tuesday PS.

howdy folks..

what'd y'all do today???

i did some of my favorite things..

first i had to do my business stuff-- which isn't included in the favorites-- but i did get 20 bucks back for a school library book i paid for that soulkid found.. woo hoo for that.

next, i went fishin--- i didn't stay long, maybe an hour or so-- but here is the catch o' the day --

then i came home and

ate like the hawg that i am.

and then i lazed in front of the tv...

until i fell asleep--

then i napped..

then, well...

not much--

today was the last day of school here --

well.. til next week :))

then it's summer school for mine,

one class again.

sucks to be her i reckon.

this time i don't have to drive cuz it's right across the street !

woo hoo-

welp... now i must cook dinnah --

hope y'all had good days---

boring boring boring

this is my brain

this is my brain on blogger



if i'm lucky
i'll have something to say later on today---


until then :

i'll be baaaack --

monday - again - yippee

does monday ever feel like anything besides one more day slipped in there to make people grumpy? i seem to feel like a bitch on monday morning, and i don't even have a job! i mean , sure, i have things to do. hubby and daughter are tough to get movin on mondays. their tired from doin more than usual on the weekend, stayin up late, etc. but for me-- monday shouldn't be a whole lot different. but it always seems that it is. of course-- things are different i spose. like i said, the atmosphere is different with them. of course, there is , more often than not a much bigger mess around the house than usual on a monday morning than most other mornings. you know, things like that. and i also have usually had less sleep over the weekend. less than them even.. because even thought we all may stay up til 12 or 1-- they may sleep til 9, 10, 11... the latest i ever make it might be 6-- but on the norm, it's between 3 and 5 regardless of what time i go to sleep , on any given night. -- i did , however make it from about 1230-6 last night-- which was like a miracle for me. woo hoo. i hope i have the energy i need today to get my shopping and crap done today.


most of yesterday was spent cleaning my house, and working on my stupid laptop. i spent hours on that damn thing, and every time i'd think i had it fixed... the stupid corrupt files thing would start poppin up again. i googled stuff, read my manual, did stuff that said to do, i did everything i could think, guess, or even just assume i should do with it. apparently NONE was the cure.
i got sooo mad. i eventually did take all my photos, files and anything i was afraid to lose if it crashed off and put it onto discs. i had no clue what was goin on with the damn thing.

hubby had finally offered to try to fix it.
right at the point that i gave up on it-- at like maybe 9 pm. i was soo done. i coulda thrown it at the wall. i was soo mad at it. well, by the time he gets it-- he starts askin my- why is your firewall turned off?

hell if i know. all kindsa stuff was off-- or not there.. or not runnin.. well who knew?
ya know-- all this stupid corrupt file, and crap started when my bookmarks and toolbars got dumped that night-- mysteriously. i guess i somehow picked up some kinda virus that night-- that did all this weird stuff. and it just kept gettin worse. even my yahoo messenger got "corrupt" and quit workin, a day or two ago. the downloaded one. i'd dump it-- re download it-- ugh. then it would be corrupt again.

anyhow-- it took like four hours for hubby to do whatever he did last night. on top of the hours i spent on it... but so far this morning-- i THINK it is fixed. i sure hope so. i hate computer bs problems.

especially when it messes with my routine. whaddabunchacrap !
now i need to go try to download yahoo messenger again.. if it does that corrupt file crap again... i am gonna just scream.

as for yesterday-- i did not go fishin-- i actually cleaned my house-- most of it.
today i have to grocery shop and catch up on errands.
if i finish that-- i should be able to fish a bit tomorrow.

tomorrow is the last day of school here--- my child has passed all her major statewide tests -- and i haven't heard a word about summer summer school. i'm not doin the happy dance just yet-- cuz she does have a couple low grades-- but i sure am hoping that no news is GOOD news and that she won't have to go to summer school !!! that's one thing on my list today-- to find out for sure. how cool will that be if she skates outta that !!!!

welp-- i bettah get goin..

boring post i know-- sorry.

i'll be around latah--

anybody got a crane i could borrow ?

i cannot move today. i think i have waaay overdone it this passed week or two, and i must stop. my body is screaming at me over my stupidity , and has been since last night . ooooh. where is that truck that hit me??

ok.. as for the tournament ??? it didn't go so well for us . some people did pretty good, but not many. but the biggest sack was almost ten pounds, and the big bass was almost five pounds.. (that was the same guy) we didn't stick around for the results of who got paid-- but i imagine that guy got first. anyhow-- we weighed a bag of 2 fish lol -- both caught by soulman.. one barely measured legal.. just over 14 inches. and the second was a small spot. our total weight was just shy of 2 pounds. we only weighed just for fun, we knew we didn't have a chance.
right after we weighed our fish we left. we had never been so ready to leave a tournament. usually it's one or the other-- and usually it's him.. last night it was both of us, and for once , i think i was ready to leave before he was. my back locked up on me before we were into the second hour. once that happened, it was pretty much over for me. i tried to sit down and fish.. and that's a huge pain the ass. plus it was windy again, so we were both gettin hang up after hang up-- which is also a huge pain in the ass. usually we try to get out of em, and save the tackle.. we were so --- whatever-- not into it i guess, we got to the point that we would just break our line off or cut it, rather than fight with it. strange night.
as for me, i caught 2, maybe three fish-- too small to weigh-- i guess it was two-- one itty bitty bass..and a perch. the bass made us laugh. ignore the hair-- but here he is:


so anyhow-- yep... i really must take a break from fishin. it is gonna be very hard for me to do that. i woke up this morning in more pain than i have been in in a while. everywhere. and so tired too. i just can't be this physical, every damn day. it's wearin on me.
brad mentioned that it was a good thing i aint gamblin..... how true that is. my mom was into gambling-- i think that's the only reason i'm careful about that. i do have fun when i gamble , but boy-- it scares me. seriously. i could get addicted to just about anything. but i watched my mom do some really crazy shit in order to gamble... and i watched her suffer for it too. so i suppose fishin is a lot safer -- at least for my family. i'm payin for it now tho. i may end up havin hubby take my fishin stuff to storage for a week or two tho LOL.. at least until my body can get some rest. talk about intervention lol.

soooo.... ya... even tho he was tired, and i was in pain, we had fun, but it was a tough one for both of us. if we were smart we woulda just packed it up and left early-- but of course there was money on the line. we paid to fish, and sometimes when the fish aren't bitin, even one fish could win it all.. ya just never know . so we stayed. i think we may take a break for a while tho. but-- we will see about that.
i know for now-- i need to slow down for a while. lest i collapse. or cry.

