers and storage boxes on the boat .. i couldn't stand the thought of one more tournament like the last. i couldn't believe the amount of trash , extra life jackets, and just misc STUFF that just was NOT needed on that boat. i mean a - i don't know maybe a fifty ft extension cord? WTH? talk about bein in the way! there was like twenty , two year old full water bottles..not to mention as many empty ones... it was just awful. but it is very nice now-- and everything will be easy to get to now. anything not required on that thing-- is gone now! a trip to the carwash-- and a nice new carpet-- would be terrific.. but i know the carpet will have to wait-- the carwash can happen tho-- :))
i hope that soulman learned from the last tourney also-- NOT to put his ginormous tackle bag in the pathway during a night tourney-- at least without letting me know it's there... good lord -- i coulda broke a leg on that thing! that hurt ! lol.. i'm sure it woulda been funny if he actually saw it tho-- :)) but all he knew was he heard a big crash.. and a LOT of cussing ! :))
i don't think we will be fishin the next one.. he has to work on saturday-- and we usually dont get home til 1130 or 12 on those nights-- but i'lll let ya know if he feels energetic.
you know-- we have fished three tourneys together now-- and 2 out of three we won money. that's pretty good odds. what a team eh? makes it hard to pass up. plus it's fun!
welp-- i spose i should go-- soulkid is up-- and she is quite the crabapple. i am trying to be nuthing but supportive to her through "this".. and she wants to be all grouchy to ME about it.....
i guess we all get that way sometimes when bad things happen in our worlds and we dont want to talk about it-- but geesh. it just makes me wanna be somewhere else when i get talked to in one word blunt responses.
how bout you?
maybe i'll go fishin before i start my day :))
sure was fun yesterday!!
i'm so irrisponsible...
i swear it's an addiction!!!!
Monday, May 26, 2008
clownin around with the fishies ---
hello again....
oh yuk.. that just put that 100 year old Lionel richie song in my head that i have always hated. what happened to my redneck greeting? the good ole howdy folks-- or somethin...
oh well.. what's done is done... at least it's not jingle bells or "the sun'll come out
to- mor- roooowww."
LOL... can y'all tell yet that i'm just TRYIN to drive you insane?
ok, anyways... i just thought i would jump in here real quick with my fishin report o' the day-- just in case you care :))
and jamie/simonsays.. might-- cuz when i got back, she had left a note , sayin for me to catch her a big one. ( i have like NO memory-- she might have said giant-- hell , i don't know.. but she did want a big fish-- so, i thought i'd post him for her.)
and, i figured-- well hell, while i was at it, why not just post em all... so i did.
i lost more than i caught today. that has never happened to me at the pond before. lakes-- yes. the pond..never. i actually saw three of them.. watched them shake loose, and flop off right there before my very eyes... it was sickening. we're talkin two pound bass. just enough to make me barf. ok, not barf. cry. ok, not cry. mad. yep, it made me mad. and i ended up fishin way too long because of it.
but anyhow--- in order to not be mad and in a bad mood while fishin, i was actin silly when i would catch a fish. as you can see--
i had a really good time, i just wore myself down .. it was real cloudy and windy-- but not so windy that it made me mad... it was really nice out today. i couldn't force myself to leave til i was in physical agony. that's pretty bad isn't it? but hey-- it was fun.
if i would have changed to a sharper hook sooner-- i just might have had those three i lost-- i lost them in the first twenty minutes i was there-- i woulda had six like these...or bigger. sickening, i say .
oh yuk.. that just put that 100 year old Lionel richie song in my head that i have always hated. what happened to my redneck greeting? the good ole howdy folks-- or somethin...
oh well.. what's done is done... at least it's not jingle bells or "the sun'll come out
to- mor- roooowww."
LOL... can y'all tell yet that i'm just TRYIN to drive you insane?
ok, anyways... i just thought i would jump in here real quick with my fishin report o' the day-- just in case you care :))
and jamie/simonsays.. might-- cuz when i got back, she had left a note , sayin for me to catch her a big one. ( i have like NO memory-- she might have said giant-- hell , i don't know.. but she did want a big fish-- so, i thought i'd post him for her.)
and, i figured-- well hell, while i was at it, why not just post em all... so i did.
i lost more than i caught today. that has never happened to me at the pond before. lakes-- yes. the pond..never. i actually saw three of them.. watched them shake loose, and flop off right there before my very eyes... it was sickening. we're talkin two pound bass. just enough to make me barf. ok, not barf. cry. ok, not cry. mad. yep, it made me mad. and i ended up fishin way too long because of it.
but anyhow--- in order to not be mad and in a bad mood while fishin, i was actin silly when i would catch a fish. as you can see--
i had a really good time, i just wore myself down .. it was real cloudy and windy-- but not so windy that it made me mad... it was really nice out today. i couldn't force myself to leave til i was in physical agony. that's pretty bad isn't it? but hey-- it was fun.
if i would have changed to a sharper hook sooner-- i just might have had those three i lost-- i lost them in the first twenty minutes i was there-- i woulda had six like these...or bigger. sickening, i say .
here's your fish Jamie !!!
well hell---
i have been up for almost three hours already-- and made my rounds-- well most of em anyhow--
seems everyone is sleeping--or perhaps out of town maybe ? but nobody is cruisin around..at least not around here.
sooooo... all's quiet on the soul - front-- so i think i'm gonna go fishin!
i've already drank almost a pot of coffee, and done some chores even.
not much else to do... unless i wanna actually get down to the scrubbin of floors and toilets-- and y'all know i just don't even wanna go there. at least NOT at 630 a.m. --- hell, i never wanna go there.. lol.
anyhow-- it is on my list-- but not this early.
i do seem to be getting somewhat caught up on my horrid list. it has done nuthin but grow and piss me off, and make me feel worthless-- for weeks, but over the last week or so, i have managed to pick away at it, little by little and actually am beginning to see some progress. and that makes me feel much better about things.
well-- except my blog. man - o -man. it's a sad state of affairs around here as far some of these posts go aint it? i just don't know what to say about that. not much more to say than i already have. all i can do is try to be better about it. anyone whose been around a while knows by now-- when i don't feel good, or don't do much-- the writing suffers-- big time.
i hate it as much as you do. so i'm workin on it. and i'm workin on me too. just tryin to get myself to feeling better. and thinkin better. my frame of mind ya know. i think all the recent med issues have once again got me all stressed out or something-- then made me all tired -- or something. then all my important things.. like home and business have been neglected.. then it pressured me mentally-- and you know how all that snowballs a person.
or maybe just me? but anyhow-- i'm sorry if i have been too whiney-- or nonsensical around here. i know some of these posts could have been half as long and said as much as they needed to.
and as for y'all.. you know what they say about good intentions....
i try tho-- dammit. one day i get to everyone-- the next i get to one or two-- or none at all.
