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Soulkid & Soulmom:)

i woke up today -- did you

i forgot to mention that the other day (Sunday) , i dropped audrey off to go to church . i would have gone to pick her up, but she decided she wanted to walk home, it was only about a 1/4 mile. the weather was nice , so i didn't argue-- i did double check tho, and tell her i didn't mind goin back to get her. she was sure she wanted to walk. so i said ok, and came home.
well, between home and church is chiken-express... and she got a huge laugh at the sign they had up...

this one:
she said-- and i quote:
"you know you aren't in California when you see this"

i cracked up laughin. i reckon they aint got no gizzards out in california. that's a shame. cuz when i told soulman after he got back yesterday that 'our' chicken-express now had livers and gizzards ---- just guess what we had for dinner????
well... us bein me and soulman. the rest of the gang -- audrey, soulkid, and soulkid 2 for the night... had chicken strips. but hey-- i love me some fried gizzards. :))
i tried to get soulkid to try one-- but once she found out what they were---- she politely refused.
bwa hahahahahahah
she did, however have a new foodie experience in Austin-- raw mushrooms--in her salad. and guess what? she liked them ! haha. she swore she would never eat a mushroom.
what should we try next? perhaps..... beets? or is that cruel? they would disguise nicely as a crabapple tho. hmmm. she finally eats onions. now mushrooms. there's gotta be somethin i can get the girl to eat. suggestions?

anyhow--- not much more to say. my life has been quite slow paced and spent mostly here at the house lately. leaving me with little to nothin to blog about.

so--- i reckon i shall leave you with a couple more pix of the clan in Austin. than i am outta heah----

-- try clickin on em to make em bigger --

the famous frog - on 'the drag'
their gonna knock this building down soon
goodbye froggie :((

she's cool, she knows it :))

happy tuesday folks!

ch- ch- ch- changes

happy monday y'all -

obviously, i've made some changes around here. they sort of coincide with a few other changes that i've noticed happening around here. not of my doing, btw. but hey. if it's time for change - it's time for change. right?

i won't pin point exactly what i'm thinkin about-- or talkin about really. right now anyhow. either you've noticed -- or you haven't. if you happen to be 'oblivious', let's just consider that a good thing. k?

anyhow. -- wait--- i gotta get a watah. be right back.
i'm back. not that you would have noticed me 'missing', i just feel the need to let ya know when i leave, because y'all know , once i get distracted-- sometimes, there's just no gettin back to the original thought. kinda like now. so. yeh. things have changed around here lately, so i made some changes around this morning. as for a few of "the places i wander" .. any of them that haven't updated in longer than one month i took them down. nothing personal. let me know if you get goin again please-- i would love to know.

ok , so what else has been goin on lately? well, for starters... soulman and soulkid went on a road-trip! i didn't go, cuz my back just wouldn't allow it. not such a long drive, for such a short time. they went to Austin yesterday, just for overnight, and part of today. that didn't leave near enough recovery time for me. no way could i recover from the drive, walk around, shop, have fun, do the same today, and get back in the car to come all the way home today. so they had a daddy -daughter road trip.
they've been sending pix on my phone. it looks like they are havin a blast. they really needed this. so even tho i would have liked to go-- i'm glad i didn't -- in a way-- because it has been really good for the two of them.

soulkid with stevie ray vaughn's statue

soulman with SRV's statue
(at his grave.)
creepy? a little -- but the man was awesome guys.

this is the one they sent at bed-time
"g'nite mom"
awwwwwwwww

so yeh, i miss em. they'll be home this evening.
obviously- with the clan gone, and me and audrey just hangin at the crib, i don't have a whole lot more to talk about.

the holidays are rollin up pretty quickly, and some of you know that it's not my favorite time of year. i am really trying this time around though. soulkid is very excited, and that is so good to see. due to the last couple years being so hard on her-- and that making it so much tougher on the rest of us. not to mention my own black cloud causing its usual problems. so my main goal for the next many weeks is to NOT be a depressed grouchy grinch. and to be in the spirit of the holidays. if that means rollin a big fat -- i'm just joshin people!!!! really tho-- i am tryin my hardest to be happy-- and make my family happy this holiday season. i am not gonna rain on this parade. not this time.

so. if i disappear for a while -- call it self preservation. cuz once in a while i find this blog to be a source of my down-fall sometimes. there just happens to be a person or two that know a button or two and just when and how to push them. i'm gettin better about de-fusing those particular buttons. but until i perfect that, i may need to take a break.

happy monday peoples--

and if i aint around--
i hope you ALL have happy turkey days !!!!

souls saturday sour - puss post

howdy folks--

wanna hear my movie critique for the week? if not - turn back now, cuz i have a feelin i don't have much more to talk about than that this mornin. and unless something extremely exciting happens in soul land today-- i don't think i'll have anything to say later either. yes, i am in a fowl mood this morning. i don't even know why. i'm just crabby. but then again, when am i not? right? tell me it's just age. or not. perhaps it was the mountain of cat puke i just had to clean up, and my mood will change soon? ya reckon? cuz i feel mean, and i can't like it.

(mean ole soul)

alright, so, anyhow. the movie review. y'all know.... well, those who read yesterday, know that we went to the movies last night and watched "The Blind Side". it was goooood! a little slow paced, but still a really good movie. true story too. it had everything in it. it had some comedic moments, action, sad parts, suspenseful parts. name it it's there. of course, it's a family type movie-- pg-13. very little cussing, and i think there weren't any sex scenes at all. so it's fine to bring the young-uns. but like i said -- there's a couple action parts that maybe a little intense. but they don't last long. or get too bad. we all three liked it.
sandra bullock did real good in it. and the little boy was soooo cute! the big boy -- the star guy, he did good too. i don't think i've seen him before, so if this was his first movie, he did real good.

so yep-- anyhow-- i say go see it. or wait for the dvd. either way, it's a must see. but it's not a rush to the theater for it type movie. but do see it. it's a goody.

ok y'all. that's it outta me today.

hope you all have happy Saturdays out there-
laterz-

post number 863, and i got nuthin but brain fog

but hey-- there's a fairy for that! wanna see?

yeh, i named him the "brain fog fairy"

why not, right? don't ask me why, or how, but i googled "absent minded" and his image was THIRD to show up. i went no further. if HE is what defines absent minded, then i will take him all the way to my full blown senility baby!!!

ok, enough playin around. for now at least.

i don't have a lot to say today really. i've pretty much just been tryin to recover from the endo/gastro tests, and all they took out of me for the last couple days. i actually felt fairly normal-- for me, normal, yesterday. not so dead and weak feelin. which is good.

the day before, i had an appointment with my pain doc. that went fairly well. for the first time out of the last three appointments, i did NOT go in there crying. ugh. i hate it when that happens. sems that was a depression attack from hell thing i had goin on. i recently had the med change i mentioned- going from generic to name brand meds.. made a real big difference in how i feel. i was really sad -- a lot, for a few weeks runnin. a few days on the better med? i feel ok. much better. the doc asked "howya doin"?
i said, i'm ok...at least i'm not gonna cry."
she said "good. -- correcting herself quickly--"it would be ok if you did. but i'm glad you're feeling better".
i like her.
i actually see her-- and a man doc too. the man one is the main one..he's the 'surgeon'. who does the procedures etc. and i see her mainly for the med management etc, and to see how i'm doin. i like them both. they seem to really enjoy their jobs and what they do, and they sincerely care for their patients. i am sooooo NOT used to that.
so anyhow-- i told her what's been goin on, how things have been worse and NO better. she suggested what i feared. goin back in and 'tweaking things". (her words, not mine.) ugh. please help me. that would be one of two things. either another rhizotomy. -- only on a different nerve-- or set of nerves. oh how i dread the the thought. ---- or-- maybe simply another 'cervical facet injection'. which i have also had before-- that did little to no good.
i don't know what to do-- i just know that i have to do something. i cannot continue this way. it's just too much. too bad. too often.

