crybaby alert

by the looks of all the comments from the previous post-- it seems that something was in the air yesterday in blogland. WTH?? all of blogworld had a crappy day in one way or another . tired and bitchy was the theme of the day.

i don't think mine ever did get any better-- i do hope things changed for at least some of y'all.

i know a lot of things are going on in many of y'alls worlds that would throw me into a funk myself;
so i do understand. so it kinda makes me feel like a crybaby-- as usual, when i whine about my crap here.

it gets to where i just don't even want to write anything. but then i feel bad when or if i don't. so then i just end up feelin bad all over. do i write and whine-- or not write and whine. crap.

some days lately haven't been so bad here lately. at least not until recently. i think the thing that hit me hardest was after i found out the tests were good, believed that i would be able to drive, then found out that i was wrong about that. and then--- getting sick, and hubby having to miss work. not to mention.. some soulkid troubles-- not "trouble" just the normal teenager crap--that i know i should handle differently-- ugh. some days though i swear-- that girl amazes me.. she's like a kid straight from heaven... then other days-- i just wonder if i can ever fix what i didn't do right up to now. i'm sure there are ways... but they can't be easy. it would be a whole new regimen, and transition. i'm talkin all the way to her wanting to eat like a three year old again. as in her own separate meal at dinner time.. i had thought i had fixed that crap! finally after years of fixing two separate dinners-- she now decides-- she can't or won't eat this or that. after she had been for weeks etc. wtf , is UP with that-- at this age? why now?

ok-- you know-- i'm just venting here-- not asking for advice-- or criticism. we were all 14 once. i remember being 14. admittedly-- i did alot more than pick at what i was served for dinner, and skip a chore or two. or even tell a fib or whatever. it's just that some of the things she's doing-- i did-- because it was self preservation on my part. she knows she isn't gonna get shipped off "somewhere", or get her ass kicked, or something ... yet she pulls the i'm gonna see how far i can go and still get what i want card. and i'm tellin ya -- it isn't gonna last much longer.

ok--- now that you know why i am awake at 4 30 a.m... again. seein as i had been sleepin til 530-6 for the passed several weeks. no she isn't the only reason. but yes , i have my mind full of crap yet again. seems every day or two another hour or two gets knocked off my sleep again.
in some ways it's alright. i sorta like having time in the morning to myself. i always have really. i like no tv, or talking, or anything like that. it's just weird that i had begun to set my alarm , in order to get at least a half hour of alone time in the morning and was even sleeping thru that, and now here i am ....up before the chickens again.

my damn back is in knots .. yep--still. goin on over a week straight. wtf. yes i know-- i bitch about my back all the time-- but this is stupid. soulman finally broke down in my agony last night and gave me a massage-- it saved my life. i was about to cry it hurt so damn bad. it helped, and i was able to at least get to sleep.
but what did i think about while he did it? all i could think was "this isnt gonna last very long, i hope it works".. and also-- i hate motherfuckin doctors....how in the hell can or why, do doctors allow people to be in pain?"
i hate them. i do.

someone breaks a leg and gets a million pain pills, that they take four of and flush the rest--- another person who hurts daily for half their life , gets called a drug seeker---and can't get more than motrin without being treated like shit. so much so they become afraid to even ask for a pain pill. yep i'm talkin about me. i'm just sick of it. i have been in excruciating pain, "reduced myself" to go to the dr for meds.. finally get the nerve to go, and ask.. and leave in tears... after the lecture of chronic pain and narcotics, and all that crap. or other dumb shit. go to pt, go to a pain clinic. well, i went to a pain clinic.. he called me a drug seeker and told me to see a shrink, and take anti d's.. HEL_-LO--- hey asshole-- i JUST told you i have seen a shrink , And been on anti depressants for 12 years.. wtf difference is YOURS shrink gonna make with MY pain??
needless to say-- i left with nothing and never went back. if "counseling" hasn"t helped my pain or depression after 12 years--why the hell would it start NOW>?

see y'all i told ya i was a bitch.

and i tell ya what else. this no drivers license crap is killin me. i was thinkin last night-- ok.. i could drive around here-- wally hell is down the street, the pond is close, some other things i do are pretty close-- no highways involved etc....
BUT then-- i realized.. son of a bitch.. if i DO get stopped or get in a wreck--- that's another entire frickin YEAR without a license for driving on a suspended... isn't it????

and hubby cannot.. just can't-- keep taking time off-- to cart me around--and take me to dr's all the damn time. so what the hell am i supposed to do???

this is all catchin up with me .. fast.

and yesterday-- man i tell ya... i felt like i had been liftin weights. my arms and shoulders and chest-- from the heaving so bad--- good lawd. it took me a minute to figure out why i was so sore-- then it hit me... it was the pukin my heart out. UGH.

and dare i add--- my kitchen is a shithole once again. how it got this bad -- this fast-- is beyond me... but it looks like a friggin bomb went off in there-- well.. it did. i did everything except wash the dishes.. so it only looks like a bomb went off on the counter now. but geesh.

oh, and before anyone -- if anyone catches it and tells me-- i just now caught it myself-- the dropping the wellbutrin suddenly could quite possibly be causing some of the bitchiness etc. lethargy.. even a bit of depression... sudden med changes can always mess your head.

