Re-Cap

hi y'all.  what do you feel like reading about today?  it'd be nice if this was in 'real time' and you could tell me that now --- because i have zero direction to go in on a topic.  all i know is that i feel like writing 'something' - and also - i don't want to let too much time pass without making a presence here.  that never works out well.  it only makes it easier to stay away ... to stay in my cave , and not reach out to y'all.
i am sure there are folks that i don't know who will stumble in here -- so just so ya know -- most of the time i will say y'all...and that is mainly directed to the  people who have been reading here since the inception of this blog.  but don't let that deter you from continuing on with 'us'... because all are welcomed here.
i plan to get back in the swing of really staying up with my writing here.  and in doing that, it might be an interesting read for anyone.  many different things happen in my world, just about any single person could find something relatable here.

allow me to introduce myself.....
i'm half a century old.  married almost half of that.  i have a wonderful daughter who is 22 years old, and pre- engaged to be married.  yup--- those who know us--- congratulations are in order.... we have a son in law to be ---and we much approve and welcome him into our soul-clan.  my hubs is a really great guy --.
we have lots of animals... not as many as we used to have -- due to a really crazy terrible day 3-4 years ago when two of our pets died on the very same day -- within hours of each other -- with two totally separate causes .  but for now --- we have three dogs and one cat -- here...and my girl has a dog and a cat at her place.  not long ago ALL these animals were living here.  there was another cat -- who refused to use the litter box who about a year ago we had to rehome.  but he is doing well and happy now that he is in a new home and the only pet.
recently i thought of getting myself another dog -- but that idea didn't last long.  all that took was our male to be a butthead to my girls dog when they came for a visit.
  yeh Tuco.  he is a character.  he is a National PSA champion dog -- but he also has an ego just as big.  him and Chewie (my dog--a service dog) -- seem to never get along.  they have sent each other to the vet for injuries and infections from their brawls.  so yeh, we just can't have another animal until or unless we have some land.  for now all we have is a neighborhood lot -- not big enough for a pack of dogs....no matter how well they are trained.  once they get hold of each other - it is near impossible to separate them.
speaking of 'separating'  :))  our girl..jessie, just returned home about an hour ago from a send-off to be impregnated.  did it take?  well, we don't know for sure yet -- her and the male prospect only 'tried' one time.  so- you will know when i know if we will have baby malinois runnin around and tumbling down the stairs.  that will be fun, but i also expect much stress along with a litter of pups.
what else?  married, daughter, almost son-in-law, lots of animals, a service dog, -- which obviously leads to the unspoken disabilities that i have--- -- yeh -- that's about it .  that's who i am - in a nutshell.  always subject to change -- because i do have 'aspiring author' on my resume as well.
stick around.  see what happens.  ya never know round here.

have happy days in your worlds -- i shall.

THE PRODIGAL DAUGHTER RETURNS

Hello, to all who enter here.  

Long time, no see, right?  well, it isn't for lack of trying.  this here blog has been nelected... moved.... changed... renamed.....relocated... and nothing good has come from that.    

I reckon all that -- running? -- was due to a lack of knowing who I was.  am.  was heading to be.  whatever.  but every time i tried to change-- or move-- or leave this blog--- Nothing. Ever. Worked.

Today-- I know why.  because -- THIS is where I should have stayed -- the whole time.   Not thinking that a new name--- or location -- for my words would be any better or different.  

i heard today -- "If you aren't growing, You're dying".  (Steven Furtick) ... that resonated with me , because anyone reading this who KNOWS me --- Knows that I don't DO much.  guess what --- not a lot of us do.  i let myself beome ashamed and isolated because I thought I had nothing to offer.  anyone -- but i had nothing left to offer You.  and that was difficult for me.  so much so that it wasn't long before i would stop writing altogether -- every time i Thought and Hoped that change would make everything all better.  it never did.  something was Always missing.  today I realized that what has been missing --- is THIS place.  This page.  This blog.  right here.

well.... 'bloom where you're planted' wasn't said for the wind to hear.  that is something my mother said a lot-- even tho she , nor her kids were ever planted anywhere long enough to bloom.  

but -- i digress.   i should have just stayed right here.  in these pages.  in this blog.  change is inevitable... and pain is optional.   raise your hand if you've heard that one before.   well, i would hit a time that i felt i couldn't write  --- wether that be writers block--- or trying to protect another 'souls' personal business.  i would get to where i thought it better for all that i just not even atempt to write.  that was always easy for me to tell myself.  and no matter how often i thought of you-- or how much i wanted to say something to you -- or to anyone --- i could always easily talk myself out of writing... here --- or another place .   i have suffered drastically for that.  for keeping all my thoughts inside my head.   i have lost a lot... and to know that, shows me that i have somehow cheated not only myself, but y'all.  in ways that i'm not sure i can explain.... but if you have felt it then you know exactly what i mean.

and that's all i have to say about that.

so.  here i am.  back at my roots.  where it all began.  where i met so many wonderful people.... where i found My Voice.  no more moving around.... no more hiding my head in the sand.  i am here, and here is where i belong.

mazal-toff!  (well, you get the idea)

happy Holidays to you --- 

Christmas is coming --- New Years follows --- time for change is now.  

i hope you all have happy days in your worlds ---- i will.

ttfn