i got a phone call this morning already-- from some physical therapy place-- referred by the pain doc. i of course refused. some of you may remember the last time i attempted PT??? about a year or so ago? geesh. it damn near killed me. i really tried. but it did more harm than good. and most of you knew that i wouldn't last before i did. so yep-- i told the lady this morning-- ummm, NO. thanks, but no thanks. tell him it does more harm than good, and i respectfully decline. my body, my pain, my decision, my choice, my NO. thanks, and click.

so. what else? oh i know. are y'all ready for a new movie review? we're goin to see the blind side tonight .--- this one-- with sandra bullock in it---

it looks like it will be an excellent movie-
and i hope we won't be disappointed.
we've been waitin weeks for this to come out.

my review will be up tomorrow sometime. also, tomorrow is soulmans' birthday -- give the ole man a shout out if you so desire. he has to work all day.. so i'm thinkin we will go ahead and do the ole celebration thing tonight, since he is off today. perhaps dinner before the movie. he's been droppin hints about a watch he wants , for weeks... but even tho i say 'send me the link... send me the link... over and over-- do you think he has sent me the link??? nooooooo. he has not. so guess what he gets for his birthday? yup -- underwear!!!! bwa hahahhahahahahahaha

ahhhhhh. i love that man.

y'all have happy fridays in your worlds today peeps--
i plan to-

mornin people--
wow- time does fly - doesn't it? i don't think i'll say when you're havin fun, in this line though-- cuz y'all can see from the last several posts -- it hasn't been a whole lotta 'fun' around here lately.
but, we have had our moments.
if, you want to include me nearly -- literally-- choking to death at lunch yesterday. no kiddin. i was about one second away from the ole 'international sign of choking'. i reckon i wasn't thinking that my throat might be a little swollen after the endoscopy-- and i really was deprived of not only solid food-- but i was down-right steak-hungry. so after we -- soulman, myself, and oh hell, i'll just say it-- my friend who's here-- audrey-- (who most of you know by now i have known since i was like 5 years old)
ran some errands and took her to check out a job prospect-- (ugh, which i have more to say about in a minute)--
we stopped for lunch on the way back home. well, you know, for days, i have been eating nearly nothing, and what i did eat was ugh-- i just want to forget about it. i could count on one hand what i "ate" over 48 hours.
so-- i was not only wanting a steak-- i was near craving a steak-- kinda like a vampire.
it gets to the table-- i didn't take some big huge man-sized bite--- but i'll admit it may have been a little bigger than i might usually take. let's just say that was a huge mistake. it got stuck half way down. for real. and there i am, literally on the verge of choking to death -- but what was my main concern? looking stupid-- or causing a scene! i put my face into the wall as i tried to un- choke myself. mind you-- this is a real choke-- where i'm not really - choking- there's like no air-- i'm just trying to force this chunk of meat up out of my throat--- whithout causing a scene. ugh. geesh. thanks mom, for making me feel so secure . ugh.
so anyhow-- of course soulman and audrey by now are flippin out -- he's about to drag me out of the booth -- i'm of course not responding, not talking, choking, nothin, just hiding my face in the wall, tryin my damnedest to get this damn killer steak out of my throat-- without anyone noticing. :((

right before it becomes a big rescue scene - :)) -- i finally was able to get it down and actually cough, and breathe and give the i'm ok pat on the leg to soulman who was next to me. he was not happy that i had let this go on so long without asking for help.
i just really felt like i could get it-- without cpr- or the Heimlich. good lord, i would have been mortified -- never to return.
obviously, i was last in line when they passed out self esteem... but hey-- all's well that ends well, right?
i wasn't able to eat much more after that little production, but i did eat a little more. baby bites of course. then ate my leftover steak for dinner - being watched like a hawk, in case i might choke again. good lawd. think they coulda told me my throat might be swollen at discharge-- don't you agree?

ok so anyhow-- that was about the most exciting thing to happen since the play-- .
but also-- audreys' little job prospect? OMG. what a nightmare that turned out to be.
the deal was that the man she had been talkin to about this whole thing of course made it sound like the opportunity of a lifetime.
'she would live in his 'empty- yet furnished- four bedroom house. then manage it as a 'boarding home type of place and rent out the other three rooms. she would pick and choose who would live there. we all thought that would be good- cuz she could get non smokers, quiet , whatever- whoever she wanted, to move in, and just keep up- collect rent- that kind of thing. her end? pay no rent or utilities. all she would have to do would find a side job for food, transportation, that kind of thing. in this area, rent or mortgage really takes a large portion of anything you bring in. so it sounded good. the guy said the place was a 'nice home', and he talked it up real good. so off we go to go let her check the place out. she had the code to get inside, and no one was there.. it was 'vacant'. and he was out of town- out of state-- who knows. who cares. right?

ok so we get there-- first thing we see-- obviously, the neighborhood. not too horrible. not ghetto- or unsafe -- really. so we walk to the front door. someone has sloshed a whole bottle of drano on the outside of the glass/screen door. (could this be a good sign? umm, thinkin, not) she opens the door-- the first thing i notice-- aside from the destruction inside -- but there is a overpowering smell of MOLD. black mold. the place is worse than anything i have seen in years. thank God for that-- cuz i've had to live in some bad places in my day-- but even back then-- i think this might be the worst place i have seen anyone expected to live in. it would be condemned it whoever does that went in there. we were all three choking within three minutes. i didn't see the mold, but it was there somewhere-- and it was severe. we did a 'walk thru' type thing. the people that were living there left all kinds of stuff there-- furniture, tvs, tools, just lotsa stuff, it was abandoned, they took very little. clothes i guess, and dishes maybe. the place was so disgusting even thieves didn't want it.

we finally got out of there. she stayed inside way too long talkin to this guy on the phone, but me and soulman couldn't get out fast enough. we felt like we needed to have a shower immediately. oh it was horrible. unlivable. i couldn't believe this guy thought anyone was gonna go in there, clean that stuff up- and attempt to rent those rooms. i've heard of places out here that get mold so bad they have to be leveled. i really think that place is one of them. ugh.

anyhow--- that was my yesterday--
today is about to begin...
gotta take the child to school.. then i'm off to yet another dr,. my pain doc. i wish they could tell me why my back won't get better. but i'm just learning to deal i reckon.

when i get back soulman is gonna go get my oil changed in my car.

and i don't really know what i'm gonna do from there. catch up on bills and my bank i know that much. i have no clue what's goin on in that department-- haven't looked at it in almost a week. hope i don't have a stroke.

happy humpday peeps

howdy peoples-

well, where to begin?
i need to keep this short and sweet-- well, short at least. i gotta get movin soon.
so, i spose i'll start with the dr. report. well, at least what i remember of it. nothin serious. woo hoo. no bleed- anywhere. so that is good. that was everyone's main concern. so, yeh, good news there. the only thing i'm waitin on-- well, 2 things - 1- they did a biopsy of 'something' in my belly. i really don't remember what he said it was- and wouldn't ya know it- hubby doesn't either. hmmm.
and 2- i need to have a follow up soon - a capsule camera swallow test done . anyone heard of that before? where ya swallow an actual camera! strange huh. well, i don't know when that will be- sometime after the biopsy gets beck i reckon. it is so they can see more of the intestinal tract than with the regular scope. i guess it shows the entire stomach to exit. perhaps. science. what a strange and wonderful thing. if only i was 25 years younger.