also the new dog-- she's a good dog..but apparently spent more time out in a kennel than in a house-- so we had one more accident yesterday-- only pee this time-- PHEW. but still-- no, i didn't expect it. i too thought we were getin a trained dog. it is a trained dog-- but apparently "house trained" wasn't part of the deal. it's trained for shutzhund and stuff.. not knockin on the door :))

she has btw, met the cats-- she doesnt care too much about them..they are afraid of her and hide most the time.
sushi is lightening up-- but still lets her know whos house and people this is. sushi is a bitch. and its funny to watch eevee back away from a min pin.
eevee is a belgian melenois-- not a shepherd. she's smaller-- but i still wouldn't wanna piss her off.

anyhow.. there's my crybaby attack for today-- perhaps something will lighten my mood today. i hope so.

it's fried-day

i'm tired
i'm bitchy
and that's about it for now

bbl

don't know if i told you this before ??

BUT THIS:

has always been one of my biggest fears.
just thought i'd share that with ya.



OH-- somethin else ???
THIS:

is comin on April 1st for the new season -
i just love this show-
Chef Ramsay is Such an ASS.
but he's a funny ass....
well.. unless he yelled at ME that way -
then i would prolly cry. :))

hiya peeps

hey y'all,
i don't think i'm gonna be around much today -- maybe -- maybe not. but last night was not pleasant here. so i will get caught up -- when feel more with it.

as for last night here?
'bout mid evening, i started gettin a migraine. always fun , right? not.




but -- i had -- well, hubby; picked up a new rx for headaches from the new neuro dr when he went to pick up the dog earlier . so i tried it. and OMG. not only did it make me sneeze for like ten minutes straight... which was actually kinda funny -- for a minute.
but a couple hours later, not only had the headache gotten worse-- and THREE soulkids running and screaming throughout the house only making it worse --

THIS- began---

and NEVER stopped !!!!
i honestly don't think i have EVER in my life
puked as much in my life !!
that's a lot of life people.
literally , EVERY ten-twenty minutes;
i would have an episode.
i was glad to have had a light dinner--
but by the time hubby insisted-
and i gave in- to go to the hospital-
i felt like i was gonna die.
UGH !
(this -vomiting went on from like 10 pm - 4 am. -
it was about 3 am, when we left for the hospital-on a work night, with three kids ,
and a new dog here.
can we say SOAB!?)

THIS is all that saved me :

as even sips of water would not stay where it belonged.
hell, SPIT wouldn't stay where it belonged. :((

and, ya know what else???
just so ya know-
it's NOT a good thing when ER staff becomes familiar to you-
especially when YOU are senile ME !
crap

so, anyhow.. they pushed IV's, gave me meds for

the headache
the puking
hydrortisone- for the addisons
and of course IV fluid

we were there about two hours i guess,
and we hated it-
but it was the only way either of us would get through the night.

soulman didn't even get mad at me, that he had taken that day off work already-
and would now be lookin at taking another day off-
no way could he teach after NO sleep, and a night like that.
but they were cool about it.
i feel so bad when i drag him to doctors in the middle of the night-
or at all really.
he's so good to me.

so ...
that's my story , and i'm stickin to it-

catcha latah

soulman delivered a healthy baby girl !!!

Welcome to the soul-crib
Eevie !!

she hasn't met the cats yet

but she had NO problem at all poopin ALL over my rug

without askin to go outside first !!!

otherwise, she is a very good dog,
and likes everybody.
sushi is a little dominant,
but is getting used to her.

hmmmph- day

well, hello again---

this was me this morning:

pretty chipper mood---
coffee was good---
i even had a surprisingly positive outlook on the day ahead--
i really believed that i would be getting my drivers license back
when i went to the doctor--
did i ???

well, no.
no, i did not.
and, i will not.
i have to wait for five more months
plus, two days if i must be technical.
how do i feel about that?
pretty damn bad.
how bad?

THIS BAD :

so , now what?
well, i don't really know.
but i'm not happy.
and i'm tired.
and i have plans that just got blown out the window.
and well,
i think i'm gonna go lay down for a while.

maybe the new doggie coming will help me feel better.
or maybe soulkid having company later will be a good distraction.
but for now?
i'm just toast.

soulland humpday-te

howdy peeps---


just a quick update on a few things around here---

soulkid---

she's better today-- in fact-- after her little episode in the morning.. and a few more hours of sleep-- she was fine the rest of the day--- had to have been dinner the night before. which was? chinese delivery = sweet and sour chicken. never again.

note to self : GROCERY SHOP- TODAY, SOUL; YOU LAZY SLOB !