AC this means it's YOUR turn for me to fish thru YOU-- get out there !!!

thanks for the good luck wishes everybody-- sometimes it just aint our turn.

but hey-- some of the guys out there are startin to get used to me.. a couple even were nice to me :))

see you folks later-- my computer is loaded with viruses or somethin and i have to figure out how to fix it... "corrupt files".. anyone know??? i have windows vista.. HELP ???

happy satahday

GUESS WHAT ?

WE'RE GOIN FISHIN !!!!!!

WOO HOOOO !!!!!!!

wish us luck..

see ya latah :))

back to the ole grind--

howdy folks--
happy tuesday to ya--
which is sort of a monday for most.


i don't have a whole lot to say right now-- or a whole lot of time to say it anyhow.

i got to a few pages this mornin, and did get a chance to reply to comments here... but that's about as far as i'm gonna get for now. so-- my last two posts-- are fully updated ! woo hoo-- so if you commented here on either of them.. i talked to y'all in my boxes. see? i'm tryin to get back on track. let's see if i don't derail again.

so anyhow-- i have a lot to do today-- but when i'm done--prolly late this afternoon, i shall get back to my cruisin etc. -- and talk in YOUR boxes- :)) -- and hopefully mine too

but, before i get to my business of the day-- let's see what i have to say here real quick.

well, really not much-- that or i just can't think right now, for the ever growing mental list in my head at the moment.

soulkid had quite the emotional day yesterday, which in turn made it real hard for me to process much in my own. i can't-- or won't blog it. it really isn't my stuff to put here for all to see ya know. it is her stuff-- or at least that of her "world".. if that makes sense. but it was hard for all of us. especially her. and for us as parents.... ?? --- it is something that happens-- that can paralyze a parent-- and make you only thank God that it wasn't any worse-- for anyone involved.

i'm sorry that is so cryptic.. i won't go any further with it-- because it will only confuse you.
hell i'm confused. i don't know everything that happened.. but i know enough to be upset, worried, and grateful. for more than just my own kid.

ok .. i better move away from that topic....

ummmm....

i broke down last night, and cleaned out all the rod lockers and storage boxes on the boat .. i couldn't stand the thought of one more tournament like the last. i couldn't believe the amount of trash , extra life jackets, and just misc STUFF that just was NOT needed on that boat. i mean a - i don't know maybe a fifty ft extension cord? WTH? talk about bein in the way! there was like twenty , two year old full water bottles..not to mention as many empty ones... it was just awful. but it is very nice now-- and everything will be easy to get to now. anything not required on that thing-- is gone now! a trip to the carwash-- and a nice new carpet-- would be terrific.. but i know the carpet will have to wait-- the carwash can happen tho-- :))

i hope that soulman learned from the last tourney also-- NOT to put his ginormous tackle bag in the pathway during a night tourney-- at least without letting me know it's there... good lord -- i coulda broke a leg on that thing! that hurt ! lol.. i'm sure it woulda been funny if he actually saw it tho-- :)) but all he knew was he heard a big crash.. and a LOT of cussing ! :))

i don't think we will be fishin the next one.. he has to work on saturday-- and we usually dont get home til 1130 or 12 on those nights-- but i'lll let ya know if he feels energetic.
you know-- we have fished three tourneys together now-- and 2 out of three we won money. that's pretty good odds. what a team eh? makes it hard to pass up. plus it's fun!

welp-- i spose i should go-- soulkid is up-- and she is quite the crabapple. i am trying to be nuthing but supportive to her through "this".. and she wants to be all grouchy to ME about it.....

i guess we all get that way sometimes when bad things happen in our worlds and we dont want to talk about it-- but geesh. it just makes me wanna be somewhere else when i get talked to in one word blunt responses.

how bout you?

maybe i'll go fishin before i start my day :))
sure was fun yesterday!!

i'm so irrisponsible...
i swear it's an addiction!!!!

clownin around with the fishies ---

hello again....

oh yuk.. that just put that 100 year old Lionel richie song in my head that i have always hated. what happened to my redneck greeting? the good ole howdy folks-- or somethin...
oh well.. what's done is done... at least it's not jingle bells or "the sun'll come out
to- mor- roooowww."