so. anyhow. not much else has been goin on. yesterday i did sleep after the test , then i ate , drank coffee, and ate some more. then i watched my 'programs' :)) (house and lie to me) . i went to bed after that. woke up this morning about 7 ish -- and hurt like hell all over. i need to get up and around today and get these old bones movin. two or three days of sittin on butt -- no pun intended-- has done no good at all for my ole bod. so i'm gonna do some work around the house- and run some errands and hopefully get back to life. dehydration and livin the still- life does me no good these days.

hope you all have happy days in your worlds today -
i'm gonna try-

it's monday please feed me

howdy folks-

sorry i haven't been around much over the weekend. it's been a busy one. well , sorta.

hubby went to the school play thursday night, then friday night, my friend and i went. it was really neat. kind of little house on the prairie-ish . the only problem? our seats were behind the two biggest people in the place. there was no where else to move to- so we had no choice but to sit there. - like turkeys - the entire time. do i need to tell you how pissed off i was? or how rude i thought these people were to sit in the front row of a very small 'theater'? or --- how much pain i was in by the time we left?
yeh. i didn't think so.

the last show was last night though, and soulkid was exhausted and very done with the whole thing. she had a sense of pride and accomplishment though. and of course we were some proud soul-parents too. she did really good, and worked really hard. and the night that i went to see the play, i heard some folks talking about the costumes in the hallway at intermission. how neat they were, and realistic for the era being portrayed etc. i made sure to tell soulkid that i heard her compliment -- from someone totally non related to the play - or her. it made her smile.
last night after she got home and changed etc, she was invited over to a good friend of hers house for dinner --- they ate crab legs! what better night for such a meal eh?

she prolly needs a day of-- but it's back to school for her today-
and guess what i get to do? yep-- i get scoped this mornin. oh the joy! i am thrilled that the drinking of that nasty stuff, and runnin to the potty every ten minutes -- for two days -- is OVER. but then again, i'm not real thrilled about what lies ahead in only one hour. i just hope they knock me out quickly. as in very soon after my arrival. and i hope i don't react badly to the anesthesia. i just wanna go in, go to sleep, wake up, come home, go to sleep, wake up--- and have some coffee, and eat some solid real food.
as for the results? still iffy. i don't want this to remain a mystery, or be a waste of time-- but i also don't want it to be serious either. so i don't know what i want to hear from the doctor. i just want it all to be over. this has be a rough weekend. and i feel dead. two days of this kinda torture takes a lot out of a person.
guess i'll check in later or whenever i know what - if anything- the dr. finds out.

y'all have happy mondays out there-

i could tatoo the u.s road map on my arm, and STILL get lost !!!

hi peeps.
i bet you already know where this is goin , dontchya? yup. yesterday was a friggin nightmare! even with the GPS. i think even 'it' hates me. are y'all sure that yesterday wasn't 'friday the 13th' ? yeh, i know. today is. and i think, for once, i kinda fear that.
oh man. finding the airport yesterday-- was pure hell. i know, it had to have been my fat fingers, pressing the wrong button on the GPS when i left home. i swear to all that is holy though, i was certain , i saw, and read it right-- and that i did press the button that said 'Dallas love field'. Obviously, i was mistaken. something went wrong. but of course-- it took me a complete HOUR to realize that error. and a unfamiliar drive all the way to frickin Dallas! y'all know i luuuuuv Dallas. NOT.
know where i ended up? oh, it was an airport-- a damn airplane graveyard type of place-- at a dead end damn dirt road. if i would have been at the right place though? i would have been right on time. my friend called just as i was asking some construction worker-- who could have been a mass murderer- out in the middle of no-damn-where- i had a gut feeling, along with a feeling of dread , that this was just not good. so-- i pick up the phone - tell her to hang on- then i ask the guy-- one of like three i guess-- " am i anywhere near love field?" -- with a sinking feeling that the answer would be what it was-- or similar. know what he said? "love field?, oh hell NO"... "that's about thirty or forty miles that way" --- pointing in the direction i had just COME FROM!!! it was all i could do to not bust out in tears at that second.
thank you.
i turned around and stopped a little bit up the road--- almost forgetting my friend was still on the phone, ugh. so i stopped and talked to her , and reset my GPS-- i was almost in tears. not just because i was lost-- and late. and was going to be like an hour longer to get to her. but my back was killing me. absolutely on fire. i swear people driving by must have thought i had tourettes or something. i had ONE pain pill with me, i took it-- but it did nothing. i couldn't believe this pain, burning, stabbing, torture. and there i was stressed, worried, nervous, lost. mental, might sum it up.
the pain i was feeling was the type that i just couldn't even be silent with. i was alone in the car-- and i would grunt, scream -sorta, just ugh, i don't know- it was horrible. i wanted to call my dr, and ask WTF is wrong? i am really thinkin somethin got messed up. this just cannot be normal.

well.. anyhow-- i did get to the airport finally. thinking i never would, feeling totally lost the entire time. i had no idea where i was or where i was going. i had ZERO faith in my GPS now. in fact i almost tossed it out the window several times. i called soulman a few times-- but he couldn't answer-- cuz he was teaching. he finally did call me back-- he felt so bad for me. i was so on the verge of tears and so stressed out. i did tell him i had got lost-- and where i was then.. he said i was doin ok, i was in the right area and not too far away. so that helped. mentally anyhow. my back was making me want to jump out of the moving car! all i kept thinking was -- how i wished my friend knew how to drive in this kind of traffic. well i got there-- and the first thing she said was "do you want me to drive?"
we had talked, by then 3-4 times on the phone-- i couldn't even pretend to not be in pain. i told her-- i would love for you to drive- but the traffic is hell here. she said she could handle it-- and thank God she did. and did a wonderful job. i wasn't even scared. even soulman makes me nervous with his driving. i think she will do fine here. her first test being dfw traffic at 330 in the afternoon. woo hoo.

so. we get to the house. as you know- we were sposed to go to opening night at the play at school. well... that didn't happen. my back wouldn't allow it. i thought if i took meds, and a shower, and ate-- i might 'bounce back'. think that happened?
oh hell no. look who you're talkin to here.
so. hubby took her back to school, and he watched the play. unfortunately by himself. he took the camera-- but photos are 'strictly prohibited'. bummer.
he said he really enjoyed the play. and man i hope i can go tonight. i need to not do anything, besides baby my back today, so i can make that happen. if i can manage to get myself over there-- my friend and i will go. she can drive- if that is an issue for me. but if i don't go tonight-- i won't get to go at all, due to the prepping etc over the weekend. so i have to be sure i take care of myself and go tonight.

other than that-- i am happy my friend-- i will eventually use her name-- or a name-- i just need to find out what she's comfortable with on here. anyhow--- all went well. and i am happy to see her. seems she is happy to see us too. i wish i would have felt better when she got here. the timing wasn't so great i reckon as far as my body goes.
but hopefully after the gastro tests and all that stuff settles down, i'll be ok.. and she can be more comfortable.

on that happy note-- i must get ready to take my youngster to school.

y'all have happy fridays-- and better weekends!

it's almost time to go - and i don't know how to get there !

it's time. someone just do it . please. i ask soulman-- well, i had to stop actually, because he got upset. but i asked for a while.... "soulman, please find Dr Kevorkian for me".

y'all remember him right?