sushi- also better. late in the day yesterday, she began acting a bit like her normal assinine self.
not 100 percent, but she's gettin there. she IS in heat. i knew it. just somehow knew it. maybe she just had cramps? do dogs get cramps????? this is at least her third heat cycle. she has never once acted so out of it. i don't know what her deal was. i still really think she was mistreated in some way. we will never take her back to that kennel, just in case. i know something happened. i wish i knew what. i am wondering if maybe they put her out in the yard to potty with other dogs, and maybe she "mated"??? that could surely throw off her mood. ya think??? if i end up with little mutt puppies as her first and only litter, i will be quite upset. as i had planned on breeding her only one time before fixing her-- if that. i'm still not sure if i want her to have a litter or not. i don't know if she has the sense to raise pups. :))
but anyhow-- yep-- she is getin better-- playin with the cats, us, eating, runnin, jumping, much better-- and we feel LOTS better about that too.

now i am trying to decide if i should attempt doggie diapers-- i really don't think she would wear one without ripping it to shreds in the first thirty seconds.. so i may just be doing a LOT of laundry this next week. :((

ok.. what else??
oh EEVIE-- of course. soulmans new wife. :))
y'all know i'm kiddin when i say that. it's just that he has had dogs like this before .. and he really puts ALOT of himself and his time and energy into them. and .. well.. he gets very overprotective of them. truly like they are a infant. dogs like this are very valuable-- not only financially-- but in this case it could turn into a legal issue as well.

the thing with this particular dog---
she is some kinda very special dog-- i mean her pups sell for ALOT... and they are basically ALREADY sold... and she isn't even pregnant! nor is the daddy dog chosen yet! that's how well known this dog is in the dog world. her pedigree is like GOLD to these trainers.

so anyways...
hubby "somehow, someway.... found this "something".. deal? situation? hell if i know... online somewhere.... where he would get this dog as a "co-ownership--- BUT, his end of the bargain is to breed her-- basically--- through artificial insemination by a dog of the "owners" choosing... then he /we.. will raise and "welp, the pups... then ship--at "owners cost.. the pups back to the "owner" at about ten weeks of age... keeping "pick of the litter"-- if we want-- or "a fee", if we don't... and we then keep eevie-- get her spayed.. at "owners " cost..... we --- or hubby--whichever--- also gets to keep some money for each "surviving pup" that gets shipped back to "owner". cuz well, sometimes a pup will die.. but it is rare.

the "owner" will pay ALL vet bills, not related to negligence on our part-- like if a cat scratches her eyes out--- or if she breaks a leg..etc.. but if somethin like that happens-- they have the right to REPO the dog.
they in fact have the right to take the dog back at any time.. for any reason. which is the catch all-- that bothers me.
the dog is our dog-- but it's kinda not at the same time. very weird. i have never heard of co-owning a dog before in my life-- but i guess it happens, and is common...
but apparently---other people end up paying a lot of money to do it--- and don't GET a lot of money for the pups etc.
soooo... hubby stumbled onto something really good actually--- as long as they don't decide they miss the dog and take her back.

my only fear? or two?
1)- something happening to the dog-- and getting sued some outrageous amount of money--and losing the dog
2) getting attached to the dog --and them taking her back.
3) soulkid is already worried about getting attached to the pups- and getting rid of them... that part i know whe can handle though-- she's done it with cats before--- but the thing about that is she always kept a kitty :(( BUT--- i have a very very strong-- and uneasy -- feeling-- that hubby just will not be able to pass up "pick of the litter" on a "famous" champion dog.
so-- i may not need to worry about that really... cuz i actually think we will end up keeping a pup.
therefore , in a few months... not sure about dogs--- 6-8 months??? hell i don't know-- but i think we will be a THREE dog family again. just kill me NOW.


ok... what else?

apparently nuthin....

well.. it doesn't sound like it's raining-- at the moment--- but it is cool enough to have the heat on. so i don't know what i will be doin today.

i know what i want and need to do though---

i MUST get my hair cut before i die---

oh yes, and i do have my follow up appt with the neuro-- for the seizure-- and am HOPING i get some kinda clearance to legally drive again!!! (hubby is going, but has to work afterwards)

then... i really really have to go to wally hell. if food poisoning doesn't kill us.. the price of eating out will. so i gotta get food in here and start cooking again.

(see that jlee? if we're doin lunch,
let's do it soon...cuz i really am gettin sick of goin out to eat!!!)

and i spose that is about it-- aside from a few errands.....


hope y'all have great days in your worlds.....

i'll try---

weekend photo edit

ok y'all here's my photo journal to go with the weekend post below---
(click photos if you can't see the deer
they're camo ya know :))

(look a deer !)

soulman- one of day 1 fish

me with my only scrawny ass bass
goo-lawd i NEED a hair-cut !

i couldn't not kiss my bass ya know

this was where they moved us--
the one they keep tryin to make us buy
NOT
(just so ya know how rich we are NOT--
we paid 7000.00 for our po peep place--
they keep trying to get 20-30,000 0ut of us)
they will NEVER get it!

however--- the elevator WAS tempting!
just kidding.
but it was very nice.

DEER!!!

i love deer

pret-tteee deer

soulman day 2 fishy

this would be me--
freezin my ever lovin ass off
on day 2
FISHLESS

this is hubby day 2
happy as a lark
with fish 2
not caring that he's cold
BITCH
:))

does this look like a 32,000.00 living room to you???
me neither
crazy bastards!!
it was nice-- but NOT that nice
(ours is a cabin btw-- and personally,
i like ours MUCH better than this frilly crap.)

ahhhhh but the tub was very nice.
i want one.

the view from the balcony-

the balcony-
with the very hard -painful chairs-
see why i smoked inside?
bad me.