LOL... can y'all tell yet that i'm just TRYIN to drive you insane?

ok, anyways... i just thought i would jump in here real quick with my fishin report o' the day-- just in case you care :))

and jamie/simonsays.. might-- cuz when i got back, she had left a note , sayin for me to catch her a big one. ( i have like NO memory-- she might have said giant-- hell , i don't know.. but she did want a big fish-- so, i thought i'd post him for her.)

and, i figured-- well hell, while i was at it, why not just post em all... so i did.

i lost more than i caught today. that has never happened to me at the pond before. lakes-- yes. the pond..never. i actually saw three of them.. watched them shake loose, and flop off right there before my very eyes... it was sickening. we're talkin two pound bass. just enough to make me barf. ok, not barf. cry. ok, not cry. mad. yep, it made me mad. and i ended up fishin way too long because of it.

but anyhow--- in order to not be mad and in a bad mood while fishin, i was actin silly when i would catch a fish. as you can see--

i had a really good time, i just wore myself down .. it was real cloudy and windy-- but not so windy that it made me mad... it was really nice out today. i couldn't force myself to leave til i was in physical agony. that's pretty bad isn't it? but hey-- it was fun.

if i would have changed to a sharper hook sooner-- i just might have had those three i lost-- i lost them in the first twenty minutes i was there-- i woulda had six like these...or bigger. sickening, i say .

here's your fish Jamie !!!

well hell---

i have been up for almost three hours already-- and made my rounds-- well most of em anyhow--
seems everyone is sleeping--or perhaps out of town maybe ? but nobody is cruisin around..at least not around here.
sooooo... all's quiet on the soul - front-- so i think i'm gonna go fishin!
i've already drank almost a pot of coffee, and done some chores even.
not much else to do... unless i wanna actually get down to the scrubbin of floors and toilets-- and y'all know i just don't even wanna go there. at least NOT at 630 a.m. --- hell, i never wanna go there.. lol.
anyhow-- it is on my list-- but not this early.

i do seem to be getting somewhat caught up on my horrid list. it has done nuthin but grow and piss me off, and make me feel worthless-- for weeks, but over the last week or so, i have managed to pick away at it, little by little and actually am beginning to see some progress. and that makes me feel much better about things.

well-- except my blog. man - o -man. it's a sad state of affairs around here as far some of these posts go aint it? i just don't know what to say about that. not much more to say than i already have. all i can do is try to be better about it. anyone whose been around a while knows by now-- when i don't feel good, or don't do much-- the writing suffers-- big time.
i hate it as much as you do. so i'm workin on it. and i'm workin on me too. just tryin to get myself to feeling better. and thinkin better. my frame of mind ya know. i think all the recent med issues have once again got me all stressed out or something-- then made me all tired -- or something. then all my important things.. like home and business have been neglected.. then it pressured me mentally-- and you know how all that snowballs a person.
or maybe just me? but anyhow-- i'm sorry if i have been too whiney-- or nonsensical around here. i know some of these posts could have been half as long and said as much as they needed to.

and as for y'all.. you know what they say about good intentions....
i try tho-- dammit. one day i get to everyone-- the next i get to one or two-- or none at all.
it sure isn't personal.. and i hope it doesn't bother any of you as much as it bothers me.

so anyhow---
the sun is up--the weather is fine-- and i am outta heah!

happy monday to you all...

tell me what your plans are for today!
whatever you're doin-- be safe and have FUN!

title challenged

howdy folks---

i don't know where to begin this post-- it doesn't matter really where i begin .. it is gonna be a whine-fest regardless. i prolly shouldn't even write at all.. but i have some splainin to do--

so i spose i will start here:

i woke up this morning-- well, that's a given, right-- cuz if i didn't wake up-- you wouldn't be readin this--

so anyhow-- i do my morning duties of puttin dogs out, checkin on kids, gettin my coffee, all that stuff..
i get on my computer--- and what is the first thing i notice?

ALL my bookmarks are mysteriously GONE! ALL of them.
first thought?

kids!!! -- thing 1 and thing 2 have gotten on my laptop in the night-- and did "something" and deleted-- not only my bookmarks-- but the entire toolbar thing too-- not that i hadn't attempted to get rid of them..so in a way they .. (maybe they) -- did me a favor-- but the google and yahoo toolbars are also-- mysteriously GONE. WTF???

so what do i do-- i suspiciously go thru my history, of course-- i find no evidence of any sites that i didn't go to myself-- BUT i do know enough to know that they could have deleted the sites and they went-- IF in fact they are guilty.

but anyhow-- i am simply baffled about this. any computer gurus know if or how this coulda happened "on it's own? shut down? hmm..

so anyhow-- it's not really that big of a deal-- EXCEPT that i had some blogs linked in my bookmarks-- that i DON"T have in my links on my blog. SO , if you have a blog that i read, and i happen to not visit --- it's because i don't know how to get there. so please let me know .ugh.

i really don't feel up to accusing or arguing with the kids today about something i cannot prove they had a part in ya know. even tho i think they did. it just isn't worth it. we all know computers have a mind of their own. sometimes.

ok-- that's enough for that part.

next-- on the whine list?

yesterday?
it sucked.
not in any kind of bad way. i mean nothing bad happened. it's just that nothing happened -- at all. i slept--and i slept---and i slept.
i woke up a couple times-- only to fall asleep again.. had to be the meds? i don't know. i woke yesterday with a terrible headache-- meds helped--but made me tired-- i didn't have enough sleep anyhow--so knew i'd need a nap-- but man... not to nap all damn day--and night.
so-- the day passed me by-- i accomplished nothing. i did nothing... and because of it-- my ass hurts today!
part of that tho--is due to getting bounced around on the boat friday night tho too. i have kind of a bony ass-- and rough water isn't very kind the next day --- to my butt, i mean. :))

i woke up this morning.. a bit tired, but it only took a cup or two of coffee to help that. for now i feel pretty good.. overall, at least. i have a ton of crap to catch up on... but y'all know me-- i want to go fishin. i hope to find time...and energy for a little of both.

i need a cattle prod to use on my child. anything short of abuse isn't gonna do that girl a bit of good in the motivational department.
anyone remember the drug commercial?
"i learned it from watching you dad!"
ugh.
could it be MY fault that the child won't clean her room..feed her animals, or bring her dirty clothes to the laundry room..rather than throw them in her closet?
someone tell me it is not me. tell me it's a phase-- a ten year long PHASE. :))
even if it's a lie-- i need some moral support here.
i know i'm too easy on her-- but somethin just has to give
or i'm gonna crackup!

