she's a soul-kid and she's all mine :))

• so. how are you peeps doin out there? hope all is well in your worlds and lands of far away. or not so far away in some cases. things are runnnin fairly smoothly in the land of soul these days. perhaps i'll try to make it short and sweet and try a first ever "bullet post" HA. yeh , we'll see right? is anything ever short-- OR sweet, when it comes to me, or this blog? i thought you'd say that. but really, one of our laptop cords got fried, and that leaves me here with only battery power -- to sleep blog no less. so, let's hope i finish this post before A] the batttery dies or B] i do. ugh.

ok, here's the passed few days happenins-
in no particular order.

• i shall start with none other than my child. -- AKA "soulkid" . as most of you know, she had missed a lot of school recently . about 6 weeks, maybe more. she now is beginning her ninth school day tomorrow. in the 8 days that this girl has attended school at this new school; she has already completed TWO courses, and earned TWO FULL credits ! i cannot not brag. i tried to be humble the last time i mentioned it when she knocked out english - in 4 days. but c'mon folks--- another class-- another credit -- in another 3 days? genius . no less than a genius . and she's mine. i can't accept the credit for her brilliance. i wish i could. but i really think she got that from her dad. he is an intelligent man. it's not like i stumbled into a fishin farm and chose the first guy i saw with a fish in his hand. no no no. i got to know him, and to be honest-- his intelligence is one of the things that i actually found to be intriguing about him. most guys i was used to 'dating' were wrench turners in the navy with me. not to put myself down. it does take some knowledge to troubleshoot, repair, and keep a airplane in the air. but - honestly, it's a different type. ya know?so anyhow-- yep. her next two classes, that we don't expect her to complete in the very few weeks left of school, are math and biology. two very tough classes. but if by chance she does.... do y'all realize realize-- that would be four - FOUR - high school credits earned in less than eight weeks? that is amazing to me. she is amazing to me. i am bursting with pride for that girl. and i just wanted to let ya know that :)) so now ya know.

• ummm. next? that would be my coffee pot / maker debacle. y'all know my birthday came and went-- right along with mothers day. so between those two spoil soul days, and the closeness of them. i did get spoiled, and too much money was spent. unintentionally. it was spread out over like a week or two, so we didn't notice so much til it was too late. lemmee just say it's been a tough 2-3 days round here. but no one's gone hungry or suffered without anything-- like cigs , coffee, gas, food, etc. bills are ALL paid--and on time-- ouch- i think i hurt myself pattin my back there. but anyhow-- we finally got the Kuereg we've been wanting for a long time. we haven't had it long enough yet to figure out if it saves money yet or not-- but it wasn't cheap to find out. we do love it tho. it would cost an arm and a leg if i still had a two pot a day habit- but i don't. between us, we may drink 6 or 7 lil cup things a day. and if my math is right-- which it is prolly not- i figure they cost maybe 46 cents each. so-- yeh i don't know yet. i know before we dumped about half a pot a day out. so hell if i know-- but i like it- cuz i don't struggle with it- soulman doesn't feel like he has to get up just to make coffee- i can use it easy cheazy. and it's good coffee. hopefully, in the long run it will turn out to be a money saver. we shall see.
• also-- there was this--- it was a last minute duel day thing for me. not cheap. i know, right. we really need to grow up some. ok a lot. we've never been good with money though. i mean bills always get paid. late perhaps-- maybe days- or weeks-- but always paid. but as for saving anything. we have always sucked at that. tomorrow is payday-- and as for checking and savings? we are starting with close enough to a zero balance. a lot of shit came up tho-- like the fridge, and dr's and the stuff i mentioned. oh and the thing i'm workin up to here :{ you'd get it too-- if you were me (Soul)... i already have this one---

so how could i pass up this one?
it's been discontinued-- last chance deal-


soulman wanted me to have it- and so did i
so we got it. it's a "SOL"

• and hey, what the hell, i had 30 bucks cash in my mothers day card-- yeh i know -- but it was from the petty cash fund :)) so before the reel was even thought of -- i already spent that money on fishin baits and tackle. -- which btw i haven't been able to even use ANY of-- due to crappy weather-- or pain.

• speakin of which -- i had those shots in my spine on, umm, monday. they seem to have helped some. i'm taking less meds. limping less noticeably-- not like "Egor" , things are more comfortable. i even went to the grocery store-- alone- for the first time in literally months, and got a few days groceries. and carried it in and put it away. go me. go mr doctor man. hey any little bit is a miracle. right.

• i reckon there aint much else to say. oh cept we have been bantering back and forth on our TN vacation plans. worried about the flooding and the lake conditions out there. but apparently it's all settled now. it seems that the place we are going is and will be fine for what we are planning. so we shall be headed out to kentucky lake area the end of june. hooray for that. lookin forward to it. we are gonna meet a looong time friend from blog land. known her a few years, and she's like the lil sis i never had. my partner in crime. we'll see what kinda trouble we can get into. out there in redneckville :)) it'll be great fun. i know it will. plus soulkid gets to take a friend along as well. so it should be fun for all. boatin, fishin, tubin, eatin, name it--- if it involves food, fishin, water, sun, fun, bein free in the south in the summer on the lake-- y'all know that's my calling. i can't wait!
• haha-- looks like i outlasted my battery-- for once-- i think i also have run out of stuff to say.

but there you have the soulland update-- kinda sorta.

what's happenin at your place?
any big plans on the way?

i must sleep now-- hope y'all get good sleep- and a pleasant tomorrow :))

i saw ray charles in a memphis airport - sadly, he didn't see me.