(exotic ram hunts?)
explain?

this was in austin at
the drag.
i do not know this person..
just like the grafiti
and thought i'd say hi to y'all :))

surely at least some of ya know why i took this one???
it's just a thing .
:))
but it made me smile.

soulkid with souldad

goodbye hill country
we'll miss you.

it was very nice there
i just wish the weather would have been better.

i did get some good pix of the girls--
but i can't post soulkid 2 due to her request.
sooo that kinda sucks, cuz they're cute.

anyhow---

happy days to all of you.

looks like i'm stuck at home today--
i may venture to the store cuz we have NO food here
but the weather is really BAD so i dont know--
maybe i'll have soulman grab some stuff on his way home.

oh i just remembered--
his baby's' flight was canceled because of the storm..
she will be here tomorrow if the weather is better.
he will be really bummed when he gets home.
he was really excited about getting her today.

i need to get her pic reposted up here .
i'll do that later though.

bye

there she is
her name is Eevie
soulmans new wife
:))

tuesday stuff

hi folks--

haven't quite made it through blogland yet-- i'll get there in a few-- just wanted to get a little post up first.


finally HOME. funnay how just a few days away can seem like so much longer sometimes. it really feels like i've been away for a week, at least.


we picked up sushi from the kennel... she seemed really strange right away. she has been there several times before, and we have never had a problem. they call her "the screamer".. because she barkes.. ALOT. like constantly. so they keep her in the bathroom. to keep her calmer. seems to have always worked out ok. we pick her up-- and she is always thrilled to see us-- always her hyper, jumping, happy, crazy , sushi self. well... yesterday-- she was mellow, and quiet, almost skiddish, or scared.. she almost acted like she didn't even know me. it even crossed my mind that i had the wrong dog.. and the funny thing about that? soulkid said the same thing!
that is how odd she was acting.
another strange thing? soulman dropped some potato chips on the floor "our sushi" would have been on those chips in half a heart beat---- we had to point them out to her, and put her on the floor before she saw them, and even then, she acted like she wasn't sure she wanted to eat them... this is the dog that will snatch a dropped jalepeno off the floor and RUN into her crate with it before ya can take it from her!!! she's just acting sick-- or weird. maybe like they hurt her-- or did somethin to her. i don't know. i do think she is in heat-- or close to it. but that doesn't usually make her act this way. if she doesn't get better later or by tomorrow though-- i will have to take her to the doggy doc. i don't like this..at all.

so anyhow-- speakin of sushi--a little while ago-- i was writin this post-- and i heard her nails in the hall-- along with gagging noises-- so-- i think she's puking-- i'm like OH SHIT! she's sicker than i though-- it's parvo ! i jump up-- and go into the hall.. and what do i see???
soulkid! standin oin the hallway.. sushi at her feet--- near a puddle of barf.... and it's soulkid who is puking !!! lovely !!!
so-- i grab some towels.. and help her out. get her a bath runnin etc.
she doesn't have a fever-- so my guess is food poisoning-- we haven't had home cooked food for at least a full week.. who the hell knows what she ate that might have been bad. great. just perfect.
sick kid.. sick dog.
wth????

soooo--- to top that off--- i have a million things to do-- one of them being to get food in this damn house-- next being a haircut-- i look like damn BOZO -- for real-- my hair is gonna kill me !! but it's raining terrible outside-- so i just may not even leave-- and prollly shouldnt with a sick kid anyhow-

sooooo

that's MY mornin..
how's YOURS??

oh .. i almost forgot....
today is also the day hubby delivers his baby.

oh i mean.. gets his dog... :))

yep. i already know my new position in the family.
as of today, my whole world will change. i told him i felt that way-- he says it's not true-- but i already saw a bit of the truth in that last night--- and so did he. he didn't realize it til i called him out on it when he said something... but really, it's true. just watch and wait. you think i bitch alot now? just wait til a dog runs my life. :))

ugh.
well..
i hope you all have a great day today--

i'm not too sure about mine---
yet again.

They're Aftah Me Lucky Charms !!!

hiya peeps!

we're home---
and i am too tired to organize these pix---
so you get to figure them out--
i'm sure y'all know us well enough by now to figure out who we are?
and the rest should be easy enough?
sorry-- i'm just beat.
maybe i will arrange them later or tomorrow.


anyhow-- i shall catch up with y'all later on.

(this is me clickin my heels together--
there's no place like home...)

Howdy folks..

We’re almost there. Phew—twenty more minutes --- hopefully.

What a day. Man I’ll tell ya. One hold up after another today. But we finally got here. Sorta…

we didn’t get to see much , as the entire trip has been in the dark. But, a few things we have seen?

1- a taco sale at Rosas café in Wac0.. guess how much? $3.33 ! lol it wasn’t exit 333 though—I was surprised actually—it was exit 346 I think.