"dr death"
he would put people to sleep like animals -
when they were too sick or in too much pain
to have a life anymore.
at their own request obviously- or a family members'.
(not sure whatever happened to him tho - went to jail? who knows.)

anyhow. my point? it's just one-a-those days. i feel like someone is shootin white-hot darts (or needles) into my back ! it's horrible. this is something i haven't felt until after the rhizotomy thing. and it has been goin on ever since. i really hoped that damn thing would help me. things have only gotten worse.
and to top it off? i woke up this morning with low back pain. the one thing that i have had goin for me since the back hell? the steroid epidural in my low back. that DID help. immensely. miraculously even. my LOW back, and my legs have felt almost normal- almost, for much of the time- pain free- without meds. i've been thrilled about that part. but this morning , i woke up feelin depressed and angry that i had pain there. not to mention the upper back and neck pain-- and the voo-doo doll needle bs in my back. (no i don't believe in that. i just don't know how to explain that stuff. it's just awful. )

so anyhow-- now that i got my bitchfest out of the way. (i really am sorry that i do that - you know that right? y'all are the only ones who listen tho. if i complain here? someone else is always worse off, it seems. since when did pain become a competition? )

so. what i meant to begin this stupid thing with in the first place?
i have to leave here in like half an hour or so to head to the airport-- but wouldn't ya know it--- NOT the big airport that i have been to a million times. i have to go to an airport i have been to like once. and i don't remember how to get there! no clue.
yes. i have a GPS. thank God for that. i'm sure i'll find my way. but, i have no idea even how far it is to get there, how long it takes to get there. i don't know how the place is laid out, like where the gates are. i don't know nuthin.

i do know that i just finished off an entire pack of cigarettes - that i opened when i woke up this morning. nervous much? shit.
my house is a disaster area. it looks even worse than it did yesterday--- rather than better. soulman did wash most of the dishes for me. thanks hunny!
but as for the rest of the place? rather than do more cleaning? i've done more draggin crap IN from the garage that came from storage. i just can't help myself. some of it i am just excited to see. and other stuff i am trying to just get through because there are a few things, that i haven't seen yet, and i am wondering where in the hell it is.

anyways, i'm tired, and i'm hungry, i hurt, and i'm a nervous wreck. ugh. i need about three hundred things to be done, and only like half an hour to get it done in. think that'll happen? yeh, me either.
but - like i said, she's (my friend who's coming) is like family, and she really won't care what the place looks like. trust me, she has seen worse. she has seen, and even lived with us back in the roach motel days when we were kids. so it's all good.
besides, she's not gonna care about the house , we'll be catchin up, and she'll prolly be tired when she gets here anyhow. then we have the play to go to tonight. so, if she bitches , i'll just slap her around a little bit. nah i'm kiddin. this is the girl who knocked my front tooth out when we were like 15. hahahahaha-- true story. but-- one all it's own-- for a day i have more time. :))

ok folks-- i must go set my GPS and hopefully find my way.

for those who commented that she may have changed to a point of untrustworthiness
(did i spell that wrong?) -- anyhow-- nah. i'm not worried about that-- she's a twice a week church person. non smoker- non-drinker , non- party people type. can't get more trusty than that -- can ya?
anyhow. no turnin back now.
worst thing that can happen now is the soul clan might divorce me. -- or , well, maybe she'll knock out another tooth!
:))

hope y'all have great days in your worlds today!

oh, and yes, i will take pix at the play-- but remember soulkid is crew-- i don't know if i'll get many- or any of her. :(( she is costume manager-- remember?

please pray that i don't get lost goin to the airport :))

today can only be better right?

mornin folks--


well, kinda. it's not even 3 a.m. yet. i've been up since 230. and awake every hour since i laid down. well, i should say every hour since i fell asleep-- which was around 9-ish. yes i am exciting. and don't you forget it. :))
actually, yesterday was a pretty busy day and i was damn exhausted. and just when i thought it was over-- it was a trick! i was all comfy in my jammies, just finished my beef-a-roni :)) , was all settled in and half way through a recorded dr. house from monday night. seems like forever since i've even seen house. wth happened? it hasn't even been on in like two weeks-- i finally get to see it... and my entire night goes to hell. i'll just say-- that i did a lot of runnin around, along with a lot of work here, then i had just got back from takin soulkid dinner to school @ 5:00, cuz she had rehearsal til "8". so i start to finally chill out --' til 8 ' -- or even better-- hoping soulman would go get her-- since we all know i can't drive in the dark. did that work out that way? well, of course not. there i am all chilled out-- and the dogs go berserk. sushi is the worst with that high pitched yap-- 8 out of ten times over nothing-- and seemingly all day yesterday-- over nothing. finally i get up to see WTH.. and there's soulman just standing at the front door-- glass i might add. talkin on the phone instead of comin in and shuttin the damn dogs up. so i go open the friggin door. he comes in and i'm ready to chew him out AND kick the dogs... but no of course i did neither.
hi honey.
well, soon as he walks in and hangs up-- MY phone rings-- it's soulkid-- at 6:30! ready to be picked up. dammit i was JUST there! but soulman did not want to go right back out after getting home from work. so i went. i was much more angry than i should have been, i felt like an ass. i got over it-- but i did go get her of course. and took her to get her hair primpy stuff. ooooh i was hateful. i tried not to be, and it didn't last long. but i was flippin tired, had a headache, and i watchin house, dammit.
ugh. but - obviously- i lived.
i've been on the verge of a stroke for a week. and sushi has been at the top of the list of reasons why- with her constant yapping. cats outside, squirrels, people walking by, kids playin in the next door back yard, the neighbor mowing the lawn. anything and everything sets her off lately... which leads to me being a bitch, and stressin out, and of course the notorious back and neck aches brought on by the stress.
ugh. i've been a constant bitch.
also i've been trying to get my house presentable for company. yes, i am actually having company. more of a house-guest. of sorts. my child-hood friend, i have known her since she was 4 and i was five. she's moving out here. she's gonna stay here til she gets a job. and then maybe on weekends. it's not all planned out perfectly yet.. but she does have a lot of job leads.. for live in daycare type stuff.
i haven't seen her myself in years. many years... like 15, or 14. am i nervous? umm yes, a little. i'm excited too though. it's just that i'm not who i used to be 'back then'. and she , i'm sure has changed too. she's a new empty nester, and many other changes in her life-- on top of a cross country move from california. a smaller town tho-- to HERE. it really isn't what she thinks it is. i think she faces a culture shock that she just may not be ready for. she will be here--- TOMORROW! she needs and willingly accepts prayer. for a nice, safe job... close to me. so i can get to her in a hurry if i need to. not just to help in a bind-- but geesh, it'd be nice to hang out or go to lunch once in a while-- she won't have a car-- she'll be responsible for peoples kids and house... she can't be workin in one of the towns i refuse to drive to-- like dallas-- and such. ya know. she needs to be close so i don't worry. she's like my little sister. she has to be close. bah!
oh-- also tomorrow-- guess what happens? soulkids school has their opening night of the play she has been workin on. it runs through the weekend. we all will be goin tomorrow though-- seein as i will be preppin for my gastro tests for monday on saturday and sunday. oh the joy. even that is stressin me out.
welcome to my home my friend... now excuse me while i spend the next two days in the bathroom. :(( ugh. then the following day and a half recovering.
you know you wanna be me. bwa hahahahah
part of me is worried what the doc may find-- like a bleed. but then , part of me feels like i usually do in these tests-- they will find nothing. and i will have no idea why i have these symptoms. anemia, weight loss, death look, stomach probs and pain, etc etc. ugh. always so irritating.