it sure isn't personal.. and i hope it doesn't bother any of you as much as it bothers me.
so anyhow---
the sun is up--the weather is fine-- and i am outta heah!
happy monday to you all...
tell me what your plans are for today!
whatever you're doin-- be safe and have FUN!
seems everyone is sleeping--or perhaps out of town maybe ? but nobody is cruisin around..at least not around here.
sooooo... all's quiet on the soul - front-- so i think i'm gonna go fishin!
i've already drank almost a pot of coffee, and done some chores even.
not much else to do... unless i wanna actually get down to the scrubbin of floors and toilets-- and y'all know i just don't even wanna go there. at least NOT at 630 a.m. --- hell, i never wanna go there.. lol.
anyhow-- it is on my list-- but not this early.
i do seem to be getting somewhat caught up on my horrid list. it has done nuthin but grow and piss me off, and make me feel worthless-- for weeks, but over the last week or so, i have managed to pick away at it, little by little and actually am beginning to see some progress. and that makes me feel much better about things.
well-- except my blog. man - o -man. it's a sad state of affairs around here as far some of these posts go aint it? i just don't know what to say about that. not much more to say than i already have. all i can do is try to be better about it. anyone whose been around a while knows by now-- when i don't feel good, or don't do much-- the writing suffers-- big time.
i hate it as much as you do. so i'm workin on it. and i'm workin on me too. just tryin to get myself to feeling better. and thinkin better. my frame of mind ya know. i think all the recent med issues have once again got me all stressed out or something-- then made me all tired -- or something. then all my important things.. like home and business have been neglected.. then it pressured me mentally-- and you know how all that snowballs a person.
or maybe just me? but anyhow-- i'm sorry if i have been too whiney-- or nonsensical around here. i know some of these posts could have been half as long and said as much as they needed to.
and as for y'all.. you know what they say about good intentions....
i try tho-- dammit. one day i get to everyone-- the next i get to one or two-- or none at all.
it sure isn't personal.. and i hope it doesn't bother any of you as much as it bothers me.
so anyhow---
the sun is up--the weather is fine-- and i am outta heah!
happy monday to you all...
tell me what your plans are for today!
whatever you're doin-- be safe and have FUN!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
title challenged
howdy folks---
i don't know where to begin this post-- it doesn't matter really where i begin .. it is gonna be a whine-fest regardless. i prolly shouldn't even write at all.. but i have some splainin to do--
so i spose i will start here:
i woke up this morning-- well, that's a given, right-- cuz if i didn't wake up-- you wouldn't be readin this--
so anyhow-- i do my morning duties of puttin dogs out, checkin on kids, gettin my coffee, all that stuff..
i get on my computer--- and what is the first thing i notice?
ALL my bookmarks are mysteriously GONE! ALL of them.
first thought?
kids!!! -- thing 1 and thing 2 have gotten on my laptop in the night-- and did "something" and deleted-- not only my bookmarks-- but the entire toolbar thing too-- not that i hadn't attempted to get rid of them..so in a way they .. (maybe they) -- did me a favor-- but the google and yahoo toolbars are also-- mysteriously GONE. WTF???
so what do i do-- i suspiciously go thru my history, of course-- i find no evidence of any sites that i didn't go to myself-- BUT i do know enough to know that they could have deleted the sites and they went-- IF in fact they are guilty.
but anyhow-- i am simply baffled about this. any computer gurus know if or how this coulda happened "on it's own? shut down? hmm..
so anyhow-- it's not really that big of a deal-- EXCEPT that i had some blogs linked in my bookmarks-- that i DON"T have in my links on my blog. SO , if you have a blog that i read, and i happen to not visit --- it's because i don't know how to get there. so please let me know .ugh.
i really don't feel up to accusing or arguing with the kids today about something i cannot prove they had a part in ya know. even tho i think they did. it just isn't worth it. we all know computers have a mind of their own. sometimes.
ok-- that's enough for that part.
next-- on the whine list?
yesterday?
it sucked.
not in any kind of bad way. i mean nothing bad happened. it's just that nothing happened -- at all. i slept--and i slept---and i slept.
i woke up a couple times-- only to fall asleep again.. had to be the meds? i don't know. i woke yesterday with a terrible headache-- meds helped--but made me tired-- i didn't have enough sleep anyhow--so knew i'd need a nap-- but man... not to nap all damn day--and night.
so-- the day passed me by-- i accomplished nothing. i did nothing... and because of it-- my ass hurts today!
part of that tho--is due to getting bounced around on the boat friday night tho too. i have kind of a bony ass-- and rough water isn't very kind the next day --- to my butt, i mean. :))
i woke up this morning.. a bit tired, but it only took a cup or two of coffee to help that. for now i feel pretty good.. overall, at least. i have a ton of crap to catch up on... but y'all know me-- i want to go fishin. i hope to find time...and energy for a little of both.
i need a cattle prod to use on my child. anything short of abuse isn't gonna do that girl a bit of good in the motivational department.
anyone remember the drug commercial?
"i learned it from watching you dad!"
ugh.
could it be MY fault that the child won't clean her room..feed her animals, or bring her dirty clothes to the laundry room..rather than throw them in her closet?
someone tell me it is not me. tell me it's a phase-- a ten year long PHASE. :))
even if it's a lie-- i need some moral support here.
i know i'm too easy on her-- but somethin just has to give
or i'm gonna crackup!
ok...
anybody got any cheese for my whine????
i'll take brie, and grapes!!!
happy sunday peoples....be safe today--and have FUN!!
i don't know where to begin this post-- it doesn't matter really where i begin .. it is gonna be a whine-fest regardless. i prolly shouldn't even write at all.. but i have some splainin to do--
so i spose i will start here:
i woke up this morning-- well, that's a given, right-- cuz if i didn't wake up-- you wouldn't be readin this--
so anyhow-- i do my morning duties of puttin dogs out, checkin on kids, gettin my coffee, all that stuff..
i get on my computer--- and what is the first thing i notice?