2---We also stopped at a place for dinner—I couldn’t believe how slooooow they were. When we got there—we had to go in, for a order to go, cuz we couldn’t take the boat thru the drive thru- - so we go in.. I was keeping an eye on the boat outside—hubby went to wash his hands—and the girls went ahead to order--- hubby comes out—the kids still standing in line—no one in front or behind them.. ..i find out what he wants, he goes outside to watch the truck—I get in line behind the girls—we stand there for five or ten more minutes before their order gets taken… then the girl walks away---- ten minutes later I’m STILL standing there—now with like five more people behind me—I haven’t even ordered yet—flaming mad---- my back was killin me btw… I told the kids – “get your food we’re goin somewhere else for ours” –

so, they finally come out , maybe five minutes later, and we go somewhere else for our food----we were in and out in five minutes, and back on the road. I bitched the whole time I ate my sandwich—which was all I had any appetite left for…

then 3--- we got about half an hour or so down the road---- and came upon an accident…. First thing I said was--- just think, “after all that bitchin about the food bein slow, if they weren’t, we coulda been in that wreck!”

Never know huh?

4-- here is something you can laugh at—ME :))

we’re drivin through Austin…just on the highway—we didn’t exit—but from the highway I see a (well several actually—but a building, that looks like a building I had seen in Washington DC with my dad – when I was real young. Like 5 or less. So I go back in my mind to that conversation with my dad ..many moons ago… and I try to hear the conversation between me and Charlie browns parents… (AKA, my dad)---(this is when I realized that is why charles shultz chose the “mwa mwa mwa mwa” to be the adult language in the cartoon. Because in my memory—that is all I could hear—I could see images alright—some-- but the conversation was exactly that—

my dad to me “ mwa mwa mwa mwa, capital, mwa mwa mwa”

me to my dad “hmmm”

SO—I ask hubby—

Hey hubby--- “is Austin the capital of texas? (feeling in my gut as I heard myself say that--- that it is, and I had two teenagers in that car that were very close to calling me some very unkind names… perhaps beyond stupid, being one of them…) you know the feeling that you just answered your very lame question, only by hearing it out loud? I knew the answer—and I knew the building I was looking at was the capital building—which was gonna be my next—now unneeded question.

So, needless to say—hubby , and the kids, and myself , all got a laugh, at my lack of knowledge—or let’s say…. Lapse of knowledge—cuz it did return.. it just took a minute. Or two. Senile , ya know.

5---- we have just seen a whole bunch of deer—like two or three separate little – wth are they? – “herds” ? – one of 3 and one of 5 and another of three—pretty cool. Soo here I am in my stupidity--

me to soulman.. I take it it isn’t hunting season?

Soulman to me—it’s over

Me to him—ahh, yep, I thought they seemed a bit overly confident

Him to me—haha, ya, they’re sayin = “we made it!”

See what you miss when you aint around?? :))

And guess what?--- we are a few miles away from the place, so I’m gonna pack this thing back up—I don’t know yet if we will have internet or not—but as soon as I know—you will know too-

Until then-

Ore-vois :))

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315 .am……

HOLY CRAP! So much for my cheery mood. Which by the way—had fluctuated throughout the day anyhow—anything that was supposed to be scheduled in anyway, failed to remain in anyway on time. Or anywhere near it.

1-- an appointment that was supposed to take two or three hours – ended up taking like 5 ½ … no kidding. I was pissed . I had so much crap to do too—and I was stuck. I couldn’t even eat—until that was done.. which wasn’t until like 2:30 pm.. well maybe at about 130—but I then had to take sushi to the kennel, then pay my cell bill, then go to the po box, and mail my other bills. Oh—not to mention—washing the damn dishes and laundry at like 6 or 7 a.m. that’s always real fun very first thing in the morning. NOT. and then i was able to eat.

And—my coffee tasted like swill this morning..and I don’t know why. It was horrid.

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Well, shit- I totally lost my train of thought—where was i?

Who knows--—but anyways--we are finally IN our condo.

We actually did make it here right about on schedule… it actually was like 105 a.m when we got here---BUT--- it was 130 before someone showed up to the closed office to check us in.

Then instead of giving us a room for three nights—they gave us a room for one night—and we have to get a different room tomorrow for the remainder. Don’t ask ME why.

So we take the room , and we leave. Just ready to go the hell ta bed.

All of us were exhausted, not to mention crabby.

So, we pull out to go.. and guess what—we end up trapped in a no outlet road—about two car width wide—with the damn boat! Hubby had to back the flippin boat—at least a half a mile—maybe more---in the damn dark… omg it was horrible. And time consuming. Very, it took at least half an hour to get out of that mess.

And you surely do not think it was the least bit relaxing? Talkative? even sarcastic? He was soo pissed off. As I would have been .. I would have parked and cried I bet. But I tried to help .. in fact sitting all twisted backwards trying to help him not hit anything ---and that was not an easy task for my already aching neck , back, and everything else—but I tried… but every time I said anything—all I got was attitude. (to put it nicely).. so I just tried my best to keep my mouth shut. Well , we obviously finally got out of there—it took for damn ever. He did really well though. I couldn’t have done it for $10,000.00 – not for any amount of money--- not without crackin up or hittin a car or a person or something. There were all kinds of dents and dings in dumpsters and fence rails from other boats or vehicles backing out of there.