so anyhow-- that's what's goin on in my world lately. thrilling i know.
i can't believe how fast tomorrow crept up on me. looks like today will be another busy day. this place is nowhere ready for a 'guest'. i need help-- to get ready for my 'help'.
HELP!
:))

and have happy days in your worlds today-

LOOK what i got for you !!!

cats can be so awesome -- sometimes. when they aren't barfing all over your bed, or carpet. or scratching your furniture to death. or perhaps knocking all your nice, antiques or sentimental things off of shelves and running to hide as you stand there helplessly with your eyes closed tightly waiting for the imminent sound of irreplaceable shattering glass. ahhhhh. cats. yes. they are truly one of Gods most amazing creatures.
even through their destructiveness. you just have to appreciate their desire to please the hand that feeds them.

let me show you what i mean.
i know, many of you have seen cats do this before.
for those who haven't -
behold :
:))


"oh my gosh - a snake!"
yes it's small - but the cat doesn't care.
it's a dangerous animal ! :))

"hey lady- let me take care of that for you."
- yes kitty, please do-


"damn, i'm the shiznit"
- yes kitty , you are. -

"hmm, perhaps i should finish him off."
- yes kitty, please do -

"hey lady! come out here, LOOK what i got for you!"
- ok, kitty, i've been watching , but you do deserve praise. -

"see what i did for you? thank you for feeding my family.
i'll be leaving you treats like this forever now.
just keep the food comin!"

aside from that? i have been workin my ass off all weekend long - well sunday and monday i should say. we've been emptying our storage bin. i've seen stuff i haven't seen in literally years. unfortunately, yesterday i came across some emotional things-- (pics of my son Patrick, and some of his things that i held on to). so needless to say, it pretty much wiped me out, and of course my back is payin the price as well.

so--- i have more sorting - puttin away- and other stuff to do .. hopefully i'll find some more recovery time in there as well.

i hope y'all had good weekends, and great weeks ahead of you!

later taterz

i saw a falling star -- but forgot my own wish !

howdy y'all

oh lawdy-- not the underling. geesh. you know i hate that. and i bet y'all do too. know the weird part? i only notice it on mine and my sisters posts. WTH is up with that?
there's gotta be a way to make it STOP. (perhaps, moving down?)

TADA! it worked!

ok-- so anyways ... the title-- i really did see a shooting star. it was several nights ago. i'm so senile that it actually took like five whole seconds to even realize it was a shooting star. yes, i did feel stupid, thank you. when i did realize-- i told soulman,
"hey look, a shooting star!"
he said.. "make a wish!"
by then it was a mere ash the size of a fire-fly , but i did have my half a second left to make my wish -- so i did.
it wasn't til this morning , that i even remembered a thing about the entire experience-- and i think that was Halloween night. i really do wonder sometimes if my mind is on it's way out the door. i remember nothing. well.. short term mostly. but isn't that how it goes? the short term memory goes-- then it all goes? i seriously worry about altzheimers . i joke a lot -- but isn't that how a lot of folks deal with things?

how the hell did i go from wishing on a shooting star, to that?

i think i shall move on now.

i haven't forgotten what happened last night . do ya wanna hear about it? it was actually kinda funny--- which beats yesterdays post.

so, anyhow- we've been trying to get out and do stuff more together-- which usually ends up bein goin to the movies. it's something we all like to do, and can usually agree on. and one came out yesterday that we all wanted to see-- only for the fact that it had

THIS in it---

y'all know, i couldn't pass up a movie that was based around
MY number.

so. what movie was it?
it was THIS movie:

and i do NOT recommend it !
i don't think i would even say wait for the DVD.
i don't think it's worth watching at ALL!
it SUCKED.
and the only thing that sucked us into paying to see it?
333.
bleh.
s-t-u-p-i-d.

but wait, there's more. :))

isn't there always? the theater we went to was one of those was that serve real food , and have real chairs. (know what i mean?) anyways, the chairs are similar to nice desk chairs. that's why we like to go there, cuz they are good for my back.. they kind of recline, they aren't attached etc. , and they sit up next to a long low bar type table thing. anyhow-
so anyhow...we get there, and there is nowhere left with three seats together. so the usher guy had a lady and her daughter-- maybe 12 years old, shift down, one seat... actually they added a chair, they merely had to slide over a little to make room. (yes, as a matter of fact, we were pretty embarrassed about the whole thing) -- but it gets even better. i already felt like we were causing a scene.. a chair being dragged in, us standing waiting, these people bein asked to move down, the entire schmele (?) --
but then--- the woman lets her displeasure be publicly displayed. not only embarrassing us further-- but herself, and surely mortifying her daughter as well.
how? well, she gets up, storms out, leaves her kid there.. then five minutes later, she comes whippin back in there in some kinda flippant "too good to sit near anyone " rage -- grabs her keys of the table , grabs her kid, and loudly says.. "we're leaving". then they storm outta there, as if, the entire theater should be offended, or feel bad that their night was disrupted.
ha! no one cared. some chuckled. there were a couple WTH's, and i just quietly said 'good for you'. soulman just looked at me dumbfounded, and soulkid had no idea what just happened---or why. i did feel a tiny bit bad -- but hey-- it wasn't that horrible for them.. they only had to move like 6 inches. after they were gone.. so were my bad feelins, and my embarrassment. she made me think of my mother. it was sooooo like something she would do. cause a scene, act like that-- like she owned the place, and was inconvenienced. how dare you. etc. oh lawd. i was glad they were gone actually.
until.......
just a few minutes after they left and everything settled down-- the movie started. i was just gettin comfy and settled in to watch-- what i thought would be a good movie-- and i swear to you--- every fifteen minutes for the first hour or more of the movie--- food kept coming. and coming. and coming! i began wondering if this woman was somehow text ordering food-- just to spite me. first it was cheese fries.
no-- they left.
then it was kids chicken strips-
no, they left.
then--- it was a mr. pibb...
no, maybe he ordered it-- i point to soulman. (nope)
next? frickin quesadillas!
NO-- i didn't order those!
yep-- i was gettin more and more peeved every time they came by-- i wanted to watch the movie. ugh. geesh. WTH. by the third time-- soulman was crackin up!
was i? NO-- i found NO humor in payin for a movie-- a bad movie no less-- that i was missing. for food -- and lots of it-- that i didn't even ask for.
oh but wait -- there was more-- only one more-- but this is when they finally got it--- i was NOT ordering food!!!!
"chicken wings ma'am?"
"i don't know a damn thing about no chicken wings!" (in my devil voice)
soulman laughed out loud-- soulkid was sitting between us--and i still heard him. i did finally see the humor-- which was good-- because if i didn't? i might have hit the next server -- just for good measure. good thing there wasn't one. :))
and, i spose it was good that it was a crappy movie. cuz i just couldn't believe how often it was interrupted by food i had no desire to eat. (and why me? -- oh.. cuz i was at the bitches end-- where 'she woulda been -- if she hadn't have left in a huff-- the whiney bitch. i bet i ruined her entire month. she'll be mad at me for weeks..and i will only laugh at her. what a dumbass.)

so anyhow-- there's my movie critique of the week-- save your money and go see the next on your list!