ALL my bookmarks are mysteriously GONE! ALL of them.
first thought?
kids!!! -- thing 1 and thing 2 have gotten on my laptop in the night-- and did "something" and deleted-- not only my bookmarks-- but the entire toolbar thing too-- not that i hadn't attempted to get rid of them..so in a way they .. (maybe they) -- did me a favor-- but the google and yahoo toolbars are also-- mysteriously GONE. WTF???
so what do i do-- i suspiciously go thru my history, of course-- i find no evidence of any sites that i didn't go to myself-- BUT i do know enough to know that they could have deleted the sites and they went-- IF in fact they are guilty.
but anyhow-- i am simply baffled about this. any computer gurus know if or how this coulda happened "on it's own? shut down? hmm..
so anyhow-- it's not really that big of a deal-- EXCEPT that i had some blogs linked in my bookmarks-- that i DON"T have in my links on my blog. SO , if you have a blog that i read, and i happen to not visit --- it's because i don't know how to get there. so please let me know .ugh.
i really don't feel up to accusing or arguing with the kids today about something i cannot prove they had a part in ya know. even tho i think they did. it just isn't worth it. we all know computers have a mind of their own. sometimes.
ok-- that's enough for that part.
next-- on the whine list?
yesterday?
it sucked.
not in any kind of bad way. i mean nothing bad happened. it's just that nothing happened -- at all. i slept--and i slept---and i slept.
i woke up a couple times-- only to fall asleep again.. had to be the meds? i don't know. i woke yesterday with a terrible headache-- meds helped--but made me tired-- i didn't have enough sleep anyhow--so knew i'd need a nap-- but man... not to nap all damn day--and night.
so-- the day passed me by-- i accomplished nothing. i did nothing... and because of it-- my ass hurts today!
part of that tho--is due to getting bounced around on the boat friday night tho too. i have kind of a bony ass-- and rough water isn't very kind the next day --- to my butt, i mean. :))
i woke up this morning.. a bit tired, but it only took a cup or two of coffee to help that. for now i feel pretty good.. overall, at least. i have a ton of crap to catch up on... but y'all know me-- i want to go fishin. i hope to find time...and energy for a little of both.
i need a cattle prod to use on my child. anything short of abuse isn't gonna do that girl a bit of good in the motivational department.
anyone remember the drug commercial?
"i learned it from watching you dad!"
ugh.
could it be MY fault that the child won't clean her room..feed her animals, or bring her dirty clothes to the laundry room..rather than throw them in her closet?
someone tell me it is not me. tell me it's a phase-- a ten year long PHASE. :))
even if it's a lie-- i need some moral support here.
i know i'm too easy on her-- but somethin just has to give
or i'm gonna crackup!
ok...
anybody got any cheese for my whine????
i'll take brie, and grapes!!!
happy sunday peoples....be safe today--and have FUN!!
Friday, May 23, 2008
i'm amazed at how boring one week can be sometimes
happy friday folks-- it's finally the weekend-- sorta--
bout time eh?
i know lotsa peeps who've been lookin forward to today. actually the end of the day-- but hopefully that will come fast.
for all of us who want it to.
i was sittin here tryin to think of what to write about-- cuz we all know how exciting my life can be . i got nuthin . so i scrolled down some to see if i needed to update on anything. i did find a thing or two-- but in the process-- i realized-- my gawd-- i am one boring gal. not always-- sometimes, i can even make myself laugh-- but man, sometimes-- i even want quit reading my own page. y'all are awesome for puttin up with my do nuthin-say nuthin weeks, and days. seems this was a big ole cry baby week. quite forced writing too at times. sorry.
so anyhow-- i need to do somethin about that. what that will be.. i'm not sure about yet. but somethin exciting needs to happen around here. (ya right) but i'll try.
however--- there are a couple things i can toss in here for now..
tonight is our fishing tournament--- i am hoping that since i got a little fishing in , i'll be more ready for it this time. the lake really is different than the pond-- and my confidence , not as high there. but now that i am on a mission to show-up those grouchy guys-- i am hoping to do better. maybe not win-- although it would be real nice-- i just want to get some good fish. that lake has never been good for me though..and we used to live by it. fished it all the time, and i have never done well on that lake. i hope tonight is my night. maybe if it isn't a full moon, and my phone doesn't ring constantly-- it will be at least a little better. let's hope so.
and , speaking of the phone---- i got the call-back, on the abdominal ultrasound yesterday. exactly what i expected. they found nothing wrong. it's just the weirdest thing. i'm grateful that there is nothing wrong. but i still wonder why i was in so much pain. i swear it ranked first or second on my lifes scale of pain.. for days. yet they found nothing. well... they did of course find my frickin pancreas... :)) dumbasses.
so anyhow-- i spose today i need to finish with my house and business etc.. so i can fish tonight without worrying about what i "didn't " do. or shoulda done. or need to do. no slackin off today.
sushi's EEVEE bite is healing fairly well. she won't leave it alone though. it would probably be scabbed over by now--but she licks it all the time. but it isn't a gaping hole anymore at least. she didn't learn anything from whatever happened either, apparently. she still antagonizing eevee. for no reason. i am surprised at how sort of whimpy eevee can be sometimes. she could kill any one of these animals at will.. yet she is more afraid of them than they are of her. not as much as she was at first, but she still cowers and runs off when they challenge her-- but she will stand up to sushi more often..and that worries us. but eevee never starts it. sushi thinks she is the queen of the castle here... especially if she is on my lap and eevee comes over for some pets or to play-- sushi goes all badass on her-- i hope she doesn't get her face ripped off for it someday.
well... that's about all i can come up with at this time of day.
perhaps i will update later if i have time.. if not-- check back tomorrow for the tourney report--- and wish us luck. even if it's just big bass-- big bass gets paid.. and even that is shameful if a girl gets it. last week the 6 pounder paid out 90.00. we could use that-- on top of a little pay back ...
i know-- resentment is never good for the soul--- but i spent years in the navy being treated this way-- having to prove myself etc-- up against men.. so i guess it's just kinda comparable to that?? maybe. either way-- i'll get mine-- and they'll get theirs. maybe not tonight-- but one of these nights. :))
see y'all later
happy weekend--
bout time eh?
i know lotsa peeps who've been lookin forward to today. actually the end of the day-- but hopefully that will come fast.
for all of us who want it to.
i was sittin here tryin to think of what to write about-- cuz we all know how exciting my life can be . i got nuthin . so i scrolled down some to see if i needed to update on anything. i did find a thing or two-- but in the process-- i realized-- my gawd-- i am one boring gal. not always-- sometimes, i can even make myself laugh-- but man, sometimes-- i even want quit reading my own page. y'all are awesome for puttin up with my do nuthin-say nuthin weeks, and days. seems this was a big ole cry baby week. quite forced writing too at times. sorry.
so anyhow-- i need to do somethin about that. what that will be.. i'm not sure about yet. but somethin exciting needs to happen around here. (ya right) but i'll try.
however--- there are a couple things i can toss in here for now..
tonight is our fishing tournament--- i am hoping that since i got a little fishing in , i'll be more ready for it this time. the lake really is different than the pond-- and my confidence , not as high there. but now that i am on a mission to show-up those grouchy guys-- i am hoping to do better. maybe not win-- although it would be real nice-- i just want to get some good fish. that lake has never been good for me though..and we used to live by it. fished it all the time, and i have never done well on that lake. i hope tonight is my night. maybe if it isn't a full moon, and my phone doesn't ring constantly-- it will be at least a little better. let's hope so.