[Very similar to THIS ]

true story. years ago. back in the day. i told soulkid the story for the first time the other day. i got only that far when she said "awww". soulman then tells her "He was blind". she found that to be quite funny. i didn't even need to finish the story- it now remains just a joke in just one line. a soul original -- but it's for real. only me i reckon. my whole life could be one funny compilation of one liners if i were a good joke teller. it would also be a best selling novel if i'd ever get to frickin writin. i recently invested in a brand new and not very cheap desk top computer, for the sole reason of writing said novel... non fiction--under the guise of fiction, of course. i chose a name for the book and everything. have i typed a single word yet? well. no. no i haven't. oh, i did write the title -- umm, type and save the title i should say. but, yeh. no further have i gone.

there was a time several years ago though- on my first attempt at the same book- with a different title ... i had over 200 single spaced, type-written pages down. IN my computer-- with NO back up. (SIGH) then it happened. our computer crashed. and with it, went my book. and any gumption i had to write it. anything since then have merely been bad attempts at bad attempts. bleh. i am a disillusioned soul as i think about that. and no, it isn't due to lack of encouragement. many many folks have told me i could, and-or- should write a book. i've had offers from folks who would even help me write it. i appreciate all of that - i always have -- it has been coming my way for many years-- longer than i have been blogging, but obviously a lot more since i have been writing publicly. anyhow-- yeh, i don't know why, but i for some reason, lack the confidence i need in order to put this life in book format. i also know -- if i would just start writing-- it would get written. anyways-- i have no idea why i just said all that-- i spose it's a sample of my fear of writing a book. a real editor would want a million dollars to edit through my chicken scratch senility bloBettes. how do i just get to the meat of it all? and with soulman on x-box live, no less. just haelP me.

so anyways----


i bet ya cash money ya couldn't find my ass with a magnifying glass without catching it on fire first ! :))

nope- i can't take credit for that one. but like i said before, my life is a book full of one liners. believe it or not- my second in a lifetime (male) masseuse said that to me the other day whilst i got a massage. i always ask for a woman, but my girl moved and he was the only one that new my medical issues... so really no choice--- and i go for medical reasons, deep tissue - not fru-fru stuff. so get your heads outta the gutter :))
anyhow-- that was funny -- cuz really -- it's almost true-- lotsa folks tell me i have NO ass. :))

ok, i'm boring even myself, looks like bedtime for soulio.

but wait-- remember when i said soulkid was smart enough , and motivated enough to catch up on her classes? well guess what? she has been in this school for literally four school days... came home on friday to tell us she finished English for the YEAR!! GO Soulkid !! that , my friends-- is after completely missing SIX WEEKS of school. what? i aint braggin. just sayin :))

ok then. g'nite folks --
see ya manyana

happy monday ! needles in the spine anyone?

howdy folks --- how ya be?
here? oh, just tryin to mentally prepare myself for yet another trip to the dr. yeh. the one that sticks long thin needles into my spine. i can't believe i trust this guy-- or any person, actually, to do such things to me. but i do. always hoping for better results than the time before, and rarely seeing that. the first time i had this procedure done, i saw no less than a miracle. four months of a new body. nearly pain free legs, back and neck. i actually lived a somewhat normal life for quite some time. until i got scared and began to slow everything down, in fear of hurting myself. then of course in my fear and laziness and babying of myself the pain did return... and pretty quickly too. seems like once that happened? shots, and even a 'rhizotomy' have only made things worse. (just google it.) if i say - they cut and cauterized my nerves in my back? it sounds awful-- but of course it was. i could barely move for months. i was supposed to have the other side done two weeks later-- think that happened? oh hell no-- and it never will. it was worse than consistent child birth for four months straight.
anyhow -- yep- that's my plan for the day today -- have a look at this video here on this link -- fun stuff i say :O
wish me luck though -- when it works, it's wonderful. when it doesn't ? it's a very expensive disappointment.


Epidural Steroid Injections for Back Pain and Leg Pain Video

anyhow-- my mothers day was fabulous. painful for the most part -- but i was treated like a queen all day. i got cards, flowers, a wonderful brunch, soulkid watched a movie in bed with me while i recovered from the drive and the way too much food, then soulman joined me when she got bored. then we got up and watched some tv when our old bones couldn't lay down any longer. and i can't tell you about the rest of the evening -- but it was not disappointing. :> bwa hahahaha

i hope all you moms -- and dads -- and everyone else out there had just as good days as i did.
tell me about it k?
i must go get ready to be the voo-doo doll of the day-- then of course i have to spend some time sleepin off the sleepy meds. after that- i'll be floatin around somewhere.
see you peeps later--

happy days in your worlds my peoples-
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

it's 10 PM, do you know where your SOUL is?

i do-- fallin asleep tryin to post. i know i have been MIA for a few days-- it can't be helped. i'm busy. and i can't stop. soon as i can stop to catch my breath-- y'all will be the first to know-- and get the run down on the update of the goin in ons arounds soul land.
not really much major -- good - or - bad. just a lot of playin catch up. and not doin too bad .