ok i'm gone-- today is chore day for me.
what are yeeew doin?
whatever it is -- have fun!
laterz

my eye is twitching !!!!!

ugh-- happy friday?

crazy bastard

there's a link to some pretty updated news on this asshat.

well. no need to wonder what i'm gonna bitch about in this post, but i'll tell ya -- it sure aint about my idiot problems today.


surely by now, y'all have heard about what happened yesterday at Ft. Hood Army Base?
i am still in shock. from what i have heard so far? this entire thing could have been avoided. so much could be different. this maniac had a legal and military right to get out of the military as a conscientious objector .

that was my FIRST thought. 'if he was so against, or afraid, or whatever, about his upcoming deployment -- surely at his rank, he would know of the above option?
he was a F'N major in the ARMY !! even I knew about that and i left the service after 8 years. but i actually knew a 'kid' overseas when the first Gulf War started. he was bright enough to use the C.O. option to get out of the service, rather than to go into combat -- for whatever his ' personal reasons' were. but even a young 18 or 19 year old, knew he had a right to not be sent to combat in a war he was not willing to fight in.-- or be a part of. he was honorably discharged. no one had to die-- or crack up -- over his own decision, to be anti-war.

OMG. i'm furious. the more i hear about this 'Major Asshole' - i realize how much 'evidence' there was -- even in his military record, and evals -- not to mention his friggin suicide bomber ideals on his own blog pages-- SIX months ago!!
holy hell. what does it take for the upper echelon to SEE what is goin on in a sick mans mind??? he didn't try to hide it AT ALL.

i don't know peeps. but even on my worst day around here in soulland, i can't say i would ever trade places with any one of those folks yesterday. it helped me open my eyes and realize, once again... life aint so bad, when ya think about other folks , and especially our military right now. every single day-- we lose military -- here, and over there... just think of their friends, family, children, and comrades -- every day.

and this??? all because of some puss who was afraid to be deployed ? it could have been prevented. i hope "they" learn from this. if 'they' don't already do a psyche eval before deployment-- i really think they need to start .

pass the xanax please.

have happy fridays peeps-

and don't miss out on the little things :))

so tell me am i realy crazy or do i just see 'sumthins'

howdy peeps --

the first part of this i'm stealin from part of an email i wrote last night. i'm just too lazy to re-write the same thing twice. of course "real" names were changed to protect the innocent :))

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a few days ago, soulman was puttin the boat in the garage.. he has a key chain that splits in two-'detaches'. well, one side has only his truck key.. the other has everything else-- such as my car key--an electronic one, the house key, the storage key, PO box key, and another one or two. well.. he had the truck key in the ignition with the truck runnin... cuz he had backed the boat up into the garage -- but guess where the other half of the key chain was???? yep-- sittin on the rear bumper. well... soulkid was sittin in the truck impatiently waiting to go spend her report card money--- so him, bein the doting daddy-- forgot about the keys-- and off they went---- and yep --- LOST the keys.

in the mean-time, i have been a nervous wreck over these keys for days. almost a week.
knowing, that all someone-- with these keys in the wrong hands-- all they would have to do would be to drive-- or walk around, clickin my car keys until it beeped , and voila! they would know where i live-- and park. they would have access to my house, and my car. and US.

well, guess what? today--- soulman was at work, soulkid at school, me alone--with the critters-- and i'm sittin here payin bills and crap like that-- no tv or other noise on -- know what i heard??? yep.... my car beeped in the garage!!!!! did i freak out? absolutely!

i had no idea what to do though. i went out and checked the garage and my car though, and looked outside. nothin out of the ordinary-- except for the fact .. i don't lock my car when it's in the garage-- BUT -- now it was locked!

i had plans to run my errands and go to a dr appointment. instead , i hung out til i had no time left but to only go to the dr. so i could watch the house.

then, normally, we crate both dogs when we leave em alone.. this time i left EEVEE loose. remember- she's been trained in shutzhund.. she could rip someone to shreds if she wanted to-- like a police dog.

well... i went to my appointment.. left the dog out-- made sure i locked all the doors etc... picked up soulkid from school on my way home... when we got home-- i had her wait outside for a minute so i could check out the house before she came in-- i didn't tell her about 'someone' having our keys. -- well, i walked through the house-- everything was in place... but the dogs were a bit over excited -- and guess what?

my front door was UN-LOCKED! ugh! if i would have locked eevee in her crate they would have come in my house! she scared them enough that they didn't take one step inside-- i know cuz my laptop was only three feet in the door on my office coffee table.
i am so pissed off i could scream!

(the email ended there -- but to continue :)

so anyhow-- needless to say-- hubby stopped at the store on his way home from work and bought new locks-- and changed them out last night -- first thing.

i don't guess i have to say that a new lock or two doesn't make me feel real safe though. better. but not best. this is just unbelievable!
.
first-- we still.. live with the fear of the mover guy comin back here to rob us or do something stupid--- and now this. some asshole has MY keys. yes-- he has to get through the front door to steal my car--- actually he doesn't-- there is a pretty good sized window out there that two people could fit through-- now that i think about it-- someone make me STOP thinking! ... but anyhow.
if not for my dr appointment yesterday, i would have gone and bought a gun. yes you heard that right. me , the one who always bitches at hubby for even buying guns -- i always make him dismantle them, and lock them up where i don't know where they are. but yesterday? i called a place in town that is widely known for selling guns. for many many years i assumed that no one would, or could legally sell 'me' a gun. well, i found out different. they only do a 'criminal background check'. hmmm. i was wrong. whaddayaknow. seems i am wrong about a lot lately. and as for 'hospitals' ?
only if you have been put there by the police do they even know about it. hmmmm.
yup. my wheels were spinnin.
no-- i wasn't lookin to buy some high powered machine gun or anything-- just a small, cheap -- shoot someone in the leg if they came in my house type thing. the guy said they had a few that ran around 200 bucks. boy-- i was ready to run!
only thing stoppin me from my mission? i had an appointment. with none other than my shrink. :))
do you think i told her about my thoughts of buyin a gun? especially with 'my history' ? of course i did. i also told her why. and i also told her that i wasn't planing on telling hubby a thing about it.
surprisingly---? she didn't tell me not to. hmmmm.
i really thought she would be against it-- or at minimum -- tell me to tell hubby. she did neither.

but anyhow-- like i've told y'all before-- i'm too honest. i can't keep things like that from my husband. after he changed the locks, i did talk to him. i told him just how sick and tired i am of 'this' kinda crap happening to me-- us. how sick i am of not feeling safe -- especially in my own home! i was upset-- angry , and crying -- sort of crying.. just a tear or two-- i wasn't about to let go-- i may never stop crying once i start. not at this point. there's just way too much goin on in this life of mine.
--- example? -- my shrink rx'd name brand prozac yesterday... in hopes that it would work better than the generic shit i been on. i'm in a rut folks-- and i'm about to shop for curtains to hang in it.

anyhow. you're wonderin what hubby said about 'me' having a gun, aint ya?
well. he was much calmer than i thought he would be about the whole thing. he wanted to know why i wasn't gonna tell him. i told him-- i am telling you. but i was afraid you'd wig out.
well, he was ok about it-- mood wise-- anyhow. but he did make some valid points-- aside from the obvious. but one that even i hadn't thought of.
have any of y'all thought of it yet? cuz it only took him a second. my bed meds. and the stupid things i do in the middle of the night while 'on' them, that 9 times out of ten, i have no recollection of.
well--- that my friends was the clincher. i will not be buying a gun. i'm just not a person that should own, handle, have access to, or get to the point of shooting a gun.
i'm happy that he thought of that. because i had pretty much thought of every other scenario-- except shooting one of our animals, one of the soul clan, or one of soulkids friends -- on accident. ugh.
so-- his 'solution'? aside from changing the locks-- and recoding my car locks and keys?? an alarm system. which yes we put off on getting before when we thought the mover guy may come around.
but now-- who the hell knows what kind of people have my keys-- and tried to come inside yesterday???
i can't handle this shit guys.
i sure am glad we have eevee!

ok anyhow--
i'll keep this next part short--

in fact-- a picture post--
haven't done that in a while--

my sloppily made bed-
with my new duvet set!
lowsy pic- sorry
but it's nice-and the animals love it teeewww

my pretty flower bed :))
-with my now ugly window covering-
to hide from the bad guys :((

next---

ok, here 'she' is
mamma kitty, with the black baby kitty
havin breakfast this morning


oh , but WAIT-
if mamma's up there-
then WHO is THIS?