ok...
anybody got any cheese for my whine????
i'll take brie, and grapes!!!

happy sunday peoples....be safe today--and have FUN!!

i'm amazed at how boring one week can be sometimes

happy friday folks-- it's finally the weekend-- sorta--
bout time eh?
i know lotsa peeps who've been lookin forward to today. actually the end of the day-- but hopefully that will come fast.
for all of us who want it to.

i was sittin here tryin to think of what to write about-- cuz we all know how exciting my life can be . i got nuthin . so i scrolled down some to see if i needed to update on anything. i did find a thing or two-- but in the process-- i realized-- my gawd-- i am one boring gal. not always-- sometimes, i can even make myself laugh-- but man, sometimes-- i even want quit reading my own page. y'all are awesome for puttin up with my do nuthin-say nuthin weeks, and days. seems this was a big ole cry baby week. quite forced writing too at times. sorry.

so anyhow-- i need to do somethin about that. what that will be.. i'm not sure about yet. but somethin exciting needs to happen around here. (ya right) but i'll try.

however--- there are a couple things i can toss in here for now..

tonight is our fishing tournament--- i am hoping that since i got a little fishing in , i'll be more ready for it this time. the lake really is different than the pond-- and my confidence , not as high there. but now that i am on a mission to show-up those grouchy guys-- i am hoping to do better. maybe not win-- although it would be real nice-- i just want to get some good fish. that lake has never been good for me though..and we used to live by it. fished it all the time, and i have never done well on that lake. i hope tonight is my night. maybe if it isn't a full moon, and my phone doesn't ring constantly-- it will be at least a little better. let's hope so.

and , speaking of the phone---- i got the call-back, on the abdominal ultrasound yesterday. exactly what i expected. they found nothing wrong. it's just the weirdest thing. i'm grateful that there is nothing wrong. but i still wonder why i was in so much pain. i swear it ranked first or second on my lifes scale of pain.. for days. yet they found nothing. well... they did of course find my frickin pancreas... :)) dumbasses.

so anyhow-- i spose today i need to finish with my house and business etc.. so i can fish tonight without worrying about what i "didn't " do. or shoulda done. or need to do. no slackin off today.
sushi's EEVEE bite is healing fairly well. she won't leave it alone though. it would probably be scabbed over by now--but she licks it all the time. but it isn't a gaping hole anymore at least. she didn't learn anything from whatever happened either, apparently. she still antagonizing eevee. for no reason. i am surprised at how sort of whimpy eevee can be sometimes. she could kill any one of these animals at will.. yet she is more afraid of them than they are of her. not as much as she was at first, but she still cowers and runs off when they challenge her-- but she will stand up to sushi more often..and that worries us. but eevee never starts it. sushi thinks she is the queen of the castle here... especially if she is on my lap and eevee comes over for some pets or to play-- sushi goes all badass on her-- i hope she doesn't get her face ripped off for it someday.

well... that's about all i can come up with at this time of day.
perhaps i will update later if i have time.. if not-- check back tomorrow for the tourney report--- and wish us luck. even if it's just big bass-- big bass gets paid.. and even that is shameful if a girl gets it. last week the 6 pounder paid out 90.00. we could use that-- on top of a little pay back ...

i know-- resentment is never good for the soul--- but i spent years in the navy being treated this way-- having to prove myself etc-- up against men.. so i guess it's just kinda comparable to that?? maybe. either way-- i'll get mine-- and they'll get theirs. maybe not tonight-- but one of these nights. :))

see y'all later

happy weekend--

almost 9 am and overcast-- hmmm -- updated TWICE/W-pix --

i have "a list" a half mile long-- but the weather is perfect for fishing. where do my responsibilities lie?? holy crap. if i remember correctly-- and i may not-- i don't think i have been fishing since friday. :(( i sure have wanted to tho. wait-- i think i did on the weekend--- but i got skunked. so it didn't count. i should go. at least for a while. dontcha think? yep. i do.
but i have a lot to do. ugh. decisions decisions .

anyhow-- i guess whatever i decide-- what gets done , gets done, and what doesn't can wait. whaddayathink.?

i finally went to wally hell yesterday. i swear, it has been weeks since i went grocery shopping. hubby has picked up things here and there-- but a real grocery day has been desperately required around here for a long time. so i broke down and shopped. another price hike on just about everything was noticed... and i was pissed about that. i tried to be frugal.. so i skipped many of the junky stuff i usually get-- which i of course heard about later... "you didnt get any snaaaacks"... whaaaa.
shadddup.
ugh.
i also didn't get hardly any meat-- maybe one or two things of meat.
damn man. it sucked. we were down to nearly nuthin again. i did the best i could, and really thought i was gonna walk outta there at near 100.00 .... did i???
ummm, NO. did i come close to 100???

ummm NOT.
did i almost have a fuckin stroke?
uhhhh yep.. yes i did.
i even tried to find a new credit card we just got-- cuz i went soooo over my budget-- it was find a different way to pay-- or skip a bill, that was already lat-- almost a week late. did i find said card-- NOPE. and i had some woman sighing behind me-- so i just paid off the regular bank-- knowing i was in big trouble.

know how much i spent? on almost nuthing???
close to 240.00.
i do not know HOW either. but it really sucked. no junk food, little meat, wth???

i did get a carton of smokes-- 33.00, but that doesn't make it 240.00.

i double checked my rct when i got home.. i was double charged on one thing-- but it was only 3.88 that doesn't put me over 200 either. but somethin has to be off somewhere . i gotta go over it again... and yep-- i am gonna go get my 3.88 back. cuz i'm cheap like that. :))

anyhow.

where was i???

hmmm.