anyhow-- i shall try to find time to get up to date with y'all tomorrow. at least somewhat.
if not-- happy mothers day to all my mom friends :))

have happy spoiled mommy days -- i believe i will. :))
g'nite :))

just so ya know ---

no folks, i haven't fallen off the face of the earth or anything. i am still kickin. somewhat. sort of. ok, not really. i'm actually still attempting to recover from a couple days of a pitiful attempt at a quick spring cleaning of the soul-crib. thank God for the soul clan, they helped in a huge way in making the house presentable for my sis, and a long time family friend to arrive. they came on, i don't even remember what day, but left yesterday morning. the cats flew in from London to DFW on ummm... tuesday, i think, then they left early yesterday a.m. well, sorta early. they got back to her place, making pretty good time. the lot of us were sooo exhausted i think we all coulda used a stay in some sort of friggin 'home' with zero responsibilities for a few days. i know i still need a day or two to fully recuperate. i was busy all day yesterday. and all of this morning so far. i'm hoping to be done with all of my 'have to do's, very very soon, and jump back into my jammies for the rest of the day- and spend it in bed til it's time to pick up the soulkid at school. YES you did hear that right . AT SCHOOL. her first day was yesterday, and we are all thrilled. even her. i'm so happy. she is too. she only has 4 or 5 weeks left of school til summer break, but there is a three night a week option of night school. she is willing to go... it's ME who is worried that she will get overwhelmed and overloaded-- and burnt out, and let her grades fall. i asked about going one night a week-- that is a possibility-- i want to see how things go this first week though. then of course there's summer school -- but wouldn't ya know it-- BOTH classes -- are at times BOTH of our trips are planned. dammit. so. we shall see how that goes. but i will tell ya she's glad to be in school-- occupied , and "not a bum". as she called it.

SMOCHAS better and more detailed blog post of our visit .. i just don't have the brain power for such things :((

anyhow peeps-- i just wanted to check in with ya and say hello. so. hello peeps.
hope all is well in your worlds. i'm just tryin to catch up and chill in mine. things are beginning to look a little bit like my own world again. i don't know how to react. :))

photo challenge pix -- circles -- from the depths

someday, i'll remember, and 'be prepared'. but, once again, i ran to my files for a quick save:

Brenda Photo Challenge -
Topic, Circles -

me n soulkid -
actin a fool
and likin it too :))

el yard boy, en transporte`

my eldest nephew -
need i say more? :))

the greatest cat in the world -
jitterbug waitin on santa - 2009

my soul-fam with micky mouse
circa 2002 - ish


there ya have it -- circles round soul land

happy weekends to ya peoples

of to see yo pictchyas now :))

and then there was me

howdy folks --
what it be like?
not too bad here. just makin my 'list' for the day. it gets longer by the second, and that kinda intimidates me. why? well, cuz i haven't been very successful with lists lately. or much at all really. this past month has been a tough one. it's alright tho. i feel a come-back in me. i really do. this past week, i have been doin a lot better in the area of responsibilities round the soul-crib. it took a lot of self-abuse, and loathing. but things are lookin up.

i see success on the horizon. this makes me feel good, and more 'myself'.
i also see a little light at the end of the looooong tunnel, as the news of soulkid going back to school has finally come in. just the hint of 'getting my life, and routine ' back; makes me giddy :)) y'all may think i don't have much of a life to begin with -- but trust me -- i actually do. and the way it has been, with things the way they are -- it has been very hard for me, in the area of motivating-- and even thinking. did someone say 'relaxing'? oh no. that rarely happens. in fact, just yesterday -- and i place no blame -- this is completely me and my medical state -- but -- i had actual plans to be productive -- even tho- yes i did go back to bed for a couple hours after i posted -- but none the less ... when i got up-- within an hour... i was in full blown panic mode. as in panic attack ! in need of medication. i need my time alone folks. i really do. i am so not used to being around 'people 24/7. just not. i cannot mentally, or physically handle it. yes i do realize i am speaking of family. i love my family more than anything in this world. i have dedicated my life and world to my family- and anyone who reads these pages knows this. but really. i'm not a talker-- i'm not a go places-er. i'm not a fighter. i'm a leave me aloner. soulkid on the other hand talks---- and talks and talks .. and goes and goes and goes. and she expects the same from me. she does not understand the concept of chores, or not having to be going somewhere or spending money every single minute of every single day. she needs to talk all the time, if i am blogging or doing anything on the puter and not giving her EYE contact when talkin to her -- it's an argument. anytime she doesn't have 100 percent of my attention - when she wants it-- it's an argument. when she doesn't get her way it's an argument . i swear-- she's 4 years old half the week , and 24 the other half. i love her and you know it... but i am not used to this... and after all this time-- i apparently will not get used to it.

i spose you have heard enough of that? well so have i. pardon my rant.

guess what? today is my birthday :)) but y'all know that already. it was fun to see all the happy birthdays on face-book. i replied to all of em too. thanks guys. y'all are such great people. what did i do to deserve you? whatever it was-- i hope i do the same for you. i do sincerely care for each one of ya. if that means a hill a beans ? i really do. uniquely so. i don't group anybody. you're all yourselves, and i love ya for that.

so. about the big plans for the big day? i WAS able to talk soulman down from the big money tree :)) it was bad enough at first, when i thought we were talkin 'maybe' 200-ish to go see train in concert- and get a room, to save my body the extra hours on the car ride home. but noooo. last night , he goes to make all the purchases on line-- tickets , room, etc... comes to look like over 300.00 --- NOT counting food, gas, etc. i put my scrooge foot down... as anyone who knows me knows i would. this is the kinda money that never gets spent on me. with or without my knowledge -- but with my knowledge? oh hell no. i wouldn't agree to that in a milion years. unless i needed a car or a fridge or somethin. right? so... we finally settled back -- to the fishin thing. y'all know i am easy to please. i don't need money to be happy. really. i just don't . never need jewelry or fancy crap... i'm happy when the bills are paid and i have food in the house, and soulkid is happy with what she gets or has, and soulman feels successful, and that he isn't working for nothin. that's what makes me happy.
so yeh. a fishin we will go. i just don't know where yet. there could be a hotel involved. but that's doable. in fact - i still have that free hotel deal from our buggy night in austin. -- remember that? they comped us-- turned out when they mailed me the coupon-- it's for anywhere -- not just that hotel in austin, like the girl said.

