MYSTERY UNDERLINING AND ALL. (DAMMIT.)
and hell, what is withe the dang underlining? great way to start my first post of 2010. dontchya think? it's cuz i am me, you know that right?
anyhow. i also thought-- or should i say, i originally thought-- that a good way to begin my first post of the new year would be with a brand new fairy for ya.
perhaps, a
'new year fairy'
i don't know about y'all, but he makes me kinda happy :))
(and so does the fact that his fairy-ness made the underlining go away)
(and so does the fact that his fairy-ness made the underlining go away)
nah. i am hopefully doubting all of the above. i think most of us are old enough to have learned from our past crazy days to not do those things now that we're the golden girls. :))
i would like to know what y'all did last night tho-- i'll get to what we did in a while -- but i have some other stuff to say first-- and by the time i get that out here-- well, you'll prolly be sick of me- so i may have to come back another time on the deets of last night.
so for now, i kinda come to you with a bit of a ----
and i feel like a :
i'm a crappy parent and human being- because i live in a world of:
yes, it's true. and what makes it even worse? i know better. i know what i should do. i know what i need to do. i know right from wrong.
and i know what i am doing is exact what pisses me off more than anything when another parent does it to me.
yup. i have information on a kid that could be potentially health threatening, yet i am not as much as i know i should to inform this kids parents of what i know.
of course i have NO way of knowing how to do that. no phone number, no address, no first- or even last name. so. what do i do? i have already tried to get that out of soulkid. to no avail. i can't beat it out of her. she refuses to consider the possible consequences of what could and might happen to this kid. but ME? oh boy. y'all know me. i would take that responsibility and guilt to my grave. IF something happened . the chances are slim, since some time has passed , but still.. from the research i have done this morning? it could take as long as a week or more for any symptoms to show. holy crap. how do i get sucked in the middle of crap like this?
perhaps i did well to raise a kid who is loyal ... but to THIS extent? this is TOO loyal. this is ridiculous. this could be life threatening. WTF.
what a way to start a year. surely i will find a way to either get her to tell me how to contact the kids parents-- or i can find out from the school. i will not let this just go by without doing something.
once again, i got the "this is why i don't want to tell you stuff!!!"
but dammit-- i think she did good by telling us-- maybe i just shouldn't have told her i was gonna tell???
i do not know how to be a mom. but i refuse to go through this shit again, and let kids hurt themselves without letting on to their parents. i can't live with that kind of guilt .
i don't want to be like those parents who enabled my kid. i just won't be like them.
and i know what i am doing is exact what pisses me off more than anything when another parent does it to me.
yup. i have information on a kid that could be potentially health threatening, yet i am not as much as i know i should to inform this kids parents of what i know.
of course i have NO way of knowing how to do that. no phone number, no address, no first- or even last name. so. what do i do? i have already tried to get that out of soulkid. to no avail. i can't beat it out of her. she refuses to consider the possible consequences of what could and might happen to this kid. but ME? oh boy. y'all know me. i would take that responsibility and guilt to my grave. IF something happened . the chances are slim, since some time has passed , but still.. from the research i have done this morning? it could take as long as a week or more for any symptoms to show. holy crap. how do i get sucked in the middle of crap like this?
perhaps i did well to raise a kid who is loyal ... but to THIS extent? this is TOO loyal. this is ridiculous. this could be life threatening. WTF.
what a way to start a year. surely i will find a way to either get her to tell me how to contact the kids parents-- or i can find out from the school. i will not let this just go by without doing something.
once again, i got the "this is why i don't want to tell you stuff!!!"
but dammit-- i think she did good by telling us-- maybe i just shouldn't have told her i was gonna tell???
i do not know how to be a mom. but i refuse to go through this shit again, and let kids hurt themselves without letting on to their parents. i can't live with that kind of guilt .
i don't want to be like those parents who enabled my kid. i just won't be like them.
ok-- on to a lighter subject---
my surprise gift?
from yesterday-
it's unveiling has been delayed.
but not by long.
my surprise gift?from yesterday-
it's unveiling has been delayed.
but not by long.
i did meet with Jlee yesterday , and we had a good visit, and a yummy lunch.
i also got to SEE 'it'--- but i didn't get to bring it home. she noticed an imperfection in the sunlight that she didn't notice at her house. so she wanted to take it back home and touch it up.
SO-- i will tell ya what it is-- cuz i know smocha, if no one else-- is dying to know what 'it' is.