i have , literally, a stack of medical bills... SIX inches high. can we say "screwed" ?
i must sift through them today. i'm pretty sure several are duplicates, so once i organize them they won't look so scary. but i know some are very high.. from the seizure. even after insurance--- omg.

yesterday i had to go through a mess with my insurance over my eye glasses. they were tryin to say they weren't gonna pay for them.. so i had to do a buncha stuff for that. that was real fun. not. but it shouldn't be a problem now. i hope.


well anyhow-- i guess y'all don't wana hear all my boring crap o the day. do ya.

i reckon if i manage to get in some fishin time i will let ya know.. if i catch anything. i just think i need to take care of my business stuff and the house before i play. i'm behind on everything. and everyone. i did manage to make my rounds this morning-- which makes me feel somewhat better... i hate to get behind with yall. you know that. i hate the guilt's--

sooo-- i guess that answers the fishin question.. work it is.

catcha later peoples

have great days in your worlds today--

10:10 a.m.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE-- I CAN ONLY WORK ON THE BANKS FOR SOO LONG-
I'M GOIN FISHIN..
CALL ME HUCK FINN
LATAERZ---
:))



BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

obviously, i went fishin......
obviously , i caught fish. :))
i had planned to go for an hour.. just to get it outta my system. i'm an addict. i stayed for two hours. thing was.. i got two fish-- about that size. that one was 2 lbs. the next was 2.3 pounds-- but the camera wigged out and the pics didn't take on the second fish. not sure why. operator error i'm sure.
they were sure fun to catch. but , right before i got em i was about ready to leave and get back to my errands and chores, etc. but after two of those? i just couldn't--yet. so i kept fishin.. for an hour-- and didn't get any more.
bummer.

so i left finally, intending on being productive.. well, i picked up a rx.. and a few things at the store.... then , when i got home .. i ate. we all know i shouldn't eat lunch when i have things to do---- yep-- i fell asleep. dammit. i did manage to get roast goin, and some laundry started first-- but that's about it. the clan is home now. soulman just got in a few minutes ago--it was kinda funny the way he reacted to smellin dinner cookin. like it something he'd never experienced before. he said "what's that smell"?? umm.. dinner. (hmm.. it HAS been a while-- too long apparently) i really do need to cook more.

anyhow.. guess i'll go throw somethin at sushi now. :)) not really, but her barkin at every little thing is makin me crazy--- anyone want her?

latahs..

don't hate me----

i'll make my rounds tomorrow-- i promise...
it got late on me-- then we watched idol-- now i am wiped out and have to take my sore, old lady self to bed. i didn;t get to your pages today-- sorry.
i did get most my errands done tho-- so i will have more -- sit on my butt time tomorrow.
ugh.

david cook won on american idol. i kinda didn't want him to-- so he would get an album out sooner-- but he cried and was real happy to win...so good for him. hopefully they won't ruin his style...

anyhow--
g'nite-- hope y'all sleep well..
see ya soon--

so much for havin a routine

mornin folks..

it's 555 a.m. i reckon that's better than 333 huh. one thing about that tho? it's alarm hell time around here. and aside from that, i have only been up for about ten minutes. which also means, i haven't had any time to wake up , or think about anything yet. all i've done is put sushi out and in, get coffee, and get settled in on the computer. and listen to hubbys' alarm go off about four times. ugh. i'm still tired.
my whole routine is off lately. morning and night. for two weeks or so. not sure why. several reasons i guess. (oh great, now soulkids alarm begins.) lovely. i don't have snooze on my alarm. if i miss my alarm-- i miss it. there is no -- five or six times for me. but i usually get up before it goes off anyhow.

anyways. my routine? wth? early to bed , early to rise, smoke and choke, chat online, cruise, do what i need to do, want to do, have to do, get home in time for the child, and hubby, and most days .. look and feel like i've accomplished something.

lately... NOT. my sleep habits are all kindsa screwed up -- some nights in bed by 10-- some im up til 12 or 1-- some days up at 330 some up at 530 ish. ugh. some days i nap some i don't.

and yesterday-- omg. the night before.. i had a new muscle relaxer from the doc. it said take at bedtime-- so i did. i thought it was weird to take it at bedtime , cuz its not bedtime that i need to not be in pain, but i did bedtime anyhow-- but damn man -- i felt drugged all damn day long. i got deep into some paperwork stuff. i drug out my file cabinet-- looking for my VA loan .. for a house.... it's here somewhere, but i haven't seen it for years. anyhow --- it was about noon before i got the first file box sorted and organized-- it looks mahvelous btw, and i found stuff i haven't seen in years-- but of course not what i was lookin for. but by the time i got thru that file box.. i was starved. so i took a break. to eat. all i ate was a salad. after that i got of course got tired. somethin about me and lunch. i still don't get it. so i leaned back in the chair, and i was out. i woke up when soulkid got home at 330 , she was walkin in the door. she was trying to talk to me-- and i could NOT stay awake for nothin, i kept tryin to wake up. but could not. next thing i knew-- it was after 6 pm ! i woke up-- after several more failed attempts. i finally got up-- and i didn't see her-- or either of the dogs. hubby wasn't home from work yet. i got up and looked for (them). i was afraid she had gone somewhere, and maybe let the dogs out.
when i checked.. i found the dogs-- and soulkid was also asleep--in her bed.


i think the heat-- and the fact that everyone was up til after 1 the night before had something to do with it.
but that pill i took , ugh. usually i need to double dose on just about anything for it to even do it's minimal job.. much less kick my butt... now im afraid to even take it again-- even though it did make my neck feel better. i just can't win ya know. not when it comes to meds, docs and that kinda thing.

so anyways. i was at least somewhat alert and alive when soulman got home about 8ish last night. and we watched recorded american idol and hells kitchen. which were both good. only made me feel like a fool... cuz when i posted about these shows the other day-- i said ai was over -- like last week.. and it's not -- til tonight. hmm. brain dead much?
i still don't want david cook to win it-- and i don't think he will. but that's ok.

welp-- i guess that's about it-- for my boring morning.
i'll let ya know if anything interesting happens..and i'll be cruisin and catchin up after i get caught up with stuff here-and everyone is gone.

happpy humpday!

tagged by EE

i slept half the day away-- so here's a meme..