so- there ya go.

oh -- here's what i woke up to -- along with a full pot of hot fresh coffee. go soulman.



and with that i bid you a happy day in your worlds... i have a lot to do today. some involves uncle sam -- 2006. bleh. but i did find someone to help- i just have to get it in the mail. other stuff is about soulkids paperwork for school .
other is bank and bill stuff. and takin soulmans stuff to the cleaners. you don't wanna hear this do ya?
ok, i will spare ya the deets. but a busy day.

i shall be around later on.... after i do my thang----

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

humpday happenins -- PLUS 'UP-DATE'

so. what's goin on in your worlds today?

not a whole lot yet in mine. seein as it's only 8:30 in the mornin. i'm actually thinkin about goin back to bed to be honest. i'm tryin hard not to give into that idea though. no. more leanin towards gettin in the shower, reviving my tired - up at 4 a.m. self, and gettin some work done around here today. i haven't been doin too awful bad in that area lately, but still below my standards, and still not as much as i hope to accomplish every day. i've just not been feelin good lately. kinda feeling like i'm carrying twenty pounds of extra weight on each leg or somethin. weird feelin. and hard to explain.
ya know, the day i was supposed to go have the steroid injections in my back was the day soul-land caved in a few weeks ago--- so the first thing to do that day, was to cancel that appointment... and now that we're kinda penny-less.. that just won't be happenin any time soon. in fact, it's on the very back burner for now. i'd rather limp on vacation, than lay in bed at home, ya know.

so. anyhow. on a happier note? the dumb-ass school finally called yesterday !!! good lawd. man i tell ya. we were all three about ready to jump offa bridge. life has been so weird lately with soulkid out of school. everyone's routine has been thrown totally off track.. then with so many other things goin on - it's all just been a wild ride for over a month and a half. but yes. they called soulman yesterday, and said TUESDAY we have her 'interview, then wednesday she STARTS back to class !!! this sounds like a real good school, and it also sounds like she can be able to make up the lost time and grades in no time. IF she applies herself-- and she HAS to-- and is willing, and smart enough to. PLUS if she doesn't? she WILL bbe tossed out on her keister-- no questions asked. they don't mess around at this place. if the kids don't keep up their grades and keep their attitudes in check? plus keep their attendance up? they are gone. and obviously-- she has realized... home is not a better place to be. she misses school. she realizes what a mistake she made in opting the greener grass thing. of course, no one had any idea how hard it would be to get back into school, once she got out. and now-- in just the weeks she's been out-- her entire life has changed, in several ways. perhaps she will listen to the older and wiser parents next time?
(knock on wood)

aaaaahhh.. folks been askin bout my birthday plans. well, i'm not real sure. so many things have been 'discussed'. soulman, and soulkid want to take me to see 'Train' in concert. i am however bein kinda stubborn about it. i almost caved. ok , i did cave a few days ago. after a bit of complaining about the cost-- and the fact that it would have to go on a credit card. 3 tickets -- just us-- and a motel, so i wouldn't have to make the 2 hour drive , both ways, plus the sitting straight up for the length of the show.. however long that would be. (it hurts me to even sit at a desk for even 20-30 minutes.) not to mention in the car that long etc.
so-- he had me convinced i'd survive-- and i'd like it. i was still cringing at the thought of all that money-- plus of course the meal they would want to take me to. ugh-- after the fridge and all the other stuff this month? but i did say ok. finally.
but--- a couple days passed, when he mentioned he was waiting for my 'paycheck' to come in-- today - to get the tickets. well , at that time i 'thought' i had convinced him-- again-- to NOT get the tickets. just take me fishin on the boat , and detail and wash my car. well... sounded like he was gonna agree to that. he knows how nervous i get when the funds get low-- especially as low as they are now-- not near as bad as yesterday -- plus he gets paid friday -- and more comes that day too-- so everything will level out by the first. actually friday. anyhow-- like i said-- i thought i was just gona have a clean sparkly car, and fish on the boat-- until--- i heard soulkid tryin to make plans for the weekend-- and then him tellin her somethin about my birthday and whisperin and friday and code and shhh and this and that. soooo--- i'm thinkin they're still thinkin about takin me to the concert. hmmm. sneaky lil devils.
so-- i don't know what to tell ya. guess i'll tell ya when i actually know what i'm doin.
until then. all i know is i'm gettin older. and i'd be happy if i could just give away my birthday for my birthday :))

did anybody have a mental attack on any of your birthdays? i hear thirty is hard for some folks. i cried when i turned 40. no idea why, but that was the number for me.
how bout you?

anyhow-- i hope to get a burst of energy... i want to be productive today. but again, i got up at 4... and i have already done my checkbook-- which finally matched to the penny !!! go me. and paid some bills :)) again.. go me. so, don't i have a right to a lil nap? or should i just bite the bullet and do more work? yeh you're right. a nap sounds mighty good. thanks. :))
happy day to you in your worlds peeps....
i'll catchya latah---

oh ps-- if anyone is wonderin-- my sis made it home safe and sound-- her internet should be hooked up in a couple hours i think. but yep-- she;s good , home, and says howdy -

WELL, leave it me to be totally wrong -

i didn't cry on my 40th birthday afterall. apparently is was the big 42.