Jlee, has drawn.. or sorry J-- whatever the proper term is :O ----
a portrait of my son Patrick. who, if you don't know died as an infant, many years ago. i have offered to pay several people over the years to do this for me, and have given them photos to use to do it-- only to never see them, a portrait, or my photo again. the last time i did this-- the girl did sincerely TRY to do the portrait, but many of you saw, it was a disaster.
when Jlee saw that scan on my blog-- she offered , as a gift to do it for me. i accepted.
it is beautiful. and so is she. she returned my photos even !!! :)) not that i ever doubted that she would.
so. when she does find the time to get it touched up, and back to me-- y'all will be the first to see it-- well, outside of us, and the soul-clan, of course.
no gift is better than one from the heart--- given or received. Jlee i will never forget this-- and never know how to repay it. i LOVE it... you didn't have to take it back.
anyhow---
i hope y'all are safe and sound-- and all your family are too!
have a happy day -- and a happy new year in your worlds too
oh ps-- you may not see me today--- there's an svu marathon on -- and soulkid beckons at this moment!
thank God for soulman and his feeding abilities :))
i also got to SEE 'it'--- but i didn't get to bring it home. she noticed an imperfection in the sunlight that she didn't notice at her house. so she wanted to take it back home and touch it up.
SO-- i will tell ya what it is-- cuz i know smocha, if no one else-- is dying to know what 'it' is.
Jlee, has drawn.. or sorry J-- whatever the proper term is :O ----
a portrait of my son Patrick. who, if you don't know died as an infant, many years ago. i have offered to pay several people over the years to do this for me, and have given them photos to use to do it-- only to never see them, a portrait, or my photo again. the last time i did this-- the girl did sincerely TRY to do the portrait, but many of you saw, it was a disaster.
when Jlee saw that scan on my blog-- she offered , as a gift to do it for me. i accepted.
it is beautiful. and so is she. she returned my photos even !!! :)) not that i ever doubted that she would.
so. when she does find the time to get it touched up, and back to me-- y'all will be the first to see it-- well, outside of us, and the soul-clan, of course.
no gift is better than one from the heart--- given or received. Jlee i will never forget this-- and never know how to repay it. i LOVE it... you didn't have to take it back.
anyhow---
i hope y'all are safe and sound-- and all your family are too!
have a happy day -- and a happy new year in your worlds too
oh ps-- you may not see me today--- there's an svu marathon on -- and soulkid beckons at this moment!
thank God for soulman and his feeding abilities :))
4 comments:
If Soulkid has Facebook..do some searching. If you know the kids first name, and if he goes to school, do some searching..
or, if you want, I can be the parent that tells his parents. That way you can't be blamed. :) Such a difficult thing. Something I can't imagine-because I have some time until my boys are at that "age" to worry about this stuff.
HAPPY NUDE YEAR! (fitting with the hottie 10 fairy!)
We did nothing. I've been having "attacks" so we stayed close to home so I could use a clean toilet.
Jack, Bri and I played a board game (LIFE: go figure) and then I fell asleep about 10pm. Bri and Jack stayed up to watch the ball drop. :)
Happy Nude year again!
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What a wonderful gift! If you like it, then we know its good. I can't wait to see it. Now...this other deal has brought the mother hen right out in me.....HOWEVER with the information that you have at hand, which is pretty much nothing, there isn't much you can do. The school counselors or teachers cannot help, the police can't even help and they keep files on kids (along with their nicknames). If you even just had THAT, they could maybe figure out who it is. Since you didn't say what this person did...I can only say that if the deed has already been done and its been a few days, I really don't think there is anything you or soul-kid could do to reverse it. This is just another one of those incidents that you have to put in God's hands. Its good that soul-kid is confiding in you, but you must get it across to her that she could save a life if she gets the info to the right people. She can do it anonymously. Warn her that its a mighty big burden to carry should an acquaintance get involved in something deadly and she could have notified someone and saved them. Is she prepared to carry that type of guilt around with her. No. And she shouldn't have to. She needs to be a strong woman and part of being strong is to let her friends or acquaintances know that she will do whatever is "right" if she feels any one of them is in serious trouble that could cost them their lives. She will only be respected for it. If they don't want her to say anything, then they can keep their secrets to themselves and save her the worry of knowing. The 'code of silence' is outdated and was created to only protect drug dealers and runners.
Glad your New Year was a good one. I was in bed at 10 but heard everyone's guns going off at midnight. You'd think that I lived in Texas!!
That's a tough question. I tend to agree with Val but you know best how to approach Soulkid. I think I would address it with Soulkid as her best friend rather than as her mother. It's a delicate situation because teens are quick to discount and reject anything presented by a parent.
We -the old farts - sat on the couch, held hands, and waited for the ball drop in NY. I think we may have both had a short nap while we waited.
Today we watched football and then more football. The kids came over to watch with us. During half times they played touch football in the back yard and I watched through the sunroom windows. It was C-O-L-D outside.
I can't wait to see the picture Jlee painted. What a percious gift from a special friend.
Such a precious and awesome gift from the heart!
About the kid dilemma,,,have you thought of contacting the school counselor with the info you have and maybe they can figure out who this child is? That would put the ball in a professional's hands and take some of your worry away.,,,maybe.
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