and , speaking of the phone---- i got the call-back, on the abdominal ultrasound yesterday. exactly what i expected. they found nothing wrong. it's just the weirdest thing. i'm grateful that there is nothing wrong. but i still wonder why i was in so much pain. i swear it ranked first or second on my lifes scale of pain.. for days. yet they found nothing. well... they did of course find my frickin pancreas... :)) dumbasses.
so anyhow-- i spose today i need to finish with my house and business etc.. so i can fish tonight without worrying about what i "didn't " do. or shoulda done. or need to do. no slackin off today.
sushi's EEVEE bite is healing fairly well. she won't leave it alone though. it would probably be scabbed over by now--but she licks it all the time. but it isn't a gaping hole anymore at least. she didn't learn anything from whatever happened either, apparently. she still antagonizing eevee. for no reason. i am surprised at how sort of whimpy eevee can be sometimes. she could kill any one of these animals at will.. yet she is more afraid of them than they are of her. not as much as she was at first, but she still cowers and runs off when they challenge her-- but she will stand up to sushi more often..and that worries us. but eevee never starts it. sushi thinks she is the queen of the castle here... especially if she is on my lap and eevee comes over for some pets or to play-- sushi goes all badass on her-- i hope she doesn't get her face ripped off for it someday.
well... that's about all i can come up with at this time of day.
perhaps i will update later if i have time.. if not-- check back tomorrow for the tourney report--- and wish us luck. even if it's just big bass-- big bass gets paid.. and even that is shameful if a girl gets it. last week the 6 pounder paid out 90.00. we could use that-- on top of a little pay back ...
i know-- resentment is never good for the soul--- but i spent years in the navy being treated this way-- having to prove myself etc-- up against men.. so i guess it's just kinda comparable to that?? maybe. either way-- i'll get mine-- and they'll get theirs. maybe not tonight-- but one of these nights. :))
see y'all later
happy weekend--
Thursday, May 22, 2008
almost 9 am and overcast-- hmmm -- updated TWICE/W-pix --
i have "a list" a half mile long-- but the weather is perfect for fishing. where do my responsibilities lie?? holy crap. if i remember correctly-- and i may not-- i don't think i have been fishing since friday. :(( i sure have wanted to tho. wait-- i think i did on the weekend--- but i got skunked. so it didn't count. i should go. at least for a while. dontcha think? yep. i do.
but i have a lot to do. ugh. decisions decisions .
anyhow-- i guess whatever i decide-- what gets done , gets done, and what doesn't can wait. whaddayathink.?
i finally went to wally hell yesterday. i swear, it has been weeks since i went grocery shopping. hubby has picked up things here and there-- but a real grocery day has been desperately required around here for a long time. so i broke down and shopped. another price hike on just about everything was noticed... and i was pissed about that. i tried to be frugal.. so i skipped many of the junky stuff i usually get-- which i of course heard about later... "you didnt get any snaaaacks"... whaaaa.
shadddup.
ugh.
i also didn't get hardly any meat-- maybe one or two things of meat.
damn man. it sucked. we were down to nearly nuthin again. i did the best i could, and really thought i was gonna walk outta there at near 100.00 .... did i???
ummm, NO. did i come close to 100???
ummm NOT.
did i almost have a fuckin stroke?
uhhhh yep.. yes i did.
i even tried to find a new credit card we just got-- cuz i went soooo over my budget-- it was find a different way to pay-- or skip a bill, that was already lat-- almost a week late. did i find said card-- NOPE. and i had some woman sighing behind me-- so i just paid off the regular bank-- knowing i was in big trouble.
know how much i spent? on almost nuthing???
close to 240.00.
i do not know HOW either. but it really sucked. no junk food, little meat, wth???
i did get a carton of smokes-- 33.00, but that doesn't make it 240.00.
i double checked my rct when i got home.. i was double charged on one thing-- but it was only 3.88 that doesn't put me over 200 either. but somethin has to be off somewhere . i gotta go over it again... and yep-- i am gonna go get my 3.88 back. cuz i'm cheap like that. :))
anyhow.
where was i???
hmmm.
i have , literally, a stack of medical bills... SIX inches high. can we say "screwed" ?
i must sift through them today. i'm pretty sure several are duplicates, so once i organize them they won't look so scary. but i know some are very high.. from the seizure. even after insurance--- omg.
yesterday i had to go through a mess with my insurance over my eye glasses. they were tryin to say they weren't gonna pay for them.. so i had to do a buncha stuff for that. that was real fun. not. but it shouldn't be a problem now. i hope.
well anyhow-- i guess y'all don't wana hear all my boring crap o the day. do ya.
i reckon if i manage to get in some fishin time i will let ya know.. if i catch anything. i just think i need to take care of my business stuff and the house before i play. i'm behind on everything. and everyone. i did manage to make my rounds this morning-- which makes me feel somewhat better... i hate to get behind with yall. you know that. i hate the guilt's--
sooo-- i guess that answers the fishin question.. work it is.
catcha later peoples
have great days in your worlds today--
10:10 a.m.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE-- I CAN ONLY WORK ON THE BANKS FOR SOO LONG-
I'M GOIN FISHIN..
CALL ME HUCK FINN
LATAERZ---
:))
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
obviously, i went fishin......
obviously , i caught fish. :))
i had planned to go for an hour.. just to get it outta my system. i'm an addict. i stayed for two hours. thing was.. i got two fish-- about that size. that one was 2 lbs. the next was 2.3 pounds-- but the camera wigged out and the pics didn't take on the second fish. not sure why. operator error i'm sure.
they were sure fun to catch. but , right before i got em i was about ready to leave and get back to my errands and chores, etc. but after two of those? i just couldn't--yet. so i kept fishin.. for an hour-- and didn't get any more.
bummer.
so i left finally, intending on being productive.. well, i picked up a rx.. and a few things at the store.... then , when i got home .. i ate. we all know i shouldn't eat lunch when i have things to do---- yep-- i fell asleep. dammit. i did manage to get roast goin, and some laundry started first-- but that's about it. the clan is home now. soulman just got in a few minutes ago--it was kinda funny the way he reacted to smellin dinner cookin. like it something he'd never experienced before. he said "what's that smell"?? umm.. dinner. (hmm.. it HAS been a while-- too long apparently) i really do need to cook more.
anyhow.. guess i'll go throw somethin at sushi now. :)) not really, but her barkin at every little thing is makin me crazy--- anyone want her?
latahs..
but i have a lot to do. ugh. decisions decisions .
anyhow-- i guess whatever i decide-- what gets done , gets done, and what doesn't can wait. whaddayathink.?
i finally went to wally hell yesterday. i swear, it has been weeks since i went grocery shopping. hubby has picked up things here and there-- but a real grocery day has been desperately required around here for a long time. so i broke down and shopped. another price hike on just about everything was noticed... and i was pissed about that. i tried to be frugal.. so i skipped many of the junky stuff i usually get-- which i of course heard about later... "you didnt get any snaaaacks"... whaaaa.