yeh, i decided to take a look back in time, and see if i had any other birthday posts. for whatever reason i didn't post last year. musta been crappy or somethin. i sure don't remember. maybe someone else does? but anyhow-- i did find this post from 2008, which would be my 42ND b-day. seems like that was the one that i cried on. hmmm. so senile i don't even remember my birthday that made me cry. i'm just too weird sometimes. i can't even cry on the right birthday :)) sure did think it was 40. maybe i cried that year too. who knows. i didn't blog til my 41st. that one seemed like a good one :))

oh hell. anyhow-- no tears this time around. i can tell ya that much. every year i'm standin on my own two feet, i'm grateful. and havin y'all to call my peeps? that's pretty cool too.

be good my friends... someone has to be :))

laterz-

not much of a day round here but i survived it

short trip
one fish

hubby and child shopped and stocked the freezer /fridge. ahhhhhhh. much bettah.

it was a nap day for me today. kinda cut my chore plans out a bit. but i accomplished other things. bad part? my numbers refuse to jive in my checkbook. hours wasted, and still can't get it right. there's a mistake somewhere. i can't find it. finally gave up. chillaxin in front of the boob tube with soulman. soulkid seems to have grown a life now that she has a new friend with wheels. we never see her anymore.
please pray that the school will get their butts in gear and hers in a desk ! pleeeease.

happy night y'all.

be careful what ya ask for --

mornin peoples -- and peoplettes :))

how is your sunday comin together so far? i can't really complain. yet. well, i can always complain... we know this, right. but i won't . yet. no need really.

i was just sittin here doin my mornin thing, smokin and chokin, and just 'reflectin' i spose. took a brief scan over a few recent posts and comments. and i came to a realization. of sorts. i noticed a sort of pattern, i think. i had been a bit pouty lately. 'i'm bored'. 'i need some excitement in my life', 'something needs to happen'.
well, guess what folks? it's true. be careful what ya ask for. cuz when ya get to sayin, or thinkin stuff life that-- somethin will and does happen, and it aint always good.

i been whinin about bein trapped and bored for weeks-- and runnin away and that. for weeks -- and if ya look at the last few weeks-- like to the beginning of april--- it hasn't been all that boring around here-- has it? nooooo.
let's have a review, shall we?

alot can happen in 25 days.
[ oh Lord -- i just realized. i will be 44 years old in three and a wake up -- if i live that long ;(( ]

----
without me actually checking - again- ... i may be out of order a bit-- but here we go ----

i think it actually began on a pretty good note-- bitter-sweet perhaps-- audrey was here -- preparing to head back to california-- but we were having real fun, and laughin til we couldn't breathe ! it was great fun, that was well deserved. for both of us. but it was short lived.

a few days in... soulman left for a -- big tournament down south tx way-- for him, it was big , and long planned, not to mention expensive-- he would fish on the back , with a big pro fisherman, he was excited as a child. i was excited for him.
one thing tho-- he left easter sunday morning, after a nice breakfast with me and soulkid-- which was good. but-- soulkid, had let it be known... she was not happy with her dad not being home on a holiday. --- when he planned this-- he didn't realize it was easter-- but -- hell, lets be adult-- it's not like Christmas or Thanksgiving-- and she IS 16. but she really took it hard. first holiday without daddy -- in years. innocent mistake-- and too much money invested to just 'not go'.

sorry -- but here comes some 'code language' to protect some privacy-- but that very next day -- early morning-- the bottom fell out of soul-land for quite a while-- maybe a couple weeks,, but initially, it was very traumatic. and i had no idea how to handle the situation. many outside 'professionals' were called in, and of course soulman was called home. AS he was launching the boat with his pro, beginning the first day of the tournament.
part of me didn't want to call him. but-- his baby needed him here-- I needed him here. and later when he was here, and i told him , that i almost didn't call? he said he would have been PISSED. i was glad then that i did call. --- it's hard to know when to call and when not to at times like that-- but i reckon i did the right thing. phew.
making decisions was so hard for a while after that.

so-- of course--- there was a lot of decision making -- and it involved each of us-- over the next week or so-- it also involved y'all-- in a way. what to say-- what not to say. etc. i felt bad for that. but even in that area-- i think i made the right decision, with my blabbermouth self.

i don't remember what came next. oh. my damn spending spree. ? maybe. the tattoo. the antique curio. smokin a hookah-- and allowing my child to do the same.
not to mention allowing her to spend a few hundred dollars on clothes and crap that she really didn't need. just a lot of overcompensating. that's what i think, at least.

i think after that- was when my coffee pot took a crap. good thing it still works.

cuz the next death in the family was our fridge/freezer. it was only the freezer part... but that was enough. we lost a couple hundred dollars worth of food-- plus i think close to 800.00 bucks for the new one. it should be here in an hour or two. it'll be nice i'm sure. neither of us can age this one. we've had it for apparently EVER. maybe since florida-- which would make it 14-- perhaps kansas - which would make it 11. we can't think of anywhere else we woulda bought it. so it has served us well, but i wish it woulda died on a poor day. not a day it had two racks of ribs, and a 4 day old 22.00 slab or two of salmon in it :(( it makes me ill.
not to mention what it will cost to re-stock it.





our summer vacation money is nearly gone. this is also the first summer in many years that we even had actual plans to go somewhere. three somewheres to be exact-- and a tentative -- somewhere for july fourth weekend for our anniversary. IF we happened to have any money left. obviously, that won't be happenin. we will be blessed to build it up enough to keep our original plans.

help me-- i'm in soul-hell.

but--- i reckon we are also blessed. at least we aren't at the corner store pan-handlin. right?