Ugh. But anyhow—he was quite pissed off. And well, assy. but, we did manage to get out of there—it was a miracle that no one attacked anyone. All four of us were getting pretty evil by now. Well.. not soul-kid2--- she’s been pretty quiet at these moments… but I know she’s prolly at least wanted to tell us to shut up—or maybe even grow-up. Ugh.

This was really not a good trip up to now—and combining the check-in fiasco with a day gone wrong—it was pretty tense in the car. Most of the time. Even though we took turns trying to lighten the mood when the another was getting too out of hand. :))) funny how that happens.

then we finally find our damn “room”… our THIRD floor- non-smoking- room. OMG.. I was sooo sore and stiff.. and hobbling—well more like I’d been hobbled. We weren’t sure we were in the right place—so I went up to check the door--- the key opened the bedroom door—which had a chain on it—but not the main door—which should have opened. UGH. I was sooo pissed , and tired, and sore, and angry, and bitchy… I went back down.. pissed … we called security—the after hours “people”-- sat there for 20 MORE minutes before I called someone again--- and complained and bitched..and hung up on the idiot—who was no help at all.

Finally security came and opened the door—how’d he do it? by reaching his arm through the door and knocking the chain off!—boy, we sure feel safe. :))

at 3 “something” frickin a.m…

It is now 341. and I am blind and falling asleep/.

So I am goin ta bed.

Happy nights all…

Latah..

I must sleep…

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Blog day 2

Happy satahday peoples—

I hope yours is good so far—well I hope it stays that way too of course.

Mine? Well… so far—it isn’t lookin great. I do hope it picks up. I’m worried that it won’t. so far things haven’t gone so well. You know yesterday wasn’t the greatest of days. Schleprock was on my shoulder again.

Things did fall into place—for the most part--but they weren’t really in one piece when they landed. But hey—we got here—we got here safely—we did get in the room, and did get some sleep. Everyone else is still sleeping---me on the other hand---I coulda slept a bit longer I’m sure--- but I woke at 7 a.m. to THE MOST god awful “something on TV. I don’t know wth it was. It sounded like “devil music” as my mother woulda called it. I think it was some kinda low budget horror movie—I didn’t stick around long enough to find out. I got up and got out of there.

Then I came out here and made coffee—some nasty-ass coffee I might add—but hey—this is the first time—literally—that we have come to one of these places and NOT had the coffee pot leak all over the kitchen—so at least that much was good.

While the coffee was making, I went on the patio—the cold ass patio---- to smoke a cig—then came in for my coffee--- then took it outside for another cig… realizing that not only was I cold, sitting on a hard wooden chair, drinking SWILL two days runnin –weak swill this time-- (it was WAY too strong yesterday)--- I finished my cig, and came back in , and decided to write.

I am sooo far behind in my writing on here—I feel guilty actually. I have been so out of it lately it’s just stupid. I just haven’t had anything to write about . I don’t want to whine or complain.. I know I do though—but I don’t want that to be my “theme” here…. I don’t actually “do much” or “go anywhere”.. so I honestly don’t have many options when it comes to writing topics. And all that really does is piss me off—and prolly y’all too. Sorry about that. I’ll work on it. maybe I’ll come up with another “story” to tell ya about something. Not sure what yet… but something along the lines of the biker bar story. That one went well. :))

So anyhow—lost my place again… oh.. my smoke-n choke—more like joke of a smoke n choke---- ugh. My third cig??? I decided to take the risk and just smoke it right here in my non smoking room… in fact I think I shall have another. But only one more inside—after that—I can only hope it is warmer outside—warm enough to open the door at least—and air this place out--- soulman will nag—and I will get some outrageous fine of two or three hundred dollars for smoking in here.

Oh—speaking of odors and breaking rules---

Guess what else we have in here that we shouldn’t??? MICE! Oh relax—they’re “pets”.. they’re RATS to me.. but pets to my child. But they couldn’t be left home alone, cuz they’re little pigs, and would eat all their food in one day, and be dead when we got home. So we had no choice but to bring them. And I don’t know if any of you have ever had mice—but they smell like like cat pee!!

I had sporadic episodes during the ride in the truck.. where I would smell “cat urine”. I would smell my shirt, my arms etc..even my shoes!!! Just trying to figure why the hell I smelled like cat pee…???? Wth??? Finally after hours of this—I do mean hours—it wasn’t until we were sittin outside our condo in the truck, waiting for security to come let us in.. that soul-kid-2—said that the mice smelled like cat pee !!! well woo hoo—at least it wasn’t ME!!!! BUT---- boo-hoo, how the hell am I gonna get cigarette AND cat pee smell out of the room???

ERG!!!!

Sooooo….. anyways, here I am… for over a week, I played out in my mind that right now—I would be on the lake—with at least a couple fish on my tally by now--- instead? I’m fearing the wrath of a hefty fine of smoke and pet dander! (in a smoke and pet free room) :)) Wondering if I will be able to retain any sense of composure or pride when we go to change rooms this morning—and NOT rip someones head off for our “check-in disaster” last night… which led to our inability to fish early today.