shadddup.
ugh.
i also didn't get hardly any meat-- maybe one or two things of meat.
damn man. it sucked. we were down to nearly nuthin again. i did the best i could, and really thought i was gonna walk outta there at near 100.00 .... did i???
ummm, NO. did i come close to 100???
ummm NOT.
did i almost have a fuckin stroke?
uhhhh yep.. yes i did.
i even tried to find a new credit card we just got-- cuz i went soooo over my budget-- it was find a different way to pay-- or skip a bill, that was already lat-- almost a week late. did i find said card-- NOPE. and i had some woman sighing behind me-- so i just paid off the regular bank-- knowing i was in big trouble.
know how much i spent? on almost nuthing???
close to 240.00.
i do not know HOW either. but it really sucked. no junk food, little meat, wth???
i did get a carton of smokes-- 33.00, but that doesn't make it 240.00.
i double checked my rct when i got home.. i was double charged on one thing-- but it was only 3.88 that doesn't put me over 200 either. but somethin has to be off somewhere . i gotta go over it again... and yep-- i am gonna go get my 3.88 back. cuz i'm cheap like that. :))
anyhow.
where was i???
hmmm.
i have , literally, a stack of medical bills... SIX inches high. can we say "screwed" ?
i must sift through them today. i'm pretty sure several are duplicates, so once i organize them they won't look so scary. but i know some are very high.. from the seizure. even after insurance--- omg.
yesterday i had to go through a mess with my insurance over my eye glasses. they were tryin to say they weren't gonna pay for them.. so i had to do a buncha stuff for that. that was real fun. not. but it shouldn't be a problem now. i hope.
well anyhow-- i guess y'all don't wana hear all my boring crap o the day. do ya.
i reckon if i manage to get in some fishin time i will let ya know.. if i catch anything. i just think i need to take care of my business stuff and the house before i play. i'm behind on everything. and everyone. i did manage to make my rounds this morning-- which makes me feel somewhat better... i hate to get behind with yall. you know that. i hate the guilt's--
sooo-- i guess that answers the fishin question.. work it is.
catcha later peoples
have great days in your worlds today--
10:10 a.m.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE-- I CAN ONLY WORK ON THE BANKS FOR SOO LONG-
I'M GOIN FISHIN..
CALL ME HUCK FINN
LATAERZ---
:))
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
obviously, i went fishin......
obviously , i caught fish. :))
i had planned to go for an hour.. just to get it outta my system. i'm an addict. i stayed for two hours. thing was.. i got two fish-- about that size. that one was 2 lbs. the next was 2.3 pounds-- but the camera wigged out and the pics didn't take on the second fish. not sure why. operator error i'm sure.
they were sure fun to catch. but , right before i got em i was about ready to leave and get back to my errands and chores, etc. but after two of those? i just couldn't--yet. so i kept fishin.. for an hour-- and didn't get any more.
bummer.
so i left finally, intending on being productive.. well, i picked up a rx.. and a few things at the store.... then , when i got home .. i ate. we all know i shouldn't eat lunch when i have things to do---- yep-- i fell asleep. dammit. i did manage to get roast goin, and some laundry started first-- but that's about it. the clan is home now. soulman just got in a few minutes ago--it was kinda funny the way he reacted to smellin dinner cookin. like it something he'd never experienced before. he said "what's that smell"?? umm.. dinner. (hmm.. it HAS been a while-- too long apparently) i really do need to cook more.
anyhow.. guess i'll go throw somethin at sushi now. :)) not really, but her barkin at every little thing is makin me crazy--- anyone want her?
latahs..
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
don't hate me----
i'll make my rounds tomorrow-- i promise...
it got late on me-- then we watched idol-- now i am wiped out and have to take my sore, old lady self to bed. i didn;t get to your pages today-- sorry.
i did get most my errands done tho-- so i will have more -- sit on my butt time tomorrow.
ugh.
david cook won on american idol. i kinda didn't want him to-- so he would get an album out sooner-- but he cried and was real happy to win...so good for him. hopefully they won't ruin his style...
anyhow--
g'nite-- hope y'all sleep well..
see ya soon--
it got late on me-- then we watched idol-- now i am wiped out and have to take my sore, old lady self to bed. i didn;t get to your pages today-- sorry.
i did get most my errands done tho-- so i will have more -- sit on my butt time tomorrow.
ugh.
david cook won on american idol. i kinda didn't want him to-- so he would get an album out sooner-- but he cried and was real happy to win...so good for him. hopefully they won't ruin his style...
anyhow--
g'nite-- hope y'all sleep well..
see ya soon--
so much for havin a routine
mornin folks..
it's 555 a.m. i reckon that's better than 333 huh. one thing about that tho? it's alarm hell time around here. and aside from that, i have only been up for about ten minutes. which also means, i haven't had any time to wake up , or think about anything yet. all i've done is put sushi out and in, get coffee, and get settled in on the computer. and listen to hubbys' alarm go off about four times. ugh. i'm still tired.
my whole routine is off lately. morning and night. for two weeks or so. not sure why. several reasons i guess. (oh great, now soulkids alarm begins.) lovely. i don't have snooze on my alarm. if i miss my alarm-- i miss it. there is no -- five or six times for me. but i usually get up before it goes off anyhow.
anyways. my routine? wth? early to bed , early to rise, smoke and choke, chat online, cruise, do what i need to do, want to do, have to do, get home in time for the child, and hubby, and most days .. look and feel like i've accomplished something.
lately... NOT. my sleep habits are all kindsa screwed up -- some nights in bed by 10-- some im up til 12 or 1-- some days up at 330 some up at 530 ish. ugh. some days i nap some i don't.
and yesterday-- omg. the night before.. i had a new muscle relaxer from the doc. it said take at bedtime-- so i did. i thought it was weird to take it at bedtime , cuz its not bedtime that i need to not be in pain, but i did bedtime anyhow-- but damn man -- i felt drugged all damn day long. i got deep into some paperwork stuff. i drug out my file cabinet-- looking for my VA loan .. for a house.... it's here somewhere, but i haven't seen it for years. anyhow --- it was about noon before i got the first file box sorted and organized-- it looks mahvelous btw, and i found stuff i haven't seen in years-- but of course not what i was lookin for. but by the time i got thru that file box.. i was starved. so i took a break. to eat. all i ate was a salad. after that i got of course got tired. somethin about me and lunch. i still don't get it. so i leaned back in the chair, and i was out. i woke up when soulkid got home at 330 , she was walkin in the door. she was trying to talk to me-- and i could NOT stay awake for nothin, i kept tryin to wake up. but could not. next thing i knew-- it was after 6 pm ! i woke up-- after several more failed attempts. i finally got up-- and i didn't see her-- or either of the dogs. hubby wasn't home from work yet. i got up and looked for (them). i was afraid she had gone somewhere, and maybe let the dogs out.