OMGoshkness !

there's TWO of them !!!
so that explains why , the other day.
when i was holding mama kitty -
i saw BALLS!!!!

i was sooo confused!
til we found out there were TWO of them!
a BOY and a GIRL

i'm beginning to think maybe i aint so crazy afterall :))

have happy days in your worlds peeps

i'll be sittin here with a very sharp knife in my lap all day i'm sure.
(oh hush, i'm kidding)
i will be gettin alarm estimates tho.
dammit

my mind is a blank, but my fingers won't shut up !

mornin folks -

if ya came over yesterday -- sorry i didn't post. i did answer folks who left comments below tho -- in case ya missed those. i was just bitchy. i mean busy. err, sorry.

anyhow-- really, i was busy. not busy as i could have or should have been. but i was workin on somethin - or other - almost all day long. and when i wasn't -- i was recoverin'. i ended up spendin my smoke and choke - blog time-- makin my list -- and catchin up on bills, that -- yup , i was still behind on. maaaan. that's enough to give me a panic attack these days. it seems the smallest of things upsets me lately -- and if you know me at all -- bills, are no small thing to me.

on top of that, i had to come home from droppin the kid off at school, and do the litter. ugh. that was so sickening. i won't go into details. but i will say -- that damn 'yesterdays news' litter , made from recycled newspaper? never use that. we had to use it for the post de-claw days. it supposedly cuts down on the chance of infection.. hmm.. i don't know how-- it seems to hold the odor and soppy mess worse than any other i have ever seen.
ok--- yes i got off track a bit-- anyhow-- our litter box is kept in our "under the stairs closet" . yes the princess cats have their own private potty room. anyhow-- soulkid changed their litter like 1-2 nights before, accidentally - or maybe, lazily using the newspaper litter, and by yesterday morning? - the entire downstairs smelled like a -- i don't know... an animal clinic? a pound? just horrid, is the best i can come up with. it was enough to make me gag. i woke her up early-- told her it was trash day-- told her to come down early with enough time to switch this litter out for the good stuff. ugh. do you think she did? no she didn't. do you think i was happy? no, i wasn't. we got in the car-- more than 5 minutes -- late-- and i bitched about the damn litter, and about five other things that I would have to pick up the slack for that day. let's just say -- it surely was like a ride with 'gran gran'. and no- i wasn't proud of myself. but at least i told her i loved her when she got out at school. ehem.

so-- yep-- i had to go pick up eevees' tumor removal estimate first--- i'll come back to that part ... but it's good.
then i came home and had to hurry and do the damn litter before the garbage man came. while i was at it-- i went ahead and gathered other trash around the house-- and my car-- and fridge-- that soulman didn't have time to catch before headin to work. by then - the one can he set on the street-- had turned into two cans on the street. go me :))

also on my mind is -- the dogs are OUT of food -- empty bowl -- empty bag -- OUT of food! i'm pissed off about that. wondering how in the hell, am i to go to sams, and get a fifty pound bag of dog food??? also, how am i supposed to get it into my car??
and once again--- this makes me angry about my entire life. why? because once upon a time-- i could lift a 100 pounds-- tool box, bag of sandblast sand, name it -- at work or home-- i could do it -- no matter how big or small- i did what i had to do.
yesterday i had to face my weakness and displeasure of it once again. gettin dog food was of course near the top of my list for the day--- but as the day wore on--yep--and on. and on. i never made it. i gave in. gave up. whatever. but i let soulman get it after work. which was the original plan anyhow. i just hated the doggies bein hungry all day. even tho i gave them snacks and stuff.

so-- lets get back to eevee since i'm on animals --- her tumor estimate. with no testing, or any 'optional' bs. the simple removal of it, will cost 280.00 . we will have to tack on the 28.50 for a nausea shot-- cuz we know she doesn't handle the anesthesia well at all. but still... that is doable folks. unfortunately they won't take payments. but that's ok too. we don't want to put her through that right now anyways. not right after she had such a hard time with the spay.
not to mention-- Christmas etc right around the corner. she's lived with it this long-- surely she can go another couple months. right? ya. that's what i say too.
but she will definitely be having that thing removed very soon. and i am sure she will be a happier dog for it.

ok ? -- oh , back to yesterday -- not that i ever left. anyhow. y'all know already i kill anything in the plant category right? well, you also know that i sit in my office a lot, and when i do, i look outside.. right outside is my flowerbed. it's the first thing i see. well lately- the overgrowth of it, has been driving me nuts... but i really wasn't sure what to do about it. so, i went out yesterday to feed the kitties... more on that comin in a sec too-- ugh--- anyhow-- when i went out, i saw the old lady that used to live here. when they sold us the house she moved in next door with her daughter and grand kids-- her husband moved in with his son--while their new house got built. anyhow-- i asked her, how did you take care of this overgrowth? would you believe that the lady stopped her own yard work-- and came over here, and started workin in MY flower bed. omg. i was embarrassed , and i tried , more than once to stop her. i kept saying, i just wanted some tips, i didn't mean for you to do the work. she kept saying she likes it, and didn't mind etc... it only took her ten minutes-- and the bed looked great! while she was doin that -- even usin electric hedge trimmers i might add -- i sat in the chairs with her little grand-daughter, who was simply adorable-- to keep her away from the hedgers etc, and occupied, etc so she wouldn't run off, or get hurt. i really enjoyed that. most of you have NO idea how long i have avoided young children.. and yesterday i enjoyed the company of a child. it was nice.

so. anyhow she was off just as quick as she came, and offered to help any time. their house will be finished the beginning of December tho-- by then everything in the yard will be dead. so i will just learn from her little lesson-- which i must say- was embarrassingly easy- and i could do that job on my ass if i had to. so i greatly appreciated her help. (and yes..... i feel weird having something like that done for 'free' - so later when i went to get my el cheapo "dog food tacos" from - well.. an un-named fast food place near by--- i got a gift card that would buy their family dinner-- some night-- and took it over later on.) she obviously chased me back to my yard-- trying not to accept it- saying she wanted to do it-- but she is old-er... and i could just see she was tired... so i thanked her again and told her to just take the night off-- she accepted it.... but not before she tore some viney things off the tree on the dividing fence between our yards. i could only help, and chuckle. i hope i have half her energy when i'm -- ummm... 60 sumthin?
anyhow-- obviously after cleaning-trimming the bed out there-- i had to rake and sweep etc.. so do i have to also say-- it didn't help my back for the rest of the day one bit? that's when i scratched the dog food off the list. ugh. right along with the duvet cover search. and a few other errands. whatever else i did, i did from home -- until--

soulkid called from the nurses office at school... i had to go get her early cuz she didn't feel good. bummer. but nuthin major. honestly, i just think she's been screwin around and stayin up too late. grrrrrrr.. cuz not three minutes after we got home? she was in MY bed--- not having to tackle the stairs... sleepin like a baby. she stayed that way for about two hours. was i jealous? you know it. i needed a nap myself--
'what about me? what about my needs?' :))

so. that was my yesterday. or at least enough of it to make you sick. sorry.

as for my today? i do have an appointment that is just too close to a few stores with duvet covers to talk myself out of goin. so i most definitely will be making that search today. i will update you on that endeavor on my return..or maybe in the morning.

ok-- can ya hang in for just a couple more boring things? no more complaining-- i promise.