Remember—I am the spawn of “gran gran” and anything is possible—when things don’t go my way :))

Anyhow— that’s our weekend getaway—up til now---

Which so far—is very much along the lines of one of the griswalds family vacations.

I’ll check in later.

Obviously—there is NO internet here…. :((

But—I sure am glad I brought my computer—I couldn’t handle another pen blogging experience at this point.

--- Saturday wrap up-------

---- it’s almost 11 pm… we just got back from dinner a little while ago. I must say – it wasn’t very good. Neither was lunch for that matter. Which actually sucks. One thing I look forward to on these little getaways—good food.. different food..and oftentimes—food I don’t have to cook—or clean up after. Well—so far—I’d rather be cookin, cleaning—and at least enjoying it.

but anyhow. It does its’ job I reckon.

Today was a decent day. I miss having the internet—and talking to y’all. And reading y’alls pages. It’s actually weird and throws me off a bit to not know what’s goin on in blogland for a while. Yes even just a few days.

Especially after I saw the news today--- tornadoes, and cranes collapsing … geesh—I do hope everyone is ok.

As for todays soul-news? I woke up after about 3 or 4 hours of sleep. After hubby woke up (surprisingly not surprised – or upset - that I was smoking inside :)) ) we went and fishing for a while..only an hour or two though. It was after ten I think before we even got to the lake.

The morning was a bit of a fiasco. Trying to get our room changed. The new one wasn’t ready the first time we checked—so we fished – then tried again—still not ready—so we ate lunch—got a pizza to go for the girls—still not ready—shit—came back to the room, ate, called – still not damn ready—so we took a nap. Still not f’n ready….. soo hubby took the girls to the rec center… and got a boat ramp pass…..By then after dropping them off , and going to the marina etc the maid had walked in on me once, and called me once—they wanted me outta the room so they could clean it…

I thought they would toss me out, but hubby finally showed up and we moved…. Luckily we got “upgraded”..because they were overbooked – score!!! (to the “presidential” condos. Hmmm. Which btw – would be the one they keep trying to get us to buy.. NOT!

Anyhow – I am

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Blog Day 3

Well—it’s sorta day three—but technically day two—

I can’t say it’s a bad day—but I can say—I wish it was better. The weather gods have let us down this weekend. I don’t know what happened.. but the forecast I read on thursday—is not the weather we are having here. And it has destroyed our fishing. Which does not make me happy. Not that I’m not having a good time otherwise. But I did come here- mainly - to fish—and due to the wind it has really been nearly impossible to fish. Yesterday—we fished only a couple hours—at the most—and even less today. And today was frickin cold too—making it even worse. And what’s worse than wind and cold, on a boat while you’re fishin??? Yep you guessed it—NOT catching anything ! ERG. I did get one yesterday—but not any today. Hubby got hell I don’t even know now—three or four yesterday—and two today. DAWG! Fishin off the back of the boat makes a difference—but really—I shoulda got at least one today—and since I didn’t I am kinda bummed, cuz I am pretty sure we won’t have a chance to fish again before we leave tomorrow.

Today we have our lovely meeting, the sales pitch that we must endure for the pleasure of staying the weekend here. I really hate these things. I hope this one goes better than the last. I hope they just take no for an answer—and let us leave—without making one of us too mad. Last time.. soulman got highly pissed, and it wasn’t pretty. It was a bit amusing though. :)) well—to me .

Anyways—after that—we promised the girls that we would take them into Austin and let them do some shopping… oh I know-- y’all know how much I LOVE to shop—ugh. I feel the pain already. My frickin back has been killin me for days. I don’t even know why. It hurts often.. but It feels like I’ve done something to it—and I don’t think I did. Maybe it’s the inactivity since the seizure--- I don’t know. But I know “I can’t like it!”

Soo—I just may end up finding somewhere to park my ass and have coffee while they all have their little shopping excursion. Too bad the whole world has gone non-smoking. That surely pisses me off.

Hmmm… what now? I don’t know where I left off yesterday.

I just took a bath in the jet tub here--- makes me miss mine in my old house. That’s prolly ALL I miss about the old house—but I do miss it. it helps my back. Even if it is only for a little while. But now – I have water in my ears—and no q- tips. Yep—that irritates me too.

But not as much as the tiny non-jet – havin tub we have at the new house.

So anyhow—I reckon I shall go outside and have a cig, then maybe try for a nap before our encounter with the sales bitch… I mean pitch. I have occasional moments of bravado and smoke inside—but this is not one of them.

Soooo—I spose I will catch yall later on, after all the hell I must face later in the day.

Weeee’re baaaackkk---

Phew. What a day. It’s almost a quarter after nine (pm) and I am whooped.

