so guess what

you wouldn't guess in a million years.  so- i'll just tell ya.  last night - i'm chillin in my room, hubby was in the livin room, watchin football- or baseball.. whichever. two games - two home team losses.  makes not a happy soulman.  so, he was cruisin online while the games were on.  he comes across a -- are ya ready?  a golf cart!  NO! we don't golf.  never have.  mini golf. sure. don't need a cart for that tho.  anyhow -- yeh sure call us lazy -- he texts me.  don't you text folks in the next room?  admit it - you do -- at least sometimes.  ok. so he texts me.. with a photo of

THIS:

and there i am.. it's like 10 or 11 pm, i've had my meds... so -- yeh.. i'm chillin...

 i'm like .. aaaaaand???

he says -- do ya want it? 

ummmm... whyyyy would i want a golf cart?   

you could ride it up to the creek , and go fishin!

hmmm.. my wheels start turnin.  -- it is awful CUTE!  :))  then i start thinkin....  hmmm, in a year or two i won't have a drivers license -- this sure beats a bike.  besides that-- my kid walks to the park/creek a lot and i worry-- she could ride this- and i might not worry so much.  and i just keep thinkin-- it's soooo darn cute!  and it's cheap too!  cheap as a weekend away.  i just think it's a cheap- good lil investment-- that we'll actually use.  i'd be much more likely to take that around the block- or to the creek- or even the post office -- than a bike... on a nice day.  even y'all know that.  even with my kid.  i think it would be fun.  or even me n sushi!!!  can you picture that.. me n sushi cruisin the neighborhood?  hmmmm.

so anyhow-- i go ahead and and tell him.. after very little thought... sure-- i'll take it!!  

he called from work this morning to make sure i was really 'ok' with it.. not just the xanax and oh it's so cute-- talkin.  :))  i told him yeh-- i want it.  hell.. a recumbent bike i want is like 300.00 and this isn't a whole lot more.  and if my legs and neck etc don't get any better-- it will still be able to be used-- unlike a bike.  right. 

you should see the images in my mind of it all -- 'souled- up".  hahahahaha

there's another angle.

you wanna go cruisin with me dontchya!?

there's plenty of room for rods and tackle -- or sushi and even eevee.  or like i said-- my kid.. even soulman, if he wanted to go along.  yes.  go on.  call me crazy.  but hey-- i have been without a drivers license before -- only a couple months.. and even me -- the one who hates to go out-- i had my moments that it drove me nuts to not be able to go get cigs or go fishin or at least somewhere.  with this i'll have at least the opportunity to go 'somewhere'.  i think it'll be fun.

anyhow- what else can i bore ya with?  hmmmm.  i don't know.  wanna hear somethin amazing?  my kid is actually upstairs cleaning!!!!  the music that blares down the stairs is about to kill me, but the fact that she is cleaning up there is -- well, that might kill me too -- of a heart attack from disbelief or somethin.  good lawd. it's like ripping limbs off that girl to get her to clean.  really.  but well.. i'm sure i'll pay for it in the end. i don't care tho.  whatever it is she wants-- if it means a clean house -- i'll take it!!!

i have been sittin at this desk for far too long.  i can tell ya that.  i have three choices today.  i think.  i could go take care of business.  i should rather.  or i could spend the day in my warm quiet bed.  you know that is prolly what will win out.  especially now that the pain is worsening.  or i could clean up a few rooms downstairs, and maybe do some laundry.  but-- that's too easy to get out of -- cuz 'i don't feel good'.  besides that?  it's freakin freezin in here.  and i don't know why.  that was a quick damnb turn of the weather.  bleh.  it'll prolly warm up quick tho-- so i don't wanna turn on the heat or anything.  but man i wasn't expectin it to be this cold this morning.

ok y'all... i shall shut my face -- uhhhh, fingers.  and set ya free.

i'll be around later-- i owe everone a visit - i suck as a friend.  i'm so sorry.

hope you all have wonderful weekends and halloweens-- enjoy the little ones!  yours or not--

we don't get trick-or - treaters .. and it gets boring.  we have never lived anywhere that kids come to the house.  :((  either we were always takin ours out-- or others just never came when ours started goin with her friends.  bummer.  they're so cute. 

wow.. that just made me wish i had room in my garage for my car-- freakin hoodlums!

bwa hahahahahaha

happy friday!

guess who's finally WENT fishin?