when i checked.. i found the dogs-- and soulkid was also asleep--in her bed.
i think the heat-- and the fact that everyone was up til after 1 the night before had something to do with it.
but that pill i took , ugh. usually i need to double dose on just about anything for it to even do it's minimal job.. much less kick my butt... now im afraid to even take it again-- even though it did make my neck feel better. i just can't win ya know. not when it comes to meds, docs and that kinda thing.
so anyways. i was at least somewhat alert and alive when soulman got home about 8ish last night. and we watched recorded american idol and hells kitchen. which were both good. only made me feel like a fool... cuz when i posted about these shows the other day-- i said ai was over -- like last week.. and it's not -- til tonight. hmm. brain dead much?
i still don't want david cook to win it-- and i don't think he will. but that's ok.
welp-- i guess that's about it-- for my boring morning.
i'll let ya know if anything interesting happens..and i'll be cruisin and catchin up after i get caught up with stuff here-and everyone is gone.
happpy humpday!
it's 555 a.m. i reckon that's better than 333 huh. one thing about that tho? it's alarm hell time around here. and aside from that, i have only been up for about ten minutes. which also means, i haven't had any time to wake up , or think about anything yet. all i've done is put sushi out and in, get coffee, and get settled in on the computer. and listen to hubbys' alarm go off about four times. ugh. i'm still tired.
my whole routine is off lately. morning and night. for two weeks or so. not sure why. several reasons i guess. (oh great, now soulkids alarm begins.) lovely. i don't have snooze on my alarm. if i miss my alarm-- i miss it. there is no -- five or six times for me. but i usually get up before it goes off anyhow.
anyways. my routine? wth? early to bed , early to rise, smoke and choke, chat online, cruise, do what i need to do, want to do, have to do, get home in time for the child, and hubby, and most days .. look and feel like i've accomplished something.
lately... NOT. my sleep habits are all kindsa screwed up -- some nights in bed by 10-- some im up til 12 or 1-- some days up at 330 some up at 530 ish. ugh. some days i nap some i don't.
and yesterday-- omg. the night before.. i had a new muscle relaxer from the doc. it said take at bedtime-- so i did. i thought it was weird to take it at bedtime , cuz its not bedtime that i need to not be in pain, but i did bedtime anyhow-- but damn man -- i felt drugged all damn day long. i got deep into some paperwork stuff. i drug out my file cabinet-- looking for my VA loan .. for a house.... it's here somewhere, but i haven't seen it for years. anyhow --- it was about noon before i got the first file box sorted and organized-- it looks mahvelous btw, and i found stuff i haven't seen in years-- but of course not what i was lookin for. but by the time i got thru that file box.. i was starved. so i took a break. to eat. all i ate was a salad. after that i got of course got tired. somethin about me and lunch. i still don't get it. so i leaned back in the chair, and i was out. i woke up when soulkid got home at 330 , she was walkin in the door. she was trying to talk to me-- and i could NOT stay awake for nothin, i kept tryin to wake up. but could not. next thing i knew-- it was after 6 pm ! i woke up-- after several more failed attempts. i finally got up-- and i didn't see her-- or either of the dogs. hubby wasn't home from work yet. i got up and looked for (them). i was afraid she had gone somewhere, and maybe let the dogs out.
when i checked.. i found the dogs-- and soulkid was also asleep--in her bed.
i think the heat-- and the fact that everyone was up til after 1 the night before had something to do with it.
but that pill i took , ugh. usually i need to double dose on just about anything for it to even do it's minimal job.. much less kick my butt... now im afraid to even take it again-- even though it did make my neck feel better. i just can't win ya know. not when it comes to meds, docs and that kinda thing.
so anyways. i was at least somewhat alert and alive when soulman got home about 8ish last night. and we watched recorded american idol and hells kitchen. which were both good. only made me feel like a fool... cuz when i posted about these shows the other day-- i said ai was over -- like last week.. and it's not -- til tonight. hmm. brain dead much?
i still don't want david cook to win it-- and i don't think he will. but that's ok.
welp-- i guess that's about it-- for my boring morning.
i'll let ya know if anything interesting happens..and i'll be cruisin and catchin up after i get caught up with stuff here-and everyone is gone.
happpy humpday!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
tagged by EE
i slept half the day away-- so here's a meme..
Four, Four, Four, Four... from life unscripted
A) Four places that I go to over and over:
Fishin, mall hell, post office box, doctor hell
B) Four people who e-mail me (regularly):
anyone who wants me to have a larger penis, :0 – blogger comment updater - my sis, and Jamie/simonsays
C) Four favorite places to eat:
frescos’ (a local mex joint)—chipotle , outback, and my new fave Carrabbas
D) Four places I would rather be right now:
fishing,- with my sis, - or with Jamie, - or squandering money – on something –without worryin about it.
E) Four people I think will post their own "4,4,4:
smocha- simonsays- yankee- and AC :0
(and anyone else who wants it--)
F) Four TV shows I watch all the time:
when they are on--- survivor, hells’ kitchen, American idol, and then there’s any crime or medical show documentary. Ie- crime 360- mystery diagnosis.
Monday, May 19, 2008
the neverending monday has ended
finally-- !!!
we have air again.. woo hoo...
the air guys showed up finally-- guess what time? 9 p.m. yep. i started calling around 6 i think. and i wasn't very happy either. but i had expected to at least have heard something, so by that time, i was thinking they weren't coming. and i was roasting. and pretty pissed off. finally, soulman got a hold of them. i called 3 or 4 times, left messages everything-- not a word back-- hubby calls-- and gets called right back. wth??? first the tourney--i'm ousted cuz i'm a woman.. is this the same type of deal? that's what i was thinkin. but anyhow- hubby didn't get off work til 7. they told him they would be here at 8-- they showed at 9 -ish. we were all a bunch of bitches by then. and soulkid had a friend over to stay the night--"to work on a project". suuure. but with 11 days of school left--who really cares. but by 9 or 10 o'clock it occurred to me-- why the hell didn't you stay at HER house? with air conditioning? hmmm... soulkid didn't know--and her friend said because her mom was annoying. well hell-- everyones mom is annoying.. at least it's cool and annoying there. i offered to take them over there , but they didn't want to. man i DID. :))
anyhow-- they DID manage to fix the cooler. at first they thought it was the thermostat, so changed it. NOT. turned out to be some kind of relay or somethin. they left at 11 pm. ugh. but hey-- at least it works. i just hope it keeps workin. i was literally moments away from goin to get a motel room. even the animals were miserable.
so anyhow. the week turned out to be off to a not so terrible start afterall. at least tomorrow i can say that.
we have air :))
i have no more drs' this week..at least for now.