cheatin' on the photo challenge :(( original, just not recent

happy saturday folks-- and welcome to my photo challenge entry --
yeh, peoples, i waited til the last minute; again. i would have probably got some pretty good shots for this, IF i would have fully understood the subject, from the beginning. but--- i did not. i thought it was all about the camera-- not the subject. forgive me.
so-- i got a very late start -- like twenty minutes ago-- from, right where i sit.

subject being;

LIGHTING:

this was one of our snows
of 2010
and some UFO's
:))


soulKids - sweet 16 cake :))
she made it-
3-10


one of my favorite fish pix
sky, fish, me,
all of it -- good pic huh?
08-09?
not sure.

wow-that's a big fish !
(someone needs to fire the staples ad crew!)

happy saturday -- goin to check out y'alls pix now-- if i get interrupted, to go fishin-- i'll come back.

be good kids ---- byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

pardon my absence - i was recovering

mornin folks. happy FRIDAY!
yes, finally it's friday. hope the sun is shinin at your place. seems to be here, but of course, i haven't been outside. i'm only goin by what i can see through my partially opened blinds. seems to be little wind and yes, some sunshine. i am also assuming that it is somewhat warm out there, because an hour or two ago, i did happen to be warm enough inside, that i turned on my ceiling fan. so. yeh. i do have fishin on my mind. the stuff is still in my car. all i would have to do is throw on some clothes and shoes and brush my hair and teefers, and hit the road. will i? oh no. not today. sadly enough, i do believe that it is just not in the cards for me today. unfortunately, my out of shape, just out of hibernation, two days in a row, on my feet all day, 2 days in a row, fishin fool, self, has overdone it. yep. i shoulda paced myself a bit i think. it would be different if i didn't bass fish ya know. if all i did was stick my rod in a stick and sit in a chair til the tip moved. but nooooo. for me it's stand, walk , cast, reel, cast, reel, all day. well, for hours anyhow. and for a person , in my physical condition? that's just kinda stupid. simply tossing myself into the fire sort of. oh but it was sooo fun. fishin is just in my blood. i breathe it. y'all know that. right.

so. yeh. i did go fishin yesterday. tough fishin day too. as was the day before. they just aren't wantin to bite. it must be the way the weather has been changin so rapidly lately. that's all i can think. one day cold , cloudy, and or rainy or raining. the the other day the sun was out and it was over 80 degrees. then yesterday was cool and cloudy and windy again. today at least loooks sunny and nice again-- but i aint fishin. but before these last few days it was rain for days and days. the fish ust don't know what to think. so yeh... it's hard to know what to do. so lots of bait changing was goin on. lots of different baits, tactics... really a challenge. very physical. but again. soooo fun.

until----- last night. it finally caught up with me. i couldn't even get up out of my chair. i was so sore. my back and legs were screaming at me. hatin on me. i've mentioned before how the reclining couch in the livin room doesn't have handles-- ya have to use your legs to put the foot rest down when ya get up.. OMG. so many times i almost couldn't get out of my chair. i couldn't stretch enough to get out without puttin it down, and it hurt so bad to use my legs to put it down. ugh. it took every muscle in my body to get that damn thing down. i thought i would die. but - when i fish, i have to drink a lot of water-- cuz my gettin dehydrated, can be really bad for me. like fainting, and landing in the water... etc. so yeh.. i was getttin up like every fifteen minutes.... it was just not fun. soulkid was out... so i didn't feel like i could go to bed til she got home-- otherwise that's where my ass woulda been. instead i stayed up with soulman, watchin tv, til she got home. ugh. anyhow-- that's why i aint fishin-- or goin anywhere today -- cuz i am feelin the pain. that's ok tho -- i saw my dr. fairy -- he made me feel a bit bettah :))



plan for today? housecleaning and laundry. yes i will. shaddup. soon as i'm done here. you'll see.

anyhow- first-- 'raine" made me notice somethin in my last post-- the first fish? is not also the second fish at a different angle. the first fish is the first fish on my big camera-- the others are the 2nd fish, but i took one on my cell to send to hubby. forgot that. that's why the first looks bigger-- cuz he was. thanks Raine. oops. senile ya know.
and thanks. but ya don't have to say thanks. sometimes stuff just comes to me like that-- that's when ya know i mean it :)) and ps-- me too buddy.

and Donna TN THAT kinda LIGHTING? geesh. of course i will do it. i thought it meant fancy photography lighting. "bren-DUH" remember?

ok--- moovin on-- wanna see yesterdays catch of the day?

k-- here ya go--

bad hair day -- and chronic smoker mouth :((
but not a bad first- fish-- and a kiss too

my second favorite kinda shot
with fish two -

also fish two--
'it's a KILL-SHOT !
goin for the throat !

yes , it was a good day in soul-land
ugh-- mystery underlining-- you know ya love it.

happy days to all of you-- and better weekends-- woo hoo-

perhaps positive thinking and the fishin fairy brought me some luck today ?

hello again peoples... yup-- twofer humpday. don't miss the below post, or you'll really miss somethin special :)) skip on down after this one and have a bit of eye candy :))

but for now, how bout just a quick rundown of my day? -- first , i have to get somethin off my chest. the new 'staples-commercial? makes me want to vomit. wow-that's-a-low-price!!! wow- kill-me-now--bleh!!!

ok. i feel better now. so . what'd y'all do today? out here? turned out to be a beautiful day. i think i even have a touch of a sunburn. i took soulkid to a drive thru this mornin after i posted, then took her back home, packed up the fishin gear, and off i went--- yup- i really did, i went fishin. first time in i'm not sure how long. but it feels like forever since i have even been outside. it's ridiculous. this brown recluse- slothism? i really don't like it as much as i pretend -- you know that already tho- dontchya?

so. ya wanna see what the sloth drug in? i wish it coulda been a better fishin day-- well, it actually was a gorgeous day, and i loved bein out in the sun doing what i love to do--- so , no- i'm not complainin - one bit...

i fished all three fishin holes-- the creek , my pond, and soulmans pond --- i was out all day -- maybe from like 1030 or 11 until about 4:00 - ish. and man i tell ya-- i'm so sore and tired and hungry -- i could beckon a nurse fairy -- spose i'll hunt one down later. not today tho-- i think i'm shuttin this down soon as i'm done and callin it a day.

so. anyhow-- here's some delicious bass for ya--- but nope-- for those who don't know-- it's catch and release for us. never take anything home . they always go back where they came from.