Four, Four, Four, Four... from life unscripted

A) Four places that I go to over and over:

Fishin, mall hell, post office box, doctor hell

B) Four people who e-mail me (regularly):

anyone who wants me to have a larger penis, :0 – blogger comment updater - my sis, and Jamie/simonsays

C) Four favorite places to eat:

frescos’ (a local mex joint)—chipotle , outback, and my new fave Carrabbas

D) Four places I would rather be right now:

fishing,- with my sis, - or with Jamie, - or squandering money – on something –without worryin about it.

E) Four people I think will post their own "4,4,4:

smocha- simonsays- yankee- and AC :0

(and anyone else who wants it--)

F) Four TV shows I watch all the time:

when they are on--- survivor, hells’ kitchen, American idol, and then there’s any crime or medical show documentary. Ie- crime 360- mystery diagnosis.

--i'll catch up tomorrow---

g'nite---

the neverending monday has ended

finally-- !!!
we have air again.. woo hoo...

the air guys showed up finally-- guess what time? 9 p.m. yep. i started calling around 6 i think. and i wasn't very happy either. but i had expected to at least have heard something, so by that time, i was thinking they weren't coming. and i was roasting. and pretty pissed off. finally, soulman got a hold of them. i called 3 or 4 times, left messages everything-- not a word back-- hubby calls-- and gets called right back. wth??? first the tourney--i'm ousted cuz i'm a woman.. is this the same type of deal? that's what i was thinkin. but anyhow- hubby didn't get off work til 7. they told him they would be here at 8-- they showed at 9 -ish. we were all a bunch of bitches by then. and soulkid had a friend over to stay the night--"to work on a project". suuure. but with 11 days of school left--who really cares. but by 9 or 10 o'clock it occurred to me-- why the hell didn't you stay at HER house? with air conditioning? hmmm... soulkid didn't know--and her friend said because her mom was annoying. well hell-- everyones mom is annoying.. at least it's cool and annoying there. i offered to take them over there , but they didn't want to. man i DID. :))
anyhow-- they DID manage to fix the cooler. at first they thought it was the thermostat, so changed it. NOT. turned out to be some kind of relay or somethin. they left at 11 pm. ugh. but hey-- at least it works. i just hope it keeps workin. i was literally moments away from goin to get a motel room. even the animals were miserable.

so anyhow. the week turned out to be off to a not so terrible start afterall. at least tomorrow i can say that.

we have air :))

i have no more drs' this week..at least for now.

i killed my fly infestation today... with wasp spray--works wonders if you ever end up with such a problem. :))

and-- i have nothing on my schedule for tomorrow. i can or cannot do anything i want to tomorrow . right now i don't know what that will be-but i will fill you in when i decide.

anyways-- here it is.. midnight almost--again, and i am still up---again.
any bets on what time i wake up?
who says 330?
who says 530?
any for 6?

my alarm is set for 530. but that never matters. i could set it for 9 and wake up at 3.
i bet i'm up before the alarm... we shall see.

anyhow--- i was tryin to leave you on a positive note and here comes "debbie downer"
haha...

my nephew called me that a while back when i went to chicago.. LOL -- but not just me-- smocha too. we were "debbie downers".

that was an odd trip for those who missed it. actually, i don;t think i wrote a lot of the details here-- but ya-- i think it needed some better planning. and definitely a better hotel room..without pools of blood, and other unpleasant surprises. :))

ok-- anyhow-- i'm goin ta bed--- i shall see y'all tomorrow.

g'nite

pass the prozac!!!

OMG what a day! and it aint over yet---anyone know when the sun will set ? my gawd it's hot . 100 degrees today. and no air conditioning. aint life grand? !!

ok, that's out of my system.

i of course didn't get any specific details on anything at either doctor today. i'm glad i didn't expect any. i learned my lesson on that one though. i don't really know what to think or expect though either.

the scan lady couldn't tell me nuthin.

and as for neuro-- that one was a bit weird. he did an exam..with the sharp/dull thing.. ya know? well, i have had docs do that before-- a few times--- well.. today was the first time ever-- that it felt different on each side. especially my face. wth does that mean? the whole left side of my body could feel stuff stronger than the right side. BUT my face i could barely feel the pointy thing at all on the left side. friggin weird. weirdest thing? i asked HIM.. THE DR>
"what does that mean?"
know what he said?
"i don't know".
can i just scream?
right now?

anyways.;

he gave me meds.. made a follow up appt in a month.. and i know nuthin. i do know he will review my last MRI of my back and neck..and go from there. so you'll know--when i know.

laterz

holy moly it's a monday

hi peeples--

dare i say happy monday?

sure i dare-- happy monday! to you---
i hope it's a decent day for me too-- but to be honest-- i aint feelin too chipper right now. it was yet another 330 morning for me. and man i tell ya i really tried for it NOT to be this time around. i'm
supposed to be fasting as we speak... for a --yes, another, belly scan this morning. ugh. gawd. help me. am i though. umm. no. i am not. i would be. IF the extra sleeping pill woulda done its job last night, and allowed for the extra hour or two of sleep last night--but did it. umm, obviously not.
so-- i am drinking coffee. black. and don't plan on 2/3 a pot this morning, or do i figure that any bit of a couple cups or so, would be "gone" by 11 am anyhow. so who cares. obviously not me , at this point. it's not an actually "stomach" scan scan anyways. they are checking my pancreas -- i guess. they are so very informative, these people, ya know.
last time we talked all they said was the ct "didn't show my pancreas".. or whatever.
we ALL KNOW it's there--somewhere. geesh.