yep. that would be me. and on the boat even. our new one. for the first time. i'm excited. but yes, a little worried too. i hope my body doesn't turn against me. ugh. i also hope the weather will cooperate.
wish us luck. wish me fish. and check back back later to see the catch of the day -- if we get any. it's been quite a while since i been on the lake. i'm lookin forward to just bein on the boat- weather i catch fish or not-- but you know -- i better catch fish or i'll be a sad soul.

happy monday to you folks out there--

catchya latah --
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

WAIT!
i'm baaaack.
we went fishin, returned, ate lunch, took a nap, and got soulkid from school; since i wrote that. and in the meantime? not one person spoke to me here. (*tear* )
that's alright tho-- y'all can have lives.
our day on the boat was really great today.
well, cept for a couple things.
surely you didn't think MY maiden voyage would be 'perfect'
did ya?
well. it turned out fine, but not without effort.
the boat runs smooth as glass. we were runnin at 70 MPH, and i didn't get 'bumped' once! i couldn't believe it ! our other boat is such a rough ride. it doesn't matter how fast you're runnin, it is comparable to drivin a thirty year old truck without shocks down a dirt road! really.
i loved it. it was kinda cool this mornin, but of course by noon it was an easy ninety degrees and we were dyin.
the fact that the trolling motor batteries were dead from the first moment of the day didn't help any. we found docks to tie off to and found different ways to fish without trolling the banks - which is our usually way we do things. no wind, no breeze, just blazin sun, sittin still, gettin toasty red , sweatin in the texas heat .
i'm not complainin though.
i lost one fish while throwin a crankbait-- a "sexy shad" :))
then later i went to my old trusty "drop shot"
first- i got a cat fish. no picture-- i didn't wanna touch the gross thing.
next- i through another drop shot-- missed one. :((
tried a few more tricks in my bag -- but failed.
we moved -- tried a few things -- no luck -- until -
i went back to "old trusty " - my drop shot -
and look what the cat dragged in :))
making my day on the lake a purty g'dun :))

(bass-clown soul)

well, there 'she' is - and there she goes

the new bubba mobile
purty eh?

one less thing to stress about in soulland.

as for the rest? who knows? it'll work out. like i said, it always does.

i have been thinkin over the last few days though, and i have decided that i need to take a break from blogging. y'all know how it is, sometimes it's just somethin that needs to be done sometimes.

for me? i want to say that i've had it, and i'm just done with the whole thing. i'm bored with it. i'm pressured by it. i think it's crap that if i don't write for a few days-- folks are all over me-- where are you? update.. etc... but when i write often- i rarely hear much at all. sometimes i feel like someones just peeking over my shoulder reading my journal-- or worse maybe reading my mail. sometimes.
so-- yeh. it just isn't fun anymore for me. at least right now.
maybe i'll be back -- maybe i won't.
maybe i'll put my writing efforts elsewhere.

anyhow-- whatever happens--
i hope y'all stay safe and happy in your worlds-

i'll do what i always do in mine-

laterz-

life makes my head hurt!

howdy folks-
i'm just gonna start blabbin. either that - or fall asleep. and don't worry-- no me me shit today. i'm either done with it-- or at minimum , on hiatus for a while. that thing was kickin my ass. and apparently y'alls too. seein as not many folks had much to say about it. see why i wanna write a book? no idea what genre this crap would even fall into. what if it was a movie? horror? drama? tear jerker? or perhaps i could do a charles bronson vigilante type thing? get all my revenge in the end? ahhh. anyhow-
sometimes even i can't believe all the shit i've been through. i really am surprised that i'm not dead or in jail by now. i will admit-- i faced both a few times along this road of my life.

so. enough of that. i am so thoroughly exhausted right now i don't think i can find words for it. i am mentally, emotionally, and physically, just depleted. this has been a terribly hard week for me in every way possible . and to top that off-- i have fallen way too far behind in the things i am supposed to be doing. refillin rx's , bills, house, other wifey stuff. i oughtta just be gettin my 40 lashes with a wet noodle.
aaaaand -- i still haven't made it over to my old house to see if these people wanna pay the bills or go to court. i been busy. i just don't know how i've been so busy that i'm not accomplishing anything.ugh.

today was a good day -- well in many ways--- aside from the fact that i just can't seem to stay awake-- even as i type this... and i had things i needed to get done today-- that i didn't. -- i did manage to make my lunch date with JLEE. i enjoyed that. i really needed to 'talk' some things out. and she did too. i'm afraid if we weren't in public, i might have spent the entire two hours crying like a little baby. it seems like forever since i have been able to 'really talk' to someone. you know , the way 'girls' talk. the no holds barred kinda verbal vomit. sorry no better term came to mind. so anyhow-- we had a good time... even considering the fact (s) that we both have a lot happening in our lives. on different levels of course. but you know how it is.