1- follow this link to read about how mental real fisherman can get.
i've been keepin up on this story for a week or two. this guy 'allegedly' cheated in a fishing tournament recently -- at a texas lake. no cheap tourney either. the payout was thousands of dollars! a guide on lake fork said he had caught - a similar- fish with him, and took it 'home' to show a buddy. ehem. suuuuure. he showed his buddy on a string under the water at lake ray hubbard . hmmm. next? at weigh in... this guy would have won the tournament-- but when they put this fish in a tank-- usually they are released-- the fish was put in a tank-- and SANK! he couldn't swim, move or anything. (how many more fish has this guy KILLED this way- i wonder)
so anyhow-- now this guy is back peddling, and denying everything. but that day--- he apologized. he has a wife and a kid or two. they are all ruined.
think about the difference one - one pound weight-- in a five fish bag at weigh in would make in a tournament guys. and extra five pounds? in tourneys that pay out over 100.000 dollars? people want to beat this guy up! and worse.
anyhow to read more about the cheatin bastard - go here:

http://www.nbcdfw.com/news/local-beat/Something-is-Fishy-69002292.html


ok-- i will let y'all go -- even tho i have more to say. i wanted to tell you about the kitties. i have a funny tale to tell :)) but i'll have to save it. boy do i feel foolish -- luckily all 3 of us do on this one , it's not just ME this time :))

anyhow peeps , i hope you all have happy days in your worlds today-
another busy one for me here-

random monday mumbling

(you know you wanna be married to HIM -
his dream, ever since i've known him?
to be an underwear model!!-
not really - but that's "the pose")

BWA HAHAHAHAHA

howdy peeps -- welcome to mental monday. :))
aww it aint that bad.. yet. that just came to mind so i wrote it. not bad for a out of hand monday around here though-- i may tuck that one away for when i can actually use it for a title.

anyhow-- i don't even know where to begin this post. a lot has happened, a lot needs to happen, and a lot will happen. should i roll dice or sumthin to see what i write about first? hmmm... i'm so confused.

as you can see, i am a bit scatterbrained this morning. i don't know about the rest of y'all but i slept really crappy last night. i'm blaming the time change-- but i really don't know what the deal was. i swear i woke up every hour, sometimes twice an hour. no idea wth was up with that. but i can't like it! i finally got up at 6 -- which i gotta say was better than any of the other times i was ready to give in.

i sat in my office -- where i sit, faces the street -- i haven't been able to do that in literally years, and i love it like you just don't understand. i feel like i have been let out of prison or something, when i sit here, and can actually see what goes on in the world-- rather than my back yard! :))
so, i was sittin here , drinkin coffee , chain smokin as per my normal morning routine -- when i notice what i haven't seen in months --- the sun rise! ahhhhh. what a beautiful sight. i'm so happy the sun comes up on this side of the house where i will be able to watch it every day! (a sailors delight - right?)

so anyhow. next on my mind? i had some funky dreams last night. i don't remember much of them. it's odd that i remember them at all. the only reason i can think of that i do remember - is because i woke up so often. but yep -- i had some strange dreams. a few of them had a couple of 'you' in them. don't get weird on me. it was nuthin 'bad'.. and i won't name names.. but it was weird. and one of you was on Diego Garcia with me! weeeeeird.

(Diego Garcia)

so. anyhow-- next? well, ever since before we moved into this house, there has been some kitties livin here too. a mamma, and her litter of maybe five babies. when we moved in they were all still hangin around. they were soooo awful skinny-- skin and bone-- literally. we found a home for one of siamese- ish babies. in the mean time-- we have been giving the food and water every day. it was just so sad to see them starving. as time went on, the kitties kind of dwindled down, and i hope that's because people have adopted them. i just don't want to think the worst in that case.
but we do still have mamma kitty and one black kitty left that hang around-- or at least show up when they're hungry -- and we of course feed them.
well... y'all. - somethin bad is happenin. i know you know me- and i bet ya guessed already. ugh. i'm gettin attached !!!! i cannot let these cats into my house! i refuse!
i just paid a fortune to de-claw my own two. i cannot bring two-- or even one more cat into my house. i don't want to take them to the pound. i know they'll get put down. leavin them outside is breakin my heart. the mamma kitty tries harder and harder to slip inside when i go out to feed them -- surely due to the colder weather.
i'm so worried about them. in the cold i mean. i have known.. or even had cats climb into car engines on cold nights to stay warm -- then the car gets started and they are badly injured -- or worse.
do y'all really think i need to add these cats to my list of worries?
do me a favor-- if you live in or near the DFW area -- take these cats -- please? they're sweet - they need warm homes. :((


hmmm, what else? are ya ready for me to shut up yet?
OH! i know-- the comforter! it's ALIIIIVE!!!
yep-- soulman washed it yesterday-- and it survived. i would have washed it myself-- but you see, i have a terrible fear of F'N up. so i avoid that at all costs. :))
actually. he knows these new-fangled machines better than i do -- i'm more a shove the crap in and turn it on type of wash and dry gal. he actually sorts, and uses the settings , and all that kinda thing. so -- i gave him the reigns on this -- with the agreement that if it exploded, like we were told was a possibility-- that it would just be somethin we'd live with.
well, guess what? it is perfect again! stainless, clean, dry , fluffy, and put in the closet---awaiting a duvet cover! - which btw -- i searched all over town for yesterday.
ok -- i went to three stores looking for. tj maxx, ross and marshalls. sure , go ahead, call me miss big spender. even at ross they only had one - ugly one- that was RED in king size-- for 70.00. ummm, no thank you. we got to marshalls - they didn't have ANY. tj maxx had one in king size --- guess what--- it was WHITE! ummm... i think we've been through this before right? so yup we passed. so i am still on a mission for a duvet cover. and my blanket that i want ON my bed is NOT. are you wonderin what we're usin? maybe not. i'll tell ya anyhow -- a queen sized -- yes it is too small -- blanket that we fight over at night. uuuuggggghhhh.



wish me luck in my duvet cover search today. if i find the time-- i am once again-- or should i say as usual -- BEHIND , in bills, and everything else.

also-- Eevee goes to the vet this mornin to get her spay stitches removed, and we have decided to find out what the cost would be to have her tumor removed -- without testing etc... just lop the damn thing off. if it is affordable or we can make a few payments we are gonna have her breast tumor removed. the previous 'quote' was over 1200.00, and obviously -- we don't have that. but maybe to just have it removed? that could be do-able. let's hope so.

ok folks -- i've blabbed enough --- even though i could blab some more :)) i won't torture you.

i must get this party started anyhow---

so i bid you farewell -- and awesome days in your worlds today!
laterz peoples!