when they called about that-- i was at dinner out with hubby--obviously didn't have my calender with me, so i just ok'd a appointment for today-- with no way to know if it was "open" or not. well, whenever-- a day or so later-- i get a reminder call from my neuro doc-- i have an appointment with them today also! lovely. 1045 for the ultrasound-- and 330 for the neuro. just peachy. ya know i go into defensive mode for any doc appointment right. so yep-- waking at 330-- two appointments on the way-- behind in all my business and errands-- cranky as hell...ugh. i'm not looking forward to any bit of this.

and-- are y'all ready for the kicker? i feel i can toss this one in now-- seein as today is the day i should -- key word SHOULD find out something about it-- the AC guys SHOULD be BACK today too. my air conditioner quit-- yes QUIT again on friday-- if not thursday... and it has been one hot mo-fo out here. (it blows HOT air/and has the heater smell) - i have not wanted to bring it up on here-- cuz i knew once i mentioned it-- i would do nuthin BUT mention it.. for days. (motha was lucky enough for a small rant last night :))
it's killin us. but you know- bein US -- it would happen on a weekend. so there wasn't a damn thing we could do about it. we had to simply turn it OFF, and open windows. and really that did nuthin. ok it helped a little, but not much at all. false hope? i don't know. it's not a breaker switch ..or anything that a person with no knowledge of such things such as ourselves could deal with. and really, it made for some crabby souls around on the weekend. ugh. so,the a/c guys are supposed to come fix it today-- but i will believe that when i see it. honestly-- i don't expect to see it-- not today, at least.

on a good note-- we have decided to fish the tournament next friday night. sweet revenge--i hope.
hubby knows a couple guys this time who will be fishin it--so it should be a little less awkward at weigh in-- at least there will be a couple peeps that will be civil towards us.; they know me too-- and don't hate me. :)) one of them is his regular fishin partner for the other tourneys he has been fishin. he's an alright guy-- just a little uptight when he doesn't catch fish.
but that's alright. anyhow-- we are hoping to catch some good fish this time, and put these asshats in their place this time. and really are hoping for a better time. i know i'm bringin bug spray this time--- the gnats were a bitch -- did i mention that ? anyhow-- i already told my child not to call every ten minutes. so that should help. i hope. doesn't mean we will win money-- i just want some weighable fish-- bigger than "tinY"

welp-- i don't guess i have i have anything else to cry about-- i mean say. :))
well.. i do-- i just won't. yet . maybe i'll do that later. :))


hope y'all have happy days in your worlds today--

i am merely hoping i can maintain my people skillz.. and not yell at anyone today. i really don't handle the business aspect of people very well anymore. there was a time that i did. but people just really piss me off these days-- and i kinda have a way of lettin em know that a bit too often.

i'm thinkn soulman "gets" to deal with the a/c guys today-- that would be wonderful-- but it's only if they show up while i'm gone-- or before he goes to work. (at 3) -ugh.. let's all just hope that happens-- cuz i really already know-- i don't deal with them well. and well-- we already know i don't handle doctors well either huh? hmm.. i think i'm just kinda screwed today. dammit.

i'm video impaired -

mornin folks!

i finally got a video put together last night-- but seein as it has been almost a year since i made one like this-- i failed miserably. for some reason.. i cannot - for the life of me, remember how to time the music to the photos-- therefore--the last part of the song is gone. i had to clip/fade it.

i wanted to go to bed at like 8 last night-- i was so tiiiiired. but soulman got suckered into takin soulkid (s) to a concert-- poor him.. and me-- cuz when they do stuff like that-- i can never go to sleep until they are home. i was fallin asleep in my chair -- tryin to stay up. i didn't think i'd make it-- but i did. they got back about 1130-is. sooo-- another midnight night for this ole lady. ugh. it only gets worse with a teenager doesn't it? don't answer that. :))

so anyhow-- here's somethin to either entertain you -- OR -- bore the crap out of you---
either way-- i kinda like it-- i just wish i could remember how to do it the right way with the music and timing-- anybody know? damn senile !

well.. i am considering wakin up the ole soulman in a while-- after the morning aches and pains loosen up-- to go fishin-- at the pond-- i am realizing the boat seems to make for more work than it's worth sometimes-- even though i do love to be on the water. the pond seems to be less painful and more relaxing-- and for some reason-- i catch more fish there.

soooo-- here ya go-- on to a peek into soulsville-- (and "smochaville)--a first for some of you. and more recent pics for those who have watched the other ones.

(ore vois )

:))

and happy sunday !

jupiter (only cuz i can't think right now- it's subject to change) from brezz on Vimeo.

Mcdonalds people can be feisty sometimes !

the title of this post is a direct quote from one of soulkids' friends as we were gettin food earlier. it just has to be the quote of the week... or is it just cuz i'm so tiahd, and out of it today? either way-- it struck me ridiculously funny, and i laughed like a mental patient. --- well, until the two of them began to shout obscenities out of the car window at some boys they knew from school.. then nothing was funny.

except THIS:

y'all just have to watch this video-- soulman found it somewhere-- it is so funny-- and fitting.

enjoy

tango at the tourney

oh whaaat a beautiful mornin-- oh what a beautiful day--

oh wait-- that's the wrong song song of the day--

i mean...

no-bo-dy knooooows the tro-ubles i-ve seee-een..

haha.. na, it is't that bad... but man i tell ya. i'm too old for night tournaments. i had NO idea how hard it would be. not that it wasn't fun. we did have a good time. but there was just not enough daylight. once it got dark , it got really aggravating.