i killed my fly infestation today... with wasp spray--works wonders if you ever end up with such a problem. :))
and-- i have nothing on my schedule for tomorrow. i can or cannot do anything i want to tomorrow . right now i don't know what that will be-but i will fill you in when i decide.
anyways-- here it is.. midnight almost--again, and i am still up---again.
any bets on what time i wake up?
who says 330?
who says 530?
any for 6?
my alarm is set for 530. but that never matters. i could set it for 9 and wake up at 3.
i bet i'm up before the alarm... we shall see.
anyhow--- i was tryin to leave you on a positive note and here comes "debbie downer"
haha...
my nephew called me that a while back when i went to chicago.. LOL -- but not just me-- smocha too. we were "debbie downers".
that was an odd trip for those who missed it. actually, i don;t think i wrote a lot of the details here-- but ya-- i think it needed some better planning. and definitely a better hotel room..without pools of blood, and other unpleasant surprises. :))
ok-- anyhow-- i'm goin ta bed--- i shall see y'all tomorrow.
g'nite
we have air again.. woo hoo...
the air guys showed up finally-- guess what time? 9 p.m. yep. i started calling around 6 i think. and i wasn't very happy either. but i had expected to at least have heard something, so by that time, i was thinking they weren't coming. and i was roasting. and pretty pissed off. finally, soulman got a hold of them. i called 3 or 4 times, left messages everything-- not a word back-- hubby calls-- and gets called right back. wth??? first the tourney--i'm ousted cuz i'm a woman.. is this the same type of deal? that's what i was thinkin. but anyhow- hubby didn't get off work til 7. they told him they would be here at 8-- they showed at 9 -ish. we were all a bunch of bitches by then. and soulkid had a friend over to stay the night--"to work on a project". suuure. but with 11 days of school left--who really cares. but by 9 or 10 o'clock it occurred to me-- why the hell didn't you stay at HER house? with air conditioning? hmmm... soulkid didn't know--and her friend said because her mom was annoying. well hell-- everyones mom is annoying.. at least it's cool and annoying there. i offered to take them over there , but they didn't want to. man i DID. :))
anyhow-- they DID manage to fix the cooler. at first they thought it was the thermostat, so changed it. NOT. turned out to be some kind of relay or somethin. they left at 11 pm. ugh. but hey-- at least it works. i just hope it keeps workin. i was literally moments away from goin to get a motel room. even the animals were miserable.
so anyhow. the week turned out to be off to a not so terrible start afterall. at least tomorrow i can say that.
we have air :))
i have no more drs' this week..at least for now.
i killed my fly infestation today... with wasp spray--works wonders if you ever end up with such a problem. :))
and-- i have nothing on my schedule for tomorrow. i can or cannot do anything i want to tomorrow . right now i don't know what that will be-but i will fill you in when i decide.
anyways-- here it is.. midnight almost--again, and i am still up---again.
any bets on what time i wake up?
who says 330?
who says 530?
any for 6?
my alarm is set for 530. but that never matters. i could set it for 9 and wake up at 3.
i bet i'm up before the alarm... we shall see.
anyhow--- i was tryin to leave you on a positive note and here comes "debbie downer"
haha...
my nephew called me that a while back when i went to chicago.. LOL -- but not just me-- smocha too. we were "debbie downers".
that was an odd trip for those who missed it. actually, i don;t think i wrote a lot of the details here-- but ya-- i think it needed some better planning. and definitely a better hotel room..without pools of blood, and other unpleasant surprises. :))
ok-- anyhow-- i'm goin ta bed--- i shall see y'all tomorrow.
g'nite
pass the prozac!!!
OMG what a day! and it aint over yet---anyone know when the sun will set ? my gawd it's hot . 100 degrees today. and no air conditioning. aint life grand? !!
ok, that's out of my system.
i of course didn't get any specific details on anything at either doctor today. i'm glad i didn't expect any. i learned my lesson on that one though. i don't really know what to think or expect though either.
the scan lady couldn't tell me nuthin.
and as for neuro-- that one was a bit weird. he did an exam..with the sharp/dull thing.. ya know? well, i have had docs do that before-- a few times--- well.. today was the first time ever-- that it felt different on each side. especially my face. wth does that mean? the whole left side of my body could feel stuff stronger than the right side. BUT my face i could barely feel the pointy thing at all on the left side. friggin weird. weirdest thing? i asked HIM.. THE DR>
"what does that mean?"
know what he said?
"i don't know".
can i just scream?
right now?
anyways.;
he gave me meds.. made a follow up appt in a month.. and i know nuthin. i do know he will review my last MRI of my back and neck..and go from there. so you'll know--when i know.
laterz
ok, that's out of my system.
i of course didn't get any specific details on anything at either doctor today. i'm glad i didn't expect any. i learned my lesson on that one though. i don't really know what to think or expect though either.
the scan lady couldn't tell me nuthin.
and as for neuro-- that one was a bit weird. he did an exam..with the sharp/dull thing.. ya know? well, i have had docs do that before-- a few times--- well.. today was the first time ever-- that it felt different on each side. especially my face. wth does that mean? the whole left side of my body could feel stuff stronger than the right side. BUT my face i could barely feel the pointy thing at all on the left side. friggin weird. weirdest thing? i asked HIM.. THE DR>
"what does that mean?"
know what he said?
"i don't know".
can i just scream?
right now?
anyways.;
he gave me meds.. made a follow up appt in a month.. and i know nuthin. i do know he will review my last MRI of my back and neck..and go from there. so you'll know--when i know.
laterz
holy moly it's a monday
hi peeples--
dare i say happy monday?
sure i dare-- happy monday! to you---
i hope it's a decent day for me too-- but to be honest-- i aint feelin too chipper right now. it was yet another 330 morning for me. and man i tell ya i really tried for it NOT to be this time around. i'm
supposed to be fasting as we speak... for a --yes, another, belly scan this morning. ugh. gawd. help me. am i though. umm. no. i am not. i would be. IF the extra sleeping pill woulda done its job last night, and allowed for the extra hour or two of sleep last night--but did it. umm, obviously not.
so-- i am drinking coffee. black. and don't plan on 2/3 a pot this morning, or do i figure that any bit of a couple cups or so, would be "gone" by 11 am anyhow. so who cares. obviously not me , at this point. it's not an actually "stomach" scan scan anyways. they are checking my pancreas -- i guess. they are so very informative, these people, ya know.
last time we talked all they said was the ct "didn't show my pancreas".. or whatever.
we ALL KNOW it's there--somewhere. geesh.
when they called about that-- i was at dinner out with hubby--obviously didn't have my calender with me, so i just ok'd a appointment for today-- with no way to know if it was "open" or not. well, whenever-- a day or so later-- i get a reminder call from my neuro doc-- i have an appointment with them today also! lovely. 1045 for the ultrasound-- and 330 for the neuro. just peachy. ya know i go into defensive mode for any doc appointment right. so yep-- waking at 330-- two appointments on the way-- behind in all my business and errands-- cranky as hell...ugh. i'm not looking forward to any bit of this.
