a pain pill ,and half a cuppa- for fuel - and it's go, go, go

howdy folks-

it's monday-- just in case ya haven't figured that out... mondays are great, aren't they? yeh, me too. i need an extra day sometimes too. but even when i have one i complain about that too. someday i'll be content. again.

i've actually been looking for solutions to my discord-- and talking them over with my hubby recently--- apparently they aren't bad ideas, and he's on my side. of course, when has he not been on my side. right?

so. yeh. i'm sittin here smokin a cig-- having had my one half cup of forbidden coffee. and a pain pill. i know-- (nothin after midnight) but i was actually told by the anesthesiologist before my last procedure-- that that is just best case scenario. and 4 hours before -- if it's black coffee and 1 pill, it shouldn't be a problem. you know i jumped on that . and i had no issues for it last time. thing is-- this time? i slept later than i planned-- which is actually good-- cuz i don't have to suffer as long waiting to go--- but there isn't the four hour gap i am supposed to have-- nope only three. i am sure it won't be a problem, but they wouln't like it. course--- who says i can't say i had coffee at 6. riiiight? yeh. that's what i thought. i can't help it if i can't live without coffee. besides, i only drank 2/3 a cup. and really - the pill - y'all know - i'm 'crippled' without it. especially the first one of the day. completely useless.



so yeh-- that's my plan for the day.

and i cannot believe there's any sanity in the fact that i actually look forward to the fact that in just a few hours i will be having a long thin needle jammed into my spine.
people fear the thought of a spinal tap---- this is far from any different than that-- except they don't take anything out-- they put stuff in. i'm a little anxious-- but not scared. i actually am looking forward to it-- cuz i know it works. at least i know it worked last time. and i walked- moved, slept, stood, sat, everything-- with almost NO pain in my legs-- or low back-- for months.



i spose the anxiety at this point only comes from the fact that maybe it won't work, and will be all for naught-- and i will ave to live with the disappointment of knowing that it 'should' have worked- because it did before. and also knowing-- that i took advantage of havin my legs back -- and didn't do things i knew i should have been doing. of course-- in those months that my legs were better-- my upper back and neck were crippling me with a pain that was near unbearable. one more notch on the 'pain scale' i woulda been crying for the last 5 or 6 months.

so. what now? wait. as usual when it comes to docs. hurry up-and wait.
put on my positive thinking hat :)) , get my ass presentable, and pray that this works.
i have a good dr. who does this. i trust him. and those two words are reserved only for him and one other of my docs. and trust me-- a wild guess? i think i have like 5 or 6 'specialists' - and really i hate every one of them, cept the two above.
so i reckon it's a plus that the guy who sticks needles in my spine is a man i can trust to at least send me out walking-- whether it be in pain, or not. he tries .

so-- on that happy note--- i must dress myself- and be on my merry way.

hope you all have happy days in your worlds today

i'll be snoozin much of mine i'm sure. they got the good stuff that kinda does that to a gal :))

when i come back to life -- i'll make my rounds and see what the rest of blogland is up to --- hope it's all good.