[ here is the first and very welcomed fishy of the day ]

[same fish-different angle ]

[ and here we have fishy # 2 - still chompin on his jig ]

[ just tossed these in to show donna my single rose-- grew a pal this year ]

and, last but surely not the last time :))

i happened to catch the moment several nights ago
ummm... sleep-cookin, at it's very best !
steak, eggs, and grits !
that's talent !

i even remember eatin it !!!
the cookin part is a little fuzzy :((

happiest of humpdays to you !

just a quick reminder & introduction for some

Ladies and Gentlemen,
I bring you,
THE SOUL FAIRIES :
(in order of appearance )

the first set are :

the cleaning fairies : 1

2

3

4

here's
the massage fairy :))

ehem, the fishin fairy
[thank you, everso- china mate :)) ]

unfortunately, everyone has a
snot fairy- on occasion

The Christmas fairy

here is the new year fairy 2010

i can't dare be without one of these-
the brain-fog fairy

i bring you by viewers choice -
the coffee-less
coffee fairies :))

by donation of Donna (TN)
The Guardian Angel fairy

and let's take one for the fellas here--
this one is :
"Soulmans fairy collection"

so. now when i speak of fairies. or perhaps the cleaning fairies, or my fairies, or being in need of 'a' fairy. y'all will know i do not speak of tinkerbell type fairies. oh no. not at all.

now. on that happy note? i am actually dressed-- first time in days. no , not from nekkedness. from jammy-ness. i'm growing mold like the sloth that i am. well, not anymore. i am now cleansed and clothed and i am going to take soulkid to get breakfast, when i return her to the soulcrib-- i shall go forth and FISH !

if i manage to catch anything at the pond i will be sure to show you on my return :))

happy humpday in your worlds today--

while we're at it-- how bout a -
hump-day fairy ?

you hate me, don't you?

don't worry people... just somethin i say. i used to say it alot more than i do now-- is that a good thing , or not? i do not know. i'm just bored here, and i'm runnin out of things to say. folks aren't postin much, and i aint doin much, and i'm just stuck here in need of a lobotomy. oh hush. it aint that bad, and you know it. the boredom? oh yeh. it is that bad. but the rest of me? not gonna jump offa bridge today, so that i reckon that would mean that I am ok. right? right.

anyhow kids... my post for today is a lesson on 'positive thinking' or more like --

"the power of positive thinking "

ya see, a lot of you have read my lengthy, but somewhat humorous fish tale on here not too far back, right? if not, it's here--and long as hell. but you need to read it to appreciate our 'new-to-us boat . :))

which is where the positive thinkin thing comes into play. you see, last night as i was lookin for the 'thing' for my - where soul came from thing'... i also came across a poem i wrote many years ago... even before the disdain i felt for the boat on that fateful tournament night in the post i linked above.

so--- my mom didn't teach me much in the way of 'life lessons' -- directly, as much as she did in the way of teaching me how i DID NOT want to be. but yep-- she did often tell me of the power of positive thinking. and of course God, for that i will be forever grateful to her. even if she did screw everything else up. those two things she gave me, have kept me sober, sane , and alive through this life i have been given.

anyhow--- here is the poem.... next is the PROOF of the power in positive thinking -- and 'thanking God in advance.'

thanks mom.

(possibly written in '03? hard to tell)

click it to make it bigger-- twice if yer blind like me :))

(purchased over a few months-- parked in our storage about a month or two ago)

-- side note : it IS a "yellow Bullet"

( just a extra somethin for y'all--
thanks.)

keep your days where ya want em to be-- i'm tired of lettin mine kick my butt-- i am takin the reigns today !

happy tuesday

monday mad libs

yeh -- whatever that means, right?

anyhow-- guten morgen folks. how's it goin for ya today? hope it's as well as any monday can be. here? it's a monday.

i don't really have anything new to report from here. everything is really just kinda stagnant at the moment. i checked the weather this morning when i put the dogs out-- hoping, that by some miracle i might be able to go fish for a little while over at the pond. but howdaya think that went? yeh, you're right. cold, cloudy, and crappy out there. just like it has been for days. i am really gettin tired of this weather lately. worse than that? when we are blessed with a nice day that i could go fishin? somethin gets in the way. of course. a dr. appointment. catchin up on sleep for some reason. flat out slothfulness-bein unable or unwilling to get offa my arse. but noooo, when i do happen to feel well enough to get the hell out of the house, and get air and do something for myself? it's raining. or too windy. or cold. or like i said - some other obligation prevents that. i smell a resentment comin on. don't you?
this can't be good.