anyhow-- after we split up-- i came home and did a few things here-- then i went to retrieve my child from school. we went and took a few pictures for her photo journalism class -- which was fun. then we went to a bookstore, then party city. i got a few cook books.. she got candy and halloween decorations. i also got a coke at party city-- which - just so ya know - she asked me the MOST shocking question in the car, that i choked/laughed/ and spewed coke all over the place-- my steering wheel, and myself.... i had to pull the car over as to not get in a wreck. i can't even tell you what she said. but never in my days of mothering that girl-- did i expect she'd ask me that question. eegads. dare i say---- what in the world is next-- if she has the nerve to ask that????

holeeeee crap.

so anyhow-- i'm home-- jamyfied--- and i just may go to bed.
soulkid and hubby are out hangin in the hood--- she's surely talkin him out of some money for 'something' that she desperately needs. :))

anyhoo--- i'm gonna eat somethin.. not sure what-- then i'm puttin my old, worn out self in the stable.

night y'all-

before you go-- here's my song of the week :))
enjoy

or so they say --

at least that's what i've heard.
i did survive yesterday's medical stuff . as the initial meds from the hospital wore off, the pain that i really thought i would not have-- well, it came in hard as fast. we dropped off my rx's on the way home, and the way i was feeling i wasn't worried about waiting the few hours we had to wait before soulkid would be gettin out of school. well, that didn't last very long. after a couple hours the meds wore off, and i was hurtin. i had a couple muscle relaxers left from my previous rx-- so i took one... half an hour later? nothin. i took the other one--- again ? nothin. finally i asked soulman if he would go pick up the pain rx. no prob he said. he went up there, next thing i know--- he calls and the damn insurance company is havin a fit. they want to make me wait a week--- cuz they didn't kow that after my last trip to the doc, when i got the shots, i didn't react well, and the dr. authorized me to take a higher dose-- so of course , i was out in three weeks rather than four. ugh. soulman had to go through such a big hassle-- even after over half an hour there at the pharmacy with the phone calls and back and forth crap-- ended up, comin home, i called my dr office, they called the pharmacy, he had to go back out finally-- pay cash--- drop the meds off-- then go right back out to pick up the child at school. ugh. insurance are such idiots. even though they were authorized--- told my dose was raised-- they still refused to fill it til the 28th. ummm.... NO. so anyhow that was all settled, the kid got home, soulman made a really yummy dinner.

AND my darling DR House premiered !!! i have to say though-- i was a bit irritated at how they sort of glamorized the psyche ward. anyone who has ever visited one of those delightful places , knows that everything they prtrayed about it was WRONG.
but-- i was thrilled to see my show back on.

next week "Lie to me" starts. i love that show too.

and hells kitchen and survivor are already goin.

american idol will be startin soon--- but i have a feelin that i may be at the end of the road with that one. too many changes. just not sure yet. i won't know til i see it.

ok, what else? i was gonna talk about somethin else--- do i remember? ummm, no. dammit.

well, while i'm thinkin about it-- i never told you that sushi came through her spay perfectly fine. no probs-- no friggin kennel cough.
our last min-pin, before her-- who died.. not from a spay... but we tried to save money-- it was maybe 40 -50 dollars less at the el cheapo clinic. they herded these poor animals - cats and dogs , through like cattle goin to slaughter. she had kennel cough for over a year--- it was horrible for her-- and us. poor little thing. and she was verry little . she only weighed 4 lbs. sushi at least is a mutant-- and strong enough to fight off colds and things. chicklet just couldn't. so-- we swore-- no more el cheapo shit for our babies. it's just not worth it to try to save a few dollars, then let the poor cat or dog suffer so much.

anyhow--- next on the chopping block is spot. she goes in on the 28th???? i think. for her de-claw. and yes-- i will put pix up. oh-- speak of the little bitch now-- i hear her scratchin on my office chair now. ugh. this next week won't pass quick enough.
yep-- i am worried about my kitties. but at the same time , i'm not. i trust our vet, and i'm sure the kitties will be fine. they said the thing that bothers the cats most is the bandages.... i think it just might be video worthy for the blog--- crazy cats tryin to get their bandages off. also of them attempting to be destructive--yet failing.
BWA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

anyhow-- i'm pretty scatterbrained--- no idea what i was planning on saying-- so take what ya got-- and i'll be around another time.

happy day in your world today--
laterz y'all