scary aint it?
anyhow-- here i am... not for long tho-- i just wanted to jump on and say hello. i haven't had five seconds to spend on this thing since the hospital.
i have a brilliant husband , btw, just so you know.
he did some troubleshooting last night-- trying to figure out why i seemed to be doing somewhat better on discharge-- and then suddenly--BOOM!!!
ready to go back to the ER with pain again. the same body seering, tear inducing, whine and "i can't breathe let me kill myself " pain--- back with a vengeance. for hours, and hours, and hours, and hours, and hours. it was torture.
and i'd take pill after pill... then i'd get sick and puke.. it got to where i had to stop the pain meds and have none at all rather than risk the horribleness that is barfing into a bowl in front of my husband.
speaking of he who is so brilliant---
on his troubleshooting list was the only three things that has changed since leaving the hospital were... i had smoked a few cigs... couldn't be it... or could it?
i hadn't eaten.. but that alone wouldn't cause such awful pain?.. would it?
aha! says doctah soulman... the steroid shots !!! they stopped them. therefore-- low bp-- more pain-- etc-- etc etc....
wow. so i start slammin roids-- who cares if i expload--if it helps the pain..right..and the puking... and i eat.. and live.. and all that jazz...
40mg here.. 20 mg there...30mg here... i bet i took 150-200 mg between yesterday afternoon and today--- but it's helping.
so anways you all are the most kick ass people i know !!
i apologize for not bein able to get around i just haven't been able to. this really is the worst most horrible awful pain i have ever experienced in my life---- for real. the--- worst. worst than the last time i said that. yep-- this tops it all. and i have had lots of and different kinds of pain... this is trophy material.
ahh-- one more thing before i hang up on you, cuz yep-- i'm fixin ta fall out---
it aint nuthin like House, when you're goin through somethin like that...
and ya look in your hubbys face right after the doc says-- blood clot in your lung--pulmonary embolism . no lazer lights and cool zappy sounds.. no looks of you've done it dr.. you've saved the patient! it's not anything like that at all.
seeing the nurse and doc today at different times, and each being in awe that i had lived, really was a wake up call. hubby stopped for demerol and mac n cheese on the way home-- and i had him get some nicotine gum while he was at it.
unfortunately, it was the pain med that the damn pharmacy had run out of... rather that the nic gum, or the mac n cheese..or something else-- so now i have to decide if i dare risk vicodin again, and maybe puke-- or wait maybe as late as tomorrow for the demerol. damn what a pickle.
someone needs to come cook me some mac n cheese-- hubby was late for work and had to go. :((
i'm hungray.
any y'all.. i hope to run around and catch up tomorrow--
g'night folks--
12 comments:
Awww babe - if I could get there I'd fix you up my Mac & cheese & cheese & cheese - yes, it's cheesy
At least your feeling good enough to be on here! I'm hoping one of those pill will do the trick for the pain - fingers crossed.
Maybe Soulkid could just rub the tabacco on ya rather than smokin it?
Awww Soul....I'm sooooo sorry you're in so much pain. You know us women can take a lot of pain so when you say it hurts this bad...I KNOW you're hurtin' BAD. I sure hope you can find something to stop it. Can't your drugstore locate some demoral for you...maybe at another store? I would be tearing that damn town apart!!! And don't be afraid to bitch to your doctor if you're still in pain! There is definitely a pain pill out there that will help you. Maybe Morphine.
If I lived closer I'd be over in a flash to make you mac 'n cheese. A big pot o' coffee...some cinnamon buns. YUM.
Thinking of you and saying prayers for your quick recovery. Love, Charlotte
I'd help you too, if I could. How's Soulkid managing through this? You are sooo lucky to have a brilliant husband. Wish I had one.
Hoping for a better day for you.
SOUL!!!!!!!! HUGS!!!!!!!!! AND TO your Soulman too!!
I don't mind if you've got your undies all out, I'll apply toliet paper to my shoes and backside and will run along side of you!
REST MOMMA REST! :)
XO,
Elizabeth
Oh Soul, your poor thing. Suffering so much. Good thing you have such a wonderful hubby. still, the pain must go away soon. Hope everything get better for you Soul.
Well it's an encouraging sign that you are first of all able to write a post AND you're hungry.....but damn that pain. I feel for you Soul, there is nothing worse especially when you can't get any relief anywhere.
I hope they find something to ease your pain soon.
BIG HUGS to the whole Soul clan.
I'm so glad you are posting.. and jeez, I don't think any of us are worried about you coming around to visit yet.
I'm so glad SoulMan figured out your problem. Better that then ending up back in the hospital.
Big hugs!
I hope you're feeling better today. I want to tell you to be careful with the steroids too. Work your way off of them slowly. And... mac and cheese sounds just about perfect this morning!
So sorry you're not doing well. Like smocha, I'd hoped you'd feel better going home. Pain meds on empty stomach CAN make you sick. Have soulkid fix you some mac/cheese. 31 degrees here, brrrrr auntie j
Vicodin makes me puke my guts out, I dont take it anymore. But some of the other meds make me sick also, if I dont take them with food. Try eating something first, then taking it?Or just call em and tell em you need something else. But still take your pain meds with food, it helps
Ohhh, I'm so sorry to hear this.
I so wish I can help in anyway. You're in my prayers.
oh no- do NOT take Chantix!!! people are going bonkers on that stuff
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