even tho i do like home, and most of the time i choose to stay home.... this is gettin a bit too like prison. i can't leave soulkid alone much at all, and she has been out of school for over a month !!! are ya feelin me? she acts like a four year old at times for my attention. if and when i do try to work on my checkbook or bills , she distracts me so much it's impossible. she always wants to 'go somewhere' which always, in the end cost some amount of money-- even if it's only lunch -- that's 20-30 + a day just to walk out the door. i don't mean to make her sound bad-- just venting really. but y'all. i'm goin crazy here. at least in the summer time we have a couple trips planned, and besides that all her friends will also be out of school and bored too-- they can do things together and not always be under my watch. but seriously -- do they have day-care for teenagers? kill meh.

ok i'll stop. but thanks for listenin. :))

anyhow-- remember yesterday i said i would find us a 'coffee fairy' ?
do y'all realize how virtually impossible it is to find one on google? i spent literally in total, i bet 4-5 hours on that lil task -- and came up, pretty much empty. me? the google queen, couldn't even find a coffee fairy. i know. i am too. i'm disappointed in my own self. but here ya go-- it's really the best i could come up with -- i'll put a couple up-- but the winner just happens to be a frickin cartoon ! :((

(who needs coffee? )


(who needs a head?)

(who needs a real man?
the "coffee fairy" is a fantasy anyhow right?)

so my friends there is monday morning in soul-land. i'll try to work on growing some semblance of a life around here. if you remember, i was doin pretty good on that for a while -- til life came to a screeching halt. i am workin on it tho. y'all know things turn on a dime around here-- so be ready, anything can happen, at any time. don't give up on me yet.


anyhow-- i do hope y'all have great days in your worlds today -- still dark and wet here in mine. perhaps i'll finally wash my laundry. maybe.

ahhhhh. i know. maybe i'll venture out and purchase a coffee maker? how bad can it be? ya do know i have poor mans PTSD? what if i faint at the check out?
kidding. it only feels like i will. i never really have. there's a first time for everything tho right?

ok-- i'm gone-

sunday soul-stuff and stuff

hiya folks--
how are y'all on this fine sunday morn? me? senile, as usual. i didn't even know it was sunday, til i just checked so i would know what day to say on this post. my brain is fried. i don't know if it's a permanent and worsening condition. or if it's temporary, and hopefully , eventually, cutting back, or quitting smoking- and perhaps getting outside, might help. my brain is literally starved for oxygen. we all know the many problems that can cause.
if anyone remembers? after the lung clot ordeal? i seriously had some permanent, stupidity after that. subtle things, but really- it was immediately after that-- and to this day -- i still have problems with simple things, like spelling, talking, forming sentences, of course remembering -- which was always an issue - but it got even worse after that. i don't know guys . but everything is deteriorating even more.
example? -- my friggin bills and bank stuff -- number one. i swear-- not a single bill this month has been paid on time this month. not one. and one of them, the boat storage?? 16 days late--- totally slipped my mind!!! OMG. this and the spending spree? WTH? not me. y'all know. it's not me to do these things. we would go without groceries or gas before i would pay a bill late. i would stay in the house and not go anywhere-- before dropping cash the way i just did. i didn't pull that kinda crap when i was single and could do it without causing problems.

just don't know what to say for myself. except that hey. no permanent damage. save for the guilt and the kicking of my own ass. forever.
oh -- and the fact that if not for this stuff? i would be able to replace my coffee pot !!!!
(machine- maker-- whatever ya call it). i do not know why i am cursed in the way of coffee makers, but y'all know i am. our coffee maker that we have owned maybe less than 6 months -- is a complete and utter POS! not only do i have to wait for my pain pill to kick in before i can make coffee-- really, for some reason it is just heavy to me and ya have to hold and carry and insert this 'tray of water' that feels like it weighs ten pounds, from the sink back into the machine-- ugh. i don't know-- but not only that-- once ya do get it in, the f'n thing not only leaks--- it dumps water all over the frickin counter while it makes coffee-- for five or so minutes. so ya gotta put a towel -- or whatever is handy at the time under it so the entire counter top doesn't flood. while the coffee makes.
trust me folks, it ust doesn't make for a relaxing first cuppa. it doesn't. hubby used to always pre-set the timer and i would wake up to coffee ever day-- but now he can't do that-- or ALL the water would drain out onto the counter over-night.
this shit only happens cuz i am ME. you know that right?
i need a coffee fairy. i'll find one shortly. so check back later -- y'all know ya love the fairies :))

wow-- who peed in y wheaties? i wonder that too. could this be all about the crappy coffee maker? maybe. i'm the only one up here so far. could i possibly piss my own self off this much? well i spose i could.

so. how bout i tell ya bout the movie we went and saw last night? it wasn't even planned to go out last night-- til soulkid pipes up with soulkid 2 is spendin the night and we need a ride to the farthest mall from the house-- daddy please take us. hmmm. i said don't even ask him. but of course she did. and of course he just can't say no to daddys little girl. so i told him i'd go with and we could see a movie while they kicked around the mall for a couple hours. so we went and saw THIS:

and i have no regrets.
it was sooo funny. if you aren't married -- for any length of time-
you may not find it as funny as we did-- or someone who has been.
but it was just funny. i'm sure it's funny to other folks too- but the boring, same ole same ole - long time married thing -- just adds the -i can relate - thing to it.
and it's good.
and you'll laugh.
a lot.
so go see it.

so. after that we came home. i watched a couple UFC fights on the telly with me hubby, then i went to bed. i was so tired - it wasn't real late, maybe 10 or so, but it felt like midnight. and y'all know i need my beauty rest :))

so anyhow-- what are y'all up to today?
hope you're dry and warm today in your worlds...
it's rainin here - and dark and icky... third or fourth day runnin. i can't like it.

catchy'all laterz-