I’m tired, my back hurts, yes still, and someone moved in upstairs and they sound like a herd of frickin longhorn cattle. AND—they have a damn dog—a large dog—on their balcony – barking, constantly. Ugh. Great timing. I swear, people never sleep at these places. Last year when we came with my bro in law—there were like twenty kids running like a pack of rabid wolves, constantly , upstairs, downstairs, through the passageways, through the courtyards, it was horrible, all hours of the night and day… I’m too old for this shit. I need my beauty rest :))

Anyhow—we just got back from Austin. It wavered on the fun scale. As well as the assy scale. I will include myself here—but I will also add that I think I was the one who tried the hardest to NOT be an ass today. I don’t know what the deal is , but this has been a very odd weekend.. as far as “vacations” go. Every one of us had at least twenty different levels of attitude a day--- and wavered from one to the other—at any given moment in time. I actually shouldn’t include “soul-kid-2” she has actually been the best of us—and I feel bad for her. I’m afraid that she has been bored, and uncomfortable a lot of the time.. even though we have tried not to make it that way for her. But geesh, I don’t know what to do about it. I guess by now—she sees the finish line, and knows that she will live one more night to make it home. She did say she loved me….. (she never said that before).. so I don’t guess it’s as bad I think it is. It’s just been kinda rough.

Well, anyhow—wanna hear about our sales meeting? It was lame—as usual. It was a guy, an older man, kinda. He was nice. Not too pushy. But of course held us captive longer than we cared to stay. Like about an hour. He went through his speel, then of course had to get his guy to come do the money part—guess how much they tried to get us to spend this time? Friggin 32, 000.00 --- are they crazy or something??? I think they must be. Really. Look at me. Do I look like a person who’s gonna spend that kinda money on a time share? No. especially when the first thing I say is—“we can’t afford to upgrade”. Hmmmm. What part of that do ya think they didn’t understand?

Geesh.. do I even LOOK like I HAVE any money? Ya, I thought not.

So anyhow--- we left that—then headed to Austin.. it was supposed to be like 45 miles. Well, I guess it is 45 miles—ish. But - we are US. We ended up behind a wreck. Of course we didn’t know it was a wreck for the longest time. We thought it was just traffic. Really bad traffic. Then we started thinking, gawd, this HAS to be a wreck. We were inching our way up the road, bumper to bumper—stop and go—for like 45 minutes—maybe longer—we finally get up on the accident…. A big ole RV, and a SUV I think.. and a cop… blocked one whole lane.. there was no shoulder due to construction… so it ruined the entire three lane highway. And everybodys mood. I tried tho--- believe it or not—I maintained--- up until the last ten minutes. By then I was ruined. I couldn’t take it anymore. That’s when the arguing started again, between soulkid and souldad..and I just couldn’t stand it. UGH. But—fifteen minutes later--- we were at our destination…

“the drag” … or so I was told… the kids made a big deal out of this place. A street really --- where they wanted to go, and walk, and shop, and eat etc. well… they had the “drag” part right. Half the shops were closed for the night. It was pushin like 6 by the time we got there due the wreck. We left here around four. Ugh. They went to three stores and jamba juice—we went to jamba juice and went pee—and paid 8 bucks to park . yippee—freakin—ay.

Well… the kids had an ok time, we walked and talked, and “people watched”, and adjusted our attitudes. Then met up with the kids and we all left and headed back . stopped to eat on the way.

And that my little friends is about it.

Bet you wish you were here.

Dontcha?

Maybe next time huh?

Plans for tomorrow?

Get up early—if it isn’t freezing with 40 mph winds—we may go fish for a couple hours before we check out of here--- if it is crappy weather—we’ll just hit the road and hope it goes smooth and fast…cuz I want to be home and see my sushi—I miss her.

And I miss y’all too—

More tomorrow…

Goo-nite

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Blog final four

Welp—morning folks---

This is it. our fourth and last day. We check out at noon—if not sooner. My guess? Sooner. The weather has been a bitch – as far as getting much fishing done. The wind has been just unbearable—unsafe even. Total tally? Day 1 - Me = 1 – day 2 - zip

Soulman = day 1=3 day 2= 2

As for today== well…. I figured since it was windy already off the lake, I would let hubby sleep in, and see if we could maybe do something with the kids—but not fish… but the weather just came on the news--- and it doesn’t look good—not at all.

Austin area--- under a flash flood watch--- although--- no rain yet… wind and clouds = yes.

Dfw area=== severe weather warning-

Aint it just GREAT???

Our entire 6 hour road trip--- pulling a damn boat—is liable to be filled with not only traffic…as it was on the way down… but rain and wind as well.

I don’t feel very good about this.

Hubby is a good driver, and I’m not so worried about his driving--- but, I don’t trust the other people on the road.. or the wind blowing the trailer on a wet road etc.

Can you say…

It’s cuz I am ME ??????

I swear it’s true

And I just can’t believe that it’s karma--- we’re good people. This is the curse. It’s just crap that just happens. I’m just glad I’m able to not let it stress me out---

Well, TOO MUCH.

I have been able to find the good this weekend, and have a good time—considering. I’m glad we went away.. I hope we get home safe—and actually, I’m confident that we will.

And I miss y’all, and am lookin forward to catchin up with everyone.

And well// by now, you’ve seen all the pix.. aren’t deer awesome? I had a bunch more deer pix, but they were out of focus.. bummer. We saw tons of deer out here. I was happy happy happy—that the pix at the boat ramp/marina came out, I think they are just awesome!

Well…. I guess that’s about it for now… not a very eventful weekend. But it was fun.

I do hope y’all have had a GREAT weekend!!!!

C-YA