well... actually-- i was aggravated before we got there-- and this part only got worse. i am one whose phone like NEVER rings. i get calls from doctors, a couple times a week. no biggie. i normally get calls from my child -- checkin in , or wanting something.. normal, right.... and of course hubby calls , mostly on his way home from work or at lunch... 99percent of these calls are expected, or at least during the day, for the most part. BUT , i would bet ya , 200.00 that i don't even have-- which obviously is obviously a sure bet on my end-- my phone rang from the time we left the house til the time we left the tournament--- a MINIMUM of THIRTY times. now, people-- MY phone doesn't ring thirty times in a WEEK ! but it rang off the hook while i'm trying to fish a damn tournament. did it piss me off? YES. did it cost me fish? YES it did-- TWO of them. UGH.
and those are the ones that hit while i was ON the damn phone.. that doesn't count the ones i missed just out of the fact that my concentration was so off i couldn't think, or i had to waste five minutes with the phone three times every half hour. it was just sooo damn irritating. i was ready to throw my phone into the lake-- but soulkid had a friend over-- and they were here alone-- the kids mom had already called me once-- ugh-- i just am one of those peeps that always answer my phone-- worrying that it's soulkid-- or about soulkid-- or a parent-- or the school..ya know? so, i had to answer the phone.
(soulman won't answer his if he doesn't know the number-- me? if i don't know the number-- i think "somethings wrong". dammit-- i wish i could "relax".)

(holy crap people... i don't know what time i started this post-- but it is now- 10 a.m. UGH--- soulkid woke up shortly i got my lazy self up... and has talked me head off ever since NON-STOP. i am sooo not used to that. i am normally awake at least an hour or 2 or 3 before anyone. i don't have noise of any kind in that time-- and oh how i missed that this morning. my head is throbbing, my back is locked up-- and my hands are cramped up from so much fishing yesterday. now i have been forced to talk, nand endure the the loudness of soulmans tv. i think i should go hide somewhere-- but there's no where quiet to hide. maybe my closet? LOL )

ok anyhow-- let's see if i can get this damn thing wrapped up---
i don't even know where i left off.
i guess, last night eh?
yes we had fun. but i will admit it was more stressful than i anticipated. it ended later than i thought-- 1030 rather than 930. hell i'm usually asleep by 1030. most of the time.
the fishing was really tough. soulman got the biggest fish. he maybe weighed two pounds plus. i got the smallest-- he was soooo smalllll. i laughed for five minutes over that fish. he was a "spot".. and you can weigh a spot no matter the size-- normally, they have to 14 inches long. but this guy? LOL-- he could NOT have been more than FOUR inches long. THE smallest bass i ever caught in my life. it was hysterical. and yes.. we kept him for weigh in. (thinkin others would find it just as funny.. i'll get to that later tho)...
anyhow-- the big fish weren't bitin. not sure why, but it was tough. many boats blanked (zero fish)... but we did manage to get our five. we caught more-- and poor soulman had two really nice ones AT the boat when they shook off. it was sickening. my three i actually got in the boat-- were small and nothin to brag about. cept "tiny".. he was adorable.. but it was almost dark- and too much hassle to dig out the camera-- but i really wanted a pic of him.
anyhow. i did miss some good ones.. usually on the damn phone. UGH.
so anyhow-- once it got dark.. it just sucked. it got kinda cold-- for me. seems soulman never gets cold.. but i do-and i did. so i was uncomfortable, my phone was ringin every fifteen minutes, i couldn't see , which made casting a bitch. yes i know i am complaining. but bass fishing in the dark, is just tough. there must be an easier way. on the way home, it crossed my mind to try drop shotting.. which may or may not work.. cuz they were close to the bank.
anyhow-- can you tell i cannot concentrate to save my life right now?? sorry.

i'll fast forward to weigh in..
oh but first-- to top off the final frustration.. when we were heading to weigh in from our final fishin spot-- soulman went to lift the trolling motor-- and guess what happened? the friggin trolling motor rope BROKE! i don't know how he did it, but he managed to get the motor up--if not, we woulda been screwed. trapped out there--having to troll ALL the way back to the ramp-- it woulda took an hour. not only would we have missed weigh in.. but we woulda just been pissed. but he needs to fix that today. i'm so glad he can do things like that himself . somebody else would charge 50 bucks to put a new rope on that damn thing.

ok.. on to weigh in.

i have NEVER-- in all my bass fishin YEARS-- seen so many ASSHATS of fishermen in one place. it and they are usually jovial, and talkative and fun.. whether they catch fish or not-- they at least talk.. especially when you look at them, and speak. i knew-- and felt-- immediately , that i , as a woman, was NOT welcomed there. it happened maybe three or four times before i just shut my mouth, and realized that even though it was tough, and we didn't win any money-- there WILL be a next time...and i will show them that i can fish just as well or better than any of them. (well except maybe the guy that had a six - plus pounder). -- WHO btw-- i looked right at him, and said "wow, who's is that-- NOT ONE guy said a word.. not even him. anyone-- anyone, that i know who fishes-- would have said "that would be me-- or mine-- or whatever. who in their right mind would not brag about that fish? he looked right at me-- or should i say through me. it was like i didn't exist there at all. sooo awkward.
and as for "tiny"... man, woman, or child, would have found that fish hysterical. it was the cutes thing i have ever seen. they were frickin zombies. i know it is because i am a woman..and the only one there--and poor soulman got the same treatment-- i assume, because HE brought me there. oh how i wish we woulda won the damn thing.. just to piss em off even more.

anyhow--
see what i mean about not being able to think or concentrate etc.. i think i should just shut up for now-- i'm havin a tough morning.
obviously.

i shall return later , hopefully my mind will clear, and i can focus by then.

until then... i will do some cruisin.. etc..and hopefully catch up with y'all.