and-- are y'all ready for the kicker? i feel i can toss this one in now-- seein as today is the day i should -- key word SHOULD find out something about it-- the AC guys SHOULD be BACK today too. my air conditioner quit-- yes QUIT again on friday-- if not thursday... and it has been one hot mo-fo out here. (it blows HOT air/and has the heater smell) - i have not wanted to bring it up on here-- cuz i knew once i mentioned it-- i would do nuthin BUT mention it.. for days. (motha was lucky enough for a small rant last night :))
it's killin us. but you know- bein US -- it would happen on a weekend. so there wasn't a damn thing we could do about it. we had to simply turn it OFF, and open windows. and really that did nuthin. ok it helped a little, but not much at all. false hope? i don't know. it's not a breaker switch ..or anything that a person with no knowledge of such things such as ourselves could deal with. and really, it made for some crabby souls around on the weekend. ugh. so,the a/c guys are supposed to come fix it today-- but i will believe that when i see it. honestly-- i don't expect to see it-- not today, at least.
on a good note-- we have decided to fish the tournament next friday night. sweet revenge--i hope.
hubby knows a couple guys this time who will be fishin it--so it should be a little less awkward at weigh in-- at least there will be a couple peeps that will be civil towards us.; they know me too-- and don't hate me. :)) one of them is his regular fishin partner for the other tourneys he has been fishin. he's an alright guy-- just a little uptight when he doesn't catch fish.
but that's alright. anyhow-- we are hoping to catch some good fish this time, and put these asshats in their place this time. and really are hoping for a better time. i know i'm bringin bug spray this time--- the gnats were a bitch -- did i mention that ? anyhow-- i already told my child not to call every ten minutes. so that should help. i hope. doesn't mean we will win money-- i just want some weighable fish-- bigger than "tinY"
welp-- i don't guess i have i have anything else to cry about-- i mean say. :))
well.. i do-- i just won't. yet . maybe i'll do that later. :))
hope y'all have happy days in your worlds today--
i am merely hoping i can maintain my people skillz.. and not yell at anyone today. i really don't handle the business aspect of people very well anymore. there was a time that i did. but people just really piss me off these days-- and i kinda have a way of lettin em know that a bit too often.
i'm thinkn soulman "gets" to deal with the a/c guys today-- that would be wonderful-- but it's only if they show up while i'm gone-- or before he goes to work. (at 3) -ugh.. let's all just hope that happens-- cuz i really already know-- i don't deal with them well. and well-- we already know i don't handle doctors well either huh? hmm.. i think i'm just kinda screwed today. dammit.
dare i say happy monday?
sure i dare-- happy monday! to you---
i hope it's a decent day for me too-- but to be honest-- i aint feelin too chipper right now. it was yet another 330 morning for me. and man i tell ya i really tried for it NOT to be this time around. i'm
supposed to be fasting as we speak... for a --yes, another, belly scan this morning. ugh. gawd. help me. am i though. umm. no. i am not. i would be. IF the extra sleeping pill woulda done its job last night, and allowed for the extra hour or two of sleep last night--but did it. umm, obviously not.
so-- i am drinking coffee. black. and don't plan on 2/3 a pot this morning, or do i figure that any bit of a couple cups or so, would be "gone" by 11 am anyhow. so who cares. obviously not me , at this point. it's not an actually "stomach" scan scan anyways. they are checking my pancreas -- i guess. they are so very informative, these people, ya know.
last time we talked all they said was the ct "didn't show my pancreas".. or whatever.
we ALL KNOW it's there--somewhere. geesh.
when they called about that-- i was at dinner out with hubby--obviously didn't have my calender with me, so i just ok'd a appointment for today-- with no way to know if it was "open" or not. well, whenever-- a day or so later-- i get a reminder call from my neuro doc-- i have an appointment with them today also! lovely. 1045 for the ultrasound-- and 330 for the neuro. just peachy. ya know i go into defensive mode for any doc appointment right. so yep-- waking at 330-- two appointments on the way-- behind in all my business and errands-- cranky as hell...ugh. i'm not looking forward to any bit of this.
and-- are y'all ready for the kicker? i feel i can toss this one in now-- seein as today is the day i should -- key word SHOULD find out something about it-- the AC guys SHOULD be BACK today too. my air conditioner quit-- yes QUIT again on friday-- if not thursday... and it has been one hot mo-fo out here. (it blows HOT air/and has the heater smell) - i have not wanted to bring it up on here-- cuz i knew once i mentioned it-- i would do nuthin BUT mention it.. for days. (motha was lucky enough for a small rant last night :))
it's killin us. but you know- bein US -- it would happen on a weekend. so there wasn't a damn thing we could do about it. we had to simply turn it OFF, and open windows. and really that did nuthin. ok it helped a little, but not much at all. false hope? i don't know. it's not a breaker switch ..or anything that a person with no knowledge of such things such as ourselves could deal with. and really, it made for some crabby souls around on the weekend. ugh. so,the a/c guys are supposed to come fix it today-- but i will believe that when i see it. honestly-- i don't expect to see it-- not today, at least.
on a good note-- we have decided to fish the tournament next friday night. sweet revenge--i hope.
hubby knows a couple guys this time who will be fishin it--so it should be a little less awkward at weigh in-- at least there will be a couple peeps that will be civil towards us.; they know me too-- and don't hate me. :)) one of them is his regular fishin partner for the other tourneys he has been fishin. he's an alright guy-- just a little uptight when he doesn't catch fish.
but that's alright. anyhow-- we are hoping to catch some good fish this time, and put these asshats in their place this time. and really are hoping for a better time. i know i'm bringin bug spray this time--- the gnats were a bitch -- did i mention that ? anyhow-- i already told my child not to call every ten minutes. so that should help. i hope. doesn't mean we will win money-- i just want some weighable fish-- bigger than "tinY"
welp-- i don't guess i have i have anything else to cry about-- i mean say. :))
well.. i do-- i just won't. yet . maybe i'll do that later. :))
hope y'all have happy days in your worlds today--
i am merely hoping i can maintain my people skillz.. and not yell at anyone today. i really don't handle the business aspect of people very well anymore. there was a time that i did. but people just really piss me off these days-- and i kinda have a way of lettin em know that a bit too often.
i'm thinkn soulman "gets" to deal with the a/c guys today-- that would be wonderful-- but it's only if they show up while i'm gone-- or before he goes to work. (at 3) -ugh.. let's all just hope that happens-- cuz i really already know-- i don't deal with them well. and well-- we already know i don't handle doctors well either huh? hmm.. i think i'm just kinda screwed today. dammit.
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